Disclaimer: Thank you so much for everyone that has given me a review for this story! I really love how everyone hates Jo for what she's doing to Kendall
Swayzee Sweatheart - Nah its not cruel, I hate Jo for doing this to Kendall. I love all of your reviews are amazing towards Jo and how much you hate her. But I hope you keep enjoying this fanfic :) I think it's my best one out of the bunch
winterschild11 - Yeah Kendall does need to tell someone about the abuse he's going through, but I guess he wants to remain the 'fearless leader' that everyone thinks he is. There's going to be a lot of angst to come towards Kendall :s sorry!
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Kendall's p.o.v
"Hello sweetheart" Jo's sweet, soothing voice knocked Kendall out of his thoughts rather violently, his head snapping back away from Jo's face because she was so close to him, large icy blue eyes that only Kendall could see, stared down at him, but instead of seeing the disgusted look deep inside Jo's eyes, he was met with a pair of blue eyes that looked sorry. His eyes automatically roamed around her eyes, searching deeper before Jo managed to hide them with a mask that would be difficult to crack
"What's up?" Kendall asked, making his voice sound stronger than he actually felt, because inside, he was a wreck of a person, shaking in the mere presence of his girlfriend, but he made sure that there was no shaking of his body
"I just wanted to talk to you" Jo moved her hand towards Kendall's, lacing their fingers together and beginning to fiddle with his fingers, brushing her delicate skin across Kendall's. He tried not to shiver with the soft contact, almost expecting her to start to punch him into the floor, but there was something different with her, a different aura that seemed to surround Jo's figure
"W-What about?" Kendall couldn't stop the stutter, he made sure that his voice was low enough for only Jo to hear, but she didn't even glance up towards him, not acknowledging that he had just spoken. Kendall knew that she was the dominant one in the relationship, and Jo knew that she had Kendall wrapped around her little finger
"About" Jo paused, glancing up at Kendall with innocent eyes "about going out for a whole weekend away, away from the Palm Woods. Away from the guys" Jo spoke low when she noticed people crossing past them, she watched them walk away
"Where would we go?" Kendall didn't want to go away from the others, he didn't want to leave the safety of his apartment because he knew that Jo would abuse him hard while they were away. But how could he say no to Jo?
"To another hotel" Jo suggested with a shrug of her shoulders, never glancing up
"Another hotel?" Kendall repeated skeptically, not liking the taste those words held on his tongue. They tasted bad, a sickly bitter taste that wouldn't go away no matter how many times he swallowed, the taste wouldn't wash out of his mouth
"Yeah you know" Jo traced his fingers across the back of his hand, towards his forearm and up his arm, making goosebumps coat his arms the second the contact was made "a room, all to ourselves. Have a special night" the last words were whispered seductively, huskily straight down his ear. Without question Kendall was wrenched to his feet by Jo, her long nails digging into his flesh as she dragged him along, past the pool, straight past the lobby, where Logan and Camille were talking, Jo blatantly ignoring Camille as she shouted Jo's name. Kendall tried to twist around to shoot Camille a smile that said I'm sorry, but Jo yanked him harder, her nails slipping in his skin, a sharp blunt pain shooting down his arm, tingling his fingertips before it disappeared, towards the elevator, the ping of the door making Kendall glance up, before he was pushed inside, Jo's body pinning him to the back of the elevator with her whole body. The look in her blue eyes was hunger, but for what, Kendall didn't know
Would it be hunger for sex?
Hunger for Kendall in pain?
He would have to go for the last one, because that seemed like the obvious choice. He ignored the butterfly kisses along his jaw line that were meant to hurt him on, but instead it sent pain, heartbreaking pain knowing that it meant nothing to her, Kendall knew that Jo really hated him, despised him, only using him as a release. The tears started to form in his eyes, prickling at the corners of his eyes before his vision blurred so much that he barely noticed Jo reaching behind him to press a button, the only reason he noticed was because of the ping the button made, the shudder of the elevator stopping dead in the air. Kendall pulled back away from Jo, blinking back the tears to really see her face
"What happened?" Kendall whispered, pushing Jo at her shoulders so that she took a few steps back away from him enough so that he could breathe. The look that shot across her face was anger, with a touch of amusement at the question. She never answered, only moving back towards the doors and leaning against them, folding her arms across her chest, a small smile crossing her lips, tilting them up. Kendall asked again, stricter
"I stopped the elevator" the tone that Jo was using was one of anger, resentment at having to explain herself to Kendall, speaking like he was an idiot "any genius could figure that out"
"Why did you stop the elevator?" Kendall asked, never giving her time to insult him more
"If I was going to hurt you, I would have done it by now" a threat, a serious one at that. Kendall knew not to question it
"So why stop the elevator" Kendall had to grit his teeth, forcing the words out of his mouth, trying not to sound angry towards Jo, the smile had dropped from her mouth as soon as Kendall had spoken. She moved quicker than a snake could strike, grabbing a handful of Kendall's shirt and shoving him hard against the wall, his ears ringing with the sheer force of his head hitting the metal behind him. His vision even blurred, his knees threatening to send him to the floor because they were shaking so badly, a cold, emotionless look deep within Jo's eyes as her upper lip curled up in a nasty snarl
"I just want to tell you something" she hissed in a dry voice, narrowing her eyes and pinning Kendall to the wall harder, her hands lost in the fabric of his shirt, her eyes burning holes in Kendall "you are coming on this trip with me. Whether you like it or not" it hung in the air, heavy enough to force all of the air from his lungs. Panic was slowly creeping into his body slowly as the doors to the elevator opened, and immediately Jo swooped into his side, linking their arms, a fake smile slithering on her face as two girls, that wore way too much make-up for their own good, stepped inside the elevator, Kendall and Jo stepping out at the same time. They never touched
The long hallway seemed to shrink to Kendall's eyes, the hallway and doors stretching out like a horror movie, haunting the one that was centered in the horror, which just happened to be Kendall. Jo was dragging him down the corridor, and for a moment her momentum started to slow down right near his door, and hope blossomed in his chest, until he was harshly dragged back into reality by a harsh yank to his arm, his head spinning
"Come on Kendall" Jo muttered in a low voice, extra giddy to get into her apartment, her hands shaking against Kendall's skin, he didn't know whether it was from wanting to have sex, or something more. His thoughts were whirling like a dangerous tornado of emotions, his eyes never settling on anything, only darting around. The opening of a door sounded some where in the blackness that threatened to enclose around Kendall's consciousness, but he ignored it for the moment, taking a deep, shaky breath to try to control the fear curling up from his stomach, threatening to send bile to raise from his throat and spill from his lips like a river. He swallowed once, twice, three times until the large lump clogging his throat made him breath that much easier. But there was a spark of pain in his knee at the back, forcing him to collapse to the floor from the harsh kick, he almost ended up face first on the carpet of Jo's apartment if he had not put his hands in front of him to stop, his fingers spread out, until a loud crack, the familiar feeling of a bone cracking in his finger echoing around his head, that was until the pain registered. Sharp and painful, Kendall bit back a scream as he quickly withdrew his left hand from the floor to clutch it against his chest, trying to squeeze the pain out of his fingers. The familiar sticky substance of blood coated his fingers, leaking through the cracks of his fingers, he didn't dare to look at the damage Jo caused to his fingers, but he didn't really have much of a choice. Before he could fully get used to the pain that was coursing right through to his fingertips, his hand was yanked from his chest, slammed to the floor only moments later and restrained there by Jo's shoe pinning his hand to the floor. His fingers were not as evenly spaced out as before, but it didn't seem to matter to Jo, because with deadly precision, she swung the bloody bat, already splattered with Kendall's blood, down on another finger of Kendall's left hand, another break as soon as the bat made contact
"Go on" Jo sneered, twisting the bat in her fingers when Kendall dared to look, an evil glint in her blue eyes as she stared down at Kendall "scream. Encourage me more to injure you" Kendall only bit his lip, clenching his right hand that was underneath his chest and out of sight away from Jo, so she couldn't see the true pain that she was putting him through
"No" Kendall snarled through gritted teeth, clenching his right hand much harder so his nails, no matter if they were short, drew blood that trickled down his palm. He didn't look up at Jo's face, because soon he was kicked rather violently in the ribs, his body flipping around so quickly his vision blacked for a moment, but he landed on his back with a small thump, his eyes slowly sliding open to stare at Jo's face, no matter how much hate rid she was throwing into her face. The bloody bat rose above her head for a moment, menacing as the blood glistened on the smooth surface of the bat, before Jo brought it down, once again with precise precision, down at Kendall's collar bone, the bone giving way to the force of the bat. Kendall's body arched with pain subconsciously, but no moan or scream of pain sounded from his lips, only a small grunt and a cough as he swallowed some blood from biting his lip much too hard, the copper taste bitter on his tongue. His left hand was just lying uselessly at his side, doing nothing but flinch once in a while, making pain flare up all down his arm, but another pain knocked his head back against the carpet, his chin going numb from the pain that rocketed across his jaw, Jo looking like a baseball player from the stance. The bat was casually resting on her left shoulder after battering Kendall one last time in the chin
"I'm bored" she spoke bored, dropping the bat behind her back with a series of dull 'thwocks' as the bat fell to the floor "you can go"
Kendall stumbled into the apartment, putting all of his strength into hitting the door to force it open, his left hand cradled to his chest, the full force against the door was done by his right side, he really didn't need to create more pain for himself. The pain was horrid, sparking and dull as it made its way up his arm slowly, numbing it as the pain went along.
Luckily, the apartment was quiet, all the lights turned off, soft snoring coming from both the doors that held three of the four boys of Big Time Rush, and Kendall was glad that no one had woken up because he was crashing and banging around in the apartment, trying to blindly search for the door to the bathroom, he didn't dare to turn on the light, because what if someone opened the door and noticed him with blood covering him? They would freak out, and Kendall couldn't deal with anyone touching him at the moment, because, even though Jo never touched him, each touch would be like a fiery inferno blasting at Kendall's skin. He shivered with the thought, pulling open the bathroom door to slink inside and shut the door moments behind him, he never locked the door
The smooth, cold surface of the sink brought Kendall back to reality, his fingers, on his right hand, were resting against the sink, not clutching, his left still safely tucked against his chest until he slowly stopped putting pressure on the wound, bringing it to his line of sight until he inhaled sharply. His middle and index finger were bloody, the skin broken and pulled back away enough so that Kendall could see the white bone poking underneath his fingers, he flinched when another wave of pain, now he knew the damage that had been inflicted, blossomed from his fingers
"Kendall? That you?" Katie's sleepy, slurred speech made Kendall flinch, lunging back towards the shower like he had been burnt. He didn't try to turn around, keeping his hand away from the sight of his little sister, who stood, well, he didn't know how close she was standing
"Y-Yeah its me, little sis" Kendall spoke, ignoring the slight stutter "go back to bed, you look tired" Kendall tried to make himself seem tired. It was the wrong words to use though
"How can you tell when you've not looked at me" her words were no longer slurred sleepily she must have been fully awake, curious enough to waken fully. Kendall did turn around to look at his little sister, keeping his left hand behind his back so she couldn't see. Her eyes widened in horror, her bottom lip trembling, her mouth opening and closing as if she was about to speak
"What?" Kendall didn't like how Katie was staring at him, so he glanced left at the mirror, and twirled to look at himself fully. Underneath his chin was a large red mark, smooth and circular, but it looked like it hurt, it would definitely bruise. Kendall instinctively rose his left hand to brush his fingers along the bruise, but instead he forced his hand back down
"Looks like it hurts" Katie put bluntly, but there was another emotion that Kendall heard, curiosity, willing Kendall to tell her about what had happened. It was in her eyes when Kendall looked back to his sister to talk to her, pretend that everything was okay with him when, in all honesty, Kendall was breaking inside with all the pressure. Large, doe brown eyes, that did not look sleepy now, stared into Kendall's green ones, they held contact for a long time, neither one of them wanting to look away. Unfortunately, Kendall looked away, raising his right hand to run his fingers through his hair, a small sigh escaping from his lips
"It does" Kendall laughed, but it was hollow, dry, emotionless as it came out of his mouth, completely fake, sounding nothing like he would normally laugh, and Katie must have caught on. She didn't say anything, other than a small sigh of her own, her arms crossing over her chest, shifting her weight onto another leg
"I will find out what's happening Kendall" Katie threatened "and when I do, they won't mess with you again" with no other words, Katie twirled around on the heels of her feet, stomping out of the bathroom, slamming the door hard behind her
Had Katie figured out that Kendall was getting abused?
Disclaimer: Whoa, where did the scene with the bat come from?
But anyway, I hope you've enjoyed this chapter and the Kendall angst!