Previously on 'Our Little Relapses'
They got my into Aria's room, Ezra is in there and looked rather ill himself, but I ignored him, I looked at Aria. She looks worse then I thought she would. Her face looks like she hasn't slept in weeks, and that she got into a pretty bad fist fight. Her frame looks like she's been starved, and the looks on her face is just hopeless. "Aria? Aria? It's me Hanna. Can you look at me?" I asked after a minute of staring at her.
"Don't be upset if the doesn't wake up Hanna, she hasn't so much as opened her eyes in three days." Ezra informed me trying not to get my hopes up on Aria responding to me.
I internally smiled as Aria showed her husband wrong. She opened her blackened, bloodshot eyes and moved her head ever so slightly to look at me. "Hanna." she croaked in a whisper of surprise in reply. I don't think she ever expected to see me again.
I smiled at her, "Yeah, it's me. Now I need for you to listen to me, Ar. We're both going to be okay, you've just got to hold on and let the good doctors do their job. We'll get through this together like we always do. Don't give up on me now." I stated. This is a fact, she is going to be just fine, and we are going to get through this, together.
She didn't look convinced, "I can't Han. I feel so bad." she replied in desperation, pain, and exhaustion.
That was certainly not an acceptable answer. "Yes you can, Aria. I want you to listen to my words, this isn't going to be easy, it's going to be hard, but we are going to fight and we are going to make it through this." by the time I was finished speaking all that was left of my voice was a whisper, but it was enough to get the point across to her.
She smiled, "Okay. We'll get through this together." she promised, now so exhausted that she couldn't keep her eyes open, and she quickly fell back asleep. Okay, she has agreed that we are going to make it through this.
After I came to this realization I realized how exhausted I feel myself, and how crappy I honestly feel. "Okay Hanna, you've got to see Aria, now we need to get you back to your room so we can run a few tests and ask you some questions." the nurse told me once she saw Aria was back asleep.
Once we got back to my room I was struggling to keep my eyes open, but I fought it. The only problem with that though, is the longer I stayed up, the worse I felt. The nurse asked me questions like what the last things I remembered was, she made sure I knew was and a few other things but my them I couldn't fight it anymore and quickly fell back asleep.
POV Mike.
"Hey Mike, what would you like for lunch? I just restocked the refrigerator and the freezer, so I can make just about anything." Alison offered as she walked into my room where Atticus and I are watching a movie on my computer. Well, I'm watching the movie, Atticus is taking a nap across my chest.
I pressed pause and shrugged, "I could go for a burger." I suggested then looked down at my little man, "Do want a burger buddy?" I asked the sleeping baby with a smile.
Alison laughed, "I think I can handle that, but I think Atti better stick with baby food. I think you need teeth before you can have a burger. So I'll get that started, in the meanwhile let me take Atticus to put in the play pin in the kitchen so I can keep an eye on him while you go take a shower. You stink." she said as she picked up my little buddy from beside me on the bed and walked back out the door.
I rolled my eyes at her, "Whatever." I agreed and watched her walk back out. I closed my computer and glanced at my phone for any texts from Ezra on Aria's condition. I know that she might not make it through the night so I'm going to have someone take me down there this afternoon so I can spend some time with her before she goes.
As I unlocked my phone an incoming call from Caleb came in, so I answered it. "Hey, what's going on?" I asked hoping for good news... well at least not bad news.
"Hanna woke up. She spoke with Aria. I think Aria's going to make it now. She's gotten better in just the hour since Hanna's spoken with her." Caleb informed me with excitement.
So maybe we do have more time with Aria then I thought we would, definitely nothing to complain about. "That's great man! How's Hanna been since she's woken up?" I asked with excitement for our most recant news. As I spoke I ran down the stairs and into the kitchen where Alison and Atticus are making faces at each other and Alison is not making me anything to eat.
Alison looked up at me and raised her eyebrows, "Why aren't you in the shower? You can have lunch after you take a shower." she said, not seeming to notice my happy excitement and the phone pressed against my ear.
"Just a second Caleb." I told Caleb so that I could tell Alison off. "Forget about lunch, Alison! Hanna woke up and spoke with Aria. Aria's doing a lot better because of it!" I practically yelled at her trying to convey the importance of my talking on the phone and not showering like she told me to. "Okay, so, how's Hanna?" I asked Caleb again letting him know that he can talk now.
A laugh came from his end of the line, "She's okay. She's pretty lethargic and sore. She's still trying to grasp everything that's happened but she's back asleep now. I know we've got a long ways to go, but I think that we're finally to the top of the hill." he informed me. You could tell by the tone in his voice that he was ecstatic about the fact that after more then a week Hanna finally woke up.
I smiled, "Good. Spencer and Toby still aren't back from taking Tiff to her doctors appointment, but I'm pretty sure she's back to normal." I informed him with information on his daughter.
"I am so glad. Are you going to be by here this afternoon?" he asked in reply.
"Yeah, I should be. Once we've eaten lunch I was going to see if someone would take me anyway." I told him.
"Think you could bring Tiff along? I miss my little girl, and I'm sure if Han's awake she'd love to see our baby. If it isn't too much trouble, you should bring Atticus too. We'd all like to see him too. Maybe now that your sister is doing a little bit better she'll actually enjoy getting to see her son." he requested.
"I think we can manage that. Do we need to bring you anything for lunch? Alison's making burgers I'm sure we could bring you one." I offered knowing that he's probably tired of the food from the hospital cafeteria.
"That would be wonderful. So I'll see you in a little bit." he replied.
"Okay see you." I told him and hung up the phone, then looked back at Alison. "Okay, Hanna woke up and Aria is doing a lot better. Caleb wants us to go up there and bring the kids with us, I also told him we'd bring him lunch." I updated her on my conversation with Caleb.
She nodded her head, "Okay, sounds like a plan. Now go take a shower so we can get on up there. Spencer and Toby should be back any time now with Tiffany." she ordered me as she took my phone out of my hand and pointed in the direction of the stairs with a smile on her face. She is obviously happy to hear the latest news, but she's still holding down the fort, and by that I mean forcing me to go and shower.
POV Hanna.
Someone just walked in causing me to awake from my slumber. I opened my eyes to see my baby girl in my husbands arms, and the distinct smell of hamburger in the air, causing me to feel sick. The way I feel now with smelling that is worse then me smelling anything back when I was pregnant. "Get that food out of here. It's making me sick." I grumbled as I blinked my eyes awake.
"Hey sleepyhead. Alison, and Tiffany are going to sit in here with you while I go sit and eat with Toby. Is that okay?" he asked as he passed Tiff back to Alison and took the brown paper bag from her.
I nodded my head, which made me feel worse. "Yeah, just get that food out of here." I demanded as I held my breath and hoped I wouldn't get dizzy from that.
After he left I positioned my head to face Alison and Tiffany sitting in the chair next to me that Caleb had been before he stood up. "Hi baby girl. Did you miss me? Mommy missed you." I asked my daughter who is sitting in Alison's lap staring at me. I'm not sure whether or not my daughter even recognizes me.
Alison smiled, "She says 'Yes I missed you mommy! I've kept Auntie Alison up the last three nights because I missed you so much!'" Alison put words into Tiffany's mouth with a smiled onto her face.
I gave a weak laugh, and even that hurt. "That's being a mom for you. You learn to live with next to no sleep. Other then that has she been good for you guys?" I asked as I took in my Tiffany's face.
"Of course. We've had fun together. Her and Atticus have watched movies and played games and even gone shopping with us." she informed me as she moved a strand of her beautifully long, honey-blonde hair out of her face and behind her ear.
I smiled, "Good. I'm sorry we put all of this on you guys. Neither Aria or I were in a good place when all of this happened. I'm not saying that we are now either, but I'm pretty sure once I have the capability to stay awake for more then fifteen minutes at a time that I'll start therapy and get some help to be in a good place again." I apologized knowing what an inconvenience both Aria and I have caused everyone.
She shook her head, "We were all happy to help. We all love you and the babies. That's why it was so heartbreaking to all of us to hear that you both had relapses and didn't talk with any of us about it. Hanna I need you to promise me that throughout all of this you'll accept our help, and I'm not talking about with the babies, I'm talking about with helping you get better, and I need you to promise me that you'll be open with us about what's going on and how you're feeling. I know that I've done you wrong several times before and that I no longer live here, but know that I love you and that I want the best for you." she told me letting the concern she has for me be apparent in her eyes.
I nodded my head, "Okay. I'll even tell you how I'm feeling right now. I feel a longing to hold my baby, but I also feel very frustrated because I know that I don't have the strength to. I'm fairly certain she'd hurt me if I even attempted to hold her." I informed her, not taking my eyes off of Tiffany.
Ali smiled, "Well how about I hold her but you give her and nice long hug and a big kiss on the forehead." she suggested as she stood up and held Tiffany to where she was practically on top of me, but now putting any weight on me.
I did as Ali suggested, but that hug wasn't nearly as long as I wished it could be because my arms were too weak for me to lift for more than a few moments. I let my arms go limp at my sides and I placed my lips on my baby girl's forehead. "I love you Tiffany." I whispered to where it was barely audible.
"What time is it?" I asked after Alison and Tiffany sat back down in their seat.
She looked at the oversized watch on her wrist, "It is two forty-two. It's been around four and a half hours since you awake last." she informed me.
So it's been over four hours since I've seen Aria. She's was practically dead what I saw her last, but maybe since I talked to her she's doing better. One can only hope. "Have you seen Aria? How's she doing?" I asked voicing the questions in my head.
Alison smiled at this, "She is doing so much better since you talked with her. She had giving up any hope of staying alive, but you gave that hope back to her along with determination. She hasn't woken up again since then, but her vitals are doing so much better. It really helps when you have a will to live." she replied with happiness about the situation.
This made me feel better, "Great. I'm glad I was able to help her. I just don't know what I would do without her. She's really the only one who truly understands what I've been though and what I'm going through." I told her as I started to fight my eyelids again. I shouldn't be so tired, I've slept for the last week and a half. Why do I want to sleep more? I want to stay awake and see everyone and visit with everyone.
Spencer walked in just as I finished speaking with Atticus on her hip. "Hanna. It is so good to see you awake. You have no idea how worried we've all been about you. How're you feeling?" she asked me as sat down in the second chair on the other side of my bed.
"I'm exhausted, I hurt all over, I feel weak, and I can't remember how to make this bed adjust angles. I'm getting more uncomfortable then I normally am." I complained as she brushed my fingers though my hair, "And my hair is in desperate need of a good wash and condition." I added as I let my arms go limp again.
She laughed at me, "Do you want to sit up more, or lay down more?" she asked as she looked at the buttons through that side of the bed panel.
"I need to lie down. I'm so tired the room is starting to spin. I really want to stay up and talk but I don't think I can at this point." I replied, upset that I don't have the energy to talk with one of my best friends and see how Atti is doing. He's like a son to me, I love him almost as much as I love Tiffany.
She shook her head at me, "Don't feel bad Hanna. There is all of the time in the world for us to talk. Right now you're body is recovering from all of the trauma it went though and it's telling you that you need to rest in order to get better." she comforted me as she reclined my bed until I was laying down, then stood up and turned off the light for me.
"We're going to let you rest. Caleb should be back in a few minutes and we'll be back soon. We love you Han." Ali informed me as the four of them walked out the door, closing it behind them. I then quickly returned to sleep.
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