Lost in your heart {Music inspired by this chapter; How to save a life}

That word. It brought Dean to a stop, a quick stop at that. The car jolted to a sudden stop as he stared straight ahead. Love. That was one big word to be thrown around. ''Hal-'' Dean opened his mouth but was soon cut off by Haley's hand on his shoulder. ''I love you.'' she emphasised. Dean wanted to say it. He did, but after everything he didn't know if he could say it 'right' now. ''Haley, you chose sam,'' Dean whispered. Haley felt the pang in her heart as she let out a rigid breath. ''I-wha'' Haley couldn't quite speak. Dean turned on his seat to look at her. Watching the pain spread across his face he looked down, ''Haley, you know how I feel – but after everything..'' Dean sighed letting out a long breath. ''I just can't say it Right now,'' Dean nodded as he told her. Haley then understood a little better. He loved her. Just give him time, she told her self. Time was all he needed and that was what she was going to give him. Time. Haley turned from him, grabbing her bag she searched through when she threw the bag on the floor. Time? Why? ''THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU COME,'' Haley yelled at him, as tears fell down her cheeks. She gave him the satisfaction of having her tears. As the flew down her cheeks. ''Why,'' she cried, looking around ''Because I could of stayed there Dean,'' Haley closed her eyes. Had he just wanted to ruin her life? If so, he'd done a pretty good job of it. She was homeless. Pregnant. Had no money and no one to turn to. ''I said it one month ago,'' Dean spoke, remembering. He looked over to her, ''I meant it, I still mean it – I just need time. You chose him.'' He finished. Haley turned from him shaking her head, ''If you can't say it then you can't have me dean.'' she whispered. As soon as she'd said it, she'd regretted it. But before she could say anything he answered back. ''Then you'll have to wait just for now,'' Dean answered – with everything that had happened he actually wanted to cry. But not in front of her. no. he would not look week. That was over. Always over. Haley looked from the corner of her eye – ''What were we thinking Dean?'' she asked him looking around. Dean frowned, ''What?'' he asked – wondering what the hell she was talking about. ''I mean, we knew we couldn't be together,'' Haley explained feeling the sadness cloud her as she spoke, ''We knew what would happen with Lucifer and with what he said he'd do – we act as if nothing would happen,'' she paused for a breath before she finished with her final words, ''we were acting childish. There can never be an us,''

The car soon found a road, and they were on the way to a motel – but there car ride was rode in silence. Not a word was spoken, nothing. They spent there time exchanging glances of hurt expressions. Broken hearts. And lost loves. Dean loved Haley. Haley loved Dean. But they both knew there was nothing they could do about it now. Because it might all just be over. In the blink of an eye.. Dean sighed a long deep heavy breath as he pushed his back into the car seat, feeling comfortable for a second. He wished his life was more Comfortable. More easy going – where his family (Haley,Himself and the baby) would just be happy. In a normal house. Having a family dinner. But that would never happen. It could never happen. Because no matter how hard they tried. The books were written stating they could never be together; what were these books? These books told what would happen in the future. And it stated 'as Lucifer had read to them' if they ended up together. It would cause the apocalypse. And Dean knew that it had already started because of the night after Vegas. That was on small detail that Dean had kept from Haley and a reason that he had gone to Haley's that night. He'd had every intention of Sammy finding out. Because he needed to get to get away from Sammy. Soon enough, he would be a full-vessel. And Ruby knew that. Ruby loved Sam. Sam had always had a thing for Ruby. Then Haley came a long. That was one of the reasons Ruby didn't like Haley very much. Dean snook a look at Haley. He knew he shouldn't. But he needed another image of her in his head. Not one when she was crying. Dean once again let out a long sigh, as his eyes closed for a second before his eyes were on the road again.

Haley kept her mind on everything other than Dean and Sammy. Things like Quinn and how everything was with her and Clay. And her best friend Brooke. Who she hadn't seen in around three years. She missed being able to do things like she had when she'd been in High school. Go out, and hang around and have no worries – parents had always said, don't wish your life away. Haley, being grounded hadn't really done that. She'd been seventeen when she lost her virginity and she'd been with the guy through all of high school. Her final grades had been A* all through. And her life had been pretty great. Then after that, she'd met Dean and Sam. And she guessed this was it. Life. She'd never wanted it t turn out this way. Never wanted it to be totally and utterly crap. Where she had to lie to the people she loved. She'd seen things most people would have died seeing. Ghosts,spirits and demons. And she'd met the devil in person. That was like a normal girls life? no. But Haley had to admit. Her life had been great before everything. She'd had Sammy. A nice house and a great life. But the baby problems had caused the downfall of her relationship and also the other problem...she looked over to Dean and sighed. Yes the other problem was Dean.

After around six hours worth of driving, the sun soon began to rise. Haley pushed herself up from her slumped position in the chair and looked at the sun rise, ''wow that's beautiful,'' Haley whispered, as Dean's eyes followed her gaze to look on what was ahead. Dean and Haley had swapped driving position's when Dean's eyes had started to drop. He'd said she wasn't allowed to drive, and parked up to sleep. By the time he woke up she'd been driving and Baby had been in one piece. So he let her carry on, letting his eyes close. But after Haley had whispered Beautiful he looked at it. And the surroundings sure were beautiful.

''I stayed up in Illinois the once, and it was amazing there.'' Dean explained to Haley. Haley looked over to him and smiled. That was the first genuine smile he'd seen in a long time from her. ''I love this kind of thing.'' she replied. Dean nodded, before curling back onto his side and letting his eyes fall slowly to sleep again. He thought and thought till his mind clouded over and sleep once again took him.

Haley let Dean sleep as she watched the road disappeared under the car. Haley smiled as she watched what they called the 'No-man land' beside her. It was were no one lived. It was dirt that seemed to go on for miles. No one bothered to take residence because of the sweltering heat and also because it was far away from shopping places and schools. Haley wondered if it'd always be like this. A no-man land. Where no one would every really love too be. Sometimes Haley felt like that. As if no one would ever really love her back. She'd be like a piece of land, that people smiled at and noticed for that split second they were there and then it would be forgotten. Because there was some place better to be. A place bigger. Like the city.

That's when the light's started to appear far ahead, Haley looked back at the sleeping Dean. Wake him? Or leave him? She smirked as she left him to Dream; hoping somewhere in his dream she was there. She just hoped. Haley had both her hands on the steering wheel as she pulled up in what looked like an empty gas station. She could still see the light's ahead, but she wanted gas before – as it would be more expensive in the city. And really her and Dean had only a little bit left from the last time Dean had pulled a bank credit fraud. He needed to do one right now, otherwise they'd be sleeping outside. But Dean always had a plan. Some how or another. And that was one thing she knew. Dean always had a plan. Whether It worked or not. He had one.

Dean could feel Haley, she was thinking. He had that with her. She could always understand how he was feeling as he could with her. It was weird but amazing at the same time. He guessed that was one part of loving someone. Knowing and feeling them all the time. Mind and body. Heart and soul. Dean wished with all his heart that he could set her free. Let her be like a bird, so she could fly away. Forget her problems. Go where she pleased, when she pleased. But Dean knew he couldn't, because no matter what happened. Everything that happened in their life had already been planned. They just didn't know the full out-come.

Haley always expected him to have a plan. So he always had one. No matter how crap it was. He'd make one. Just to make her feel safer. They didn't always work. And sometimes they were damn-right stupid. But it got them through the day. They might be fighting right now, but they both knew deep down they'd be back to normal sooner or later...it was just what they did. It was just what they were like. It was them.

Haley could feel Dean was no longer asleep. But she'd leave him, he hadn't had time to think in god knows how long. As he seemed to close him self off from people usually. But he seemed to be pondering to himself. Haley looked around, as soon building's were either side of her. She was leaving the 'No-Man's Land' and entering the place she'd always wanted to be. Manhattan. The upper east side. Haley's eyes followed the beautiful scape's of the building's and the well-dressed upper east side girls. How she wished she could of lived here. Haley then looked over her shoulder for a split second, ''Dean, time to get up,'' she cooed. As she watched him stir. He was awake. Haley went back to driving as she turned a street corner -

Everything had been getting better till now.

As the car turned a corner, the sound of the long car horn sounded out around them – Haley looking to her side saw the car hurdling towards her. Her breath was chocked for a second before she felt the car turning in the air. The clash shattered around them as she felt her body smack against anything and everything.

Then there was nothing. All she could feel was pain. She couldn't hear anything. Was she dead? Because she was sure this wasn't written in the books. Or was this the beginning of the apocalypse. Well, they'd find out.