CHAPTER 10
Jacob dropped me home the next morning at 8 o'clock. The thing that sucks about belonging to a vampire family is that no one is asleep when you sneak in the next day. I prepared myself for a bombardment of questions as I stepped through the front door. Only Rosalie greeted me.
"Where is everyone?"
"Alice is shopping with Jasper and everyone else is hunting. Now tell me what happened!!!" she squealed with delight taking me by the arm and leading me to the couch.
"What do you mean?" I asked nervously. How awkward! What am I meant to say... guess what Aunt Rosalie I had sex!
"Did anything happen?"
"Yes."
"How much?"
I gulped and looked around the room to plan my escape.
"Renesmee Cullen! You did it!"
I stood up quickly.
"Well it was lovely talking to you Aunt Rose but I think I should have a shower."
She just giggled.
I jogged up the stairs and stopped in my tracks. If I had remembered then Alexander would come back again, just as he had promised.
"Rose, why are Alice and Jasper shopping?"
"Oh I forgot you wouldn't know," she said from the kitchen, "They are redoing their marriage vows."
"But if they know that I have remembered..."
"Mmmm...?" she murmured.
"They'll cancel it won't they?"
"Oh sweety, Alice will understand! Once this whole crisis is over she can redo her vows."
"But it won't be the same. Tomorrow is their Anniversary. Rosalie you have to promise that you will tell no one that I remember!"
"Why?"
"Because if they think I have remembered they will hide me or something and I'm sick of every family event being ruined. I know I won't forget Jacob but they won't believe me."
"And what are you going to tell Jacob?"
"Sorry."
I raced back up the stairs to sleep but failed. Perhaps it would just be easier if we killed Alexander for once and for all but Grandpa would never agree to it. I was just sick of always having to watch my back. Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget. Those words were just as true now as they were in the beginning.
Did I regret last night?
No of course not.
I wished that Jacob didn't have a power over me like he did. I wished that to forget him wouldn't seem like the heart ache it is. How selfish I am though. Throughout this whole time he was the one hurting the most. To be forgotten by the one you love... I cannot imagine a worse pain, and yet every time I remembered him it would hurt him in the end.
I had told him and myself that after last I could not forget him because he was so essential to me, to who I was. If I forgot him then I would forget who I was because he was everything to me. I told myself I could not forget him again but a little voice inside my head whispered that I may be wrong.
And if I was?
If once more I forgot who he was? I could never forgive myself for the pain I would put him through. I would never voluntarily hurt in that way.
With a mind buzzing full of thoughts and a huge head ache I fell asleep.
J.
Alice disturbed my sleep with a phone call at 10 at night.
"Jacob!" she had squealed, "Jayyyy-cobbbb!" she said with a low voice over the phone in an attempt to wake me up.
"Hmmm? Yeah Alice?"
"Me and Jasper are renewing our vows tomorrow!"
"I'll send a card," I mumbled.
"Listen! You're invited to the ceremony! Nessie will be there! Maybe she'll remember you in a tux! Bye!"
The phone clicked.
Why would Nessie need to remember me? She already had... I didn't expect her to tell the family everything that had happened last night but shouldn't she have at least told them she knew who I was?
I would have to wait and see at the ceremony.
R.
It seemed like Deja Vu when once again I woke with Alice's face appearing over me with a full face of makeup.
"Now listen Nessie, the bride is allowed to be late! Not the bridesmaid!!!"
I blinked a few times and noticed her ivory dress and train that ran out of my room.
"Shoot!" I said hopping out of bed and nearly knocking her over, "Rosalie!" I called desperately.
"Yeah?" she appeared at the door in a silver dress, clearly one of the bridesmaids dresses.
"Help..." I mumbled.
She grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me out into the bathroom.
J.
White chairs where set out across the lawn I assumed for the ceremony so I took one, hoping that the procession would soon be over with. Edward, Emmett and Jasper wear standing near an arch draped with flowers. Carlisle and Esme wear seated next to me and I worried a bit to why Esme kept giving me sympathetic glances.
Suddenly Edward sat by the piano and began playing the wedding march and Bella walked down the aisle first, unusually not tripping as she would have if she were still human. Next was Rosalie and then it was Nessie. As she walked past I smiled but found she wasn't even looking my way.
The ceremony went so fast... I barely even noticed when Jasper and Alice walked down the aisle together. I was too preoccupied with Nessie. Why was she ignoring me all of a sudden?
As everyone walked inside I knew I should confront her.
"Nessie?" I called as we all stepped into the dining room.
"Listen Jacob, she will come around in her own time! You don't need to confront her every family event. She will remember you eventually," Edward said grabbing my arm.
The room went silent.
"She does remember?" I questioned. She turned around looking guilty.
"Nessie?" Edward questioned as well.
"Was it real?" I asked.
"Jacob..." she murmured.
"Was it real?" I said louder. She shuddered.
"Yes... but I can't do this anymore. I'm sick of going backwards and forwards... I have to keep telling myself that soon I have to give you up because no doubt he'll be around the corner ready to take you away from me again... I have to give you up again," she looked down at her feet and a single tear escaped down her cheek, "But last night, I couldn't."
Clapping echoed in the room as Alexander appeared behind her.
"I must say Renesmee, you do have a thing for words."
"Just take me if you're going to take me," she said.
"Really?"
"Yes. But they'll follow us."
"Don't you remember the riddle?"
"Go on say it. You love this part."
"The curse of three is upon me, yet it curses those who I will to overlook. Three strikes and you're out but still with a breath just that your mind will never forget."
"Great well we still have a clue what you are talking about so just take me."
He whistled over Jane, Caius, Marcus and Alec and they each took an arm. I tried to reach out but he stopped me.
"I'll see you in Italy. You have my word I won't touch her till then."