Chapter 10 : HereComesGoodbye

Meredith walked into Derek's office, it was dark and he was hunched over his desk filling out paperwork. He looked up at her when she entered the room.

" The kids were getting tired, so I sent them home with your mom. "

He nodded, " I hear Mady's going into surgery today."

" Surgery ? " Meredith widened her eyes. " Is it that serious ? "

He nodded his head. and Meredith closed her eyes.

" How's Lexie's doing ?"

Meredith sighed deeply and bit her lips.

" She's not good, she won't eat and she just . . . she's not good." Meredith crossed her arms and looked down at the floor.

Derek rose up from his seat and walked towards Meredith and placed a hand on her shoulder.

" You Ok ? "

" No, my niece is having surgery Derek . . . I'm not, I'm not Ok."

Derek placed a finger under her chin, to make her look up at him. Her eyes were glassy and her face was pale. He didn't know what to say to her. It reminded him of the time when the twins were born and Elizabeth needed surgery. Meredith couldn't eat or sleep until they took the twins home, where they were safe.

He didn't have anything to say then, ad he didn't have anything now. He could hope that by just being with her was all the reassurance she needed. She broke the silence as she went out to get some coffee, and Derek slowly walked right behind her.

Alex and Izzie were alone in the room with Mady, prepping her for surgery. Cristina was in the OR preparing for the surgery.

Alex glanced out the window, looking at Lexie who was staring at Mady with her hands on her chest.

" She's a mess." he said.

Izzie looked up at him with hard eyes.

" Alex , you cannot even imagine the pain she feels now, she's feels helpless because she cannot do anything for her own daughter, of course she's a mess." Izzie looked down at Mady as she continued her work.

Alex looked at her, he could tell that Izzies voice was shaky. She wasn't Mady's mother, but she was close to her. After her long days at the hospital, Mady really made her smile when she babysat her in the hospital when her parents were in surgery. Izzie would walk around the hospital with her on her side as if it were her own daughter . . .

" Izzie ! " Alex yelled at her as she realized she was trailing off.

" I'm sorry."

" We have to bring her to the OR now."

They rolled her bed out of the hospital room, with Lexie and Mark right outside. They walked right beside them and they led her right outside the doors of the OR.

" This is as far as you can go."

Lexie was about to protest, but Mark held her hand, assuring her that Bailey would kick her out.

" Izzie can you stay with her, in my place and update me please."

Izzie smiled at her, " Of course."

Alex opened the doors, and slowly lead the be through the doors.

" Wait Alex ! "

Lexie ran up to the bed and kissed Mady's forehead lightly. She looked up at Alex and nodded as he continued to roll her down the hallway, Izzie hugged Lexie and she stepped through the doors.

Mark held her hand and she looked up at him as the doors closed suddenly and were left in the hallway waiting.

Mark closed his eyes and held his face in his hands.

" Mark . . . " she took his hands in hers.

" She's going to get through this remember? " she said.

She moved closer to him, and rested her head on his chest.

" You are not a terrible father, Mark, you are a amazing father."

" You talked to Callie . . . " he whispered.

She looked up at him and his depressed eyes, " You, Mark Sloan, are an amazing father, and Mady loves you and you love Mady, and that's all that matters . . . " she whispered against his chest.

" You're not too bad yourself." Mark smiled.

Lexie felt tears cascading down her cheeks, and she laughed.

" I'm trying."

Mark kissed her head and hugged her tightly as they stood in the hallway, alone and anxious.

The OR was prepared and Cristina and Izzie were scrubbing in.

" How's Lexie ? " Cristina asked.

" Nervous."

Cristina continued to scrub her hands. She couldn't help to feel the same way as well. She performed this surgery before, but never on a 6 month year old, and to make it worse a baby that she knew, and her parents. . .

They entered the OR and the nurses placed the gloves on the surgeons. Bailey was already at the operating table, breathing deeply as she looked at the small infant. Memories of Tuck's visit to the hospital sprang in her mind.

She sighed as she looked at Yang, that stood across the operating table.

Izzie sat near Mady's hand and held her small hand in hers.

They already put her under and the breathing tube was still in place.

Izzie rubbed her pale cheeks lightly.

Bailey slowly opened her eyes, finished with reliving her own memory and looked at Mady.

" Yang, Stevens"

" Yes, Dr. Bailey." they answered in unison.

" This child came in with a convulsion and now she is in my OR, on a operating table and she is only six months old . . . and this was the first time she was separated from her mother and now is in surgery . . . let's not let her parents last memory of her . . . be their last, please."

" Yes, Ma'am." Cristina replied.

" Stevens, update them in the next hour."

" Yes, Ma'am."

Bailey sighed, as they covered the blue cloth over the child on the operating table.

" Scalpel . . . "