Daphne came home and found me sitting in the living room nursing a glass of wine.
''Hello to you too stranger..''
''Hey…''
''What happened? Is it because of the move?''
''Noup…''
''Enlighten me…''
''I saw Brandon…''
''And?''
''I slept with him…''
She didn't say anything…
''And then I met his wife…''
''Shit…''
''I agree…''
''And now you are drunk?''
''No, this is first one today and probably the only one. I have to pack I have to skype with Michael… So much to do… Oh, and you can stay here. Get Pete to live with you…''
''We'll see.. Slow down… I don't wat to rush into it…''
''Just saying… Just check if he is married…before you rush into something…''
''I love you Callie….But sometimes you are too much…''
''She looks just like me… Like my clone…''
''Who?''
''His wife…''
''Oh, my… Ok… Tell me everything….''
And I did. I told her about how we met, how we got drunk, how we got into our teenage mood and how angry at myself I got…
''I can't believe I did it…''
''I can… You love him…''
''I hate him… No, you don't…''
''I wish I could…''
''I know Callie I know…''
I went to bed early and D packed boxes I started packing. Apparently for next two days I was just so useless that she gave up on me and did everything. Only good moments I had were the ones on the phone with my boy. I missed him so much, especially now after seeing Brandon. She got me ready and back on the plane.
''We'll talk. And now go to that boy of yours and enjoy having him…''
'' I will miss you a lot…''
''I know… I am amazing… ''
I hugged her…
''You are… Thank you so much…''
''Thank you for the chance and my education…''
''You are welcome...''
''Now go hot shot doc….''
I boarded the plane and spent entire flight just thinking about Michael… I missed him so much. Lena and Michael were waiting for me. As soon as I walked out, he started running towards me. He looked just like Brandon. He let Stef and Lena give him a haircut and they cut his hair just like Brandon's.
''Mommy…''
''Hey baby…''
I held my little man and I felt so much better… He noticed I was sad. He smiled and whispered.
''I love you mommy…''
''I love you too baby…''
''I missed you…''
''Missed you too…''
In the car he told me about school and kids there. He loved it and I was happy for him.
''I told Hana to make lasagna for us tonight…because you came home…''
''Oh, how nice... Your favorite food because I came home…''
''Hey, you must say it's a good excuse…''
''I admit, you did think of it well…''
''I know mom…''
He took me to Lena and she hugged me.
''We missed you love…''
''I missed you too… Was he good?''
''Yes, he was. Stef got out of the hospital and he kept her entertained in the afternoon.''
''I bet he did…''
Michael put my suitcase in the car and Lena took my hand…
''She misses him less now when she has Michael… And Mike is crazy about him… It's like they got Brandon back…''
I just looked at her… So, she knew…
''Let's go… I am very tired and he will want my attention…''
''Ok…''
We got into the car and Lena and I kept very casual conversation.
''When are your things getting here?''
''Next weekend…''
''Need help with them?''
''I might… You can bring Stef. She can sit and we can pack…''
''If she comes, Mariana comes too…''
''She is pregnant, she should rest….''
''Did you rest?''
''No, I was all over the place…''
''So is she…''
I laughed…
''Do you know that this one decided to be born when I was leaving the party?''
''Really?''
''Yes, it was huge party and I went there and didn't feel really ok… So a friend walked me to the cab and my water broke and two hours from that moment, this one was in my arms…''
''That was fast…''
''Yes, I wanted to see my mama…''
''Oh, I wanted to see you too… But, most of all…I WANTED YOU OUT!''
''Why?''
''I was huge…my feet hurt, everything hurt…''
''You didn't like being pregnant?''
''No, and let me tell you… Being seventeen didn't make it easy…''
''Sorry love.. Next time will be different…''
I muttered under my breath that there will be no next time…
''Mom, did you get pregnant because you didn't use protection? Were there condoms in your time?''
I chocked…
Lena laughed…
''I wonder the same Callie?''
''First of all where did you get that?''
'' We had sex add class…''
''And YES they had condoms in MY time… And they had them before too…''
''Was I an accident and unwanted?''
''Baby, you were maybe unplanned, but never unwanted…''
''Did my father leave us?''
Lena was looking at me and at him. She felt bad for both of us. She had no idea how much he knew of his dad and what was she allowed to say.
''Love, he never knew of you…''
''Why?''
''He left before I found out I was pregnant…''
''Did he love you?''
I didn't get to say anything, Lena spoke.
''We never realized how much he loved your mom…''
''Can I meet him some day?''
I took a deep breath… Too soon…Too sooon… But again, I had no right to deny my son the possibility to have a father. He needed a father and I wouldn't be denying it to him anymore.
''Yes, if you want to…''
And he was happy. He would meet his father and I was dreading seeing Brandon again. That wouldn't be pleasant encounter. I didn't want to see him. I was so disappointed and hurt. Lena left us in front of the house and we got in. I went to change and Michael went to see if lasagna was done. We had nice meal together and then we watched a movie. He told me he was very excited for the school and things they did there. He loved going to school. He asked me how was my time there, since he knew I went there to school. I tried to tell him some things leaving Brandon out of most stories.
''Is that where you met my dad?''
''No, but we got closer there…''
''What was he like?''
''A lot like you…''
There was moment of silence… I was remembering good things about Brandon and Michael was trying to figure out something he wanted to ask…
''Mom…''
''Yes?''
''Can I ask you something?''
''Sure love…''
''Did you love my dad?''
''I did… A lot…''
''And did he make you happy? Did you smile a lot?''
''Yes, he did… He was very funny and we had a lot of inside jokes… He also played piano…just like you…''
He got a picture from his pocket…
''Is grandma Stef's son my dad? Is this my dad?''
And there it was… A picture of me and Brandon. It was taken after his performance when he got the scholarship. I was in jeans and white shirt and he was in a suit. He looked hot and we looked very happy.