Okay! I've been off fan fiction for a while so sorry. This time i don't have an excuse for my absence, i'm just being lazy. So sorry. Anyway, hope you aren't all pissed at me. This is chapter 10 now anyway. So enjoy!

Oh yeah, and this is gonna be like a journal entry like chapter. Just to explore some of Stan's emotions. They wont be the best emotions, but I'll try to make it emotional.

February 21,1999

I can't believe it. I just can't believe it. How could something so horrible happen to me, or more so, happen to Kyle? It doesn't make sense and it just isn't fair. I mean, kidnapping is something you hear about by reading the newspaper or watching the news. It doesn't happen to you...normally. But this time it has. ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR! My one and only best friend...just gone. Thats basically it anyway. I went to bed having a best friend, and when i woke up he was gone. UGGGGGGG! Not to mention my anger over his search being called off. Yeah thats right. You heard me, you goddamn notebook. He's missing 1 month and they call off the search for him.. Can you fucking believe that? Evey other kid that got kidnapped five fucking years ago are still being searched for, and Kyle has been gone for what, 30 days? And there isn't a cop insight. Its true. I'm looking out my window right now and their isn't any volunteer worker digging under the snow or anything. Barbrady, the fucking stupid douche that he is, even took the crime scene tape off from around Kyle's house. "Theres no point in keeping it up anymore, there is no evidence at the scene of the crime. Nothing to see here, case closed." Thats what the fucking idiot said on the evening news, if you can believe it. Actually i can. That fat asshole can barely read, he's so stupid. I remember going to school with him just last year. He almost killed Kenny. Oh, and speaking of Kenny, he got hit by a bus while helping me home, according to Cartman. So now I'm without my Kyle and, for a while, Kenny. Yay. Anyway, where was i? Oh yeah. Barbrady. Now as much as its fun to badmouth him, thats not the point of this entry. Kyle is. So anyway, they also said on the news that "although the cops have called off the search, the case still is open, despite what Barbrady says, and they are still excepting sightings, clues, and information on the whereabouts of Kyle Broflovski." That's what the news person, whatever his stupid name is, said. Then, of course, they showed a picture of Kyle with the word missing across the screen. I hate it when they do that. It's bad enough that he's gone without everyone reminding me. Ok, sorry that i'm bitching, but i'm really pissed off about this whole thing, what with the search being called off. I just think that South park is betraying Kyle. I mean, think about it. Kyle has lived in this crappy town for 10 years in May, him liking it or not, always friendly to everyone (except for Cartman, who doesn't deserve it anyway) and what do the citizens of south park give him in return? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Not even when he's missing do they search for him for a decent amount of time. He could still be alive somewhere, in this town, in this state, in this country, but unless somebody hears a scream or finds a clue, no one is going to even make an effort to find him. Not the stupid cops, not the people, not even his own parents, who, according to the same news reporter, they are "said to be shocked and distraught". Gee. I wonder why. So yeah, Kyle is missing, in the hands of who knows, and nobody under this sun is looking for him. No wait. Fuck that. Maybe everyone else has lost hope ridiculously soon, but not me. I'll keep looking. I could grab a boat and go out onto starks pond. I could paw through bushes. I'll look everywhere, for as long as it takes. Mark my words. But i will write this one thing: I think its pretty stupid that the friend of the missing kid has to take the investigation into their own hands. Really stupid, actually. But hey, adults are fucking stupid, so who gives a shit really?

Hey guys! Ok, that was pretty long of a journal entry. You can really tell that Stan is fucking pissed, can't you? Also, sorry about the slantness in the writing. Hope it wasn't hard to read lol. Anyway, please review people! Hope you enjoyed chapter 10.