Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. So sad, but true:(
Bella's POV:
My week went by in a flash. Edward and I were the best of friends, sigh. My heart ached for more, but it was a lost cause. Why could my heart realize that? And of course the rest of body didn't seem to get my message either. It happened on Thursday, Edward and I were walking to lunch together when..
Flashback time!!!
Edward and I were walking to the lunch room talking about the weekend when..
"Eddie, cutie pie, wait up!!" An obnoxious voice called from behind. It was so irritating. I knew Edward hated being called Eddie. Poor guy. Edward groaned, frowned and tried to ignore the voice. "Eddie wait!" The girl unfortunately caught up with us. She had fake blonde hair. I knew it was fake because you could see her brown roots showing. I wonder if she dyed he hair to look like Rose? Her voice was over the top nasally sounding. She was probably about 5'6". Everything about her seemed so fake. She caked on make up like no tomorrow. Her shirt was uncomfortably low cut and her jeans too tight. It was trashy. Its not like it helped, actually she looked like a hooker. Edward sighed in defeat and turned to talk to the bimbo/ clone.
"Yes Lauren?" He said in his 'I am very annoyed voice'. Ah, so this is the Lauren Alice warned me about. Ugh! She is absolutely horrid! Poor Edward. Its not his fault for being sexy. And I know that's the only reason she is giving him the time of day. Which of course I'm not even sure she would even know that. She touched his arm and purred seductively. Correction tried to purr seductively. It sounded more like a drowning cat. When she touched him something flared within me. Was it ... jealousy? I've never felt it this strongly before. All I wanted to do was rip her hand off and claim his as mine.
"I was wondering if you wanted to go this weekend?" She attempted at batting her eyelashes, but failed. I tried to stifle a laugh, but I couldn't hold it in. Well lets just say my laughing finally got her to notice me. She glared at me. I guess she was trying to scare me, but I wasn't. I stood up to assholes like her before. I may not look intimidating, but I'm the exact opposite. "What are you doing here?" She kept glaring at me, but I gave it back to her.
"Are you really that dense. I've been standing here the whole time you fake blonde bimbo." It was on. She has no idea who she's messing with. I'm going to show her whose boss.
"I'm sorry I didn't realize. Of course you are easily forgotten. I mean look at how plain and ordinary you are, I bet people over look you all the time." I knew I was plain and ordinary, but her saying it made me so mad.
" Sure I may be plain and ordinary, but at least Edward would rather have a conversation with me, willingly." I smiled evilly at her. I was not finished yet." And at least I can say I still have my real nose." I poked her nose and it just felt fake. Ew gross!She pushed me aside and turned to Edward.
"Let's just ignore her Eddie. So about this weekend." She tried to whisper in his ear, but once again she failed. She massaged his arm, which Edward did not like. I mean all you had to do was look at his face and see him all tense and uncomfortable. I wonder if he would cringe at my touch? Okay stop thinking about that, I need to concentrate. I was going to defend Edward when he spoke.
"Lauren, as I've told you many times before, no I do not want to go out with you. Ever!" He took her hand off of his arm. He relaxed once it no longer had a hold on him. "And Bella is anything but ordinary. She is ten times, no, a hundred times more beautiful than you will ever be." His voice was filled with venom, yet still beautiful. And it was so even, not messing up once, that I almost believed him. I felt my heart soar when he, not only refused her, but stood up for me. I knew he was just being a good friend, but still I was happy that he did. She frowned at Edward, then turned her attention towards me. She glared and scowled at me. I did the same, which scared her. She turned around and swayed her hip way too much when walking away. I sighed in relief as Edward did. This caused us to laugh and I pictured Lauren in my head which caused me to laugh more.
"Eddie." I mimicked Lauren's voice. This caused us to laugh even more. "Edward." He stopped and looked at me." I just wanted to say thank you. You didn't have to say those things about me or stand up for me, but you did. I knew you were just being a good friend." I looked down, completely embarrassed. He's been such a great friend *cringe* to me. I have to get use to that word sooner or later. He put his hand under my chin and made me look at him. His face was soft and open, yet still there was something in his face was unreadable. Oh how I wanted to stroke his face, but sadly I couldn't.
"Bella, I meant what I said. You are beautiful. You just do not see yourself clearly." His words were filled with so much honesty. My heart soared and I felt a warmness surround me. "And it was amazing how you stood up to her. It was quite impressive." He smiled at me. And his eyes sparkled and danced. He pulled me into a hug and I felt my heart beat like crazy. A blush covered my face and I knew he probably felt both. He smelt heavenly. And it wasn't because of cologne or anything, it was just Edward. He naturally smelled like.. I don't even know what it smells like. It's just so unique and wonderful like Edward. Oh how I love this man. When I realized we were still in the hallway, I pulled away. I didn't want anyone getting the wrong idea, for Edward's sake. Of course he didn't let me pull to far away. He was just so strong. We were only inches apart, so close that I wanted to reach up and kiss him. And it almost looked like he wanted to do the same. Ugh! I need to get out of dreamland. I blushed and I noticed we started to move closer and it looked like we might...
"There you guys are come on you two. We save seats for you." Oh Alice! She always seems to have this crazy future telling thing, but yet she always manages to ruin a moment like this. This isn't the first time. Ugh! We separated and I gave Alice a look. Her mouth formed into an 'O' shape. She looked sad and I lost whatever anger I had. Edward looked at me once more and walked to the lunchroom. When he was out of hearing range Alice spoke again. "I interrupted something, didn't I?" I wasn't even sure. Maybe my mind was making it up. Why would Edward want to kiss me? My mind was just playing tricks on me.
"I don't know Alice. I think so, but I'm not sure." I shrugged and hung my head. "I think my mind was playing tricks on me." I sighed and Alice and I started walking towards the lunchroom. In my fantasy world, Edward wanted to kiss me just as much as I wanted to. And that he loved me and wanted to be with me. But like I said fantasy.
"I think he did." Alice said before we walked into the lunchroom. I wished she was right. Oh how I wish.
End of Flashback!!
Now here it was Friday afternoon and I was at the airport, waiting for my two crazy best friends. I told others when they were coming and told them to let themselves in if they get there before me. They had already sent their skateboards over, so we could go to the skate park on Saturday. Dani's board is a BAM Margera and Greg's is a Girl skateboard that says 'Tell your girl to stop paging me'. I bought it for him on his birthday and he absolutely loved it. And Nessie and Jake are going out on Sunday, instead of Saturday so they can come. Both Nessie and Jake are so happy. Jake calls me all the time and tells me. They have talked non-stop and are both excited about Sunday. It is their first date and I know they are nervous excited.
As I sat waiting I thought about Edward. We have been learning more and more about each other. And I've realized how much in common we have. We both play the piano, we like to read, we share a passion for cars and skateboarding, evening some of our food preferences are the same and we like the same music. I remember one conversation where talked about random things and played 21 questions on our way to school. I ended up embarrassing myself multiple times.
Another Flashback!!
Today was Edward's day to drive and after he opened my door and then to his, we headed towards school. I loved our driving time. It was comfortable and it was just our time and no one else.
"Bella. How about we play 21 question so we can get to know each other better." I simply nodded in agreement. "I'll ask a question. And then you'll ask one. Of course I can ask a follow up question, if I choose. Okay?" He turned to look at me. I nodded again and he put his eyes back on the road. "Okay we'll start easy. What's your favorite color?" He looked at me again. I stared into his dazzling green eyes and blurted out my answer.
"Green."I said to quickly. Which made me blush a deep shade of red. I begged the man or woman upstairs in hopes that he would ask a follow up question, but of course he or she wasn't listening.
"I'm asking a follow up questions. If you don't mind." I just nodded, at a loss for words." Why is green your favorite color?" He smiled his crooked smile aka his absolutely sexy smile. He will be the death of me.
"Well, um, green is the color of your eyes." I admitted. My blush returned and I put my head down. Before he could say anything I asked my question. "What's your favorite color?" I looked up to find his eyes on the road again.
"It was green, but now I would have to say brown or red." Hm.. I wonder why the change. I thought I was the only one that randomly changes their favorite color. "Why is that?" I was curious. Why the sudden change?
"Well, I would say brown because it is your eye color. And as for red, well, it is the color of your blush, which is on your cheeks now." I blushed deeper. I noticed Edward sported his own blush. Wow, I've never seen him blush before. And I still don't believe what he said. His colors changed because of me. He lightly brushed my cheeks with the back of his hand and put it back on the steering wheel.
End Flashback!!
It when on like that for the whole car ride. He would ask something and if it provoked a blush he would ask why. And if he would do something that made me curious I would do the same. Edward becomes more and more unbelievable each time we talk. My heart aches for more, but sadly there will never me more. I sighed and looked up to see my two crazy friends come running towards me. I smiled genuinely happy to see them. It felt like ages since I've seen them. Dani dropped her bags and came running towards me.
"Bella!! I'm so happy to see you! How are you? How's school? How's Charlie and your new friends? Did you miss us too?" She said that all in one breath. She hugged me tightly and spun me around before letting me go. As I processed what she asked I looked at her. He bright auburn hair was in a ponytail. She was wearing a purple dress with spaghetti straps, brown t-strap sandals, and I smiled at her necklace (on profile). It was a garden gazebo pendant. I bought that for her birthday. You see her first kiss was with Greg and they ended up kissing in a gazebo behind his house. She told me all about their date, so when I saw that necklace I had to buy it for her. And she never takes it off. She says it will always remind her of not only of her first kiss, but of me.
"I'm good. School is boring as always, but I'm acing as usual. Charlie is fine and my new friends are great. And of course I missed you guys!" I hugged her once more, then looked at Greg. He was not only carrying his bags, but Dani's. "Greg I didn't know you had a burberry suitcase set." I joked with him. Dani laughed and Greg playfully scowled. He gave me a quick hug and hello. I quickly helped him with the bags and headed out to my car. The conversation was light and fun. I missed them and I've only been her for two weeks. I almost forgot the reason they were here until I saw a Volvo and a Porsche in my driveway.
"Well now it's time to see if he has feelings for you." Greg hopped out of my car. Turned and wagged his eyebrows at me and went to get the bags in my trunk. Sometimes I wonder why I'm friends with these two knuckle heads. I helped them with the bags and walked into my house. We went into the living room. Only Alice, Jasper, and Edward were here at the moment.
"Greg and Dani, this is Alice, Jasper, and Edward." I pointed to them. "Alice, Jasper, Edward, these are my crazy friends Greg and Dani." They said their hellos. Dani and Greg pretended that my words wounded them.
"We maybe crazy, but you still love us." Greg gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. I blushed and rolled my eyes.
"Okay well, we'll be right back." I led them upstairs to my room, where Dani put her things. I turned to Greg. "I hope you don't mind sleeping on the couch for tonight. I'm almost finished cleaning up the guest room." I just had a few more things to fix, then I would be done.
"It fine Smelly Belly." I laughed when Dani smacked Greg in the arm. I knew it hurt because I saw a red hand print on his arm. "Sorry Bella."
"It's okay Greg." I touched the red spot, which hurt him. Dani and I laughed as we left him in my room. We went back into the living room and sat with the others. "So what are the plans for tonight?" I asked as Greg came down the stairs. His expression was hilarious. he was trying to hide the red mark, but failed. Alice, Dani and I started laughing at his wounded face and how he was walking. At first Jasper and Edward were confused, but when they saw Greg they joined us. We couldn't stop laughing. We finally stopped when someone knocked on the door. I went to the door to find Emmett, Rose, Nessie, and Jake.
"Hey guys come on in." Emmett picked me up into a tight hug. He wasn't releasing me and I was not able to breathe."'!" He looked at me and probably saw my face change colors. He put me down.
"Sorry,Bella." He pouted and I just had to forgive him. I gave everyone else a hug and led them into the living room.
"Greg, Dani, this is Emmett, Rosalie, Renesmee, and Jacob." They all said their hellos and we settled into an easy conversation. I turned to Dani."So how is everything?" She smiled brightly.
"Well everything is great actually. We have something to tell you." I waited for her to continue. "Greg proposed!" She took her ring from her purse and put it on her left ring finger. It was stunning. It had three round diamonds and a white gold band(on profile)."We aren't getting married till I start college, but still I'm so excited.
"Congrats!" I hugged her, then Greg."And your ring is lovely." Everyone went to look at it and all the girl had their mouths hanging open. The guys nodded their heads in approval to Greg.
"And Bella we were wondering if you would be my maid of honor." I felt so honored that she chose me.
"Of course silly!" I hugged her again. I was happy. Two people I cared about are going to be spending the rest of their lives together. The look of love on their faces when they looked at each other was wonderful. And I wondered, would I ever have a love like that? One that stands the test of time. I hope so.
"I say to mark the occasion we have a shopping day! We'll go to Port Angeles." Alice was practically jumping out of her seat. I rolled my eyes. Alice thinks everything should revolve around shopping. I was never a fan of shopping. I'm a very simple person when it comes to clothes. I guess you could categorize me as a tomboy and on occasion I'll dress girlie.
"That sounds like a great idea Alice." Dani said. "And the boys can stay here and hang out." I knew that look. It was similar to Alice's. She planning something and I had a feeling it had to do with Edward and I.
"Well! Let's get going." Rose kissed Emmett good bye and the other couples did the same. Even Nessie kissed Jake on the cheek. I felt out of place again, but didn't have time to feel any embarrassment because Edward came walking towards me.
"Have fun Bella." I loved how he said my name. He slowly put his lips to my cheek and kissed it. It felt like heaven. That spark between us left a tingly feeling on my cheek. My cheek became hot again and I knew I was blushing. Before I could look in his eyes Alice pulled me away. I wave good bye and was dragged to the driveway.
"We'll take my car." I said hopefully they won't ask me about what happened in the living room.
"Okay." Everyone hopped in and I got in the driver's seat. Alice was able to grab my keys and purse, while dragging me. How she does it I'll never know. The conversation was easy and everyone was getting along nicely. They became instant friends and started using each others nicknames. They weren't mentioning the event that took place and I was glad. I tried to remove it from my mind, but it wouldn't. Why did he kiss me on the cheek?
"So Bella, I haven't been here all that long, but I'm already convinced that he likes you more than a friend." Dani said from the passengers seat."I saw the way he looked at you and then he kissed you." I felt my cheeks heat up. Maybe he did like me. My heart started beating rapidly at the thought.
"He only kissed me on the cheek." My mind would not let me believe that the kiss meant anything. Of course my heart thought the opposite.
"Still! He kissed you!" Alice said from the back. "He could have just hugged you or waved good bye, but no he kissed you." Alice was right again. I sighed, maybe just maybe. The others nodded in agreement with Alice.
"See Bella! Everyone knows you two like each other except you and Edward." Dani rolled her eyes.
"I agree with Dani." Nessie said. "And Alice for that matter." My friends were all right. But still I'm afraid. What if they are wrong? And what if I tell him how I feel and he doesn't feel the same. Dani must have seen the look of worry on my face.
"Don't worry Bella. Nessie, Rose, Alice and I are here for you. And we all agree that he likes you. And maybe loves you." Love? Could he love me? How could he love someone that was so beneath him? Plus there is still Tanya. Why does everything have to be so complicated?
"Okay. But I'm still afraid he won't feel the same." They rubbed my shoulders to comfort me. I sighed and luckily they changed the subject. We started talking about Nessie date as I parked into a space. " Where to first?" I've only been to the skate park here and nothing else, so I have no idea where to go first.
"Follow me. I know the perfect place to get Nessie a dress for her date." Nessie blushed when Alice mentioned her date. We followed her into a small dress shop. Alice, Rose and Dani went to work. Nessie and I just sat there. We both weren't the greatest at picking out dresses. That was their specialty. While we waited Nessie talked about her date. They were going to a fancy restaurant and then Jake has a surprise for her afterward. She was so excited. She had this glow around her. I was happy that I helped with getting them together. When they came back they each had at least 5 dresses in their hands. All different colors, cut and designs. "Try these on." Alice pushed her into a dressing room. The first few dresses were okay, but not what they were looking for. Finally the tenth dress was the one. It was a black dress with a ruched waistband. And the hemline was sequined(on profile). It looked great on her. As we went to the register, Nessie was ready to pay, but Alice insisted on paying.
"Alice you don't have to." Nessie told her. She was like me in that way. She didn't want people to waste there money on her.
"No Nessie I insist." And there was no more arguing after that. It was settled Alice would pay. After that Alice dragged us to a shoe store to get the perfect shoes for the dress. And once again that had so many different shoes. we finally found the perfect shoes after what seemed like hours. They were purple suede heels. Then we found her a sequin bow clutch bag, an amethyst heart necklace and a black and whit pearl bracelet (on profile). And once again Alice paid. After that we decided to head back. The conversation centered around tomorrows plans and Nessie's date on Sunday. Nessie would be getting ready at Alice's house and Jake is picking her up there. With my friends here I was almost able to forget about all the complications. Of course it was still there in the back of my mind. No matter how hard I tried Edward could never be removed from my mind. He was a constant in my thoughts. Now that I've met him, I can't live without him. And I don't want to live without him. I have enjoyed all the times we've spent together. Even when we disagree on something I still love it. With Edward, I don't care where are or what we are doing, just as long as I'm near him. As we near my house I had Alice call for pizza. And Alice also called Charlie and told him, so he would be ready when they came.
When we finally made it back the pizza guy had just left. We knew we had to run, so we would actually get a slice. Alice and Rose grabbed the bags, quickly put them in Alice's trunk and we made a run for it. The boys looked at us as if we had gone insane.
"What? With Em here we were afraid we might not get any." Emmett just shrugged and agreed with me. We sat around talking and eating pizza. Charlie eventually went to bed, saying goodnight on the way up. We all continued talking and everyone was getting along well. I just enjoyed seeing all of my friends at ease and talking freely. It made me happy to see them happy. If you would have seen us you would have thought we've been friends are whole lives. When actually I've only known some of them for two weeks. Dani and Greg just met them a few hours ago. We said goodnight around eleven and said we meet at the park around eleven tomorrow. After hugging everyone goodnight and cleaning up the living room I realized how tired I was. I helped Greg set up his bed for the night and gave him a hug.
"Goodnight Bella."Greg laid down on the couch. Dani kissed him on the cheek. "Bella that boy has it bad for you." He smiled while I rolled my eyes. "I'm serious. He didn't even have to say anything and I knew. I mean practically looked at you most of the night. And when you left, its like you took a part of him with you." My friends are telling me how much he loves me, but I don't believe it. My heart does but my mind doesn't.
"I feel the same about him. I just don't see why or how he could like or maybe love someone like me." I sat down next to Greg.
"Bella hon, you are such a wonderful and beautiful person. He would be a fool not to fall in love with you." Dani rubbed my back. "And I can see why you would fall for a guy like him. He's sweet, charming, intelligent, and he just happens to be gorgeous." Dani and I giggled like little girls. She always knows how to cheer me up.
"Um excuse me wonderful fiancee here." Greg pretended to be insulted. Dani kissed him and just rolled her eyes. We said good night and headed upstairs. We settled into bed and sleep was coming when Dani woke me up.
"Hey Bella, I just wanted to tell you something." I waited for her to continue."I think you should tell Edward how you feel. Take that leap of faith. It worked for me." She smiled probably remembering when she told Greg how she felt."And I agree with Greg. He is crazy about you." With that she crawled into her sleeping bag and immediately fell asleep. I laid awake, thinking. I should take the first step and take a chance. If it meant risking our friendship, then so be it. I knew deep in my heart friendship would never be enough, I wanted more. And I think Edward does too. And someones got to make the first move right? The first chance I get I'm telling him. And I will not back down. I'm going to follow my heart . I am not going to be a shitless coward and wait for him to say anything. With that declaration, I drifted off to sleep.
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