Songs of Rephiam & Stevie Rae Chapter 10: Listen to Your Heart, a house of night fanfic

This is another past, present, future fic but this time on Stevie Rae's POV. Starts off from where Burned left off.

Stevie Rae POV:

I know there is something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes (yeah)
You've built to love but then love falls apart,
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark

The world was quiet, only the sound of my feet scuffing the sidewalk. I walked almost thoughtlessly and zombie-like, 'cept for all the moaning, groaning and urge for human brain and flesh. Though inside I felt like a zombie, without the human feeding urge (thank goodness). I wanted to turn back around and run back towards the house in the corner a few blocks back but I can't. I know I can't. I set up a challenge for him, he who is the cause of all of my problems both externally and internally. Shoot. I shouldn't have let him become such a big part of my life, it was all fine and dandy saving him and all, but not all this. I look back once, big mistake. I stop dead in my tracks and completely turn to look down the road. I picture him, as a Raven Mocker and as fountain-reflection boy. I get fidgety. What is it about him? Is it his eyes? The way the red in his eyes shows a hint of humanity and yet that dangerous streak or his deep amber eyes with so much humanity and compassion? I swallow and force myself to turn yet I don't start walking just yet. He was born of Darkness, conceived by rape and raised in the shadow of a powerful fallen angel with anger in his veins and a taste of bloodshed with a tiny pinch of revenge. Though I know he can do better than his father, he can create his own heaven, or completely throw it away and push himself further into the clutches of Darkness with no hope to ever come out of it… I move my foot forward and start walking again.

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There is nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before... you tell him goodbye
(Listen to your heart, listen to your heart)

He's come back to me! He actually came back to me! I feel tears spring to my eyes and I quickly rub them away, not wanting to show signs of weakness towards him just because I'm completely and utterly happy that he's here. I control my wild emotions and walk over to him, holding my head up high, with dignity, strength, perseverance and, ah screw it. I throw myself into his arms and hug him, just happy about everything right now. My happiness grows when his arms wrap around me, softly and gently, but he still hugged back. After the hugfest I pull him away, scared that someone might spot him and all. We talk, quickly, and discussed going to Zoey and the others. I told him that I'd think about him but I had to tell him goodbye when Karishma started calling me. I turned and started walking but he grabbed my wrist, at first roughly but he quickly lessened his grip. "I do not want you to leave again." He confesses and I tell him that there's nothing else we can do now and that I have to go. His eyes closed and he let go of my wrist and my heart started to ache. Karishma's calls got louder and louder. "I have to go Rephiam." I tell him hurriedly. "Just go. Go and I'll come back whenever I can." He nodded once and opened his eyes again to just look at me. Then without another word he flew off into the dark night. I stood in my spot, heart still aching. He didn't say goodbye to me. Karishma finds me and yells at me for not coming to her when she called sayin' that I didn't hear her or whatever. She takes a good look at me and asks me what's wrong. I recover just enough to say that there's nothing wrong before I walk back towards the tunnels.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worth while
The precious moments are all lost in the tide (yeah)
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging... to your dreams
(To your dreams)

"Come with me and he'll go away."

"It's not that simple."

"Rephiam! Do not fail me again my son!"

Rephiam soars towards the humanity thingy and starts fighting brutally. I step back, completely taken away from what I'm seeing. I completely ignore my friends in the corner over there. That doesn't matter now. What matters is Rephiam. He matters and this is the moment. The do-or-die moment that determines whether or not he gains his humanity and is freed from the Darkness or losses it completely and slips deeper in with no hope for him to come out, with no hope of him to stay with me. It's like the tide that can pull you closer to shore or out into sea. In another analysis the shore is me and the sea is his dad and the Darkness. I breathe deeply in and have a sense to urge Rephiam on, tell him to win and be strong and remember what he's fighting for. "Don't leave me Rephiam. Please don't leave me." He seemed to have gained some momentum from that and started to get an upper hand on the fight. Tears sting my eyes and this time I don't bother brushing them off. Let them fall. Let it show my feelings and hope for the Raven Mocker, my Raven Mocker. He wins the fight and he falls to the ground. I run over and pray to my goddess that he's alright. It turns out he's better than alright. His humanity fully gained he looks identical to fountain reflection boy and the humanity thingy. I hug him and he hugs back just as hard as I do and I just know then that this feeling I feel, the one I have been feeling in my dreams has come alive in this moment and this moment belong to us.

Dallas glares at Rephiam. He's not fooled by Rephiam's new look and boy is he pissed. Electricity jumps towards his hands and he looks dangerous. Rephiam pulls me behind him. I try pushing forward, telling him that I can handle it but he stops me with his own words. I back down, understanding his words and I let Rephiam fight for me. He gets a beating at first, being closely similar to a human and all, but then wings gushed out of his back and he stood and totally knocked the fight out of Dallas. Rephiam then finished off by placing a hand on Dallas's throat and pushing him up against the wall. He leaves his fate to me. I walk up and Dallas looks at me and begs me to consider all we did together, all we felt. His words caused a short ping in my heart but it wasn't love or remorse or anything like that. It was a ping of complete and total anger. I breathed and completely eradicated the anger. I think about what Dallas had said and what he had done. I close my eyes to concentrate more and then I got my answer. I opened my eyes again and looked at Dallas. "Goodbye Dallas."

Song is Listen to Your Heart by Cascanda (or at least the version I used I know there's like 50 different artists out there that sang this song).