When I was alone with Nahuel, I felt like I could breathe again. Every problem that was burdening my head suddenly disappeared. The only thing I could think about was Nahuel, and the other people out there like me. Of course, the others were seeking to destroy me, but I couldn't help my over-obsessing interest in them. For the first time in what felt like a life time, I wasn't the only freak out there. My parents had always told me I was, "special", but it was hard to feel special when you just felt out of place.

I was thankful to have Nahuel here, and as soon as we began our hunt, I was constantly questioning him. He hid back a chuckle as I pestered him with thousands of questions, but complied easily enough. He, like most vampires and hybrids, hunted humans. He was less than enthused to hunt animals with me, but he did so without complaint. He seemed.. happy, to be spending time with me. I didn't understand how, now that he knew he was in grave danger as well, but then I reminded myself that he pushed my worries away as well.

I played the game I played with Jake, with Nahuel. Once we found a herd of Elk, we tried to beat each other to the biggest one. I won, but I had my suspicions that he let me win, just like Jake always did.

"So, Nahuel," I started, biting away at my lip, I didn't really know what I wanted to ask, or how to even begin, "what's it like, knowing other people like us?" I could feel the colour filling my cheeks now.

"Uh, I guess it's okay. It's nice knowing that I'm not the only one like this, but to be honest, Renesmee, none of the half vampires I met are nearly as happy as you. None of our mothers survived, you have no idea what the guilt feels like, the guilt that burdens us all... When I see your parents together, Nessie, I feel joy. I wish, so very much, that I could live a life like you do, that I didn't have to live without my mother and live in fear of my father," his accent showed strongly through those words, and I instantely felt sorrow for him.

I walked over, and placed my hand onto his back, trying to figure out how to comfort him.

"Nahuel, none of it was your fault. The love you feel for your mother is strong, and whether you believe it or not, she is in Heaven now, and she is watching you. She got to see you grow up, and I'm sure she is very proud of the person you have became.. you're strong, Nahuel, and you're brave. I don't know anyone who would have the courage to save me and my family twice now. She knows what a wonderful person you've become, and I know that she is happy now."

His large black eyes looked up at me, hope glistening within them.

Then, he did something that surprised me. He placed his arms around the small of my back, and pulled me into him. He hugged me very tight, and we just stood there for a long time. It felt right to be here, it felt like I belonged.

When we finally released eachother, we decided it would be best to go back to the house. When we got there, it was filled. Ten werewolves, sitting in the kitchen, probably clearing our food supply. All eight of my family, surrounded by Tanya, Kate, Eleazer, Carmen, and Garrett. I was glad to see them all, and I quickly went around to welcome everyone. I remembered all the Denali clan very well, and I was very happy to see that Kate and Garrett were finally together after they stood with us during our meeting with the Volturi.

Tanya, though, always seemed to bother me. She was nice enough, and I knew she was family, and I would have to treat her as such, but I could never escape the anger I got when she looked at my father. The way she stared at him! He was a married man, a happily married man, and she looked like at any minute, she was ready to destroy that.

The house was on edge after the news of Joham. Each person planning away. Alice had seen Joham coming in a little less than a month, but it continued to change. She couldn't see how many there are, which was exactly Joham's plan, but we were all very thankful that Nahuel had supplied us with the little information we had.

We had 13 people sleeping here now, and 6 rooms. It was a bit hectic. I didn't want Nahuel to be alone, so I invited him to sleep in my room with me, of course, I had a couch in there, so my dad didn't completely freak out about it. Jake, on the other hand, was very reluctant over this. I invited him to sleep with me, too. He would sleep in my bed with me, with Nahuel there, my parents trusted us to behave.

That left 10 people in 5 rooms, which worked out perfectly.

Jake took me off about an hour after I got home, I felt bad leaving Nahuel with people he barely knew, but I knew by the strong look in Jacob's eye not to argue with him.

"Why didn't you come back with your family, Nessie?"

"I had to... I don't know, I had to talk to Nahuel. I needed to realize what other people like me were like, you know? I know everyone goes on about how special I am, Jake, but I'm not. I'm just.. a freak."

"Nessie," he cooed to me, "shh, shh," was I crying? I didn't even know, and I didn't even care. He pulled me in for a tight hug, but it wasn't as meaningful as the hug I recieved from Nahuel. No, Nessie. Don't think like that! But... I couldn't help it.

What was happening to me? As if there wasn't enough going on, was I really thinking about Nahuel like that... Oh, god.