It had been a week, and Jenna had effectively avoided talking to MacGyver unless she absolutely had to. He'd tried almost everything he could think of to get her to talk shy of holding her down and forcing her…and he had to admit his patience was wearing a bit thin. She'd locked him out of her room at night, and he'd had to listen to her screams as she continued to wake from nightmares. He'd taken to sleeping with his bedroom door open in case she'd let him in. So far, no go…his heart was shredded listening to her cry and it was hard to swallow not being able to do anything about it.

It was two nights later that he had a breakthrough. MacGyver woke around two in the morning to Jenna's screams…he bolted from the bed and stumbled for the hall only to find Jenna standing, shaking from head to toe outside her own room. He came to a halt and watched her in silence for a second, he finally said her name and watched as her eyes found his face.

"It's ok…" He said softly and watched her shake her head fast as the fog she'd been in lifted somewhat. He saw the look on her face change as she suddenly ran toward him, throwing her arms around him as she clung to him shaking like a leaf. "Shhhh…I'm here, it's gonna be okay Jenna…no one's gonna hurt you again…I promise." He whispered into her hair as he folded her close.

A few moments later and Jenna was still shaking although her tears had slowed somewhat. MacGyver tried to step away from her and felt her arms tighten around him as she whimpered softly. Mac bent and swept Jenna up in his arms as he turned and carried her back into his own room. He deposited her on his bed and kissed the top of her head as she let go of him. He grabbed the covers and slid them over her before he rounded the bed and crawled in beside her. He watched in fascination as she moved to close the small space between them effectively tucking herself in against him. Mac wrapped his arms around her and brushed a kiss across her forehead. "You know when I was little and had nightmares my mom used to fix me a cup of hot cocoa and talk to me until I fell asleep again…I can make some cocoa if you want." He said softly. He had to fight a small smile as he felt her shake her head, her hold tightening on him. He sighed, "So, no cocoa…what could I talk to you about…he sighed, "My last assignment maybe…you know it didn't go as smoothly as I'd hoped…" Mac didn't get to continue as he finally heard Jenna speak.

"Mac?"

"What baby?"

"I'm sorry…" she whispered around a small shiver.

He rubbed his hands along her arms and back, "For what?" He asked.

"For yelling at you and treating you badly…I just…I feel like I'm falling apart and I don't know what to do…" She started to cry again.

Mac closed his eyes as he pressed another kiss to the top of her head and inhaled slowly. "It's okay, you're going to be okay…I swear to God Jenna I'm not going to let anything happen to you…you will get a hold I promise…it's just gonna take time." He told her softly, "Will you tell me whatever you can about it? I swear to you if you get some of what happened out…it will help Jenna…you can't cope with it by yourself…together we can at least work through it." He heard her sniffle as he pressed another kiss to her forehead and ran a gentle hand through her hair. It was almost two full minutes before she answered and it was so long Mac almost thought she'd fallen back to sleep.

"I…I don't know where to start." Jenna admitted.

"At the beginning is always a good place…" He told her quietly as he continued to run his fingers through her hair. He'd noticed that she'd stopped shaking and that her breathing had slowed and was even again. He felt her shift slightly as she moved her head from his chest to along his shoulder and just under his chin. He had to admit she felt good pressed so close and if he stayed quiet long enough maybe he'd finally get to hear exactly what had happened to her.

Jenna sighed softly closing her eyes tightly a moment trying to gather her thoughts before she began to explain what had happened to she and Matt. She could only think of one place to start, after she'd run from MacGyver. She breathed out slowly, "Matt threatened to find you when he found out I'd…" She swallowed, "After I left…he said that he was going to tell you where I was and that I was stupid for not staying. He knew I'd asked Adam for a new assignment and he was trying desperately to find a way to blackmail Adam into making me stay but there was a case that Adam knew he wanted me to take. Matt agreed to come along so they set it up to make us look like a married couple…the fighting wasn't hard we did it naturally." She felt Mac chuckle and she found herself laughing softly before she found herself fighting not to cry as she remembered Matt's antics. She sobbed once and felt Mac sober as he tightened his hold on her. "Shhh, it's okay…" He told her quietly, "Matt would want you to think of the good stuff Jenna, that's the stuff you have to hold onto."

Jenna nodded and took another deep breath before she started again, "There had been a string of high end jewel thefts scattered from the Caribbean to eastern Europe. We had a few good, solid leads, we started in the Islands and actually made contact with some of the people involved." Jenna sucked in another deep breath and finally pulled away from MacGyver, she sat up and pulled the covers up as she leaned back against the headboard. She watched as Mac did the same reaching to take one of her hands in his own. She shivered lightly as he ran his fingers lightly across hers. She was silent a moment as she studied her smaller fingers intertwined with his longer, stronger ones…and found herself thinking she liked the way they looked together. Jenna shivered again and watched as Mac slid closer to her. "They invited Matt and I to come with them to Greece where they had a yacht, we accepted the invitation knowing they could lead us to someone bigger. But still making sure that Adam knew where we were, Matt was convinced that everything was still okay, that our cover was still tight…I thought he was right…but when we got to the plane, we had some drinks…they'd been drugged…when we both woke up it was in a cell in some underground compound. They had figured out who we were and they wanted a list of all the undercover agents we knew or they'd make sure our bosses found us face up in the ocean." Jenna shivered…"Mac, I don't think I can do this…" She said shaking her head…"I just..I don't want to think about what came next." She admitted.

Mac leaned over and kissed the side of her head lightly, "The problem is Macleod…that while you may not want to talk about it, or think about it your subconscious is fighting to deal with it, that's where the nightmares are coming from…if you talk about it…the nightmares might subside, you can get some sleep…"

Jenna knew he was right, she knew that talking some of what had happened through might help her cope…but she also knew that reliving what those people had done to her was dangerous ground. She must have been quiet long enough that Mac thought he'd lost her because she heard him say her name softly as he pushed her hair aside, his eyes studying her face. She blinked, a lone tear sliding down her cheek…"When I woke up, I found that they had stripped Matt and I down…I was so cold. I realized later that they'd done it because…" She sucked in a quick shuddering breath, "…because it was easier to reach as much skin as possible." She told him, her voice shaking. She sobbed once, her eyes closing and a very vivid picture of that cell swimming into focus in her head. She felt MacGyver pull her close and she leaned her head against his chest. Just being close to him helped somewhat, she sucked in a shaky breath, "They started with Matt…when they brought him back the first time he had a black eye, his lip was bleeding and so was his chest where they'd cut him." She shook her head and covered her face with her hands, "It was the same for me…I actually laughed in that girls face…she made it harder for me after that…I think I had the first set of broken ribs." She told him. She opened her eyes and looked at MacGyver…the look on his face made her stop, he was close to tears himself it seemed as he watched her, his hands never leaving her as he ran his hands through her hair. "The cuts and the broken ribs were only the start of it…they…" She swallowed, "They whipped us until we blacked out, when they got bored with that they started to…to cut us." She said on a whisper. "There was one man…he liked to…to touch…" She said with a hard shiver as she buried her head against MacGyver. "Please…I can't…I just…can't." She told him crying softly.

"Enough for now Jenna…it's okay…" Mac soothed quietly. He'd been unable to find words to help her as she'd spoken. His heart ached as he'd listened, he'd never believed in violence of any kind but he was having a hard time handling what those thieves had done to the woman in his arms. MacGyver rocked Jenna until he felt her body relax against his. He felt her breathing even out, her crying had stopped and she lay against him, her eyes closing slowly. He kissed her forehead, "Jenna…" He said her name and heard her murmur, very slowly he leaned back into the pillows bringing her down along with him. Mac watched as she sighed softly and curled against him. He finally let sleep slide over him as well.

Over the next few days, slowly Jenna opened up more. Mac got bits and pieces of what had happened to her and Matt. One night Jenna even got brave enough to slide the back of her shirt up and show him the scars that laced her back. He had touched his fingers to them slowly, angry tears jumping forward faster then he could control them. She'd caught the look on his face and thought for a moment that he'd been disgusted by them. He'd quickly proven with a slow kiss that he was far from disgusted, but that he loved her no matter what. She'd allowed him to stay with her during the nights and his presence seemed to help keep the nightmares at bay or if not they seemed less intense then they had been and he was there to help talk her down.

Mac had decided on a dinner and some friendly faces to help Jenna get used to being around others again. His call to Jack Dalton only days after he'd initially arrived had come in handy as his friend had agreed to shuttle everyone up to the mountains. Mac knew that one person he really wanted Jenna to see was Matt's wife Kim. Kim had readily agreed to come and knew that Jenna had no idea she'd be there. Mac had broached the topic of company and a meal carefully and had gotten reluctance on Jenna's part. He'd finally talked her into it and was busy setting the table when he heard her come back in from a walk. He saw her glance at the table as she headed upstairs to start getting ready. She stopped at the banister and stared at the settings. "Mac...I thought you said there'd only be four of us...you've set it for five...am I missing someone?" She asked watching him as he moved around the kitchen.

"Yeah...Jack asked to bring a friend...I figured you wouldn't mind." he said quietly concentrating on the pots and dishes in front of him. He felt the weight of Jenna's stare before he heard her sigh as she turned and went upstairs. He breathed a sigh of relief and kept moving. He heard the shower kick on and glanced at his watch...Jack Dalton and the others would be arriving shortly. He checked the chicken and glanced at the table...everything was in place now he just had to pray Jenna wouldn't bolt back upstairs and lock herself in when she saw Kim. It was only ten minutes later that there was a knock at the door and he opened it with a grin as Jack Dalton stood in front of him, "Amigo!" Mac chuckled, "Jack..." He let Jack pass him and found Pete Thorton standing in front of him, "Hey Pete..."

"MacGyver, I'd like to introduce you to Kim Walsh...Matt's wife, Kim this is MacGyver." Pete introduced the petite brunette standing beside him. Mac gave the woman a smile but it slipped somewhat as she moved forward into the light and he spotted the fact that she was several months pregnant. "Kim...it's wonderful to meet you...please come in." Mac said holding the door open for them. He exchanged a look with Pete as he passed him by, it clearly showed his shock at Kim's condition. Pete gave a small nod.

"It's wonderful to finally meet you MacGyver...Matt spoke of you often...he liked you very much."

Mac smiled at Kim as he took her jacket from her, "The feeling was mutual...your husband was a good man." Mac cleared his throat, "Kim, before Jenna comes down...you know she's unaware I've invited you...I'm wondering is she aware..." he didn't get to finish as Kim shook her head.

"No...she's not aware that I'm pregnant...neither was my husband." Kim said quietly. "It's almost as if it was a blessing from God...something to help me through the pain." She said quietly, her hand straying to her rounded belly.

Mac sighed, "I'm so sorry for your loss..." Mac's voice trailed off as he heard a door from above open as he stepped in front of Kim's smaller form. He spotted Jenna moving along the railing as she tied up her hair. "Hey...company's here." he said with a smile carefully guiding Kim backwards behind him as Jenna moved down the stairs.

Jenna spotted Jack first and gave him a wide smile, "Hey Jack..." she said softly as she came off the landing and was swept into his best friend's embrace.

"Hey kiddo...how ya doin?" Jack asked hugging her tight. "We've missed you." he told her setting her down so she could give Pete a hug.

Mac watched Jenna smile and nod at Jack as she hugged Pete, "I've missed you all too...I thought you were bringing someone with you?" She asked as Pete let her go. It was then that Kim stepped around MacGyver.

"Hi Jenna..." Kim said quietly as she moved toward the other woman.

MacGyver watched Jenna's face, the shock that registered and then the tears as she sobbed once her eyes falling to Kim's overextended belly.

"Kim? Oh God...No...oh Kim...I'm sor...sorry..." Jenna got out her body shaking as she stared at the other woman.

MacGyver had to give Kim Walsh a lot of credit as she approached Jenna slowly like you would a frightened animal. She pulled Jenna's quaking form into her embrace and crooned to her like she was a small child. Mac touched Pete's arm and motioned for he and Jack to follow him back into the kitchen.

"Jenna…I want you to listen to me, I don't know where you got the idea I'm angry with you or that I'd ever be able to hate you…I miss you." Kim whispered, her voice clearly showing her emotion. "I lost Matt…and I lost his best friend and mine at the same time…why would you think I wouldn't want to see you? Huh?" Kim asked quietly.

"Because…I'm alive and he isn't…my fault…it's my fault." Jenna sobbed softly.

Kim sighed as she let go of Jenna and led her slowly toward the couch sitting down beside her. "Jenna, he was protecting someone he considered family…he always said you were like his sister…if the shoe had been on the other foot…would you have pushed him out of the way, would you have protected him?"

Jenna nodded, "Yes…"

'"He loved you Macleod…he would want to see you thrive…not wither away. Look at me…" Kim said to her.

Jenna raised her eyes to meet Kim's gaze, "He would also want you to be with MacGyver…he told me all of it Jenna, before you both left…he told me you were running…don't. Do you love him?" Kim asked quietly.

Jenna nodded, "Kim…there's so much you don't know…" Jenna said softly.

Kim sucked in a deep breath, "You don't remember do you?" she asked.

"Remember what?"

"I saw you Jenna; I was there in the hospital when they brought you back. I know what they did to you both…know how bad…" Kim shook her head slowly, "Jenna…they wouldn't let me see him…" She said her tears sliding down her cheeks.

Jenna pulled her into a hug, "I'm sorry Kim…I'm so sorry."

The two women leaned on each other for a few moments in silence sharing their pain and loss. Kim pulled away first. "I want you to be part of this baby's life Jenna, I need you there more then you know…please...don't pull away from your friends…we miss you, need you." Kim told her. "And you have the opportunity to have something I had with Matt…real love…don't walk away from MacGyver…let him be there for you." Kim said, it was a second before she grabbed Jenna's hand and put it on her stomach. "Wait…here…no…here.!" She said pulling Jenna's hand further over to the side of her belly. Kim laughed as she felt the second kick and looked up to Jenna's face and caught the girls tears. "It's okay Jenna…this is what's been getting me through…this is what Matt left for me…a miracle."

Jenna smiled slowly through her tears. "That's my partner…always full of surprises." Jenna murmured as she felt another kick.

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