'That night I was on such a high, the adrenline pumping through me. Well I wanted you there and then, but she was in my locker room. She kissed me and I didn't pull away because I liked it.'
Alicia went to get up and Jeff pulled her back down. He leant in closer to her, their faces centimetres apart.
'I like it because it reminded me of you, she tasted just like you. I wanted YOU and something just took over. I'm sorry. After you saw us, I shoved her away. I tried to come after you and she pulled me back, I shouted at her to get off me. Thats when I found you sitting in the car. When you were asleep did you know you were crying? Because you were and I decided there and then you were way to good for me. I hurt you and for that I will never forgive myself. So I carried you to your hotel room and left. Thats why you found me in the bar, I was telling Matt what a fuck up I was...'
Jeff paused for breath, searching Alicia's eyes for any sign of emotion, they were cold, lifeless even.
'When you walked out on me I wanted to die. I screwed up bad and I knew it. I got drunk every night, well one night Michelle found me and we slept together. I was off my head and we had the crazy idea of getting married in Las Vegas, it was more her idea I just went along with it. I thought she was all I deserved after what I done to you. I woke the next morning and regretted it instantly. Long story short, we divorced. I was craving you. I tried to find you, I looked everywhere. And then I realised you probaly didn't want to be found.' A tear formed in Jeffs eye and when it fell Alicia brushed it away, her features softening slightly.
'When I heard you was coming back, my heart caught in my throat.' He finished
Alicia started to cry too.
'You don't understand Jeff, you hurt me. Really hurt me. I thought you was the one. I...I just don't know.'
Jeff panicked.
'We can make this work Li, we really can.' Jeff spoke quickly now, scraed.
Alicia lightly kissed him on the lips and pulled away.
'Jeff....I don't want to fall in love with you again.'