Oh boy, feels like forever since I last updated when it was like 3 weeks ago, before my holidays begun, well on Saturday my laptop got a virus and I didn't know, I shut it down and on Sunday when I opened it ,my laptop wouldn't let me into my profile, it was DEAD! Then on Monday my dad fixed it but it was on life support, now it's been discharged, thank god for that!
Anyways like promised my 60th reviewer gets a shout out , anyways I'm pretty sure all of you know her, thank you RoRo90 you were my 60th reviewer and to have you reading my story is just so exciting so thank you ,if you haven't already checkout her story's ,they are amazing!
I was in a rush so I didn't proof read it xxx
guest , yer I should know how to control myself with A/N but I cant help it lol
Emilykylieparker ,love your theory, I have a feeling you'll be shocked at what I have planned, it's a big twist that will not be revealed for a very long time… (he he)
I'm having Brax withdrawal symptoms
Bec xx
Everyone will someday lose everything they have ever loved or cared for. That's the truth of life itself ... But our grief is not simply about losing a loved one or facing our own mortality. Whether it's losing a job, a marriage, a dream, or our youth, we all have had our hearts broken. Each of has lost our innocence, and made mistakes, and done harm and been harmed along the way. We all have with our individual stories of the when, where, how, what, and who of our heartbreaks.. Each of our stories is tenderly unique and yet all of us have a story ... grief is the human condition; the tie that binds us all together
Charlies POV…
Ok,I definitely don't recommend sleeping on the cliffs, though somehow when im there I feel closer to Brax, even standing there I feel a sense of protection. I walked through the door and was greeted by a sight a least expected, my Dad turned around with a slight smile on his face, my eyes filled with tears and I ran towards him, he engulfed me in a hug.
"I'm so sorry sweetie, I should've been here for you" he whispered in my ear, my breathing was ragged
"you couldn't , I understand" I mumbled into his shoulder
"That's no excuse" he replied back, I began to cry heavily, dark tramlines made their way down my cheeks and I sobbed, my dad rubbed my back lightly like he did when I was little girl, knowing my dad was safe and alive bought me more comfort than ever. I don't know how but my knees buckled and I collapsed onto the floor taking my dad with me.
Ross POV…
When I got the phone call telling me Brax had passed was so upset that I couldn't be there for my little girl, now im angry at myself seeing my daughter in such a state kills me, I'm angry I couldn't be here for my daughter during the hardest time of her life. Out of nowhere she collapsed taking me with her, I felt her salty tears burning through my t-shirt. All I could do was comfort her and keep repeating 'it's going to be ok' though me myself didn't know if it was going to be ok.
"I can't do this daddy." She chocked out through her river of tears
"Yes you can sweetie".
3rd person Pov..
Four hours later…
In any other situation you wouldn't care if Charlie Braxton wasn't in her room, but in her current state you would be.
Heath knocked on her bedroom door and there was no answer, not that you'd be expecting one anyway. As always the room was locked, luckily for Heath he learnt how to pick a lock which he used as a benefit when it came to annoying Brax.
He walked into Charlie and Brax's room , and was shocked , it was clean , you imagine a hotel room when you first arrive, that is what the room looked like, it was as if she was expecting Brax to come home even though he couldn't, he wasn't aloud.
He walked over to her bed only to find an unsent letter to a one Grant bledcoe. Even though it wasn't for him to read and it probly wasn't right he had to ,out of worry and out of curiosity, Charlie didn't express her feelings with talking, most of the time she wrote her feelings in a story, and they were strong emotions, the letter written in black ink was smudged, but you could still make out the words written.
Dear Grant Evil Bledcoe,
You finally got what you wanted ,for me to suffer ? to feel pain? I have no idea what I've done when it was all you, but honestly I don't care…
Now I've lost the love of my life before our life together even begun, I didn't know this was possible but the hate I have for you has increased more than you can imagine.
I HATE YOU! I feel no pity for you, all I feel is hate and anger. Every time i see you I want to rip that smug smile off your face ,but I don't want to ruin my life for scum like you, though sadly you've bet me to that and already ruined my LIFE!
I hope one day we meet again and I can ruin your life and I wont do half the job ,I plan on KILLING you ,though I pray to god that someone finds you and kills you before i do!
Charlie…
Heath pov…
I would gladly send this letter to Grant but I couldn't for Charlies sake knowing that Grant would use this as a way to hurt Charlie more.
Charlie POV
Everyday seems to go by at an excruciating slow pace, each second feels like a day and every hour feels like I've spent days trying to climb to the top of Mount Everest only to fail and go back to square one, the beginning , the hospital room everything was a constant memory of what I couldn't have, what was taken from me.
By now I was already drunk, though I still felt my chest ache in pain , each breath I take I struggle, because every breath I take is another second without Brax.
Everyone who saw me passed me a sympathetic smile or said sorry and hoped that I was OK, how can I be Ok , I've lost the love of my life why cant people understand that?
I walked down the beach path, crumbling sand seeped into my sandals causing me to shake them out again. I was stopped by a bone chilling laughter, I knew exactly who it was, Joshua Bledcoe, EVIL, that's what that family is evil.
"Hello Lottie"
He cooed in a crazy tone, I wouldn't be surprised if that was his real tone , the family is crazy ,I know this first hand.
Something inside me snapped, only Brax called me Lottie, I don't know what but a bubble of rage that was just building up popped, I turned around and punched him square in the face causing him to stagger backwards not expecting it, once he gained his balance I punched him again causing him to lose all sorts of balance and fall onto his back, it felt good taking all my anger out on someone I hated the only problem was at this point more anger was building up, I didn't really care if I ended up with a murder charge…
I crawled over him and punched him repeatedly , each punch stronger than the other, I had both his and mine blood trickling down my knuckles , weird thing was he let me punch him , without me noticing he grabbed my top and pulled me up slamming me into the fence, my first instinct was to knee him, I lifted my knee up but he was clearly expecting it and pushed my knee own with full force causing m to yelp in pain.
3rd person pov
He pursed his lips and raised his hand back. He threw his hand forward as hard as he could, whipping it across her face. The crack of skin contacting skin echoed through the air. Vibrations of pain started in his palm and spread all the way to his fingertips. His palm was bright red, the same red mark that matched the one on her face. She stared at him with her eyes wide as her hand slowly made it to her fire red cheek.
She wasn't going to let him win, she shook off the stinging sensation burning through her skin ricocheting through her body, she fought back and punched him hard in the stomach.
Joshua POV
I saw it coming, but it caught me off guard. I felt a balled fist make contact with my muscle, watching it smash my entrails together like a rogue freight train. I felt blood vessels burst and my diaphragm collapse under the force the fist packed behind it. Oddly enough, the fist continued to thrust upward until my liver and stomach stopped her knuckles from clashing into my spine. My breath instantly left me for dead as I doubled over. My knees buckled from the force of the blow, and as I went down, I swear I heard a cracking noise ricochet between my ribs. Fire ran through every fiber of my abdomen, and I tasted bile, adrenaline and a hint of blood.
How did she do it? I was a fully grown man yet a 55kg girl can knock me out with a few punches, well more than a few. Someone must've seen us fight and call the police, 8 male officers came running towards us obviously they knew the strength of this girl because it took 6 of them to pull her off me.
My crumpled body hit the ground, I gasped for air, but oxygen eluded my grasp. My head was swimming as my organs regained their original volume: going from a pancake like mass to their original life-saving state. I somehow managed to roll over and vomit. I silently thanked a higher being that my stomach hadn't come up with the yellow, sticky substance and my dinner. Helpless as a newborn, injured and out of energy, I swear I saw the life pour out of me.
3rd person POV
2 hours later
Charlie got away with a split lip ,blood nose, bruises and a few stiches , whilst Joshua wasn't so lucky he had 3 broken ribs, lots of bruises, split lip ,blood nose, he somehow managed a fractured wrist and was having an operation to fix the slight internal bleeding. Though Charlie wasn't being charged because Joshua didn't want to press charges, If he did Charlie would've been charged with Assault occasioning actual bodily harm, GBH, assault and a few other bits and pieces though she was getting a $600 fine.
Charlie was standing at the front desk talking to Jack who would've called Heath , she was blind drunk and had clearly forgotten she'd just beat a guy to the point of internal bleeding .
"Jack" the voice of Heath banged through the doors of the police station, she gave a drunk smile and slurred,
"hay babe" it was then Heath noticed she was absolutely smashed to the point she was delusional, he wacked her over the head causing Charlie to wince in pain.
"You idiot" he exclaimed
"why am I the idiot ,it's the drink", she stupidly slurred and walked out, Heath gave Jack the six hundred dollars for the fine and followed Charlie out who was still trying to make her way around and find the car. two minutes into the drive and she'd already passed out.
Biancas POV
I watched my husband carry my best friend to her room. I shook my head at the bruised and drunken state she was in and tears began to mist with glistening tears, I couldn't imagine losing Heath and I hadn't really lost anyone close to me so I couldn't relate to her and tell her she would get out of this alive because none of us knew if she was. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt Heaths thumb wipe my tears away, I turned into his chest and cried ,my salty tears burned through his muscle tank and I let out all my emotions.
Heaths POV
I missed my family, the old days where we would get drunk for fun , not to numb the pain, where we'd play pranks and go camping or play truth or dare usually ending up in someone doing a nude run most of the time Charlie and Brax. The one question in my mind is how one man caused my family so much pain?
Charlie POV
I don't remember a thing that happened last night, I woke up to a banging headache and mouth tasted foul , though I'd kind of gotten used to it so now it didn't affect me as bad. I mean I can't say I'm never drinking again because I know that's never going to happen. My body ached in pain as I got out of bed and I had a horrible stomach cramp. Suddenly a wave of nausea overcame me, my hand imeadiantly flew to my mouth and I ran to the bathroom wishing that someone left the toilet seat up. Reality began to hit ,I wasn't throwing up because of the alcohol I drunk I was throwing up because of reality, reality was hitting and there was nothing I could do.
Once I stopped feeling like I needed to hurl I looked in the mirror and honestly I nearly screamed. When did this happen? I had a black eye, split lip, a dash on my nose and a big bruise on my cheek. JESUS.
When downstairs I made myself a very strong headache and took an aspirin ,I heard a gasp behind me so I turned around to see a shocked Ruby behind me.
"How'd I manage this?" I asked her but that's not what she was paying attention to ,I just prayed that I hadn't gained any weight.
"How much weight have you lost?" she asked me astonished, even I was confused ,I knew I was skinny but never this skinny. I left my coffee on the table and ran upstairs imeadiantly weighing myself ,im usually 55kg , yes im petite and yes im not unhealthy, why am i now 51kg? I'm supposed to gain weight not lose it, something was wrong but I didn't want to know what it was just in case I was told what I didn't want to hear, The truth…
Once in my bedroom I locked the door, my room gave me somewhere I could grieve without people telling me my way is wrong. I leant my forehead on the door an exhaled, all I wanted was to be back on the roof all those weeks ago lighting fireworks when me and Brax got our own house as a good luck. I turned around to sit on my bed but I was confronted by Brax causing me to jump.
"don't do that" I sneered
"do what?" he asked me confused , I cocked my head to the side like I would when I stated the obvious
"just turn up like that." I stated in a warning tone
"You never used to complain"
"Yeah ,I never USED to, I've changed Brax , im not the same girl I used to be" I put an emphasize on the word used , Brax exhaled deeply
"What happened to that girl?" he asked me , I shook my head and gave him a pointed look
"I have no idea ,but when you find out let me know." I know it was a lame attempt of a sarcastic reply but working on new comebacks wasn't on my priority's list.
"Lottie" he began but I stopped him, anyone calling me Lottie bought more pain than you could imagine.
"No do you really want to know what happened to that girl?" I asked him directly looking into his green eyes that pierced through me.
3rd person POV
He gave Charlie no reply so she continued on like she never stopped
"She lost her husband, she realized her life wasn't gonna get better, her thinking was all stereotypical" Charlie ended darkly but Brax, just shook his head
"You have a future Lottie ,one day you'll be happy , you'll get married maybe a few kids.." At those words charlie shook her head in dismay at his words, she didn't want to think like that
'No! do you think that low of me? That aint gonna happen, im not going to have more kids with someone who isn't you!" She imeadiantly knew where this conversation was going and she didn't want it to head that way
"Yeah Charlie how are you going to manage that?" he spat and nodded to her stomach, her eyes glazed over ,the last time he called her Charlie was when they broke up
"THIS WAS NEVER PART OF THE PLAN!" she snapped, pointing her hands at her stomach and glaring at him painfully, her eyes red and puffy and her voice breaking to pieces as she spoke, Brax nodded his head slightly
"You've been given a gift Lottie ,take it because you never know what could happen to take it all away." He hissed and she once again stared in his eyes, h was angry , charlie was mesmerized in the moment until she heard those words
"Is this some sort of hint?" she hissed but she never got an answer because Brax disappeared and she was left dumbfounded.
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Next day – standing on the beach
The blazing sun beats down on the smooth, weathered rocks of the cliff side. The crisp seaweed pushed onto the rocks by the waves, lay baking at the sea's edge, occasionally moving with the tide. The clear blue sea's waves rattle the tiny pebbles embedded in the golden sand. The foam from the waves cover a small child's forgotten sandcastle, bringing it down with a dull crash. The high tide pushes back the crowd of people to the beach's edge. The gulls, happy with their find, soar above the crowd, and land in the sea to enjoy their lunch. Shoals of colorful fish dart around beneath them, frightened by the intrusion. They swim off to the boats and ships bobbing on the horizon, where the sea and the sky merge into one clear sheet of blue.
She stood on the beach thinking, the weather was warm an everyone was out with family's enjoying the autumn heat. Someone called her name from behind ,she turned around to see Martha walking upto her.
"Thought you'd be surfing" she commented and stood next to her
"Not too keen on surfing today." Was her reply
"What happened last night?" she asked her and Charlie began to get agitated,
"Look I'm not stupid, I know Ruby or Bianca sent you to check on me" Charlie snapped
"They didn't" she replied coolly
"Your one of my best friends, I know when your lying" she commented ,this conversation was beginning to get awkward
"Fine they did, but they only want to know if your OK" She admitted and Charlie began to walk away, she ran after her and tugged against her arm causing Charlie to turn around,
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA MARTHA! Everyday is a fighting battle, in the morning you wake up and the first thing you do is turn over and expect your other half to be there , when you think of them you smile and you get a bubbly feeling in your stomach thinking you get another day with your love, but then your hand falls onto the bed, the other side of your bed is cold and hasn't been slept in, not a living soul, your heart sinks as you begin to remember their gone, You get so angry when people say they know what you're going through , when they have no idea , BRAX WAS MURDERED!" she half hissed and half yelled tears springing to her eyes ,pain laced through her voice. She began to walk away.
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Charlies POV
Bianca had invited the Clan over for dinner, not that I minded, though everyone was probly wondering what caused my personality relapse.
We sat in silence as we ate, every once in a while people would glance at me surprised that I was eating, honestly I was forcing it down but I had to let people know i was OK so they would leave me alone and let me grieve.
"Who wants Vodka?" I asked the table an went an got the shot cups from the kitchen,
"Yer Ok" Heath said reluctantly
"Me too" Hayley answred
"Me three" Drew added and everyone looked at the trio
"And the wolf blew the house down with a huff and a puff and if all fell down." I commented and everyone chuckled
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3rd person POV
Bianca and Noah were the only people decent , most were sober and Charlie and Heath were well on their way to being drunk.
"Lets put the radio on" Charlie suggested through her fits of laughter an walked to the radio
"OOooo I love this song" she giggled , Drew nodded to Bianca who had the remote to the radio an Brax and Charlies wedding song came on causing Charlie to stop and look at Bianca, her face crumbled and anger consumed her, she flung the bottle of vodka causing it to smash onto the wall and everyone winced,
"CHANGE IT!" Charlie yelled
"CHANGE IT!" she once again yelled but Bianca didn't change it so she ran forward and attempted to grab the remote, Drew moved forward and stabbed the syringe into Charlies arm, Noah moved forward and caught her as her body went limp engulfing her in his arms.
"Why'd you do that?" Casey asked
"Because if I hadn't she'd collapse and end up in hospital with alcohol poisoning" he informed them and followed Noah into Charlies room.
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10 minutes passed and drew walked out carrying a large tub full of empty bottles and cans,
"Whats that?" Emma asked
"Its all the alcohol Charlies had ,she wouldn't chuck it out because we'd find it, she's gone off the rails, something's not right" Drew finished
How was that chapter?
An update for irreversible is coming, Drew is a doctor, but isn't doctor like if you get my drift…
I know that chapter was abit deep and so is the next 2 but hopefully I can soon fix that…
Anyways plz review
Bec xxx