The (private) Diary of Connie Beauchamp

by m-is-for-MollyMansfieldMealing

"...writing down your thoughts and feelings is meant to help relieve stress and worry. If this works, I'll be a best-selling authoress in no time." When her position starts to chip away at Connie's tough exterior, she turns to writing a diary to help her get through daily life as the clinical lead of Holby's Emergency Department.

10. Chapter 10

Update! Next chap will be the last... Please review if possible! -Sophie x

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32.10.14

Dear Diary,

I drank my sorrows away again last night. I didn't know what to do. There was this little voice in my mind saying that I wasn't needed anymore, that I wasn't wanted, that I'd be better off dead. I fought it, I fought it all I could but I didn't escape unharmed. Once again, my wrists are scarred and I'm having to cover them from my colleagues.

Grace is with Sam's mother, Audrey for the time being, until I feel I can cope again.

If I feel like I can cope again, because I don't think I ever will at this rate. I'm on a hill and I'm slowly falling down, down, down.

There's no point asking for help, I know I won't get it. There's no point, if they don't want me here anyway.

Yours, Connie.

(P.S- I just have to decide between two names for you know. Which would suit you most?)