Characters belongs to Stephenie Meyer. This is just a fanmade story by me.

Alice was driving my Volvo to school now as I couldn't really concentrate on anything anymore. It'd been three days since we'd gotten back and today was definitely going to be a challenge for me as I'd see Bella again. A part of me longed to see her, and the other part felt like going into hiding was the preferable choice. Alice parked my car in our usual spot and we got out. When the two of us reached the shelter of the cafeteria-roof, my sister patted my shoulder and told me: "See you at lunch!" in her wind chime-like voice. She walked away and left me there alone. I wanted to run away badly, but I knew I had to pull myself together and take the bull by its horns.

I went to all my classes like the good student I was and when the bell rang for lunch I was the first one out of the classroom. It didn't surprise me that Alice was right outside, waiting for me. We didn't say anything to each other, just turned ourselves around and began to walk beside each other over to the cafeteria. We bought our food and later went to sit at our usual table. I picked a little in my food for something to do. It was Alice who broke the silence. "Edward, we would all understand if you didn't go to Biology today.." I looked up at her, raising one eyebrow. "Why wouldn't I go to class now?" I asked flatly. She rolled her eyes at me. "I'm serious, Edward." "And so am I." I retorted. Our topaz eyes locked each other's gaze. She gave up after about 10 minutes. "Fine.." she sighed, shaking her little head a bit. It's not my problem if you love being a masochist..

I sighed, looking down at the table. "And how could you possibly begin to understand how I feel anyway?" I asked, breaking another uncomfortable silence. I was looking directly at her now. "Have you ever lost the one you were convinced you were meant to be with? I think not." It came out just as harsh as I'd intended it to be. She frowned, unwillingly agreeing with me. I stood up, taking my tray with me as I went to throw the untouched food out, then I left the cafeteria. Alice didn't follow.

Slowly I entered the classroom, feeling rather anxious about what would happen this upcoming hour of Biology. Not many people had come yet, not her anyway. I went to take my seat. After a few minutes I heard a familiar voice approaching. Mike Newton. I could tell Bella was with him as she came and went in his thoughts every now and then. They came in, both smiling, and approached my table. I turned my head the opposite direction as I heard the chair next to me being scraped against the floor. "Well.. we got to do that sometime. It'll be fun!" I heard Bella tell him. I wondered what she was talking about. "Definitely," he agreed, not even thinking about whatever event she referred to. I actually feel sorry for him.. Never thought I would do that, but I really do.. Man, getting dumped like that. I guess he deserve it, but still.. Wow.. and now she's together with that Jake guy.. tough break, Edward, I'll say..

Mike's thoughts caught me off guard. They were unusually friendly towards me. He usually thought about strangling me or something along those lines.

As Mr Banner came into the room Mike scurried off to his table, still not thinking about whatever event they were going to do with each other. Damn, that was frustrating! Noo.. A sudden thought struck me. Was she two-timing the werewolf? No, Bella wasn't like that, was she? I felt sad for even thinking like that about her. But if she was.. had she been cheating on me behind my back, too? I wanted to cry, to get it out of my system, but as I was what I was I couldn't. The stupid tears were instead flowing on the inside, drowning me with even more sadness. Oh, how I envied all the humans in this room now!

I watched her out of the corner of my eye, she had her head bowed down. I couldn't see her face as her long brown hair was like a barrier between us. I wanted to reach my hand out and put it behind her ear just so I could see her angel-like face. But I couldn't. She didn't belong to me anymore. I could feel my unbeating heart shatter once again. I guessed she could feel my gaze on her because she moved a bit as if she was uncomfortable. Why? Well, there certainly was a lot of tension between us now. No doubt about that. I suddenly wondered if she wanted me gone. Maybe it would be better for the both of us. But could I leave again? Even if she wasn't mine? I didn't think so. I had to do something though. But what? I bit my lip.

I snapped out of my reverie as Mr Banner asked Bella a question and she answered him. The hair was gone from her face now and I could see her perfect features. She looked a bit torn somehow though. How come? Was she having second thoughts? No. I wouldn't allow myself to think anything like that. I'd get my hopes up, and it would propably end with them being in vain. Her special shield that kept me from her thoughts were seriously beginning to kill me now. I needed to know what she was thinking! But if I knew that she didn't have any feelings for me.. could I take that? Well, it was better to know then be walking around in the unknown, right? I could at least wrap my head around it, and eventually, hopefully, I could accept it. Accept that she would no longer be mine.

She continued to switch around in her seat, obviously feeling uncomfortable, and I continued to watch her, looking for some sort of signs to what she was thinking. Of course it didn't go very well. If I could just look into her milk chocolate eyes, which were so easy to read, then maybe I'd get the answers I needed. I wanted to make her turn her head so she faced me, and as if my wish had been heard, she turned her head towards me for a second. That was completely useless because her face displayed so many different feelings. Anger, regret, sadness, happiness – all mixed together. I couldn't make any sense of them. What was she angry about? What did she regret? Why was she sad? And especially, where did the happiness come from? I had absolutely no idea. She turned away just as fast as she'd turned to look at me. I could no longer ignore her because I had to ask her. I just had to. "Bella?"

Class was now over and there were just a few students left in the room, including Bella. She was currently picking her books up and as I spoke she froze slightly. "Yes?" she asked warily, not bothering to look up at me. "I have to ask you something.." I murmured. "What?" she said, raising an eyebrow as if she was suspicious to whatever I might say. "Are you happy?" I was anxiously waiting for her answer. After a few seconds, which were driving me insane, she answered. "Yes." She didn't saying anything more, she just turned and left the room. I stared after her, feeling utterly let-down.

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