I winced and shifted again uncomfortably on my saddle. We were just debriefed on when we were going to be released into Titan territory. The other soldiers were taking their positions on the wall. "What is your deal? You look like you are really uncomfortable." Gunther asked. I nervously rubbed the back of my neck and glanced to my left to see Levi smirking.

How the hell was I supposed to know how long he could last? Plus some other aspects made me incredibly sore. I couldn't exactly tell that to the others. I already had to come up with a huge lie to Petra as to why I was sneaking back into our room at 4:30 in the morning. "I'm fine! I-I-I'm just nervous! Yeah, I am nervous." Gunther looked like he didn't believe me before he shrugged turning towards Eld.

"You said you could handle it, Arret." Levi whispered with a giant smirk on his face. "I swear to God. Shut up, Levi" I hissed back as my cheeks turned bright red. He snorted and gave me a wink.

I heard the whistle and turned my attention back to the gate that was slowly beginning to raise up. I gulped, I watched as Levi and Gunther took off first followed by Oluo and Eld. Petra and I were in the back, I tighten my hands around the reins and took a deep breath. Here we go. We couldn't fail this mission, if we did... We would all die. I glanced back at the wall to see them preparing Hanji's device she had created to captured the Titans.

"We are nearing our hiding spot. Are you ready?" I glanced ahead of us to see that the guys had disappeared. I knew they had gotten into their positions but it still made me nervous. I saw the cluster of trees that Petra and I were going to be hiding in, I pulled Lady into a stop and placed her in the perfect location where we were hidden but I could see everything clearly. Petra was watching our backs and I was listening for our signal along with watching for Eld or Oluo.

"What really happened last night?" I turned around to see Petra smirking at me. I shook my head and turned my attention back to the sky. "Did you have sex with Heichou?"

I tensed up.

"Hey, I knew that uncomfortable shifting. What do you think Phillip and I used to do before missions." I gagged and turned around giving her a disgusted look. I didn't want to imagine my brother having sex nor did I want to know she was always sore the next day. "Come on, everyone does it. Besides I saw how cheerful both of you were this morning. He really does love you, Helena. And I can tell you love him too. Why don't you tell him before it's too late?"

I turned around and looked at how serious she was. Levi knew I cared for him but I knew said those three words out loud. I took a deep breath and nodded. Her face broke out in smile. We were silent for a few moments then I heard the shot of a flare. I stared up at the sky to see a green flare.

"They got one- wait a minute. He just sent another flare up. Holy shit! They have two!" I hissed. Green flare meant Levi and Gunther were on the way with a Titan. A blue flare meant Oluo and Eld had taken over. And finally when I released a red flare, it meant Petra and I were on the way with the Titan. And if we lost control of a Titan, we would send up a black flare. I picked up my flare gun and waited.

I saw the blue flare shoot up into the sky and looked at Petra. "Oluo will alert us when to show ourself." Petra pulled her horse around and I ready Lady. I felt the shaking of the ground and knew they weren't very far. I picked through a branch and saw a 6m class and a 10m class racing towards us.

I heard a whistle and slammed my heels into Lady. She dashed out from our hiding place and I watch as Eld and Oluo spilt in different directions. "Hey! You ugly bastards! This way!" I screamed both Titans turned their attention to me and I sprinted off after Petra. They were slowly gaining on us, I held the flare into the air and covered my ears. I released the flare and changed it out for a black one just incase. "Move!" I yanked Lady to right and the 10m class hand slammed down into the ground.

I saw the wall approaching and Petra spilt off to the left. I went straight towards the wall both of the Titans on my heels. I was about 100 feet away from the wall when I felt a hand slammed into Lady. She let out a whine and fell. I shot off of her and she rolled over me. She quickly jumped up and took off. I groaned and heard a shot. I looked up to see both of the Titans getting tangled up in a giant net.

I smirked, "We did it."

000

"Heichou! Pass off was successful." Oluo yelled as they galloped towards the wall. Levi nodded and kept his eyes to the sky. His stomach was in knots as they neared the wall. He was hoping he wouldn't see a black flare from Helena. "Fuck! Isn't that Lady?" Gunther yelled.

Levi looked up to see Helena's horse galloping towards them. He heard the shot and saw that they had captured both of the Titans. Eld's grabbed Lady's rein and Levi's eyes widen when he noticed that there was blood on her saddle. Levi slammed his heels into his horse and rocketed towards the wall. He glanced around and saw Petra was tightening the robes to make sure the Titans didn't get loose. Levi watched as the gate slowly opened again. Petra glanced over at him and she let out a gasp when she noticed Eld had Helena's horse.

Levi noticed that Lady's attention was off the the left. Levi took off in that direction and soon he saw Helena laying there limply. He jumped off his horse and raced towards her. "Helena!"

He heard a horse and glanced over to see Erwin racing towards them. Levi knelt down and placed his fingers tips to her neck. He felt a steady pulse and sighed. She was still alive. She just looked like she had cut open her cheek.

"Is she alive?" Erwin asked jumping off his horse. Levi nodded and began to look her over for any other injuries. "She won't die. She gets slammed by a Titan and has her horse rolled over her... And she lives. Amazing."

Levi froze when he saw that her cloak was ripped which showed her stomach clearly. Levi prayed that Erwin hadn't see the hickeys that were all over her stomach and hips. Levi quickly covered her and glanced up at Erwin. "Petra believes her brother is watching over her."

"Good, she has a spirit watching after her along with her lover." Erwin jumped down from his horse and knelt down. He brushed her cloak to the side showing her hickeys on her stomach them brushed her braided ponytail from her neck showing more hickeys. Levi tensed up and stared down at her. He could never forget last night. It wasn't just sex to him. Last night didn't feel at all like his pervious sex partners felt like... No, it was more than that.

"As long as it doesn't affect your work. I don't care. You deserve love too." Erwin quickly scooped up Helena and looked at Levi. Levi stood up and couldn't help but noticed how small she looked in his arms.

"Get on your horse and I'll hand her to you." Levi did as he was told and Erwin easily handed her off to Levi. Levi rested her head on his shoulder and wrapped one arm around her waist holding her still as he picked up into a trot following Erwin into the gate. Helena stirred and winced when she moved.

"Don't move too much. We aren't sure what you have injured." Levi whispered to her as he watched his team gallop towards him. "I'm just a little sore. I don't think I broke anything."

Levi leaned down, "I'll give you a full look over later."

He smiled when he saw a light blush creep across her cheeks. Her eyes lit up when she saw Lady with Eld. "Thank God! You are alright!" Petra yelled, her eyes had tears following from her eyes and she kissed Helena's cheeks.

"Levi, take her into headquarters to get some rest. The rest of you help Hanji with the Titans."

Levi let Helena slide off first and climbed off after her. He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and led her into headquarters. He picked up a first aid kit and lead her into his room. He closed the door behind him locking it. He placed the kit down and pulled her into his arms. He gave her a hug and buried his face into her head.

"I'm fine." She whispered, she kissed his cheek and he pulled her back. He pulled off his cloak and then took hers off. He began to unbutton her shirt and pulled it off. She began to unattached her belts and placed them on his desk. He ran his hands over her body to check for any sign of a broken bone. She took a deep breath in and Levi smirked, she had no broken bones. She was just bruised.

"Did you really think I would die that easily?" She whispered, he smiled and pulled out a cloth to clean the blood off her face. "Erwin mentioned something and I have to agree with him."

She raised an eyebrow, "He believes Phillip is watching after you."

She smiled, "He does. I feel him sometimes and even hear him."

Levi looked at her, she looked beautiful. Even with the cuts and bruises on her face... Her eyes were still bright. She had a small cut on her lip and he leaned down. He pulled her head towards his and placed a gentle kiss on her plush lips. He felt his heart swell with love. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down closer. She bumped into his desk and he pulled back. She smiled up at him and ran her fingers across his lips.

Levi studied her face closely. He had no idea what he was going to do if she ever died. "I love you, Helena."

She did flinched like Levi thought she would. She smiled and brought her lips back to his. "I love you too, Levi."

He felt like his heart was going to explode when he heard those words come from her lips. She slid his paperwork onto the floor and looked up at him. She sat on the desk and licked her lips. "How are you horny after a horse rolled over you?" He asked chuckling.

"Well, you are pretty excited too." She said grinned gesturing down. Levi looked down and smirked. "You have that effect on him." He muttered as she walked over to him. She unbuckled his pants and Levi cocked an eyebrow. She knelt down and Levi's eyes widen.

"Holy fuck!" He moaned.

000

I glanced down at my bleeding knuckles and stared at the punching bag Gunther was holding. Gunther let go of the punching bag and rubbed his arms. After the last mission, Erwin moved us closer to his headquarters. Something about how we needed to be reached whenever. We were in a large cottage, it was three stories high. The bedrooms were on the third floor, the second floor had the kitchen, sitting area, library, and Levi's office. The basement was where the gym was.

"Who knew you could throw a punch that hard?" Gunther said joking. He smacked me on the back and I lightly punched him in the arm. He chuckled and I went to pick up my sweatshirt when Oluo dashed down the stairs. "Helena! You are going to want to see this."

I jogged up the stairs, I completely forgot my sweatshirt and followed Oluo up to the sitting room where Petra and Eld were peeking out of. Oluo pushed Eld out of the way and I looked through the window to see Levi and Erwin looking like they were having a heated argument.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"The Titans died. That's all we know." Petra said. I watched Levi's facial expression changed and I cursed underneath my breath. I took off out of the room before they could question me. Right when I opened the door, I saw that they were about to start throwing punches.

Erwin threw the first one and I sprinted towards them. I grabbed Levi's arm and stood in front of him. His lip was busted and I just knew his nose was broken. Hanji and Mike were holding back Erwin, who was rubbing his jaw from Levi.

"That's the final word of this Levi!" He yelled. Levi growled and I pushed him back as he tried to rush Erwin again. "You aren't endangering her again! I swear to God, Erwin!" Levi yelled. Erwin looked at me and gave me the dirtiest look.

"Arret! In my office in an hour and make sure you put some damn clothes on!" Erwin huffed before leaving Levi. I pushed Levi into the cottage and he began to pace in front of me. He was furious.

"Don't you dare go." He yelled. I flinched and raised an eyebrow. "What the hell has gotten into you?" I saw out of the corner of my eye, Petra, Gunther, and Oluo peeking around the corner. He stopped pacing and grabbed me by the shoulders. "I am protecting you. Listen to me." He hissed. I pushed him away from me and glared at him.

"I never asked you to protect me! I am not going to go against a higher command because you're jealous or something like that!" I was furious now. He was acting like the biggest asshole and I wasn't going to stand for that.

"Don't think you are all high and mighty now, Helena! Do you really think I couldn't get ass else where! But my dick was in you last night with you moaning my name! I could have you or leave you!" I flinched at his words and it was like right at that moment he knew exactly what he said. His face softened and he reached out for me,

"Helena, I-"

I slapped him as hard as I could across the face. He froze and stared at me wide eyed. "Fuck you!" I screamed. I stormed past him and snatched my sweatshirt from Gunther. I threw it on and stormed towards the door.

"Helena! I didn't mean that! Will you just stop!" Levi went to reach out for me and he froze when he saw angry tears flowing from my eyes.

"Go to hell" I hissed, I slammed the door behind me. I glanced back once to see a stun Levi. I paused and took a deep breath to compose myself. I heard a shatter behind the door and an angry yell. I shook my head and began walking towards Erwin's office.

Levi stared at the broke vase on the ground and felt himself shaking with rage. What the hell did he just do? He just took all his anger out on the woman he loved. He looked up to see Eld's stunned face. Behind him was Oluo, Petra, and Gunther looking shocked as well.

"Heichou?" Petra gently walked towards him and Levi dropped to his knees with his head in his hands, he has never loved a woman like he loved Helena. The only girl that came close was Isabel, but she was like a little sister to him. And he just completely fucked it up.

"What did I just do?" He whispered. Petra knelt down in front of him and sighed, "You fucked up. Just let her cool off then apologize, sir. I'm sure after she talks to Commander, she will understand why you were so angry."

Levi hoped Petra was right.

000

I sat down and waited for Commander Erwin. He walked into the room and I stood saluting him. He waved his hand and I saw down. Erwin had a bruise forming on his jaw from where Levi had punched him and I noticed his left hand was wrapped up.

"I have an undercover mission for you." He slid a folder to me and I picked it up looking through it. I had realized at that moment why Levi was so furious with Erwin.

"Your father worked a lot with a lot of men underground. I want you to do an undercover mission for me with Malcolm. You will have a week down there. I'll let you have a night to think about it." He said folding his hands under his chin. I nodded and handed him back his folder, I stood up and paused.

"And if I refused?" I asked.

"You won't." He muttered, I tensed up and walked to the door slamming it open. I slammed the door behind me. I gritted my teeth and stormed back to the cottage. I slammed the door behind me and made my way to the basement. I checked and saw no one was down here, I sighed pulling off my hoodie.

I wrapped my hands and walked over to the punching bag. I threw a kick into it and growled. I began to punch it as hard as I could. My knuckles began to get raw again so I went to throwing kicks instead. I threw my last kick and let out a frustrated scream out. I dropped down to my knees and before I knew it was I was bawling my eyes out. I plopped down and rested my back against the punching bag.

I cried for many reasons. I cried because of what Levi said. I cried because of what Erwin wanted me to do. And the biggest reason, I was crying because I didn't have my big brother to run to anymore. I couldn't have him go beat up Levi for being a douche. I couldn't have him protect me at all anymore.

Sure, I always felt him around but it wasn't the same. "Helena?" I looked up to see Petra at the end of the stairs, I jumped up and ran into her arms. Just hugging her made me cry even harder. This was the closest I could get to my brother. She wrapped her arms around me and sat down at the end of the stairs. She began to stroke my hair but she didn't say a work. She just let me cry.

Finally after a couple of hours of crying, she told me to get a cup of tea and go to bed. I agreed and walked to the kitchen. I placed the kettle on the stove and pulled out the chair sitting down at the kitchen table. I took a deep breath and played around with my mug in front of me.

I ran a hand over my face and noticed how badly my eyes were burning from crying so hard.

"Can I join you?" I looked up to see Levi leaning against the door. I nodded and he cautiously walked over to the table pulling out a chair. I handed him his mug and pulled the kettle off the stove. I poured myself some and then him. I sat back down and took a deep breath.

"I'm so sorry, Helena." He said staring over at me. I looked up and gave him a weak smile. "I know. I talked to Petra." I whispered.

I started tearing up and finally began crying again. Levi cursed and jumped up. He pulled me into arms, I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me. "I know why you freaked out so bad now." I whispered.

"I was down there my whole life. I know how bad it is down there. Plus I don't exactly like you rooming with Burns. I trust you but I don't trust him." He muttered, he ran his fingers through my hair and sat down. He pulled me into his lap.

"I'm sure if you talk to him-" Levi scooped me up into his arms and walked towards the front door with me still in his arms. I raised an eyebrow and he finally put me down. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards Erwin's office. He slammed open the door and Erwin was sitting behind his desk working on paperwork.

He looked up and sighed heavily. He placed his pen down and folded his hands underneath his chin like he was ready for Levi to go completely insane again. "I want to go under cover as well."

Erwin sighed heavily, "I'm not letting you go back down there. She can handle her own."

"Most of the people that knew me down there are dead. If you are so worried about it, put me in a wig or something. If you send both of them down there, they won't last. I know the ins and outs of the underground world." Levi sat down in the chair in front of Erwin's desk.

Erwin sighed heavily, "Fine. You three leave tomorrow. Report here in the morning."

I stared at Erwin for a second before Levi tugged me out of the room. How the hell? What the fuck just happened?