I am honestly so sorry for not updating, as i have told many of you that have reviewed, i hope this slightly makes up
I do intend to finish this fic, once again I'm sorry:(

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-kiwixpsychedelic

[Bella's POV]

Jacob was such an amazing person. I had so much fun with him at the club while we ate a very delicious dessert. He was sweet and funny and he genuinely didn't have a problem with my scars. I knew it was wrong of me pushing Edward away, but I had good intentions. Tanya was just the perfect woman, and as much as Edward promised me his love. He was human, and it was only natural for him to break his promises. Jacob was better for me, he could see me and it didn't matter. I just hope I could love him as much as I already loved Edward.

Once we had finished our dessert we headed over to the bar to tell Alice and Jasper we were leaving. We found them sitting together talking and laughing.

"Alice, I'm going to take off with Jacob!" I slightly yelled over the loud music. Alice looked at me with joy and hugged me tightly.

"Have a nice time Bella, he's a good guy," she said in to my ear so I could hear her. I only smiled and nodded. Jacob was talking to Jasper when I noticed him.

Walking down the stairs of the VIP floor was Edward with his arm wrapped around Tanya. She was whispering in to his ear and nipping at his neck. He would only smile his perfect crooked smile and answer. This was what I wanted for him, but why did I feel so bad? I felt the urge to go up to her and rip her perfect hair out of her perfect scalp.

"Bella!" I heard Jacob call my name interrupting my negative thoughts. I looked at him and tried to smile. But when I saw Alice I saw her frown slightly.

"Let's go before it gets too late!" I yelled at Jacob trying to get out of there as fast as possible. We said our last goodbyes as we left the luxurious night club.

After a slightly long cab ride we arrived at Jacob's flat. It looked very expensive, which made it very aware to me that Jacob earned a lot of money. He led me to his warm living room close to a beautiful fire place. We both sat on a chic black leather couch with a thick electric blanket. Jacob was on his back and I was lying on top of him.

"Are you comfortable?" he asked me caressing my chin.

"Yeah, thanks for the blanket," I told him feeling my cheeks get warm.

"Now I don't want to be nosey, and I know this is just our first date but, did Edward and you have a thing?" he asked.

"No, I just met him less than 3 days ago," I answered honestly. Edward and I never really started an "official" thing. We were just caught up in-between pent up sexual frustration.

"That's all I needed to know," he said wrapping his hand around mine and bringing it up to his lips. He kissed it softly, sending shivers down my spine.

"So anything you want to do?" he asked me biting my fingers playfully. I giggled trying to pull my hand away. He quickly started to tickle my sides, and soon we were having a childish tickle fight.

"Stop Jacob, I give up!" I could barely exclaim since I was breathing so hard. My hands had ended up pinned down beside his head, my legs straddling his hips and his hands on my sides. I took a deep breath when he suddenly sat up and claimed my lips. I guess if Edward was having his fun, I could have my own. I wrapped my arms around his neck as our kiss deepened. His hands were tight on my hips but it didn't matter. I just wanted Edward out of my mind. I felt his erection press against me when he suddenly pulled away.

"Whoa-wh-whoa Bella!" he exclaimed slipping from underneath me and standing up. He ran his hand through his shaggy hair as he tried to calm down.

"That was just-Wow…But I just…Wow…I'm going to take a quick shower, pick out a movie, okay?" he said quickly as he rapidly made his way to his bedroom.

I hid my face in my hands in pure shame. God I was a horrible person, first I'm kissing Edward and now I'm kissing Jacob. I knew none of this was going to end well, but I didn't seem to care. I got up and walked towards his shelves of movies. I picked the graduate and popped it in. I got comfortable once more on the couch as the movie started. I tried to think of something to tell Jacob. Should I apologize or act like nothing happened? While I pondered over my options, I couldn't help falling asleep.

[Jacob's POV]

I let the cold water calm my body down. God I can't believe I just did that. I wanted; I needed to have things slow with her. I could tell her scars came from a negative event, and I didn't want to trigger it. I wanted to keep her happy. I wanted to believe what she had told me about Edward and her. But I knew there was something there, she was just hiding it from me. I quickly got out of the shower and started to dry myself off with a towel. I could hear the TV on from my bedroom. I sighed calming down; at least she hadn't run away. I slipped on my boxers and a white tee shirt; I quickly went back to Bella.

But once I got there, I found her in deep sleep. The Graduate was playing on the TV. I lightly caressed her cheek and kissed her forehead. I turned the TV off and cradled her in to my arms. I walked back to my room and I was glad that today was one of Rosie's cleaning days. Otherwise my flat would be a slight mess. I decided not to be a pervert and let Bella sleep in her clothes, they didn't seem uncomfortable. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed Jasper, I hoped he would answer. But luckily I heard his voice after a few rings. I informed him that Bella had fallen asleep and that I would give her a ride back to the hotel tomorrow. Jasper agreed, saying it was a good plan. I knew he trusted me, I was a good guy. But, was I good enough for Bella?

[Edward's POV]

"Hey Alice, I need to powder my nose, please come with!" I heard Tanya yell over to Alice in her English sorority girl voice. Alice didn't respond verbally, but I imagined she accepted to go since I felt them leave the both we were sitting at. Jasper had told us Bella had left with Jacob about an hour ago, and that she wasn't coming back to the hotel until tomorrow. It made me feel something terrible at the pit of my stomach. Creating a sour taste in my mouth, I was utterly jealous. Why did she push me away in to the arms of another woman? And Why did I allow myself be pushed around? Tanya just seemed like a bundle of hormones that just exploded at any given moment. In a few words she was easy. But I felt even more disgusted with myself for letting her be all over me.

I wanted Bella, not this woman. Even though according to Bella we looked amazing together, it didn't matter. I wanted to be with Bella. I argued with myself mentally, and I guessed it showed on my face.

"Edward, is something wrong?" I heard Jasper ask me. I turned my head towards the direction of his voice.

"No, I just got lost in thought. But I'm fine, don't worry." I heard him chuckle.

"I thought you had something for Bella, now you have the "hots" for Tanya," he told me in a confused tone. I sighed and rubbed my temples. Why couldn't everything be simple? I guess the old saying was right, "Life's a bitch, because if it were a slut, it would be easy" Well, according to Emmet.

"It's all so complicated Jasper; I don't know what to do anymore. But I promise to explain everything tomorrow morning." My explanation must have calmed him for the time being. I only felt him pat my hand softly.

Alice decided to call it a night, and that we should all go to bed. I was mostly glad, of getting Tanya out of my hands. But I felt so empty knowing that I would be alone in my room. Bella was in the arms of another man, a better man. I even started to hate myself; I thought I hadn't fought hard enough for her. It didn't matter if I barely knew her; I had the rest of my life to get to know her.

At one point when we arrived at the hotel, while I lay in my bed. I started to hate her. She was the one that pushed me away. She doesn't want me, everything she says about me or society not liking her must be lies. God I was tormenting myself so much. It made me feel so masochistic inside. But right before I was lost in sleep, I thought to myself. "Once I get my sight back, I'll fight twice as hard for her."

[Next Morning; Bella's POV]

I felt my mind tear itself away from my sweet dream world. Where everything was perfect as was I. I expected to wake up like usual, as my negative self. But this morning as I stretched my body and breathed deeply. I felt a strong body against mine, and a sweet manly smell. I snapped my eyes open and starred at Jacob's sleeping form. He looked so beautiful and serene. He was on his back, my head rested on his chest, and his arm was slightly around me. His body was so much larger than mine; it made me feel so protected. I looked at his watch and read "9:00 am". I really should go back to the hotel; it was rude of me to just stay at Jacob's flat. He was nice, but I barely knew him. I decided to leave him a note, explaining I had left and I hadn't been up ducted. I hailed a taxi and was thankful for having some money with me.

I hurried up to see Alice first; I didn't want to face Edward just yet. But as I opened the door with the extra key I was given, I was shocked to find Edward having breakfast with Alice and Jasper. I guess they hadn't heard me come in, since they kept talking.

"Edward, she has her reasons don't be so selfish with your feelings, " I heard Alice tell Edward in a strong voice.

"I'm tired of all of you bulshitting me, tell me the truth. I'd rather know the truth instead of all these lies you're all shoving down my throat!" I heard him roar. It made me shiver as I heard the pain in his voice.

"Edward, she just needs time, now calm down and relax. She is a wonderful person, but sometimes she doesn't see that either," Jasper said in his cooling voice. His words hit her heart hard, was he right?