Endlessly
Chapter 10
"Do you want this, me?" I stared up at him surprised, speechless. "I can't do this with you and then tomorrow pretend that it didn't happen."
"Jake," I started. How did I tell his glorious man that I had been in love with him for years. "I want you, I want this. I've wanted this for years. I'm not losing you now."
"I'm not going anywhere." He lowered his body to mine, his weight resting heavily upon me. A delicious sensation tore through me as he lifted his leg and slid it between mine pushing me further up onto the bed. I giggled as he wiggled his eyebrows and whispered, "Hi."
"Hi." I stared up into his hooded eyes and felt my world settle there, "I love you Jacob."
"I love you." He lowered his lips to mine. Gone was the angry, pain filled movements from before. I sighed into his mouth as he laced his fingers through my hair gently tilting my head to the perfect position for his thorough perusal of my mouth. I was panting by the time he lifted his lips from mine.
"I'm sorry." He whispered his eyes studying my face as his thumbs ran over my cheek bones.
"For what?" I asked my hands running over every inch of his back, learning how it moved as he did.
"For not telling you before how I felt, for leaving that night when I knew it was you not Jessica that I wanted to be with."
I would admit later that those words has fan my anger slightly but I wouldn't let that ruin the moment now. "It's okay, maybe it was meant for us to wait this long."
He stared down at my lips, "Maybe." He lowered his lips to mine again and I opened myself to him willingly.
He pulled from me again slower than before, and sat back on his knees. He unbuttoned my slacks and pulled them down my legs lifting my legs to his shoulders in the process. He stared down at my black thigh highs and sighed. He ran his hands over the silken material and I felt myself explode with want for this man.
He released my legs, placing them on his hips and leaned forward unbuttoning my shirt slowly. He pushed it off my shoulders before lifting me from the bed with his hand at my back and helped me slide my shirt and bra off of my body. I lay there beneath him, nearly naked until I felt uncomfortable under his gaze and my hands moved to my breast. "Don't." He whispered with a shake of his head.
"But-" Self doubt filled me. I knew how Jessica was built and suddenly I realized that perhaps my breasts were in adequate.
"No." He shushed me and pushed my hands away from my body by lacing his fingers through mine and holding them above his head. My hips rocked as he lowered his lips to my breast, his tongue slipping out to lap the hardened bud. I gasped as he bit down, just enough to push me to the limit between pleasure and pain. I sighed as he lapped the pain away before puling the bud deep into his mouth and again lapped at the now sensitive skin before doing the same to the other.
He released my hands, his hands sliding down my body, as he slide further down the bed. He kissed down my stomach to my navel where he bit the skin above it making my body break out in chill bumps and he chuckled. He kissed the skin below my navel down to the waistband of my panties. He slide his fingers into the material pulled them down my legs far enough that he could see my nether lips. I gasped as he kissed the skin I knew was already moist. Without pulling my panties down any further he slipped his tongue between the folds of my body and I gasped as if shocked. The feel of his tongue so tightly ensconced against my nub as he lapped at it gently pushed me to the breaking point. My back arched as I felt my release building and groaned as he pulled from me.
"Jake!" I whined. I hated the sound of my voice and shook my head.
"Bella!" He replied as he straightened.
"You stopped."
"No, I took a break. I'm coming back." He smirked down at me and slid his finger between my folds and flicked my clit. I jerked in time with his movements and his grin spread wider. He pulled his finger from me and slid the panties down and off my legs.
"Clothes off now." I growled and he shook his head. "Yes."
"No, later."
I shook my head at his dismissal, sat up and slid my hand under his shirt and ran my nails down his stomach slipping in to each valley of his glorious body. He sighed and lifted his shirt over his head and dropped it to the floor.
"Now." I grinned as I kissed him in the middle of his chest. I kissed across his chest to his nipple and lapped at it before biting down on it gently. He groaned quietly and I ran my hands around his sides, loving the feel of the muscles sliding beneath his warm skin. I made my way to the other side of his chest and he pulled me from his body.
He took my face in his hands and kissed me slowly. "Later." He pushed me back down on the bed and I watched as he lowered his body to the end of the bed. "Come here." He palmed my hips and pulled me done the bed until I lay open and exposed to his eyes on the edge of the bed. He lifted my left leg, kissed the inside of my knee then up the inside of my thigh. He lifted my other leg to his shoulder before he wrapped his arms around my legs and opened my completely. I moved to my elbows, the desire to watch him too strong. He lapped at me, my entire body jerked with the sensation and my head lulled back as he sucked the tiny nub into to his mouth. I was already so aroused that it only took a few seconds more before I was back flat on my back writhing beneath his skilled tongue.
He lapped at me until I returned from my high and when I expected him to release me he moved one hand and slowly slid a long digit inside me. I moaned his name as his gifted finger found my spot and slowly circled it, causing my hips to follow his rhythm,
"It's your turn Jake." I gasped trying to keep myself focused.
"Not yet and you're not ready yet." He spoke against my body, the sensation almost too much for me to be able to concentrate through.
"I'm-" I started and gasped as he tapped my spot, my hips jerking in an attempt to keep the pressure of his fingers constant. "I'm ready."
"No, you aren't. Now shut up and enjoy." To punctuate his statement, his finger found my spot at the exact same moment that his lips latched onto my nub again. I called his name as he started pumping his finger into me. I was lost for a moment as he nipped my clit and I lost my ability to breath as he brought me to another earth shattering climax.
I lay there gasping as he stood from the floor. My eyes slowly turned toward him as he pushed his hair behind his shoulders. I sat up slowly my body the consistency of Jello.
"You're turn." I pulled him to stand between my legs and kissed the skin right beneath his navel and he sighed. I slowly unbuckled his belt, and pulled open his top button harshly causing him to grin down at me as he his body moved. I kissed the inch of skin the first button had exposed and slid my tongue under the skin of the coarse denim.
"Don't tease." He growled softly. I looked up at him with a grin and shook my head.
I pulled the next two buttons, pushed the jeans from his hips, my hands moving around to his back. He stepped back from me and pushed his jeans to the floor while kicking off his boots. As he stood in front of me I took in his nakedness and realized that I had only thought Jake was beautiful before. He was breath taking as he stood in front of me. I watched mesmerized as he palmed his cock and stroked it once, twice and then I realized he had been truthful. His massive hand barely covered his cock, and I was no where near ready for him.
"Come here." I whispered as I stood from the bed. I took his hand and led him back to the bed where I pushed against his shoulders. He landed on the bed with a grunt and moved his arms behind his head. I shook my head at the look on his face and knelt between his legs.
I looked up as he shook his head no, "What?"
"Turn around." I know I looked at him like he had grown another head. His grin widened, "Knees here." He patted a spot an arms length away from him but curiosity got the best of me I moved to where he had said.
I wrapped my hand around his cock and licked the precum that had formed at the tip of his cock. I yelped as I felt Jake's finger slowly press into my body, "Jake!" I couldn't concentrate on giving him pleasure if he was touching me like that.
"You aren't ready, now go back to what you were doing." He explained with a chuckle.
"You expect me to be able to do this while you do that?" My brain suddenly went fuzzy as he pulled from me and added another finger.
"Yeah," He replied and I sighed.
"You forget how uncoordinated I am." I grinned as I turned my attention back to his cock. I hadn't had many lovers, but I knew I was good at this, and in turned loved to do it. I slowly licked his cock and grinned as I felt Jake's rhythm stutter. I took his head into my mouth and sucked on it gently before taking as much as I could into my mouth.
"Bells!" he gasped as I relaxed my throat and took as much of him into my mouth as I could. I pulled from his body and repeated the movement again, and realized his fingers had stilled in me. I leaned forward and pushed back on his fingers and he growled.
"God damn." He whispered as I sucked his cock and fucked his fingers. "Fuck it." He growled and pulled from me before sliding himself out of my mouth.
"Jake,"
"Shush." He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me back onto the bed. Before I could complain further he was lowering his body to me, "I'll go slow." He kissed me quickly before straightening and palming my hips. He slid me forward until my hips were against his legs. He lifted my hips and my legs opened as I rested between his legs. He palmed his cock and with one final look up to me he pressed himself against my core.
I sighed as his searing heat pressed into me. He pushed into me and groaned as he stilled. He pulled from my body until only the head remained before pushing back into me slowly, going further then before. He released his hold on his cock and lifted my hips while pushing into me. I gasped as he pushed further and he stilled his movements his eyes flying to my face.
"Don't stop." I forced out through the sensations swirling through my body.
"I don't want to hurt you." He started to pull from my body and I wrapped my hands on his forearms, my nails biting into the skin.
"Don't you dare stop." I ground out, needing him more than I'd ever needed anyone in my life. He didn't answer me, and without a smile he pressed further into me his eyes on my face.
My eyes drifted shut as his hips came to a rest against mine. I was completely and utterly full. I couldn't tell where he ended and I began. I rocked my hips loving the feel of his coarse public hair against my clit and my eyes snapped open as Jake growled.
"Don't move." I noticed then that his arms were corded, and he was holding himself perfectly still.
"What's wrong Jake?" I felt myself tighten against him as I sat up on my elbows.
"Don't move."
"I'm not moving." I wasn't, well I had but I wasn't now.
"Stop tightening around me." Oh! I smiled and found it impossible to not tense when he told me. "Bella!" His eyes snapped open and I grinned.
"Sorry."
"If I come right now like some kind of kid I'm going to be pissed." He growled and I couldn't help but laugh which only made matters worse as I tensed when I laughed.
"Sorry," I leaned back on the bed, slowly this time and relaxed my muscles.
I gasped after a few more seconds he pulled from my slightly and pushed back into me, "So fucking tight." I looked up to find Jake staring at where we were joined as he slowly pulled from me and pushed back in.
Jake pulled from me slowly, his body seeming to draw everything from me, and gasped as he pushed back into me quickly. He released my hips and leaned back over me and rocked his hips against me, his public bone caressing my clit and I saw stars. He pulled from me and started his rhythm. My back arched, and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he pistoned himself into me, slowly at first but gaining speed and power.
I felt my release coming, the warmth that had been settled in my stomach for almost a week now grew until it consumed my entire body. When I didn't think I could handle it anymore he titled his hips, his cock coming into constant contact with my spot and I shattered. I heard myself scream his name as I came, and I felt my nails bite into the skin of his biceps but I could do nothing to stop the release so strong. I uncurled my nails from his arms, my eyes focusing on the faint red crescents I had left in my wake. "I'm sorry." I whispered, unable to gather enough air in my lungs to speak louder.
His hips punctuated his words, "Don't apologize."
"I made-" I started but was stopped by an especially hard thrust from Jake.
"I said don't," another thrust that moved me up further up the bed, "apologize."
I wanted to apologize again just to get another of those thrust, "Sorry." I smirked as he pounded into me, his movements so hard he had to hold onto my hips to keep me from sliding away from him. My release washed over me, and I screamed as the heat consumed me again.
When I had returned from my high I opened my eyes and found Jake's were closed, brows knitted tightly together, his bottom lip caught between his teeth as he pushed into me. His hair stuck to his chest and arms, sweat glistening upon his chest. "Jake," I called to him. His eyes opened slowly, and his thrusts slowed. "I want on top." He stilled a second later.
"Are you sure?" He hadn't moved but I knew he wanted it.
"Yes," I wiggled out from under him, sighing as I felt his fullness leave me.
He moved to the bed beside me and leaned back. I took in his form and felt the heat he inspired within me flair again. "Go slow," he cautioned as I straddled his waist.
"What?" I asked, honestly not paying attention to anything but my need to have him inside me again.
"It will be harder." My eyes shot to his as I grinned, "No, I don't mean that!" He laughed as he palmed my hips, "It might hurt."
"I can handle it." I replied. He nodded but didn't release me as I lowered myself on his length. I realized as I settled my hips against his what he had meant. He seemed even larger this way, and I had to be careful not to rock down too hard or he would bump my cervix. I rotated my hips against his and his fingers went stiff on my hips. "What?" I asked, worried I'd hurt him.
"Nothing," He choked out. I watched him as I started my rhythm. His eyes snapped shut and he groaned, "Holy fuck."
I smiled widely as I realized the affect I was having on him. My movements changed according to what he liked and before long I was panting above him my released just out of my grasp.
I leaned back, and propped my hands on his thighs. I groaned loudly as his thumb found my clit as I rocked back and forth on him. "Come for me, baby." He whispered and as if my body was waiting for his command, I shattered.
I straightened and his hands found my hips again. I felt him tense inside me and I sped up my movements, wanting his release to be as good as mine.
"Bells." He ground out as he held my hips still. He pounding up into me and I felt my head spin at the new sensations that swirled within me. His fingers tensed at my hips, his movements never slowed as I felt him swell within me and just as he shouted my name I felt my release slam into me again.
I fell forward onto his chest an exhausted puddle. He chuckled that boastful male chuckle and wrapped his arms around my back.
A few minutes later, my mind so muddled from his caress I have no idea how many minutes, I commented, "I need a shower."
"So do I." He replied, his hands never stilling their movements through my hair.
I propped my hands on his chest and looked up at his thoughtful face, "What are you thinking about?"
"Us, this." he said looking down at me before propping his head up on his hand.
"What about us?"
"Just shocked it took us this long to get it right."
I shrugged, "It takes time for things to work sometimes."
"I know."
I asked a question that had just popped into my head without thinking about it really, "Do you think that if we had figured this out that we could still be together today?"
He looked down at me thoughtfully, "Yeah, I think so. I mean we've been friends for years and are still together so why not. Why do you?"
"Like you said we've been friends forever, but I don't know. I've changed so much in the last few years."
"Nah, you haven't changed that much, matured but not changed. You are still my Bella, same as always." he smiled down at me as he ran his knuckles down my cheek.
"Love you." I whispered and kissed his fingers.
"Love you too." He slide his hands under my arms and pulled me up his body before bringing my lips to his.