Chapter 10

A Hurtful Reply

(( Here is Chapter 10. In this chapter Ryan asks Troy to come out but Troy says that he can't so Ryan breaks up with Troy. Thanks to everyone that has been reviewing. I love this story and I'm glad that you lot do so here is another chapter. Please R and R and enjoy. Again in this chapter it skips to another 2 weeks. Sorry about all the time changing just if I done all the events day by day kind of thing it would take ages ))

It wasn't hard to find Troy. He was were Ryan thought he was. He was on the Basketball pitch shooting some hoops. Well he was trying to shoot hoops. Out of the 8 balls that he threw only 3 of them went through the hoop. Ryan was frustrated as he could tell. He went up to hoping that Troy wouldn't shun him away.

"Troy?" Ryan asked calmly as he walked towards Troy. Troy stopped what he was doing and he went and hugged Ryan tightly. Ryan smiled as he hugged Troy back. He heard Troy begin to cry and it broke his heart. He hated seeing Troy like this. He rubbed Troy's back softly and comforted him.

"It's okay babe, let it out" so Troy did. After a few minutes Troy pulled back and looked lovingly at Ryan.

"I know I should have expected that it was still a shock to have everyone pointing and whispering"

"I know babe" Ryan moved a bit of Troy's hair out of Troy's eyes. Troy leaned in and kissed Ryan softly on the lips. Ryan kissed back but pulled away before anyone could see them. Troy understood and smiled weakly at him

"How about we skip the rest of the day and go to mine?" Ryan couldn't care less whether or not he got in trouble. He just wanted Troy to be happy and not around anyone that could make him like he is.

Troy nodded "Yeah. We haven't had much time together lately anyways" Ryan held his hand out to Troy and lead him to his car. Troy didn't say anything. He was feeling like it and Ryan wasn't going to force him to. He was just happy that he still had Troy and that the two were going to be spending some time together that afternoon.

As Ryan drove home he kept taking quick glances at Troy he was just staring out of the window. Troy turned and smiled at Ryan "I love you" he said weakly. Although it was weakly Ryan knew that it was true and his heart melted like it always did when Troy told him that he loved him

"I love you too Troy"

Troy slipped his hand in Ryan's and the two spent the afternoon together enjoying the time that they had together.

Before they knew it another two weeks had passed and once again the gang turned up into East High. The weather was dreadful. It was freezing and raining so by the time they got into East High they, along with everyone, was cold and drenched. No one bothered talking about Troy and Gabriella anymore. That was old news. Everyone was talking about Jason and Kelsi getting together. They only ever bothered when it was something related to the Basketball jocks. If it was anything else then it wouldn't be important but because it was East High Basketball players it had to become front page news. The biggest shock that East High had had, so far that is, was when Sharpay and Zeke had started dating. It took everyone a while to get used it but they had and they were happy for them.

Ryan and Troy had grown stronger and become closer since the whole Troy and Gabriella news coming out. Still no-one except Gabriella and Sharpay knew, or guessed, the truth about Troy and Ryan. Each night they would go to each other's house using the excuse that they had a project to do, which by now they do, because in Science they had to do a Chemistry project. Sharpay was always at Zeke's and Ryan and Sharpay's parents were never there so Troy used to spend most of his time over there.

One night Troy and Ryan were snuggled up to each other watching 'Brokeback Mountain' Ryan breathed heavily and looked at Troy smiling. "I love you Troy"

"I love you too Ry" Troy replied placing a soft kiss upon Ryan's cheek.

"Troy can I ask you something?"

"Sure babe"

"Will you come out?"

"Come out where?"

"The closet"

"Were not in a closet Ry" Ryan looked at Toy hoping that he would start laughing. But he didn't. Troy seriously didn't realise what Ryan meant.

"I mean tell people about…about us" Troy's face just dropped and he sat up. He wasn't expecting Ryan to say that

"I-I don't know Ry"

"I don't want us to a secret Troy. I want us to come out together"

"I – I don't think that I can Ry. I'm just not ready"

Troy could see the hurt and the pain that were in Troy's heart and it made his heart break. As much as he would love to tell everyone about how much he loved Ryan and that they were together he couldn't. There were too many things at stake such as his reputation and his relationship with his family and friends. He was scared of how they would react. Would they be okay with it or would they disown him? He wasn't ready, or strong enough, for any of that to happen.

"I do love you Ryan and I would love to tell people about us, it's just hat…"

"It's just that your reputation will be ruined?" Ryan was getting mad. Troy knew that. He could see the way his nostrils flared as he began to get mad. Ryan couldn't help it. He didn't care what people thought, he just wanted him and Troy to be happy but no, once again all Troy could think about was himself.

"That's all you think about isn't it Troy, yourself and your damned reputation?"

"Ryan please…"

"No Troy if you loved me then you would do this for me"

"I do love you Ry. You know that"

"Do I?"

"Yes"

"No I don't Troy. Prove it Troy. For me please"

Troy sighed. Ryan didn't understand. He couldn't just come out and say 'I'm gay'.

"I can't damnit Ryan"

"Then I guess I can't continue with this relationship" Ryan stood up and handed Troy his shirt.

"You're breaking up with me?" he asked as he put his shirt back on

"Looks that way doesn't it?" Ryan had to hold his tears back. He didn't want Troy to see that he was upset about breaking up with him. He looked and saw that Troy was fighting back the tears as well. He didn't want to do this but he couldn't be with someone who wasn't willing to come out about them. All the past relationships that he had had, had been hidden and he didn't want to have another one that was hidden.

"Ry…"

"No Troy, just go"

Troy looked at Ryan and sighed. He wasn't going to argue, he knew that when Ryan made his mind up about something then he wouldn't change it. So he grabbed his jacket and left. When he got into his car he burst into tears. He had lost the one person that he loved just because he couldn't come out. Troy felt as if a part of him had died because he lost Ryan.