Chapter 10

Apology Accepted?

Warning: This chapter contains male on male sexual content.

'Do I wanna know…?

If this feeling flows both ways…

Sad to see you go…

Was sort of hoping that you'd stay…'

Brad wasn't even halfway the song yet, but he already knew he should shut the radio off. 'Do I Wanna Know' from the band 'Arctic Monkeys'… he cursed that song. Not that it was a bad song, it was way better than the crap you'd hear nowadays on the radio, it was just… that it reminded him of Adam. He had hoped that listening to some music would feel him a bit better, but it made him feel even more miserable than he already was.

With an annoyed groan he reached over to the small radio on the nightstand and shut it off.

These had been the worst three days of his life. Many hours had passed, but that didn't fix Brad's broken heart. He still couldn't believe Adam did such a thing to him, what he did was absolutely unforgivable. Brad could never forgive him this, not even in a million years. He had destroyed everything between them; the friendship, the trust, but most importantly, the love. This had hurt Brad so much. He doubted he could ever love somebody again, let alone trust somebody. Half an hour… half an hour and Adam couldn't even fucking resist to make out with some slut in a nurse's outfit. No, Brad didn't regret punching Adam on the lip for one bit; it's what that fucker deserved.

But it didn't last long before the side-effects of the heartbreak kicked in. In fact, it already started from the moment Brad went to sleep. He had expected he would immediately fall asleep due to all the emotions he had this awful night, but it didn't happen. Instead, he tossed and turned, not being able to get the memory out of his head. He would doze off every half hour, but would then wake up again. Doze off, wake up, doze off, wake up, doze off, wake up… it repeated itself through the whole night. When Brad woke up in the morning, he noticed that his cheeks were wet with tears. He didn't remember crying in his sleep, but it had happened. During the short periods of sleep the memory wouldn't leave him alone either, as if it was taunting him like: 'You see what your boyfriend did? He didn't love you. He was nothing more than a slut.'

To make matters only worse was the fact that Adam was constantly looking for him to apologize. But unfortunately for him, it was far too late. Brad didn't want to hear a single damn word out of his mouth, he never wanted to see him again, let alone hear his voice again. The best solution for him was to tell him to fuck off and walk away, because every time when he noticed Adam, Brad started to feel the anger boiling inside him. He had tried to apologize to him many times, but if he dared to try to apologize to him one more time, Brad swore he was going to tear his lip open once more. One more attempt to apologize and he would fucking kill Adam. Brad had never been this bitter before. The anger mixed together with the heartbreak and the lack of sleep he had for the past three nights, turning him into probably the bitterest person in the WWE.

Speaking of the WWE… Brad had thought about it. And he had decided.

He was going to leave the WWE.

Brad had enough. He had enough from all of this. The traveling, his failure of a career… but the straw that broke the camel's back was Adam's betrayal. His entire childhood dream had turned into a nightmare, a nightmare he wished to wake up from. He had already figured out how he would end it all; tomorrow, after the show, he would go talk to Vince to put an end to his contract. His suitcase was already packed, he was ready to immediately leave after being released. His dream of ever becoming the next big thing was so completely out of his reach, it would never come true now. Brad would let go of him childhood dream and move on, maybe find a job outside the wrestling business. He didn't care what it would be, as long as he would forget his career in WWE… and Adam.

Brad was sick of it all.

Suddenly, three knocks on the hotel room's door made him look up. The former General Manager frowned in curiosity. 'Who is there?' he asked loudly.

'Braddy… it's me, Adam.'

Hearing that voice and his nickname made a heavy chill run up Brad's spine. Immediately he could feel his blood starting to boil. Was he coming to his hotel room now too, what the fuck?! 'Fuck off, Adam!' he shouted. 'I never want to see you again!'

Standing outside the hotel room, Adam cringed from the inside. Yup, he had already expected a reaction like this. Earlier before, he had entered the hotel with his heart beating rapidly in his chest. This was his last chance to attempt to make it up with Braddy, he shouldn't fuck it up now. He would try his best to let Braddy come back to him, it's all he wanted now. But if even his best wasn't enough for him and he would still refuse… then Adam would let him go. Partying would never be the same without Braddy anymore, but he would try. Braddy had the right to move on, he wanted him to be happy. One last chance… Adam took a deep breath and let out a sigh.

'Please… let me in.'

'Are you deaf?! Fuck off!'

'Braddy, please, just give me chance.'

'No! Go away!'

'Please…'

'Fuck off!'

Adam let out a sigh. Just like he thought, he was still mad at him… even after three days. 'Braddy, listen to me.' he said, his voice now having something sad. 'Please let me in. All I want right now is one last chance to apologize to you. I know I have hurt you, but please, give me at least one last chance. If you still don't want to come back to me, I'd understand. I will leave you alone and let you move on. Now could you please let me in?'

It was quiet inside the hotel room. Brad was thinking. One last chance, he said? Shit, he didn't deserve one single chance. He had thrown them all away when he kissed that bitch. But still… it wouldn't be really fair. Somewhere in Brad's mind, he thought that he should be given one last chance to apologize. Fine. He would give Adam that chance; he would let him talk, but if he finds out that he is bullshitting him, he would kick him out, simple as that.

'Fine. Hold on.' the former General Manager mumbled emotionlessly.

The party animal's heart skipped a beat. He was going to let him in! He was giving him a chance, finally! But he shouldn't be celebrating too soon… he still had to face the confrontation with Braddy, and he was pretty damn sure it was going to be heated as hell. He mentally prepared himself for shouting, tears and harsh words.

Adam heard the click of the lock being unlocked and Brad opened the door. The party animal was slightly startled when he saw his eyes; the baby blue eyes he loved so much were now completely emotionless. There were dark circles under Brad's eyes, as if he hadn't had a good sleep in days. Adam knew the emotionless eyes and dark circles were his fault.

'Get in.'

Adam could feel his heartbeat rising when he stepped inside the hotel room. While the party animal shut the door behind him, Brad walked to the middle of the room and turned around to face Adam. He folded his arms and his eyes started to show a bit of emotion; anger. Brad's glare didn't make Adam feel one bit comfortable. This is it. It was now or never.

'Right.' Brad spoke emotionlessly. 'Speak up.'

Adam let out a soft sigh. No turning back now… 'Braddy… I know I have hurt you, and you should know that I regret it so much. Please, I'm begging you… come back to me.'

Brad let out a scoff, shook his head and curled the corners of his mouth into a mocking smile. 'That's it? That's all you have to tell me, Adam?'

'I know I have fucked up, big time! I want to make it up to you, I want you back!'

'Oh please, shut up. Shut the hell up. You're not gonna get me back like this, you know. You have fucking ruined it, Adam, you have ruined it all!'

By saying those words, Brad had rubbed even more salt into Adam's wound. He knew this was all his fault, and it was tearing him apart for days. He saw the anger in Brad's eyes flaring up.

'How could I have been so goddamn stupid…?' the former General Manager hissed, losing his temper by the second. 'Falling for an asshole like you... I trusted you, I loved you! But instead, while I was out of your sight, you hooked up with some slut! How could you do this to me, Adam?!'

Brad's yell was loud enough to wake up every person in the hotel, it was that loud. It nearly scared Adam, he had never seen Brad that angry. And once again, he realized that all that rage that came out of him now was also his fault. But Brad wasn't done yet. All the anger he had pent up these three days was now coming out.

'You fucking bastard!' he yelled. 'That had to be the worst thing you have ever done to me! I am seriously hurt, Adam! You couldn't have done anything more painful to hurt me!'

'I know that, and I am so sorry for that…'

'No Adam, that's not how it works! Don't expect people to immediately forgive you when you tell them you're sorry, Jesus, what's wrong with you?!'

'I know it doesn't work like that! Fuck, Braddy…'

Brad was right; saying that you were sorry was not some magical spell, people would still feel hurt. Adam was looking for words to say, but there were too many. 'This is all my fault…' he softly spoke.

'Yes. Yes, it is.' Brad replied coldly. He loudly breathed out through his nose; perhaps most of his anger had been out now. 'Who was she anyway?'

'Who? The girl?'

'Yeah, who else?'

Adam slightly bit his lower lip and stared at the ground. 'She… she was my ex-girlfriend. She was moving away to another country and wanted to see me one last time.'

The party animal expected another cold reply from the former General Manager, but it was quiet. What was this? No insults? No screaming? Suddenly, a loud sob abruptly broke the silence. Adam looked up; the sight broke his heart even more. Brad stared at him, tears were flowing down his cheeks. His chin slightly trembled, as if he was about to burst into a crying fit. But that didn't happen. He just stared at him, more tears flowed down his cheeks and dripped off, staining the carpet.

'Did you… still have feelings for her?' Brad eventually managed to croak out. 'You kissed her back… were you still in love with her?'

'No… oh God, Braddy, no…' Adam's feelings for Janelle had completely died, Brad was the only one for him now. He loved Brad more than he once loved Janelle. Seeing Braddy like this made him want to embrace him, he had the strong urge to comfort him. He could never love anybody more than he loved Braddy. He walked towards the sobbing man and wrapped his arms around him, pulling him in for a tight hug. Brad slightly jumped at the touch and grabbed the leathery material of Adam's vest. He clenched his fists in the material until his knuckles were white.

'Get your hands off from me… Don't touch me…' Brad miserably sobbed, but other than grabbing Adam's vest, he didn't attempt to shove him off or anything. The former General Manager was battling with conflicted feelings; he wanted to push Adam off from him, slap him in the face and kick him out of his hotel room, but at the same time… he needed this. He had been so miserable lately, this hug felt like a warm blanket being put around him. But the most conflicting part of it was the fact that it was Adam who was hugging him. The man who had broken his heart… and yet he needed this hug. The former General Manager softly sobbed, his tears staining Adam's vest.

The party animal on his part had ignored Brad's pleas to stop. 'That's not true, Braddy…' he softly said, trying his best to comfort him. 'I don't love her, she doesn't mean a thing to me. You do, Braddy. You are the only one for me. I have always loved you… I'm so sorry…' But the man continued to cry.

'I don't know, Adam…' he sobbed. 'I just don't know…' The former General Manager had no idea what to do anymore. Should he believe Adam? Just then, the party animal started to gently touch his hair, carefully running his finger through the brown tresses. He was doing it again… the gentle touches made the anger slightly fade away, but the faded away pieces of anger were now replaced with confusion.

'Sssssh, Braddy, calm down…' Adam whispered with a soothing voice. He felt Brad's fists clenched onto his vest, but he was surprised he hadn't shoved him off already. While stroking his hair, he could feel tears welling up in the corners of his eyes. Jesus Christ, he had missed this so much. Being able to hug him and touch his hair was a true blessing. Just then, Brad stopped sobbing.

'Adam… I have to tell you something…'

'What is it?' Adam's heart jumped a beat. Was he going to forgive him?

'I… I'm going to leave WWE.'

The party animal's eyes went wide with shock and let go of Brad. With his eyes filled with disbelief, he stared at him. ' W-what?!' he stammered in shock. 'Why?!'

'I've given up, Adam.' Brad murmured. 'My career has come to an end, I can get released at any moment anyway. My dream of becoming the next big has been crushed into dust, there is no way in hell it will ever come true now. And after what you had done… that's when I decided to leave.'

All of Adam's blood drained away from his face. It felt like his heart had stopped beating. Oh God… oh no… not this… This was his fault. He made Brad Maddox, the man he loved, leave WWE because of his actions. Now his chances to get him back were dropped rock bottom. He would never see him again, let alone hear something from him again. If he had refused to come back to him, Adam had expected him to do that by shouting at him and throwing him out, but not like this. He had never expected this, not even in a million years.

'So… does that mean you won't come back to me?' the party animal asked, nearly on the verge of breaking into tears.

Brad looked away from him and stared at the ground. He was conflicted; when he decided to leave WWE, yes, he was still mad at Adam. But now, after that hug... after feeling his gentle touch again… he didn't know what to say.

Adam let out a sigh. He had been preparing himself for this. So this was it, then. It was over. It was all over.

'Alright… I understand.' he spoke. 'I am not forcing you to come back to me, Braddy. You are a human being, you have the right to choose your own path and move on. I will not hold you back. I want you to be happy, and if you feel unhappy about coming back to me, then I want to let you go. All I want for you is to be happy, Braddy. I hope you will have a better life out there, find new love maybe. I shall move on as well. It will be hard, but I will try my best. If this is what you want, I won't stop you. I won't stop you on your path to happiness.'

Brad had absolutely no idea what to say. He wanted to say something, but it was like there was sand stuck in his throat. The green eyes he had loved so much once were now almost overflowing with tears. He had never seen Adam like this, he bet not one of the rosebuds had ever seen him in tears before. The teary emerald green eyes made him heavily doubt his decision… was this really the right thing to do? Would this really make him any happier? He would have to miss those eyes, the touches… everything.

'I wish you nothing more but the best. Goodbye, Braddy.' Adam turned around and walked towards the door. When he was about the open the door, he looked at Braddy for one more time. The man he loved so much… 'But you should really know… I'm so sorry for what I did… I love you… and I will always love you. I hope you can forgive me someday.' Adam pulled down the door handle to exit.

Suddenly, he heard footsteps rapidly heading towards him, a pair of arms wrapping around his waist and something pressing against his entire back. Brad had grabbed him and tightly held him against his body.

'Don't go!' the former General Manager yelled.

'Braddy…' Adam whispered in disbelief. 'What are you?'

'Don't you dare to fucking go!' New tears emerged from Brad's eye corners. 'Damn it Adam... I know you have hurt me… you have broken my heart, but I don't want you to leave!' Adam turned around, facing his emotional lover. The new tears were now flowing down his cheeks. 'During these days I have hated you and ignored you… but still, somewhere deep inside… I still loved you.'

Adam couldn't believe his ears. After all this shit… he still loved him?! This send his heartbeat to the max point, for a moment he was scared his heart would jump out of his chest.

'You… you do?!'

'It sounds completely illogical, but… yes.' It was true. Somewhere, deep inside Brad's broken heart… he still had feelings for Adam. He couldn't believe it himself, but he had. He had hated him so much, but still... there was still some love for him. It may have been not much, but it was still there. Adam had made him feel beloved, something he hadn't felt like in such a long time. With Adam, he felt like he was somebody… The tearful green eyes had brought back the feelings he had for him.

Brad softly nodded. 'I don't want to be unhappy again… and if I'd leave, I would never see you again… I can't live with that thought.'

'Braddy…'

'Adam…'

The former General Manager put his hands on Adam's cheeks, gently pulled him in and kissed him on the lips. The party animal felt lightheaded as euphoria spread throughout his entire body. No way… he had to be dreaming… After three agonizing days of being stuck in a miserable cycle, Braddy had forgiven him… He loved him again… He came to back him… This was a dream coming true! Adam closed his eyes and fully gave in, letting out a soft hum as he kissed back. After a short while, they both needed air. The two reunited lovers stared at each other in a loving gaze. Baby blue met emerald green once more, melting the last bit of ice between them. Immediately they dived in for another kiss. Adam wrapped his arms around Brad's waist and pulled him in deeper, deepening the kiss even more.

He had never felt this happy in his entire life.

With their tongues dancing together in a passionate dance, the reunited lovers practically tore off the clothing from their upper body.

The kisses did not only bring the love back again, but also something else; burning desire. Being kissed so passionately like that after three loveless days would send anyone's desire skyrocketing. Brad and Adam had nearly forgotten how good it felt to kiss each other again, it became nearly addicting. The urge to make sweet love completely took over their minds, it was that strong.

The two lovers fell on the bed with a loud thud as the passion grew bigger and bigger. Just like that one night, Brad fell in love with Adam's kisses once more. He could taste the mix of strawberries and alcohol again, and damn, it was so good. Soon they both needed air and broke the kiss. A thin string of saliva kept them connected as they caught their breath. Immediately after that, Adam pressed his lips against Brad's neck, earning a soft hum of bliss from the former General Manager. Feeling those lips against his skin was all he wanted now, it made his skin crawl in a good way. And it all got better when Adam's hand explored his bare chest and gently pinched his nipple. Brad let out a loud moan and slightly arched his back as he felt heavy jolts traveling towards his groin.

'I want you…' Adam whispered, his voice raw with passion.

'Oh God… Adam… yes…'

The party animal immediately planted his lips on his neck again and pinched a bit harder; all of this made Brad feel like his head was spinning. Letting out a whimper of ecstasy, he grabbed Adam's hair and pressed his face closer against his neck, deepening the kisses. Adam let out a grunt, but not a pained one. He didn't mind a bit of hair-pulling during sex, in fact, he enjoyed it a bit. The kisses turned into licks and hickeys, leaving dark blue spots on the skin.

'Adam… please…' Brad moaned with a shaky voice.

'What is it, Braddy?' the party animal purred.

'Please… I… I want… you inside me… now!' Brad couldn't take it anymore; he wanted Adam to claim his body, right here, right now.

The request sounded like music to Adam's ears. As a response he disconnected himself from Brad's neck, unbuckled his lover's belt and pulled his pants off along with his underwear. He tossed them aside the bed. Brad remembered the first time he was fully naked in front of Adam; he was nervous, but now he didn't feel like that for one bit. No, he was way too horny for that. Adam kicked off his boots and took off his own pants and underwear, tossing them on the ground as well. He wanted to plunge inside Brad right away, but he stopped himself from doing so. He didn't want to hurt him, he deserved a good preparation. Adam doubted there was any lube in this hotel room; he guessed he had to do it the old fashioned way. He gently trailed two fingers over Brad's lower lip. 'Suck.' the party animal mumbled. He didn't even finish saying that word yet and the former General Manager had already wrapped his tongue around the fingers. He pulled them inside his mouth and started sucking on them, making sure they were wet enough.

After a little while Adam pulled the soaking wet fingers out of his mouth. 'Get on your hands and knees.' he said. 'The preparation will hurt less like that.' Brad nodded, got up, turned around and got on his hands and knees. Clenching his fists in the sheets, he bit his lower lip in anticipation. He hadn't done this in quite a while, he hoped it wouldn't hurt too much. The former General Manager softly gasped when he suddenly felt Adam's fingertips against his entrance, followed by a slightly burning pain when the fingers were forced inside him. He hissed in pain through his clenched teeth.

'Are you alright, Braddy? Am I hurting you?' Adam gently asked while moving the fingers in and out.

'I'm okay… I can take it.'

It didn't last long before the party animal found Brad's sweet spot once more, brushing it over and over again, making the former General Manager see white spots in front of his eyes and cry out in pleasure.

After a little while, Adam pulled his fingers out, leaving Brad panting for air while his cheeks turned bright red.

'Oh God… Adam… please put it inside me, now!' he pleaded with a hoarse voice.

'As you wish… Braddy.' With one swift thrust, Adam completely buried his manhood inside Brad, letting out a ragged moan as he felt the hot tightness clench around him. The mix of pain and pleasure made Brad's mind go numb, it was so overwhelming. Wrapping his arms around his waist and resting his head against his lover's shoulder blade, Adam began thrusting at a steady yet fast pace, not wanting to hurt Brad. Jesus, it felt so good to make love to him again, he missed this so much… With every brush against his prostate, Brad could feel his mind going numb more and more. This felt so good, so damn good… He didn't care how loud his moans, groans and cries were, he didn't care if he woke up the entire hotel. Making love with Adam was all he wished for now.

'Lie down on your back…' the former General Manager moaned.

'Why?'

'I… I want to… ride you…'

The thought of it turned Adam on even more. He pulled out and lied down on his back. Brad crawled over and straddled himself on Adam's lap. Letting out a soft hiss of pleasure, he lowered himself on his length; the mix of pain and pleasure returned once more, but this time the pleasure was much stronger than the pain.

'Oh God! B-Braddy!' Adam gasped when the tightness wrapped around him again.

'Yesss…' the former General Manager moaned. He began to ride Adam as if his life depended on it, the brushes against his prostate made him want to go on more and more. Adam's breath was nearly cut off, he had never experienced anything like this before. Holy damn, where did he learn to roll his hips like that? Did he learn it from somebody… maybe from a man? Adam hoped not. But the mind-numbing pleasure quickly snapped him out of his thoughts. Closing his eyes, he enjoyed every single second of this moment, wishing for it to never end. He rested his hands on Brad's thighs while he was still riding him. A thin layer of sweat covered both their bodies as the pleasure flared uncontrollably.

'Adam… I think I'm… I'm gonna come!'

'Braddy… Braddy!'

The party animal grabbed Brad's shoulder and pulled him in for a kiss. Feeling those lips against his, his hand on his thigh and the pounding against his prostate finally made Brad fall over the edge, moaning loudly in the kiss as he came, spilling it all over Adam's stomach. The tightening around him send Adam to his climax as well; letting out a grunt, he came deep inside Brad.

For a moment they didn't move for one bit. Soon they broke the kiss and the former General Manager rolled off from Adam, gasping for air. This had to be the most intense love making session he had in his entire life… With his eyes half-lidded, Adam stared at Brad's face; the sight made him smile from ear to ear. His eyes were closed, his cheeks were colored bright red and the corners of his mouth were curled into the most relaxed smiled ever. So adorable… Adam ran his fingers through his messy hair, earning a soft hum from Brad. The former General Manager scooted a bit closer to Adam and nuzzled his face against his chest. Adam continued stroking his hair, touching those brown tresses was nearly addicting. He paused for a little bit to kiss Brad on the head.

Both lovers were truly on cloud nine. The incident may had shattered the love and trust between them, but on this night, it looked like everything had been repaired between them. Brad didn't feel one bit of resentment towards Adam any longer; he no longer saw a man who broke his heart, he saw a man who made him feel beloved. Once more, Adam managed to make him fall in love with him again. He had forgiven Adam.

This had to be the greatest night of his life. Braddy had come back to him, he loved him again. Adam made a promise to himself to never hurt him like that ever again; from now on he would take more responsibility in this relationship. He had lost Braddy, but he got him back, something he would forever treasure. Feeling Braddy so close to him was a blessing.

It was completely silent between them as they both enjoyed this moment of pure tranquility.

'Braddy?' Adam suddenly asked after a little while.

'Yeah?'

'Are you still planning to leave WWE?'

'Are you out of your mind?' Brad chuckled. 'I'm staying. As long as you are here, everything is alright.'

The party animal let out a soft sigh in relief. Thank God, he wasn't going to leave after all.

'We should tell them tomorrow.' Brad said.

'Hm? Tell them what?'

'That we're in a relationship. They should know.'

Adam nodded. They were in love, the whole world had the right to know that. They wouldn't care if they would receive negative comments; those people were just big lemons. And he was pretty sure the revelation would be positively received by the WWE; hell, if Darren could pull it off, then they could do that as well.

'That's the best idea ever, Braddy.' Adam replied with a smile. He pulled Brad in for a hug and gave him another kiss on the head.

And that was 'Do I Wanna Know'! I do not own the lyrics of the song from 'The Arctic Monkeys'. Thank you for reading and reviewing it, I hope you all enjoyed it. See you next time!