Thanks guys for the feedback! And I think you all will be a bit shocked this time around? Well at least I think so! Also just to let you all know, I was asked why she had left her car at the hospital, short answer; she wasn't well enough emotionally to drive. I base my oc's off me, so that's where I get my reasonings!
Jax and Tara's baby is missing. The boys are in Ireland. Kip is dead. Gemma is on the lam. Kozik and Tig are at each other's throat. My secret is eating me alive.
Chrissy kept thinking to herself about everything that happened in the past few days. Feeling an overwhelming need to have Hap with her at all times. She stayed up all day and night in case Happy was going to call, in which some days he did. Chrissy needed to escape from here, the smell was too intoxicating, so she hopped in the shower, freshened up then got dressed and put makeup on. Kozik eyed her up, "Damn, darling, who you dressing up for?" She have a shy smile and laughed "No one, just needed to get out." Kozik nodded, "Well if you ever want to go for a fun time, I'm your guy." Chrissy thanked him then walked out of the clubhouse feeling the warm, humid air cling around her but knew it was better than the stuffy smoke smell of the clubhouse. She got into her car and began to drive, and drive, and drive, and drive, until she saw a sign that said Bakersfield 2 miles. She remembered Happy mentioning this place before and that his mom lived in the area. Chrissy pulled over to the nearest phone booth and dialed for the operator, then proceeded to ask for a transfer to a Mrs. Lowman. "We have one in this area, she is currently at the Bakersfield Nursing Home. Anything else that I can currently help you with?" "No thank you." She hung up and typed in the directions into a GPS, only 20 minutes away. The building was peeling yellow, the dark brown shingles sliding off the roof, the doors were a dark oak with stained glass panes. She parked all the way near the end due to most of the spaces being for residences or handicapped, she walked up to the door but hesitated, should she be doing this? "Ma'am? Everything alright?" "Y-yeah. Sorry, I was just thinking." The lady smiled at me then lead me in, "Who're you here for?" "Um, Mrs. Lowman?" "Oh of course, room 10, it's down the hall and to the right!" She smiled and walked down the fluorescent filled hallway, she approach room 10 but hesitated to knock. "It's now or never" she thought to herself. She lightly rapped on the door and heard a tough but kind voice through the door, "Come in!" She slowly opened the door, her whole body felt like it was on fire, "Mrs. Lowman?"
"That's me!" The old women smiled and waved her hand signaling to come in. "Now who are you?"
"I-I'm Happy's girlfriend, I know he's never mentioned me before but I needed to talk to someone. And he's always talking highly of you."
The women shook her head, "That boy really needs to learn some manners, not showing his beautiful girlfriend to me. What a shame it is, what's your name sweetie?"
"Chrissy, short for Christine, I hated it so I always go by Chrissy." Chrissy felled stupid for how much she was rambling. She kept going on and on about the club, that she felt out of place, and before she knew it the women enveloped her into a hug while she sobbed.
"Shush now sweetheart it's alright, no need to cry over a man now," Chrissy looked up at her but before she could speak the woman continued, "he may be my son but hell if he ain't a typical man. He never felt real intimate love with a girl before and if he has, never brought her to me. But it seems to me that if you both didn't have a spark you wouldn't be here talkin'. Never had a beautiful, fierce and intelligent young woman ever walk in here, especially without him."
Chrissy blushed and smiled but didn't say anything. "What do you do when you have a secret that you need to tell but you're scared it'll all be blamed on you?" Mrs. Lowman looked over her with a look of curiosity but continued to say nothing. Chrissy adverted her eyes, "It's just, he sometimes takes things personal, and I'm worried he'll think it was my fault or worse, his. I love him so much and I feel like if I just forged this little detail out from our relationship, we'd be just fine."
"Honesty is what's best. It may hurt everything but if he found out you know, whatever it is you know, and didn't tell him you would both be much worse off." "Let me ask you something sweetheart, do either of you know much about each other?"
"More of his side than mine. I tell him bits in pieces so it's linear but nothing that would change how we view each other. He does things that scare me, intimidate and downright revolt me at times but I could never leave him, because he does this stuff for family. For you, Mrs. Lowman."
She smiled at Chrissy and opened her mouth to say something but a nurse came in "Visiting times are over" then snobishly walked out.
Chrissy frowned, "Sorry to take up your whole day, but there's one thing left I need to tell you, the reason I came up here.
Hap's POV*
"Any word on the kid?" asked Happy
"Nah, Jimmy O, is bein' difficult a' usual," Chibs sighed, "'e must know we're here now, or else 'e wouldn't be hidin out." Jax saulked into the room, puffing a cigarette, Happy follows suit and lit one up. "We'll find 'em Jacky boy, even if it means ma life." Jax nodded to him, silently thanking him.
"Father Ashby called me, telling me some of my dad's cryptic shit about wanting his kids away from the SAMCRO life. It felt as though he was giving me a hint." Jax heard his phone ring and saw Gemma's name in white. "Shit, don't make a sound."
J: "Hey mom, hows it going?"
G: "They're giving Abel up to a new family. The Ashby's are all in on it. You fucker, when I get out of this hospitial I will beat you. That's my grandson for fucks sake!"
J:"I know mom, but please just calm down. We'll get him back safely, alright." He slammed his phone down before she could respond.
"What's up man?" Happy asked him.
"They Abel with a new family. He-he's gone."
"No, we've got Juice, we can track 'em down. We've got yu brother." Chibs patted his shoulder, then went off to look for Juice.
Jax ran his hand down his face, "What a fuckin' nightmare. I wish I'd wake up now. When it rains it fucking pours, part of me blames Tara, she could've stopped them. She could've done something."
Happy grunted but didn't know what to say, "I feel that too some days. But I try to push it away. Because thing I- we are capable of aren't just ordinary, not anyone can just kill others even for survival. She was brave and did what she could, imagine you in her shoes. The first time you tried to kill someone you froze."
Jax was annoyed by how honest and truthful he was, "She really grabbed you by the balls didn't she?"
Happy chuckled, "Apperently." "I'll leave you to it, gotta call the misses."
Chrissy POV*
Chrissy decided to go home instead of the clubhouse, as she was pulling into the driveway her phone rang. The white letters displayed Happy's name and she quickly picked it up.
"Hey babygirl, you staying out of trouble?"
"Always, and you are too, right?"
He chuckled and muttered back a yes. "Have you tracked Abel down yet?" Chrissy asked eagerly.
"Well, it's a process but we figured out he's with a family through and adoption agency. Juice will get the info in no time."
"That's great, I can't wait to see him again." Chrissy exclaimed as she pulled her keys out and began unlocking the door when Happy asked, "Are you locking up one of the dorms?"
She hesitated to tell him she was home, "No,"
Happy figured out quickly that she was no where near the clubhouse, the exact opposite of what he asked of her before the boys left. Happy growled out, "I told you to stay at the clubhouse, it's pretty easy instructions Christine, you stay until we get back. You have any idea what these people can do? We have everyone and their mother going after us or any affiliated with us. You need to fucking learn to do what you're told."
Chrissy felt a wave of guilt and sadness, she didn't mean to disappoint him, she just needed space from the constant smell of alcohol, smoke, and croweaters. Chrissy replies dejectedly, "I'm sorry. I have to go, talk to you later."
"Wait, Chris,"
"What?"
"I love you. I just want you safe, that's all."
"I love you too. Talk soon." she hung up before she started to sob, not wanting to draw attention to how upset she was. She wasn't even upset about him getting mad, more so that she didn't want to be away from him anymore. The club was nice but she couldn't help but think that was the cause of everything. After about an hour she heard a knock on the door but she just layed on the couch, not wanting to get up. The knock kept getting progressively louder until she heard her name being shouted. What the fuck? Chrissy thought to herself. She slowly got up and walked towards the door, she looked through the peephole to see Kozik and Tig. Dammit she thought to herself, I really don't want them here, I just want to be with him and no one else. "We know you're in there, well break down the door." Chrissy contemplated this, would they really do that? To hap's house? But he was probably the one that wanted them over here. Chrissy slowly turned the golden lock, opening the door slowly to reveal an annoyed Tig and a smiley Kozik.
"You guys don't need to stay, I'm fine by myself." She murmered towards them, she adverted her eyes to their worn black boots.
"Happy was worried about you doll, doesn't want you by yourself." Tig replied
"I just-go home, if he calls, then i'll cover for you guys, say you stayed but needed to open TM so that things weren't suspicious. I really don't need protection because no one is after me." Her eyes welled up with tears but she blinked them away, hoping that they didn't notice.
Kozik put his hand on her arm "Hey, you're okay Chris. We just helping out family, anyone in the immediate SAMCRO circle is always protected. He's your old man which makes us family."
Without saying a word she slowly opened the door to let them in. They walked in, complimenting her on how well put together the place was now. Trash, chipped paint had no longer riddled the house, now gray with blue undertones accented certain walls. Chrissy spent months from dusk til dawn to completely renovate this house, even though parts of it were not finished along with the old furnishings, she finally felt at home after awhile. When they took notice, it made Chrissy feel warm inside. "Oh, thanks for noticing. Hap barely did." She said trailing off.
"You guys want anything? We have soda, water, coffee, beer, pretty much everything you could think of." Chrissy chuckled, "We'll have a beer." Koz replied.
She walked over to the fridge and got two beers and herself a water. Silently she handed them the beers then went outside to the deck, feeling the warm yet humid air brush across her face as the cicadas. "Please be safe tonight Happy, please come home." Chrissy said, hoping the Universe would listen and somehow he would be right there next to her even thought she knew it wasn't going to happen.
"He'll be home soon darlin'." Kozik replied softly.
Chrissy gasped, not expecting anyone to come out. He slide the door closed then took a seat next to her.
"He's really worried about you, Chris. I know you keep hearing it but I don't think you're getting it. When you got that tattoo, to club standards it's almost equivalent to a wedding ring to many club members. You keep putting yourself in danger for reasons that leave many of us speechless," he put his arm around Chrissy closing the space between them, "but some of us care about you. You're not alone and many of us would go out of our way just to help you. I've liked you since we've met, the guys always would say something about you but I always stuck up for you. I sometimes wonder why you even picked Happy."
"What are you talking about?" Chrissy asked, feeling wierded out. "He's supposed to be your friend!"
"Yeah, he is my friend but he's an idiot. I would never let anything happen to you, nor would I have left you alone here." His face got closer to hers, Chrissy tried to scoot away but she was already against the arm of the couch. Before she knew it, his lips crashed against her and the alarm bells went off in her head. She tried to push him away but he put his other arm around her waist, deepening the kiss. She sat there frozen until he finally lifted his lips off hers. Tears spilled from her eyes, feeling dirty and disgusting. "What the fuck, Kozik? What was that for? Just go away, please." She tried shoving him again but then his arm tightened around her. Before she could object more he put his lips on hers again, it wasn't until a voice boomed out that he finally pulled away. Tig was standing there, noticing Koziks wild expression and Chrissy with tears running down her face. Tig glared at him with more than just hatred, "Step the fuck away from her man." He rolled his eyes and stalked off into the house. His eyes adverted back to Chrissy who sat there with her knees to her chest, silently sobbing. Tig pulled up next to her rubbing her back, feeling absolutely terrible that this was happening to her.
"Please don't tell anyone, when he comes back, I'll tell him but I wouldn't put it past him to come home. He should worry about Abel, the important issue at hand. Not me."
"Okay darlin'" Tig said,
"I feel so disgusted, it was almost as bad as finding out that I lost the baby." Chrissy hadn't realized what she said at first, not until Tig asked, "What baby?"
Chrissy's eyes went wide, "I-uh, nothing. I'm tired, stupid slip up."
Tig shook his head, "You can tell me, I won't say a thing to him. Granting you haven't told him yet."
Chrissy couldn't help it, she needed to let it all out and she did. Hours went by she cried into Tig's patient shoulder, finally she was able to say a few words. "3 months, I had no idea, I had symptoms but I didn't realize it, all of them had an explanation. I can't stop blaming myself and I know Happy will hate me. What am I going to do? I can't go a day without breaking down, the stress of not talking to anyone is making me worse. I just want to disappear Tig."
"He's more to blame himself for letting you get stressed than anything else, Chris. Trust me. But you have to tell him because I hate to see you lose it and then everything turns to shit. I know we haven't been on the same level but if you need anything Chrissy, by all means I'm here for you. You also need to talk to someone, you went through traumatic after traumatic event. My daughters went through therapy, still psychotic bitches but it helped for a while."
"Actually I do have one but I was too scared to go. Maybe it's time. Do you think you'd come with me tomorrow?"
"Of course doll, but now I think it's time for bed. Need anything?"
She shook her head and slowly got up, making her way to the bedroom.
Alright guys, so rundown: Chrissy was pregnant, Kozik got a bit happy go lucky and Happy's love for her was hopefully seen.
Also I need your guys opinions. Do you like the format of conversations in this chapter or rather just left in chunks? Let me know!