AN: So I thought I would give a brief summary of the past chapters just to refresh your memory. I know it's been a long time in between chapter and info can get lost or you may have forgotten stuff. I know I do all the time while reading other fics.

Elena and Damon know of each other and go to high school. Damon keeps tabs on Elena simply for the reason that she looks like Katherine who he is trying to get out of the tomb. Damon is dating Caroline just because he doesn't want her mother to suspect anything of him. Elena is dating Dylan because he's mean and she likes it(sorta). Damon and Elena become friends. Stefan shows up at a car wash hinting that he has his own agenda and knows about Elena. Damon turns Vicki into a vampire and Stefan shows up killing Vicki right in front of Jeremy. Damon tells Jeremy all about vampires but leaves out certain details. Damon gave Bonnie the necklace with the crystal on it, that opens the tomb. Bonnie gets a bad vibe because he's a vampire so he has Jeremy trying to convince her to trust Damon. Stefan finally gives away that he wants to open that tomb also. Elena finds out Dylan has been cheating on her, which Damon already knew. Damon goes out of town to see Bree to see if there is another way Stefan would be able to open the tomb and brings Elena. They get drunk and are now in a motel:)

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love."
-Mother Teresa

Elena POV

I giggled as I bounced on a rock hard bed. Damon was sitting in a chair in front of the bed and we've been talking for a good amount of time now.

"You know I don't get it." I grabbed a pillow from behind me and put it in my. "Did I do something wrong?" I started futzing with the pillow. "I mean am I not pretty enough? He said I needed to give more effort maybe I-"

"Uhhh shut up Elena. You are beautiful." He cut me off and stepped up from the chair and walked towards the bed. I ignored the flutters of my heart when he said beautiful.

"Maybe I wasn't a good kisser. Or maybe I didn't satisfy him enough that he had to go find it somewhere else." My words were a little slurred. Damon flopped down onto the bed face first making it bounce a little. I've been chatting his ear off for the last hour and I'm sure he was getting tired of it by now. "I'm sorry. When I drink I don't know how to shut my mouth and my thought just spew out."

"It's fine Elena." He turned onto his back and looked up towards the ceiling.

"Can I just ask you one last thing?"

"I doubt I could stop you."

"Ok." I shifted my body so I could see him a little better. "You are an asshole."

"Thanks." He replied sarcastically. "That wasn't a question."

"I wasn't finished." I shoved his arm while pouting then kept going. "As I was saying. You are a mega, gigantic, enormous dick! So why do you do it? Why do you do that to Caroline?"

"Elena I don't think this will help anything."

"Don't do that Damon. You haven't lied to me before. I know all your dirty little deed's you do behind everyone's back. So don't play me a fool. If we really are friends then you can just give me this." I begged and scouted closer to him. "Please?"

"Elena I don't love Caroline. I do it because I can. It's really that simple." I knew he warned me but I still felt a part of me break inside. That answer didn't really help much.

"That's kind of sad Damon." I mumbled and looked at my hands that where still playing with the pillow in my lap. "I still think it's because I can't kiss. I'd rather think that." I tried lightening the mood as best as I could.

"Well lets see." Damon sat up with a sort of excitement in his eyes.

"What?" I was kind of confused.

"Kiss me." He said simply and my stomach did flip flops. I actually kind of liked this idea.

"But you are Damon. Damon the friend." He laughed at me and just shook his head.

"I'm also Damon, Damon the guy. The guy who will tell you if you are a bad kisser or not." I knew I wasn't a bad kisser but I suddenly grew nervous and my curiosity got the better of me. What would it be like to kiss Damon? I decided to stop over thinking things and leaned in closer.

"Only a peck."

A smile played at his lips as I sat up onto my knees to be on the same level as him. I slowly brought my hands down to rest on his shoulder and leaned down. I gently placed my lips on his. It was only a second then I backed out. I didn't like how much I liked the small intimate kiss we just shared. I let go off him and went to turn away when his hand wrapped around my arm forcing me to turn back to him. Our eyes made contact and we both just stared. He was suddenly pushing me down flat against the bed and leaning over me. His body was pressing against me, pinning me against the bed. His smooth soft lips were on mine just as fast. It wasn't a simple kiss like before. It was passionate. I didn't have to think about anything as my body was able to react to him in every way as if it was instinct. I knew how to throw everything he gave me right back at him. There was something between us that felt more natural then anything I've ever experienced. Not with any other guy had I felt this way.

"Wrong... So wrong." I said while gasping for air.

"But it feels soooo good." He mumbled against me as he left a trail of kisses from my neck down to my collarbone. I felt his fingertips brush the exposed skin on my stomach. He left goosebumps everywhere he touched and I wanted to just melt into him but I couldn't.

"Caroline. I can't. I'm not that kind of girl." I tried pushing him off me but it didn't work in till he complied.

"You already know how things are with Caroline." He said it as if he was justifying what just happened. That didn't make this any more right and he knew it. He just didn't care "I wont be with her for much longer." He said in a whisper. I wasn't sure if he really wanted me to hear that or not.

"Then why do you prolong it? Just end it? It would save a lot of heartbreak."

"Go to sleep Elena. We got to get up early tomorrow or your aunt will freak." He turned away from me basically signaling that this conversation was over. All I wanted was answers. All I wanted was to know what was going on in my heart. I didn't know what to think and Damon wasn't helping. He was just making bigger dilemmas in my plans. Damon was too closed off. He was honest but he never volunteered information. New goal. Crack Damon Salvatore.

I shut my eyes and hoped morning would come fast enough.

The next morning we were in the car by six a.m. and I felt like death. I was thankful the sun wasn't all the way up yet but I stole Damon's glasses just to be prepared for later.

"It's way too early." I grumpily got into the car and placed Damon's leather jacket over my legs trying to get warm. The morning chill didn't even seem to affect Damon as he slid into the car. I'm sure I looked like a mess. I knew my makeup was draining down my face and my hair was so knotted I had to put it into a loose bun just to tame it a little bit. I kept telling myself I shouldn't worry what I looked at. It was Damon. I could care less if I looked like shit around Damon. But after last night I felt a little bit more self conscious around him. I wanted him to think I was pretty at all times.

We started driving down the deserted roads into the middle of nowhere. There was mild awkward tension between us and I didn't know how to get rid of it. I was a tad scared to open my mouth. After a hour of silence I just couldn't take it anymore.

"Damon?" He didn't respond back but looked in my direction. "Have you ever been with a girl, that you didn't betray?" I expected him to say something back. Damon always has an answer for everything. But all he did was turn on the radio and look the other way. I guess he answered my question.

The whole back was filled with silence. I had a long time to contemplate my decisions. I still had no idea what was going to happen between Dylan and I. I knew it would be terribly stupid to go back with him. I didn't want to. So maybe I wouldn't...Maybe I could put my trust in Damon like he asked me too. It was just hard because he was so open about how he's never stuck around. What makes me think just because we were only friends he wouldn't bail on me like all the other girls?

I had trust issues. Clearly.

We finally rolled back into Mystic falls and it was around noon now. Damon pulled up to my house and I felt a pang in my chest when I wasn't going to be able to spend more time with Damon. I realized I was going to miss his presence. Even if it was just for a little bit. I got out of the car and was surprised when Damon started to follow me inside. I opened my door and stopped right before walking in.

"You know, you never actually told me if I was a good kisser or not." I leaned against the door frame while smiling at him.

"Maybe you should refresh my memory." He stepped forward and was only a couple inches away. When he cupped the side of my face I felt the anticipation of the familiar way his lips molded against mine. To say there were butterfly's in my stomach would be an understatement.

"Elena?" I felted Damon tense up and let go of my face as Jeremy's voice came from the top of the stairs.

"I'll come back later tonight." He whispered in my ear and walked out the door. I took a huge breath and walked into the house closing the door behind me.

"Hi, Jeremy." I walked up the stairs and stopped at the very top to see a serious look plastered on his face.

"I need to talk to you. It's important." I quickly came to the conclusion something bad was going on. "There are things you have to know. I wasn't going to tell you but I realized if you did that to me, I'd be so mad."

"What are you talking about?" I asked honestly confused. I had no idea where he was getting at.

"Just sit down and lets talk."

"Okay." I walked into his room hesitantly and sat down at the edge of his bed.

"There are some things you should know about Damon."

AN: So time really flew by and the other day I was like WOW I haven't updated this story in way too long. I have three stories going right now and I'm going to start updating each one once a week. At least that is what I plan. I hope this chapter was alright.

So do you guys want Jeremy to tell Elena all he knows or keep it a secret?

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