A/N: Sorry, that last chapter was rushed and a bit psychotic but I'll explain some stuff in this one.

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The Black Residence--

Bella had rushed out of the house that held so many memories, good and bad. Bella had returned to her haven where she stayed with the Blacks. She had gone straight to her bedroom with little in the way of polite conversation. Billy had greeted her as usual, even after all these months. Jacob was out were-wolfing it up with his buddies, now that he knew the news of Bella's miraculous recovery.

Bella was now in her room, curled into the fetal position at the foot of her bed. She was crying softly, having gained new amounts of composure, not allowing herself to sob openly.

Bella had new amounts of strength she never even thought possible. She had had her heart ripped out, her father had been murdered, she had fallen off of a cliff, she had recovered from her coma, she had even told the only boy she ever loved to back off. Yet she survived. She survived. Hah survived my ass. I feel as if I've been skinned raw. There's nothing left of me. How can I be expected to move on? How can I do anything? I haven't got a clue as to how I should go about with my life.

Bella was thinking in circles, nothing was making sense. Why the hell did I crumple when he left? I knew it was coming. I could never have been enough for him. Oh I remember, because he was my life, he still is. I can't believe what I just did to him. I left Edward. What the hell is wrong with me?

Bella was now silent. Not a sound was escaping her but the sound of her breathing. He heart was slow and steady. Thump, thump, thump. She heard something from outside of the window and she jumped. What was that?

"Bella…" A silvery voice called from the shadows, a voice so beautiful and pure she would recognize it anywhere.

"Edward."

"Please Bella. I know I shouldn't have left you. It was wrong. It was the worst mistake of my life. You have no idea how much you mean to me Bella. I would have never left if I knew what it could do to you. I thought I was ruining your life. Maybe I was wrong. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me Bella." He sounds so sincere. I want to believe him. Why did a part of me say to kick him out now? Oh, of course. I want to save myself the pain. I know he doesn't mean it. He is a convincing liar, come with the eternal life. He doesn't love me. He never has. He just doesn't want me to die. How considerate. Don't play into it!

"Edward. I know what you're doing. But you don't have to. I'm a big girl, sure it'll hurt at first, but I can handle being without you. I love you. But I understand it's completely unrequited. And I'll be ok with that in time. You don't have to stick around just to ensure my safety."

Bella watched Edward's face very closely for his reaction. What she saw was [A/N: ok this is totally random but I just noticed that was and saw are the same but backwards. Cool huh? Ok back to the story… not what she expected, his jaw visibly dropped. He began to speak but he words were stuttered and Bella couldn't make out what he was saying.

A/N: Ok I hope all the thoughts helped. Review if you love me!