Chapter 10

When the brunette entered the hotel room, Spencer was sitting on her bed, watching TV. Ashley looked at the blond, who completely ignored her. Not being used to that, the brunette sighed. "I'm sorry, okay?"

Spencer didn't even looked up. Ashley took a deep breath and sat next to the blond. "Look Carlin, I'm really sorry. I was a total bitch to you and I don't know, but you irritate me and I don't know how to handle that."

Finally the blond turned towards her. The blue eyes searched for something in the slightly helpless brown eyes. "Okay, you are forgiven, but why do I irritate you?"

Ashley looked at her hands. "I don't know, I mean this whole gay thing is pretty strange and then you said you were in love with me. I was a bitch to you and I treated you really bad and everything, how can you say you like ...uhm... love me after such a short, hard time?"

Spencer took one of Ashley's hands. "Well...look, it's the way you smile, when you are happy and feeling comfortable, the way your eyes sparkle when something fascinates you. I think it's cute how you look at your hands, and play with your fingers when you don't know what to say and I think..."

When Spencer stopped, Ashley looked from their hands into the blond's face, which was suddenly very close. Soft lips kissed the brunette's cheek. "...I think you are adorable, when you are speechless surprised."

And that's exactly what Ashley was. She wrested her hand and got off the bed. "What the fuck? Look Carlin, we can be friends, maybe, but nothing more, okay?" she said. Spencer smiled and nodded. Ashley turned around and went into the bathroom. She stood in front of the mirror and gently touched her cheek. What the fuck was that and why the fuck did it feel so good?

Spencer was just about to leave the room, when Ashley finally came out of the bathroom. "We have more than two hours, before we have to go, would you fancy to grab something to eat?" the blond asked. "Uhm, I'll follow you I guess, I have to pack my stuff." Ashley answered.

"I'll wait" Spencer offered, closed the open door and sat down on her bed again. "Uhm, okay." The brunette started to throw everything into her bag not caring about folding the pieces. Spencer smiled, she did the same an hour ago.

"Okay, let's go!" Ashley said and walked out of the room, Spencer followed her closely.

They went to a little restaurant next to the hotel and both of them ordered a salad and something to drink. "Ashley, can I ask you something?" Spencer started carefully. Ashley just nodded.

"Well since we are trying to be friends or something, why do you freak out so much because of gay people? What do you have against lesbians?" Ashley looked up. She seemed to think for a few moments and then started to talk.

"Well that's a long story, but after all, I think I should tell you. Okay, but you have to promise me, that you won't tell anybody, understand?" Spencer nodded.

"Okay, so it's probably actually because of my mother. Her name's Christine by the way. So she went to that all girls school and fell in love. With a girl. It was just a crush nothing serious and after they graduated they would never see each other again, my mum thought. She went to college in L.A. And a year later, her crush also went there.

Everything started again, and my mother finally told the girl about her feelings. That girl kinda had the same ones for mum so they came together, but their relationship was a secret. This girl, her parents were strict catholics, they would have never allowed them to see each other, but one day they caught my mum and this girl making out or something and they moved away.

My mother was heartbroken. After two years she married my dad, Raife Davies. But after I was born I don't know, she was a good mother but she cheated on my dad, with other women. She destroyed our family! So my dad's concerts and tours became longer and, well Kyla is a result of that I guess. If my mum wasn't a lesbo, she would have never been hurt like that and she would have never cheated on my dad, she'd never destroy our family!"

Spencer just looked at Ashely. "How do you know all that?" she asked first, but thousand of other questions were spinning in her head. "I've found her diary, when she left. She went to Europe to start over new a few years ago."

The blond looked thoughtful at her Cola. "Do you know what the girl's name was?" "I think Paula, my mum always called her Pauli though." Spencer looked up. "You don't know her last name, don't you?" Ashley thought for a moment "Quinlan"

Spencer's face went white. "Spencer, you alright?" Ashley asked honestly worried. "No, uhm...well, That's interesting now" the blond stuttered. Thousand thoughts were running through Spencer's mind, and in the same time some answers on old questions came. "Uhm... My mum's maiden name was Quinlan, Paula Meave Quinlan."

"Oh my god." The girls sat there and a strange silence fell over them. This was indeed interesting.

"So..uhm... you are afraid of lesbians, because you could fall in love with on of them, get your heart broken and become like your mum...did I get that right?" Spencer asked softly. "No, I mean maybe..." Ashley said, sounding confused and scared. "So I might have a chance..."Spencer said more to herself, not meaning it so serious.

"What is it that every gay person is so sure that everybody else is gay?" Ashley said, half annoyed half amused. Spencer grinned "It's not everybody else. Just the gay ones." (Sorry, just had to take that line...)

Ashley laughed. "In your dreams Carlin." She suddenly felt very comfortable around the girl. Even if their two mother had such a strange history, she didn't see the point why it should affect their relationship. The friendly kind of course, the friendship. Ashley had to smile at herself. Spencer was really nice and it would be a lot more easier to like her than trying so hard to dislike her.

She wasn't her mother, she was Ashley Ashley Davies, sometimes she really wished she had a middle name, and that meant she wasn't gay, she wouldn't destroy her own family and she wouldn't fall in love with a blond, blue eyed girl, right?

"So are we good?" Spencer asked. Ashley nodded and called the waitress.

After they had paid, the two girls went back to their hotel, got the suitcases and bags and called a taxi.

When they had found their places at the plane Spencer started to speak. "So...uhm, I hope it's alright that the SONs (The band) are going to come over." Ashley nodded "Yep, that's alright, I guess. They would have had to come over anyways so, it's cool. Just one thing. You and Lexa, it's a little unprofessional to make puppy faces and kiss her in public." Spencer looked at Ashley. "Okay, but in my free time I can make faces as much as I like and kiss people as much as I want, right?"

"Yeah you kinda already proofed that" Ashley said remembering the little kiss in the hotel room. "You did too" Spencer thought, but didn't say anything. Probably Ashley didn't know that the blond had felt the kiss on her neck, when Ashley asked her if she was in love with her. Spencer just smiled , took out her iPod and watched the sun going down through the window.

...And though they say it's possible to me

I don't see how it's probable

I see the course we're on

spinning farther from what I know

I'll hold on

Tell me that you won't let go

Tell me that you wont let go

This could be something beautiful

I know...

(Terra Naomi - Say it's possible)

A/N:

1.Thank you guys so much for the reviews!! They make me so happy, actually, you make me happy...

2. Hehe, How do you think about Christine/Paula... I kinda wonderd why Paula was acting like this in the show and how she reacted on Ashley DAVIES... maybe because the older Davies had broken her heart once...:P

3. okay so well let's see... it think its pretty interesting, that many straight people watch gay centric tv-shows or movies or whatever, but I think it's really cool :D... so here comes the question :

Who of us is straight, gay or bi... I know actually we are not into labels like Ash...but I'm curiouse, like always no one has to answer but I'd love to get some :D

I'm pretty gay at the moment, I think I was my whole life, and I also think that I'll stay that way...