I am sorry thatI have been such a slacker in updating this story! I know it is bad when my sister asks me if I have updated the fanfic lol... I swear I will try and update this story atleast once a week! I hope you enjoy it!
Chapter 9
Sam was in her Bughatti on the road back to a place that she never thought she would be going back to. Port Charles held so many memories for her. Both good and bad but her final memories were by far the worst of the bunch. Those were what ran her away. The hurt and betrayal had become too much and it would of killed her if Nikki had not have come and taken her home. Sam smiled. Her sister always knew what she needed and she had never let her down. Sam had to head back to Port Charles earlier than expected today. She didn't even get a chance to take her nap, by the time she got comfortable Gabe came into her room with back round info on Faith Roscoe and what she had been up to and boy was it a doosey. So she quickly got up changed and packed a bag so she could head back to PC and talk to Sonny, Jason and Claudia before the meeting took place. Faith was not a lightweight by any means, she played with heavy hitters and they all needed to be prepared. They needed to immobilize this threat quickly. She had to remember that the point of her going back for Port Charles was strictly business, she had to find out who killed her sister. She had to make them pay. Faith Roscoe and her business partner were impeding that process and Sam did not appreciate it at all. She was still waiting on her phone call as to who faith was working with but she had a feeling that one conversation with Spinelli and she would have the answer in less than 30 minutes. Sam turned on the radio to try and get her mind of off all things PC at least for the time being. She had at least another hour of driving and then she would call Jason, Sonny and Claudia to tell them to meet her at her PH when she was closer to PC but for now all she wanted to do was listen to some music. She flipped the dial on the stereo and Danity Kane came through the speakers….
Do you hear me?
Baby ya gotta believe in the things that make you & me win together
Don't you throw in the towel
I'm keeping my promise to you I got ya back now
When the chips are down
It seems like it's so hard for you to move ahead
Just know that I am by your side
There aint no ifs, buts, or maybes,
I'm gonna stay down and ride for you baby
"Oh Hell no" Sam said as she flipped the dial to Tamia (Stanger in my house).
I'm not sure who you are
Don't see your shadow around when you walk
You leave with no kisses
Good bye with no words
If these walls could talk
They would have nothing to tell
So what could it be
Is there someone imitating me
Could she be taking my place
Look me in the face
And tell me that I'm wrong when I say
There's a stranger in my house….
"Negative" she said to herself as she changed the station again. This time to be greeted by Kelly Clarkson (Hear me)
Heae me
I'm Crying out
It's getting loud
Turn My World
Upside Down
Find Me
I'm Lost
Inside the Crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you
To please
Hear me
"REALLY?!" Sam screamed in the car. "I am going to try this one more time and if another love song, broken hearted poor me song comes on I swear I am going to beat the hell out of the radio with my gun." She said to herself. She had to wonder if she was really going crazy, after all she was talking to herself in her empty car that contained her and her duffle bag. Sam rolled her eyes. 'Get a hold of yourself Samantha' she clicked the knob on the radio to change the station one last time and was greeted again by Danity Kane.
B-A-D-C-H-I-C, lookin' so sexy
Make them bitches hate me
She not me cause there's just one me
I'm the M to the I-double S-Y-E
Lights come on, I tr-transform
Gimme that dick, baby, com-come on
I can do it all night 'til the break of dawn
On-On and on, I keep on goin'
They call me a jezebel cause I freaks, I does it well
Got extensions in my hair, bad girls is ya'll up in here? (Yeah)
Tonight we just gonna let it do what it do
I can put this pretty young thing on you
I ain't lookin' for attention, I just want you
Let me be your addiction, I can be that too
"Hell yeah!" Sam yelled in the car as she cranked up the music and sang along with the words to the chorus pressing down harder on the accelerator as she sped down the highway. I can drive to this, have to make a note to get this on CD, and soon. She thought to herself, as she made her way closer to PC with Bad girls ringing in her ears.
I can be your addiction if you wanna get hooked on me
I-I can be your addiction if you wanna get hooked on me
Maybe I'm just a bad girl
Maybe I'm just a bad girl
Maybe I'm just a bad girl
Maybe I'm just a bad girl, a bad girl
Back in Pc
"I was pregnant when she hit me…I lost my baby and they covered it up…."
"NO…NOOO!" Jason screamed as he picked up the vase that was on the end table and threw it up against the wall shattering it to pieces.
"I DIDN'T KNOW…DAMNIT! I DIDN'T KNOW!" he screamed as he yanked the phone of off his desk, launching it in the air and smashing it to pieces as it collided with the glass doors to his balcony. That one phrase kept playing in a loop in his head.
"I was pregnant when she hit me….I lost my baby and they covered it up…. I was pregnant when she hit me ….I lost my baby and they covered it up….I was pregnant when she hit me…I lost my baby and they covered it up"
Jason flipped his desk over screaming in agony. His chest felt heavy and it rose and fell deeply from the emotions that he felt. He took a few steps forward and dropped to his knees in between the chair and the sofa balling his hands into fists banging them on the floor repeatedly. The pain that was coursing through his body was worse than any pain he had ever felt before. It had taken him a long time to realize how wrong he was as far as he and Sam were concerned, and how his actions were the catalyst for the things that had gone wrong in their relationship but to find out that not only had he pushed her away, broken her heart, and pushed her into another mans arms, but he had inadvertently allowed someone to take her child's life without any repercussions whatsoever. He had allowed her accident to be brushed under the rug along with the death of her unborn child as if it was nothing. How could he of done that to her? Jason rose to his feet angrily flipping over the coffee table. Letting out a guttural animalistic scream he kicked the chair over and flipped the couch onto its back as hot tears streamed down his face. How did he not know… 'Think damnit..think' he thought to himself he thought back to the day that he saw Sam in the hospital after the hit and run…she was so angry, but more than that the look in her eyes was vacant like something or someone had died. Jason closed his eyes and ran his hands through his hair.
"DAMN IT!" He screamed. "Someone did die! Her baby died!" Yet again he had hurt the woman he loved because he had felt the need to protect Elizabeth, Dominique was right no one was protecting Sam she was left to fend for herself. At the time he knew that Sam would be angry but he had honestly thought she would understand after she got over the anger, Jake needed his mother; he couldn't let Elizabeth go to jail, but now knowing that he helped to cause Sam to lose her and Lucky's baby, a baby that he knew that she would have wanted more than her own life, he knew why she had that look in her eye he had helped put it there. Jason crumpled to his knees and wept. Not for him but for the baby that Sam had lost. For the baby that should have never belonged to her and lucky but for the baby that should of belonged to him and Sam. He cried for all the things that should have been, the fact that Sam should have and would have been his wife had he of not tried to run her life, he cried for Lila, and her unborn sister or brother both of whom he should have been chasing around the penthouse and coming home to every night, reading them stories, and tucking them in at night. He cried for the life that he and Sam dreamt about but that he had somewhere along the line abandoned and given up on. Jason looked up towards his ceiling. "What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to FIX THIS!" he screamed his body wracking with sobs.
Jason was so engulfed in his own grief that he did not notice that Carly was standing in the doorway. She had been silently watching him while he had a conversation with himself and her heart broke watching her best friend pretty much, her only friend have what looked like a break down in front of her eyes. For once Carly had no idea what to do. She had no idea what to say, she was frozen. After watching Jason sob to himself for a few more minutes she quickly entered the room quietly closing and locking the door behind her and standing with her back against the door. Jason still did not move at the sound of the lock turning. She took of her coat dropping it to the floor and slowly walked over to were Jason was slumped on the floor in the middle of the debri that was once his furniture. She wrapped her arms around him positioning him so that his head was in the crook of her neck. For a long time neither of them spoke she just let him cry. She was not even sure if he knew she was there because he had not made a move to put his arms around her in return but at that moment she was just determined to be there for him. Given the countless times that Jason was there for her, if he needed her not to make a sound then that is what she was going to give him. Eventually the sobs that came from Jason stopped and he slowly raised his head from Carly's neck. Carly took her hands and placed one on either side Jason's face and wiped the remaining stray tears away.
"Jason" she said in a voice no louder than a whisper. Jason did not look up at her he just looked down at the floor.
"Jason…please look at me..what happened?" Jason slowly raised his eyes from the floor and looked Carly in the eye, but he still did not speak.
"Jase, please answer me you are scaring me, tell me what happened. I can't help you if you don't tell me." Jason just stared at her blankly for a few more minutes and then turned away from her. Carly looked at him stunned. She again did not know what to do she was torn between staying and waiting for him to be ready to talk and calling Sonny. Before she could make that decision Jason got up from the floor and walked towards the door.
"Jason where are you going! Talk to me please! What is the matter?!" she screamed at him, her screaming was in vain because he kept walking until he was out the door not even bothering to take his coat with him, slamming the door on his way out. She got up from the floor and saw what looked like a letter on the floor next to the spot where the desk used to be. She picked it up and noticed the seal on the top of the page. She quickly scanned through to the last page and saw that it was signed from Dominique.
"Why in the hell would Dominique be writing him a letter" she said to the now empty PH. Carly looked towards the closed door and wondered if she should read the letter or call Sonny. She decided to read the letter and call Sonny at the same time well at least that was the plan until her eyes starting scanning the words on the page of the letter. She reached into her coat pocket and dialed speed dial number 2 for Sonny and read the letter as she waited for him to pick up. When he didn't answer she dialed speed dial number 4 which was the number to the coffee house. She had almost gotten halfway through the letter when she closed her eyes and looked up at the ceiling, as the phone rang for the third time.
"Jason oh my God what did you do?" she said."You threatened to kill her?!" a high pitched edge to her voice.
"Yea" Sonny said into the phone.
"Sonny, I need you to come to Jason's house now." She responded halfway hysterical.
"Why? Carly what is the matter?"
"Sonny please don't ask me any more questions just come now, Jason needs us!" she screeched and with that she hung up. Carly continued reading thinking it could not get any worse than that, but then that all important line jumped out at her and hit her like a ton of bricks.
"I was pregnant when she hit me…I lost my baby and they covered it up."
"Oh my God Jason…Oh my God….." Carly ran her hand through her hair and re read that entire paragraph praying that she had misread it. Unfortunately the same sentence smacked her in the face all over again.
"I was pregnant when she hit me…I lost my baby and they covered it up."
Oh my God were the only three words that Carly could say. They were the same three words that she was saying as Sonny knocked on the door 10 minutes later. His knock on the door is what brought her out of her trance. She hurried to the door and opened it.
"Carly what is the big emergency, where is Jason?" he said striding through the door. He stopped mid stride as he caught a look at the state of Jason's pent house. He scanned the room from his right to the left and then back again.
"What the hell happened? He asked barely able to keep the shock from his voice.
"When I came in the room he was talking to himself and was beyond the point of consoling. He has not spoken to me since I got here and I have been here almost an hour. Sonny I have never seen him like this and it is freaking me out. But I do have an idea of what could have caused this but before I show it to you, I need you to know. Do you know the real reason that Sam left? I need you to be honest about why Sam left so abruptly. Her and Jason had been over for a few months and she was dating lucky, why did she leave and not even say good bye to anyone? What the hell happened Sonny?" Carly asked.
Sonny saw sheets of paper in her hands, stationary actually with beautiful handwriting etched on the pages. He closed his eyes and rubbed his temples. Carly's eyes got wide and she took a step back.
"Damn it Sonny! Please tell me this isnt true!' she said waving the letter in front of his face. "Of all the bonehead, asinine, idiotic, insensitive, cruel…" she opened her mouth to continue but was silenced by Sonny's question.
"Carly, slow down what the hell are you talking about?" Carly narrowed her eyes and stared Sonny directly in the eye.
"You know exactly what I am talking about Sonny! Tell me the truth!" Carly yelled poking him in the chest with her index finger "and don't forget I know when you are lying!"
Sonny took a deep breath; he knew that Carly was going to have a conniption when she found out what Jason had done. Not because she was friends with Sam but because she hated Elizabeth and the air that she breathed.
"Well? Start talking Sonny" she said as she cocked her head to the side and crossed her arms the letter still firmly in her grasps." "What the hell happened with Jason and Sam?" Sonny opened his mouth to answer her but before he could respond there was knock at the door. Sonny moved to answer it.
"Sonny you better not answer that door! If you do so help me God!" Carly said through clenched teeth. Sonny paused for a brief second. There was no doubt in his mind that at this very second he was afraid of Carly, but at the same time he needed a minute to think, to see exactly how he was to break the news to her about Jason protecting Elizabeth during Sam's hit and run. Sonny opened the door and audibly cursed.
"Damn it! you have got to be shittin me!…you have the worst timing of anyone I have ever met."
"Well hello to you to Sonny" she said offended by Sonny's less than warm greeting.
"Well if it aint satin herself…..what the hell are you doing here lizzitwit" Carly said blocking Elizabeth's path and her view into the penthouse.
"Not that it is any of your business, Carly since you don't live here, but I am here to see Jason. So if you would move I would greatly appreciate it." Elizabeth said attempting to side step the blonde. And for the first time seeing the mess that was the inside of Jason's house.
"Oh my God what happened here why is Jason's house a mess is he okay? Where is he?! I have a right to know I am the mother of his son!" Elizabeth shrieked.
Carly sneered at the women and snorted before responding.
"This is why you and Jason could never… and will never work. You can't handle what he does, you will never be able to give Jason what he needs. You panic at the sight of some over turned furniture… you don't know how to take care of yourself, and you are the most pathetic excuse for a women that I have seen in my life!" Carly spat. Sonny took a step away from the door forgetting to close it and raised both hands to keep the women apart in an attempt to keep the peace.
"Move!" Carly growled at him. Sonny knew when to heed Carly's warning so he backed up and started turning the couches and the table's upright, as Carly began to circle Elizabeth as if she were a hungry animal stalking her prey.
"You run to Jason for everything as if your life depended on it. If you were to be interrogated by the police you would crack and give up everyone to save your own ass! You don't care about anyone else's feelings or who gets hurt as long as you get what you want."
"How dare you talk to me like that!" Elizabeth whined "You have the audacity to tell me that I don't care about anyone else's feelings?! When have you ever cared about anyone's feelings but your own Carly! You got pregnant by AJ, made him think he had started drinking again and then had sonny hang him from a meat hook to sign away his parental rights, and before that didn't you tear your mother's marriage apart by sleeping with her husband? You are no different than that slut Sam." Elizabeth said with a satisfied smug smirk on her face.
Carly just stared blankly at Elizabeth seemingly un-phased by the words that Elizabeth just said.
'Oh shit' Sonny thought to himself. He knew a quiet Carly was never a good Carly, and proving true to form Carly backhanded Elizabeth so hard Elizabeth screamed and fell to the ground.
"You bitch! Let me explain this to you once, and one time only….You are not a third of the women that Sam or I am! We shoot first and ask questions later! We protect the people in our lives from conniving backstabbing snakes in the grass like you, we don't run from fear we face it, because we realize that by showing fear we are crippling Sonny and Jason from doing what they need to do to keep us safe. You are not fit to be the dirt on the bottom of mine and Sam's Louboutins! Now you have 5 seconds to get the hell out of Jason's house before I toss you out on your flat ass!" Carly shouted.
"I see you still have some fire behind that backhand Carly. Glad to see you are putting it to good use this time." Carly, Sonny, and Liz looked at the doorway at the Exact same time. Liz's mouth hung wide open in shock. Carly grinned from ear to ear, and Sonny was just plain scared at the thought of what Sam and Carly would do to Elizabeth.
"What the hell are you doing here?!" Elizabeth screeched.
Sam rolled her eyes. "I see you are still as annoying as ever Elizabeth, and to answer your question it is none of your damn business why I am here, didn't I hear Carly say to get out before she tosses you out?" Sam asked with an amused smirk on her face. Elizabeth scampered to her feet as Carly took a step in her direction.
"Well it is my business when you are in the home of my son's father..you do remember Jason and I share a child together right Sam? You know the child that you can never have." Elizabeth said a sly smile emerged on her face knowing that she had hit Sam below the belt. For a moment Sam's face drained of color but she quickly regained her composure.
"You know Lizzie any bitch in heat can have a baby but actually mothering them is another story. Still pawning your kids off to try and get laid I see. So where are the boys while you sniff around Jason's? Are they at daycare? You're Grams?" Sam responded as Elizabeth's face turned beet red. Carly exploded in a fit of laughter.
"What the hell do you find so funny?" Elizabeth replied. whipiing her head around to look at Carly.
"You!" Carly stammered through her laughter "Because you have been trying to get back into Jason's bed for over a year and a half now, and have come up short every time!" Carly had both of her hands on her bended knees and her head facing the floor she was laughing so hard. Sam couldn't help but smile, and take a little bit of joy in the fact that Jason and Elizabeth were not together.
"Seriously though I would love to stay and catch up with you Lizzie dear but I really have business to discuss so you need to get the hell out." Sam said with her head cocked to the side a smile playing on her lips, her hands in pockets of her coat.
"You don't live here SAM! You have no right to kick me out of JASONS house!" Elizabeth yelled.
"Dear God do you ever stop talking? Get the hell out before I make that backhand I gave you look like a love tap." Carly said sneering at Elizabeth.
Elizabeth wanted to put up an argument but she had Sam on one side of her and Carly on the other and she knew that she would not be able to argue with the both of them so she turned on her heel and stormed out of the PH slamming the door behind her.
"I need a drink" Sonny said disappearing into the kitchen, do either one of you want anything?
"Water please." Sam replied
"Nope" was all Carly said not taking her eyes of off Sam. She stared at her as if assessing all the changes that happened since the last time she saw her. She looked healthier, stronger since the last time, but in her eyes it was clear even to Carly loss was still there and stronger than ever..
"What the hell are you staring at?" Sam asked scrunching up her face in aggravation.
"You, you look good" Carly said, and she wasn't lying. Sam stood in front of her with her hair in a tight ponytail her bangs falling into her eyes she wore a crème wool pea coat over a pair of light blue low rider jeans that fit her to a Tee, a yellow button down shirt with a crème tank top underneath with a pair of crème and yellow Minolo Blanik boots on her feet to top off her ensemble.
Sam was taken aback, she could not remember one time that Carly had ever paid her a compliment.
"Well you don't look so bad yourself Carly." Sam replied. Carly was always an impeccable dresser that Sam could never deny.
Carly smiled "Well I do what I can." Sonny walked back into the living room with a scotch for himself and water in a glass for Sam.
"Well now that the trash has been taken out, maybe I can finally get an answer to my question." Carly asked still looking at Sam
"Here you go Sam" he said as he handed her the glass. Sam nodded her thanks and then scanned the ph and saw the broken glass and the overturned desk-of which sonny had not had the chance to turn back over yet. Sonny rolled his eyes and looked at Carly.
"Not now Carly! We have business to take care of." He said giving her a pointed stare to back off.
Carly sucked her teeth and crossed her arms across her chest, she was not going to back of off this.
"I wasn't expecting you so soon I figured you would not get here for a couple more hours." Sonny said motioning for her to come and sit down on the couch.
"Well I tried to call you and Jason but I see that his landline is across the room and I can safely assume that he probably had his phone on vibrate still or he has broken it. I also tried calling you but it went straight to voicemail." Sam said as she drank her water.
Sonny nodded "Yeah I am sorry I got a frantic call from Carly, ran over here and turned the phone off."
"So what the hell happened here?" Sam asked. That was all the opening Carly needed and she pounced on the opportunity.
"That is what I was hoping you could clear up for me since Mr. tight lipped dimples over here has not given me a straight answer and Jason ran out of here like a bat out of hell. I need some answers and it looks like you are the only one that will give them to me." Carly said nervously pacing the floor. Sam looked utterly and totally lost.
"Carly what the hell are you talking about?" Sam asked "You have always been weird but this is weird behavior even for you." Sam said.
"Carly Damn it, NOT NOW!" Sonny yelled but it was too late Carly had already walked up to Sam and handed her the letter. Sonny sighed and leaned his head back allowing it to rest on the cushion. 'Great just great' he thought to himself.
Sam looked in confusion at the crimpled papers that Carly pushed into her hand. Then she noticed the one of a kind stationary with the Torres family seal at the top and the perfect handwriting that belonged to Nikki and she gasped.
"Nikki what did you do" Sam moaned out loud, barely audible for anyone to hear. Sam shut her eyes for a split second and then opened them standing from her seat on the couch with the letter in her right hand. As she read the letter Carly could see by her reaction that everything in the letter was true it was like Sam was reliving every moment. She would stop reading from time to time and close her eyes. It was like she was forcing herself to read what was in the letter. Carly never one to be squirmish saw the effects it was having on Sam and she fidgeted in her seat. Sonny had yet to open his eyes though he had shifted on the couch so his head was in his hands, he knew this was going to be bad. Carly and Sonny both looked up as the door opened and Jason walked back into the PH. He had gone to the roof, he needed time to think and as much as Carly wanted to be there for him he loved her but she could not fix it, nor did he feel like answering any of the questions that she would have. When he walked back into the room he saw Carly looking up at him apologetically, she mouthed the words 'I'm sorry Jase' while Sonny looked at him, shaking his head with a look of regret in his eyes. Jason then noticed the movement of an all too familiar figure by the terrace doors. Sam had his back to him and had something in her hand. She pivoted slightly and he could see it was the letter that Dominique had written him, one glance to the floor and he saw the first 3 pages of the letters on the ground near her feet. Sam looked up from the letter at that moment and Jason could see the anguish in her eyes, and he could feel the tension and anger rolling of off her in waves. He wanted to go to her and wrap his arms around her but he was rooted to his spot by the door. He could only stand there and watch her read the rest of the letter in silence, knowing that she was hurting all over again and reliving that horrible time all over again. Finally when she had finished reading the letter she dropped the final page to the ground and turned towards the terrace doors. As swiftly as she turned towards the terrace she turned right back around screaming, launching the glass in her hand towards the wall next to the pool table where the glass shattered into pieces flying across the room. Carly dropped her face in her hands and Sonny just shut his eyes. Jason was the only one who looked at her straight on. Sam stormed towards the door, Jason took a step towards her as if to stand in her way when she stopped mid stride and glared at him, in her eyes he could see the anger hurt and betrayal that rang in them.
"Jason move." She said in a low tone
"Sam please don't…" Jason responded in an almost begging tone.
"Jason…get the HELL OUT OF MY WAY" she barked at him her voice sounding a hell of a lot stronger than what she felt at the moment.
Jason moved out of her way but he was not going to let her shut him out. They were going to talk about this. He just needed to let her cool off right now. Sam had opened the door to the ph and stopped. She turned her head over her shoulder and in an even tone said.
"Meet me at my PH in an hour and a half and we will go over the information that we have collected about faith and her partner"
Sonny nodded in agreement and with that Sam walked out of the PH slamming the door behind her.
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