Chapter Nine:

Three Words, Eight Letters

A month had gone by and everything was almost back to normal. Well except at lunches Reid didn't sit with them and Sawyer didn't go to Nicky's anymore. Reid and Sawyer didn't talk or look at each other it was as if the other one didn't even exist. Reid went back to being the playboy he always had been and Sawyer went back to loving him from a far.

"Will you please come to Nicky's tonight?" Peyton asked holding up a dress to her.

"Uh no," Sawyer answered, going back to her homework.

"Oh come on SD, let's go have some fun like we use to." Peyton said crawling on the bed toward her.

"Peyton no, there's too big of a chance that he will be there." Sawyer said looking back at her homework. He wasn't Reid anymore his name was 'him' or 'he', everyone else just didn't talk about him when she was around although that didn't stop them from talk about the two when they weren't around. "Besides I think I'm going to a movie tonight," she finished. Peyton smiled tightly Sawyer has been fooling around with this new guy for about a week now. Peyton didn't like him, well none of them liked him, but they weren't going to tell her that.

"Oh yeah is Oliver taking you?" she asked getting off the bed and picking a dress.

"Yeah, are you going to be with Tyler tonight? "Sawyer asked with a blush creeping on her face. Peyton looked at her with her mouth to the floor; Sawyer hadn't slept with anyone since Reid.

"Are you kidding?" Peyton asked. Once she said it she wished she hadn't Sawyer looked up at her sad. "I'm sorry SD I just- it shocked me I guess."

"Why?" Sawyer snapped standing up. "It's okay for him to go out there and fuck everything that moves but when I meet a nice guy that likes me I can't be with him?"

"Sawyer I didn't mean it like that, of course it's not right what he's doing but did you really expect any different?" Peyton asked. Sawyer shook her head and sat back down.

"I don't know what I expected. I wish things could back to the way they use to be you know before this shit happened back to when we were best friends and I could always count on him. I guess a part of me wishes he would say he's sorry and come back to me and tell me his real feelings but I know that will never happen." She said to the floor, Peyton sat down next to her putting her arm around her shoulders.

"What would you do if he did do that?" Peyton asked. Sawyer shrugged looking over at her friend.

"I don't know, I would probably tell him he's crazy." She said Peyton smiled slightly. Sawyer's phone buzzed and Oliver had text her saying he was sorry but he had to cancel their movie. She shrugged she didn't care that much.

"Was that Oliver?" Peyton asked. Sawyer nodded going into the bathroom.

"He cancelled," Sawyer said turning on the water brushing her teeth.

"Please come with me," Peyton said leaning against the door jam. She stuck out her bottom lip and clasped her hands together "Pwease?"

"Oh you are going to make me regret this," Sawyer said wiping her mouth. Peyton squealed and jump at sawyer wrapping her in a hug.

An hour later the girls were driving down to Nicky's they had the music blearing with the windows rolled down and the heat on high. Sawyer actually felt good for the first time in a long time. They pulled into the parking lot and Sawyer's heart started to race; she was so scared to see him she hadn't actually looked at him in over two weeks. She huffed and got out of the car she was going to have a good night she was going to have fun with her friends. She walked into the door and immediately found there table they were all sitting there laughing and talking and she was taken back to that night at the dells when she thought that the eight of them would be together forever, little did she know. She sighed and shook her head to get rid of those thoughts.

Reid was standing over by the pool tables watching the door just like he did every night he was here. He was hoping she would come just so he could see her, he hadn't looked at her in two weeks and the image he had of her in his head was perfect, he kept telling himself that he was making her to perfect that she really didn't look as good as his mind's eye showed. And for the first time in a month she walked through the door. He stopped his beer that he was going to drink out of and stared at her, she was beautiful, her hair still sexy wild curls, and her lips still as pink and plump as he remembered. She was even better then the picture his mind kept bringing up when he closed his eyes. She smiled at the table that held their best friends and walked over to them. Her walk was even sexier then he remembered. He just sat there and stared he didn't move or pay attention to anything around him, including the busty brunette pushing her tits into his arm.

"Hey Garwin, wanna play?" Abbott asked holding up a pool cue.

"No," he said then he walked away and over to the juke box. He was flipping through the songs not knowing what he was going to play when a CD caught his eye. He smiled sliding a quarter into the machine. The beat started and he glanced at the table and saw her freeze.

"I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs"

Taylor Swift's voice came out of the speakers and she looked over at the juke box but no one was there.

"And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine."

She looked back at the table and started to trace the wood just listening to the words. She told him that this was her song for him, and he was the only person she told. Tears started to fill her eyes, God she was being so dumb anyone could have put the song on because they liked it. She took a deep breath and composed herself then looked back over at the juke box.

"I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

He'd never tell you
But he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracle"

He was standing there leaning against it staring at her. Gods he really was beautiful, she had almost forgotten what he looked like.

"Yes, I could tell you
His favorite color's green
And he loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him...
if you ask me if I love him...
I'd lie."

The song ended and she got up running out to the parking lot not stopping for anything.

"Sawyer?" Peyton asked as she watched her disappear. She set her drink down and followed her.

"Sawyer wait," Reid said, she stopped at her car but didn't turn to look at him. He stopped several feet away. "I just wanted to see you," he said. She sighed looking at the sky her eyes were filling with tears again and the sky looked about ready to cry with her. She smoothed out her shirt with shaky hands and slowly turned around. She looked everywhere but at him. "Look at me," he whispered, she let the tears roll down her cheeks and looked up at him.

"There are you happy now?" she screamed throwing her hands up. "Get a good look at me, I'm miserable is that what you wanted to know, did you want to see my heart breaking for yourself. Was what happened a month ago not enough for you?" She screamed her face turning redder.

"I never wanted it to be like this," he said. "I just wanted to say that I'm sorry," she scoffed at his words.

"I think it's a little late for that don't you?" she asked sarcastically.

"Damn it Sawyer don't make this any harder on me." He said raising his voice. She let out a dry laugh. The rest of the group were standing on the porch of the bar watching and it started to rain.

"Any harder for you? You had it easy you weren't the one putting everything you had on the line. You were the one who just wanted a good fuck." She said. He was standing in front of her before she could even blink gripping her arm.

"You must not know me at all if you thought all you were was a good fuck." He spat. She ripped her arm from his hand. Caleb was pissed he started to go out to them when Tyler grabbed him.

"Don't CD let them work it out," he said.

"Then what was I Reid? Really I wanna know," she said stepping away from him. She stood there with her arms crossed waiting for an answer but one never came. "That's what I thought," she spat at him.

"What do you want from me? You want me to beg? You want me to get on my knees and tell you that I made the biggest mistake of my life?" Sawyer shook her head and looked away. "Here Sawyer look," he said getting on his knees in the middle of the parking lot in the rain he held out his arms. She looked back at him. "I'm sorry." He screamed, "Gods I am so sorry you were my best friend and the greatest lover I ever had and now I have nothing."

"Stop," she said cutting him off. "Just stop."

"I don't want to," he said sanding up and walking over to her. "I want you to know that I'm sorry, that I want my best friend back." He said rubbing his hands over her arms. She shook her head as tears fell. She couldn't give into him; she couldn't get her heart shattered again. He leaned his forehead against hers. "Please SD I miss you," she choked on a sob and let it shake her. He wrapped his arms around her pressing his lips to her temple then he trailed kisses over her eyelids a down her cheeks and finally to her lips. Slowly she let him kiss her, she didn't know why but for now she wanted him she missed him too. He kissed her softly at first then he pushed her against her car, her hands went to his neck and she gently pulled on his baby hairs. He gripped her hips pushing them into him and he started to kiss her with more hunger it had been way to long since he did this. On the contrary to what she and the rest of the group thought he had been staying at home not with other girls. He slipped his hand under her shirt when she broke the kiss. He didn't try to kiss her again or move his hand he was pushing it anyways. She let out a deep breath and licked her lips. He almost groaned she was killing him.

"Want to hear you say something, three words, eight letters." She whispered. he leaned his forehead to hers he couldn't say that.

"I can't," he finally whispered back. She sighed shakily and moved away from him.

"Then I can't do this," she said getting in her car and driving off. He hung his head and sat down in the middle of the parking lot.

A/N: WOW im so a-mazing two chapters in one day although it has been over a year since I last wrote but no worries I plan on finishing this story within a couple of days! So tell me how much you love me or my story.