A/N: Jedi Kay-Kenobi: I'm afraid you'll find this chapter hard to read. It's not over yet though.

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Chapter 10

Siri could never remember being so upset as she stormed into her mother's apartment. She didn't understand how her mother could have failed to mention to Obi-Wan where she was when she knew Obi-Wan believed Siri had turned to the Dark Side. This secret had been kept even when Obi-Wan announced that he was engaged to someone else. This news just crushed her. After all, just about all that had gotten Siri through that hellhole of a mission was thinking that she'd come back to the Temple to find Obi-Wan waiting for her.

She also planned on telling Obi-Wan exactly what she thought of this development she had discovered on her arrival home, but that would have to come later. She could sense that her mother was home, which she rarely was, and Siri somehow felt like telling her exactly what she thought of this situation first. So she knocked on the door, not even attempting to keep her shields up when her mother answered.

"You let Obi-Wan get engaged to Rosaline." There, Siri felt like getting to the point of why she was so upset. It wasn't like her mother had no idea what was wrong or couldn't have predicted this when she found out that Obi-Wan was with someone else.

Her mother did not seem to be apologetic. "He has to make decisions about his own life."

"Yes, but that life is- or at least was - supposed to be with me, and you know it very well." Siri was getting more frustrated by the minute. "You didn't even give him all the information he needs to make his decision." That was the heart of why she was so upset – well, at least the part that was upset with her mother and the entre Jedi Council. Obi-Wan was another matter, but she'd have to deal with that another time.

"Obi-Wan Kenobi is just a boy who was never good enough for you anyway."

Siri could not believe what she was hearing. That was supposed to make her feel better? "Just because you don't seem to want me with anyone doesn't mean you can just ignore what we have! I was so sure we were going to get married when I returned from that mission."

Her mother sighed. "Honey, the Force may have other plans. But why don't you talk to him and see what you two can do if you're so insistent that he's the one?"

"Oh, I plan to." Siri was absolutely seething before this point, but somehow the anger was replaced by sadness. "It's not just him. It's that thinking I had him to return to helped me survive that mission."

"And his memory still helped you do that. And I'm so grateful it did and my girl is back safe and sound."

"I might be safe, but I'm doing horribly."

"Honey, you're going to have to find some way to live with yourself and be a Jedi, with or without Obi-Wan."

"I'm really not sure how that's going to happen right now, mom." This was just getting to be a worse and worse conversation.

It wasn't long afterwards that Siri left her mother's apartment and was trying to think of what she was going to say to Obi-Wan. She thought that he might be looking for her if she didn't find him soon, and then she wouldn't have a choice but to talk to him.

She didn't want to give him the idea that she was just fine with what he had done and make him feel better about giving up on her. How could his opinion of her be so low that he would think she would turn to the Dark Side like that? And after all they'd been through together.

She'd gotten him through Qui-Gon's death and the taking of the Chosen One as a padawan. They'd been on several missions together. And most importantly, they'd been a couple for years. And this was how the two of them were supposed to end?

Sure enough, Obi-Wan went and found her the day after she talked with her mother. He certainly did have a sympathetic look, but that didn't help any. She didn't want him to feel sorry for her.

She still wanted them to get back together, that is if Rosaline was out of the picture and the two of them could trust each other again.

"I wanted to see that you were all right," he began with the look and stillness he always had when something terrible happened.

Somehow she wasn't surprised that he would say that – but she was disappointed somehow. "No, you want to make yourself feel all right for what you did. I'm not going to sympathize with you and tell you how hard it must be to have made this mistake – to have been wrong about what happened to your own girlfriend."

"You're probably right. But I do want to see if there's anything I can do to help. I want to know how you're doing."

"If you really want to know how I'm doing – I'm doing horrible, Obi-Wan. I didn't know it was possible, but my heart feels ripped out. And you know what the worst part is? If it had been me, I would have waited. I would have found out the truth about what happened. And I certainly wouldn't have moved on like you've seemed to."

"Do you have any idea what I went through before I did?" Obi-Wan asked her.

Siri was beyond caring about that at this point. She was starting to feel like the whole relationship was a lie – that Obi-Wan wasn't the man she thought she was.

"What it comes down to is faith. And I thought you had such great faith – faith in the Force and faith in me."

This just seemed to have made Obi-Wan get cold somehow. "There are two things you need to know." He paused at Siri looked at him curiously as well as sadly. "First, it just about killed me when I thought that you'd turned to the Dark Side. Second, I don't regret moving on with my life."

He didn't regret getting engaged to someone else? What was that supposed to mean?