ok. im very worried about this M rated fanfic shit. who the hell are they to say that we cant write what we want to? well anyway, if my story gets deleted then they gone hear a few things from me. but lets cross our fingers and pray that they dont delete the M rated ones. One of my favorite stories, Wide Awake, has already had a few of its chapters deleted, because of content i think. but on with the story. Enjoy :)

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EPOV

My night with Bella was amazing. The best night of my life so far. Those two little kisses we shared... HEAVEN. I can only imagine what she would feel like if we really kissed. Or better yet... Hmmm....

It was Wednesday, and I had been wondering if Bella regretted anything that went on between us. I also wondered if she was ok with the whole James incident.

I walked in the kitchen whistling. Rose, Jazz, and Em noticed because I usually wasn't this happy, especially in the mornings. I was not a morning person, and for me to be this happy, this early, well that alone was a miracle.

"Dude, what's gotten into you?" Emmett asked.

"I think I know." Rose laughed.

"Em, do you not remember where he was last night?" Jasper asked sarcastically.

"O YEA! You need to tell us all about it Eddie-Poo." I hate it when he calls me that.

"Why are you guys all of a sudden interested in my dating life? You've never messed with me about it before."

"Because, first off, Edward, your dating life has mainly been focused on hookers from the street and cold, heartless bitches with no life. Second, because we actually like Bella. She's a nice girl and probably the best girl you have ever met." Rosalie stated.

"Ok, Rose, you are right about the whole hookers and bitches thing. I will give you that. But you're also right about Bella. She's the nicest girl I've ever met, probably that I'll ever meet. She's smart, she's witty, she's kind, and she's... well she's just... beautiful." I have never called a girl beautiful until Bella, but it is true. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.

"Woa, did you just call her beautiful?" Jazz looked kind of shocked at my choise of words. I'm not surprised by his reaction though. Not in the least. Any of the girls I had dated, I never talked about them with my family. I regretted most of the nights I spent with any of them. And there's probably a lot of things they dont really want, or need, to know about.

"Yes. I called her beautiful." I said proudly.

"You must really like this Bella girl." Emmett said.

"I do, Em. She's just... I don't even know how to explain it."

"And you've only known her for two days, and you already think of her like that?" Rose asked. I could hear the disbelief in her voice.

"Yes. I wish I could somehow read her mind to find out what she thinks of me." I mused.

"I could try and ask Alice for some information about her if you want." Jasper offered.

"Really, Jazz?" I could practically feel my face light up. "That would be great!" I ran over and gave Jazz a bone-crushing hug.

"Ed, losing... oxygen!"

"Sorry, Jasper, but I just feel so happy! It almost feels like I'm high or something because I'm so happy!"

"WOOOOOOOW. Nice, Eddie-Poo." Emmett, along with Rose, were laughing at me while Jasper was still trying to catch his breath.

I didn't even care that they were making fun of me. I was too excited to get to school and see Bella. I wonder what she'll be wearing.

Clothes. That one word took me to my dream from the previous night.

I dreamed that I was sitting in the living room, no one else was home. Suddenly,there was a knock on the door. I got up and opened it, and there stood Bella. She was wearing jeans so tight that I wondered how she fit her beautiful ass in them. She wore a tight, dark blue, shirt that had lace ties going up the front. You could see the top of her black, lace bra peeking over the top of her walked through the door, shut it, and took me over to the couch. She pushed me back until my knees hit the couch and I fell back. Then she started to untie the strings of her shirt. Right when she was about to untie the last string, I woke up. I was pissed that my damn alarm clock woke me up.

That was the best damn dream of my life.

Just thinking about it was giving me a boner.

I needed to get out of the kitchen. Fast. And I needed to calm down.

"Um, I'll just see you guys at school. Bye!" I was already closing the front door, not giving them time to respond.

Ugly feet. Rose and Em doin it. Ugly school teachers. Bella. Damnit!

As I walked out to my Volvo, I was trying to think of things to drown out the thoughts of my dream, but Bella always ended up coming to my mind somehow.

On the way to school, I blared the music to where I thought I might lose some of my hearing, and that helped a lot since I couldn't really concentrate on much else.

When I pulled into the parking lot, I noticed that neither Alice or Bella's cars were there.

They're probably just late. I thought.

As the day went on, I still hadn't seen Bella or Alice. Emmett said that she wasn't in second period. I was starting to get anxious.

I was still holding on to a sliver of hope before I walked into Biology. I sat there waiting... hoping that she would just appear beside me. Of course, I had no such luck.

I really wanted to go to her house and see of she was ok, or if there was anything she needed me to get her. I was beyond anxious. I was worried. Very worried. I just get this feeling that something has gone horribly wrong...

I know it's irrational. It's only one day. But one day was enough to drive me insane. I missed being near her. Missed talking to her. Just missed everything about her.

Maybe she'll be here tomorrow. I hope she will.

It's Friday. Bella hasn't been back at all. Alice came back today. I tried pumping her for information, but all she said was that Bella didn't feel well. Alice looked strangely blank, which, even though I had only known her for a few days, did not seem like her. Every time I had been around her, she was always happy and excited. Now, she just seemed... vacant. She wouldn't talk to Jazz about what was happening with Bella either.

I was frantic with worry. I could hardly stand to be here.

I decided that I was going to go over to her house after lunch and check on her. I wasn't planning on telling anyone. But, of course, Jazz sensed something was up.

"Edward, is there something wrong?" Jasper always knew when something was up with me. He always tried to talk to me to make sure I was ok. It gave me some comfort to know that he was always trying to look out for me.

"I'm just worried about Bella. I know she just doesn't feel well. But I think that it's more than that. Even Alice isn't her usual perky self. Something's up Jazz. And I'm going to her house after lunch to check on her."

"Are you sure that's such a good idea, bro?" He looked concerned.

"I have to, Jazz." I knew what he saw in my eyes. He saw pain. Jasper couldn't stand to see me in pain. His pain has always been my pain, and my pain was always his pain.

"If you think it's best..." He mumbled.

I had just a few minutes till lunch ended, and I was getting excited and nervous.

I didn't bother going to the office to sign out. I would just get Mrs. Cope to write me a slip. I know she's got a thing for me, and, quite frankly, it creeps me out. But it also comes in handy.

On the way to her house, my mind was running through tons of terrible possibilities of what could have happened. I was letting my imagination get the best of me.

Before I knew it, I was pulling in her driveway.

I started to hyperventalate thinking about what possibilities i was thinking of that could have happened to her. I took a few minutes to take deep breaths and calm down.

I slowly got out of the car and walked up to the door. With a shaky hand, I knocked on the door. No answer.

I knocked twice this time.

No answer.

"Bella? Bella, it's Edward. Can you hear me?" I called out.

I put my hand on the door knob and twisted it.

The door swung open.

This didn't seem like a great sign.

Everything was dark inside. I didn't know where to start looking for her.

I decided to try to find her room.

There were no sounds in the house. Not one.

I walked up the stairs, figuring her room would be up there. The boards creaked, and then, I heard one of the most painful sounds that anyone could ever make.

I heard a heart-wrenching sob come from farther up. As i kept walking, the boards kept creaking.

Once I was on the top step, it creaked the loudest. I heart a painful sob come from the door to my right.

I threw open the door to find Bella curled up in a ball in the corner of the room.

When I took a step towards her, she let out a blood-curtling scream.

I ran to her and grabbed her by her shoulders.

"Bella! Bella! It's ok! It's just me! It's Edward!" I yelled.

She stopped screaming and opened her eyes. She had tears streaming down her face and her eyes were red and puffy from crying.

"Edward?" She whispered.

"Yes, love. It's just me. It's ok. I'm here. You're ok." I pulled her into my lap, and she started crying again. It almost made me want to cry at how sad she sounded.

"What's wrong, love?"

She looked up at me with those breath-takingly beautiful eyes. She looked scared.

"Edward, he got out. He's going to come for me again." She wailed.

"Who got out? Who's coming?"

She cried harder. I don't know how long I let her sit in my lap and cry, but she finally stopped crying anough to answer me.

"Edward, there's something I haven't told you about my past." The tears started to come harder, but she wasn't sobbing anymore.

She had something in her past, just like me. This must have been the thing Rose told me about where she thought someone had hurt Bella.

"What is it, love?" I asked. I was having a raging war in my mind on whether to tell her about my parents or not.

She took a few deep breaths and looked back up at me.

"It happened four years ago." Her face was very somber.

I could tell that this was not going to be a happy story.

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Sorry I had to leave it there. That was sort of evil. :) but the next chapter is where all the secrets will be out. No more skeletons in the closet!... ok maybe a few! So stay tuned for the next chapter. It will be an epic part of Edward and Bella's relationship! :)

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