Chapter 10: Do you promise to love me?

I just wanted to say something that has really been bugging me, so get ready for a long author note…

I just dislike-no hate it!-when people repeatedly comment on grammar mistakes or how grammar is an issue. You want to know why this annoys me? This is because as a fanfiction author, we work hard, we write, and everything to put out entertainment for YOU! For FREE. So, it is very rude to comment things like that, I am very sorry, but I have things to do other than writing and don't always have times to read over my chapter. It's completely unfair when people say such things.

Also, I've been getting many reviews/pm asking why Rose is so scared or telling me to have her stand up to Tasha, ROSE has been through a lot, Tasha's a witch, she used compulsion on Rose all of which worked. So, Rose is scared, she never heard of a Moroi doing all.

Sorry for long caption… todays song is…

Someone to stay; Vancouver Sleep Clinic

You were alone, left out in the cold,

clinging to the ruin of your broken home.

Too lost and hurting to carry your load,

we all need someone to hold…

DPOV:

I walked up to Tasha, and as I did so, she smiled.

"Oh Dimka!" -she exclaimed- "Rose had a smudge of lipstick on her face so I went ahead and helped her fix it, but… I tripped" Tasha said, nodding toward words, and once they made eye contact, Rose nodded.

Does she think I'm dumb? Think I'm slow? Because I am so not falling for that. But instead of saying any of that I replied with "Okay..." and I moved on to sit on the couch next to Rose. I can then see her visibly stiffen and look at Tasha. Ok, this is weird.

RPOV:

When Dimitri sat next to me, I stiffened. Tasha shot me a look and I shot her one back saying 'What do you want me to do?'

We sat in awkward silence for a while until someone called me through the bond.

'Rose?' Lissa called to me through the bond (A/N bond talking starting now, Rose talking will be surrounded with " and Liss talking will be surrounded by ')

"Yes?"

'Talk to me.'

I didn't answer.

'Please?'

I didn't answer.

'Rose!?'

"God Lissa, STOP!" I screamed, becoming annoyed, tired, and fighting tears. It's been a long day and I wanted nothing more than to lay down.

'Rose? Please.'

"Where am I staying while everyone forces me here?"

'There's a room down the hallway from the walkway' she reluctantly answered

"ok."

I got up from the couch, walking toward that direction. Once there, I slammed the door shut. I laid onto the bed, done. I just wanted to go to sleep, and forget about everything. But, of course, my brain didn't let me. I mind wondered off to Dimitri, and the academy. Which only brought back old heartache and I was trying my best to keep my feelings for him closed in, and never to be opened.

I gave up on sleep and decided to look around. The room was very elegant, decorated by a light green and white theme. The curtains looked very royal, but the bed sheets were divine. Very comfy. I got up, and walked over to the window, and looked out to the sunrise. Everyone would be going to bed soon, then I'll be alone.

But, when I looked up at the wall, I saw a picture. It was Lissa and I, on Halloween when we both dressed as fairies. And that's when the tears flowed. With shaky hand, I went to touch the picture, hot tears coming down my cheeks. Old memories and feelings came up and I felt like I couldn't breathe.

I missed everything back then, before the raid of the attack at the academy. Me and Dimitri's feelings were under control, and Lissa was seemingly fine. But of course, nothing works out as planned for me.

With a dry throat and a sudden need of water-still teary eyed-I listened through my door and made sure I heard no noise, a sign everyone left or went to bed. I also found out that Tasha was staying the night, another reason why I can't sleep.

Feeling it was safe, I sniffled back my tears, and opened my door. I quickly made my way to the kitchen and picked up a bottle of water and opened it. Through the sunlight of the curtains I was able to see around the house. I walked to the living room drinking water. But I stopped mid-drink when I saw Lissa and Christians wedding photos. More tears welled in my eyes, but more came when I saw an ultrasound picture, of a baby boy. On it, it read "R.I.P Andrei Dragomir Ozera" and that's when I dropped my water and squeaked out a cry.

I missed so much. I let everybody down. I missed her wedding, her baby-who's gone-I wasn't there for here and my darkness, that I could feel taking over me wasn't helping. I cried some more until I couldn't breathe I screamed a little, and at that, someone emerged from the hallway. "Rose?" I could tell from his accent that it was without a doubt, Dimitri.

He ran over to me, on the floor, and kneeled down to look at me in the eyes. "Roza, what happened?" oh, and that name made more tears stream down.

"N-nothing. I-II-I'm fine" I stuttered out, "But you're not" said Dimitri, pushing a piece of hair away from my face behind my ears.

"Please, tell me what happened Milaya" and I don't know why, or what it is about him, that closed door opened and more tears came down. But without a doubt, I told him what was happening because even after all of these years apart, I trusted him with my life.

"J-just looking around and seeing everything I missed, and seeing-" I stopped, trying to breathe then continuing "and you, today, a lot happened and a lot of feelings came bursting out" I said, meeting his eyes again before letting out a loud shaky breath, holding myself "and the darkness" I cried, more tears coming down my face. "It's all too much. It hurts, unexplainable pain constantly. I just want it to go away" I said, squishing my eyes and using my sleeve to wipe away my tears from my now stained cheek.

"Shh, it's ok" Dimitri said, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me to his chest. It was as if nothing had ever changed with us. No matter what he was there, but I knew for sure if Tasha suspected anything I would have to leave. The though of leaving caused my whole body to shake with fear. I couldn't leave, not again. But I knew I had to, I had to protect Lissa.

He hugged me harder whispering sweet nothings. When I calmed down, he looked me in the eyes, and asked, "Why'd you leave?" tears glistening in his eyes. I wanted to tell him so badly, let out everything that's wrong. Have him protect me. But I couldn't.

"I-I can't say, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for hurting you" I said, more tears coming. "No, no, Roza, I hurt you." He said, causing me to smile. My heart fluttered a little. "Just, please, don't leave me again" he whispered, meeting my eyes with tears. "I-I can't promise that" I said, looking away. He grabbed my chin and made me look at him "Rose, you and Tasha, why are you so scared?" I looked away at his accusation.

"Can you promise me something?" I said, ignoring him. I know I might not have earned the right to ask him of this but I needed this, he nodded. "Can you promise to love me? Even after everything, even if I leave, I just, I want to be somebody to everyone again, I want to be my old self-" Dimitri cut me off but putting his pointer finger to my lips silencing me. "I promise Rose" he said. I nodded and this perfect un-real moment came to an end when I heard Tasha's voice "What's going on-" and I ran. Fast. I zoomed back to my room quietly shutting the door behind me.

In my room, I wiped my tears and am trying to make of what just happened, did that actually happen?

Exhausted of everything, I fell asleep on the bed.

When I woke up, I had a terrible headache.

'Rose, I sense you're awake. I put a fresh pair of jeans and shirt and some necessities for you to shower and get dressed…' Lissa said, and I internally thanked her, I wanted and needed a shower. My only hope was that I'd come out feeling new.

I opened my door to make my way to the bathroom when Tasha walked into my path,

"What happened last night? Huh?"

Hope everyone enjoyed this chapter! Sorry it's short, but next week my Instagram and fanfiction will be back to normal… hopefully!