CHAPTER 10
"ARRRRRGGGHHHHHHH!!" Eleazar screeched. Oh my god! He was writhing on the floor in pain.
I immediately crouched down to try and help him. "Plleeaasse Jess STOPP!!!" What? Me! I was doing this? Tanya, Kate and Carmen had all rushed outside. "You need to CALM down!" Eleazar shouted. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths. In and out, in and out. It worked. Eleazar had got up off the floor and back onto the bench swing. "What just happened?!" Carmen asked, clearly struggling with seeing Eleazar like that. "Its ok love, Jess just got a bit upset. I should have explained." Why was he blaming this on me? I haven't done anything. "I'm sorry Jess, i should have told you. You see, i know your in pain, and don't try to deny it. Something in your human existence has caused you to have an extra ability. Something that has been tied to your emotions. When you get angry, you can inflict that anger on to somebody else, but you can transform it into pain, which is what you saw happen to me." What? This so confusing! "When you get sad or unhappy, you can make people suffer with you" Eleazar explained. "I have got a feeling that as soon as your pain vanishes, so will your extra gift, but for now you need to control your emotions better. I will try to help you get control of your gift for now, but i do advise that you try and remove whatever kind of heartache your in," Everyone had pity in their eyes. "Jess, what happened to you?" Tanya asked whilst walking over to me to place a hand on my shoulder. I couldn't take it. I didn't want to hurt anyone again. So i ran.
I stopped in the forest, miles from my new home. I started sobbing uncontrollably. Why did he have to leave me? I wanted Edward so much that it hurt. He could make everything better. He could take me in his arms, and stroke my hair and tell me everything was going to be ok. "Jessica?" i heard a quiet whisper coming from behind one of the trees.
"Tanya, please just leave me alone, i don't want to hurt you" I said in between sobs. She came and sat down next to me on the floor. "I'll take my chances," she giggled.
"Please Jess, tell me what happened!" Tanya had been such a good friend, she deserved to know. I was just too ashamed to tell her. How do you tell someone that your love of your life left you because he had better things to do. I would just seem so pathetic.
I guess she would of found out soon enough, but i liked having a fresh start, where nobody pitied me or treated me differently just because of what i had been through. Charlie never acted the same way around me after he left. Charlie. I really miss my dad, and Jake and my home. I swear i will check up on him soon!
I decided to just tell Tanya the truth. Let her make her own judgements of me, instead of misleading her. I sat up, got contol of myself and just blurted it all out in one go. "I fell in love with a vampire and i thought he loved me too but i guess not because he left me all alone and then i was changed by a sadistic vampire who was out to get revenge for her mate who was killed by the vampire i love, Ed... Mike because he was trying to save me!" I closed my eyes and put my head in my hands. Now that i said it like that, i felt like even more of a waste of space. No wonder Edward left me! Tanya hadn't said anything in a while. The suspense was killing me so i looked up. Tanya was fuming! Her eyes were like daggers and it looked like she was about to explode with anger. "I'm going to kill this Mike for what he has done to you!" She started to get up, but i pulled her down again.
"No, please Tanya just leave it, he doesnt love me anymore, you can't force him" I wish she could. God i hopes she doesn't interfere. For one, Mike isn't his real name so she could never find him. Two, because Tanya would probally die trying to kill him for me and three... If she did win, then that would mean Edward would be dead and a world without Edward seems completely pointless. She took a huge breath in and out and said "Im sorry hun, but it hurts me to see you like this. I hear you every night crying, muttering things that i can't understand. I've noticed that you hold yourself together sometimes, and i'm guessing it's because your thinking of him." I turned away and started crying again. Mostly in embaressment: I never realised anyone could hear me when i cried at night. She heard my sobs and came over and put her arm around my shoulder. "Thankyou, it actually feels quite good to finally get this off my chest" i really was. Even though it wasn't the whole truth, she knew the basics.
"Now lets go home before Eleazar combusts with worry. I know he might not show it, but he cares deeply about you, we all do, even Kate!" I giggled at that.
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