A/N: Thank you for reviewing yesterday's chapter I know some of you might hate me but like I said it will be worth it in the end just give it a chance.
A/N: Thank you to everyone that gave me ideas for names for the baby in the story I will be needing more ideas later on but for this particular little girl I used the name MsDorEBom sent me for two major reason's 1) She has reviewed almost every chapter in this and my last EClare story and 2) She saw this plot coming a few chapters ago. So thank you MsDorEBom for all your help this chapter is for you hope you like it.
I do not own Degrassi I only own my OCs.
Inside the Dot Eli's POV
Tears are now filling up my eyes how could I have been so stupid, why didn't I just tell her the truth instead of her finding out like this.
I see her cross the street and turn the corner she never turned around to look at me. My heart is breaking inside my chest and I'm scared that Clare will not be able to forgive me and that all the time we spent together is the only thing I will have left.
"Eli" I hear Lisa's soft voice behind me. Rage flows through my veins I know she is not the one to blame but how can she drop this bomb on me out of the blue with not so much of a warning, but I guess that's why she sent the email.
"I'm sorry I didn't know" I turn to face her she is carrying the little girl she whispers to her "Go with Aunty Monica ok baby." She hands her to the redhead "Take her home I will be there shortly."
I keep my eyes on the little girl she has the same green eyes as I do but everything else is all Lisa's the hair the smile her skin color everything.
"I didn't want you to find out like this Eli, I swear this was never my intention especially in front of your girlfriend." She has an apologetic tone in her voice and I can see sincerity in her eyes.
"My wife" I correct her as I walk to the table and sit down I place my head on my hands and take deep breaths to try and keep myself from screaming. The waiter comes and starts to clean where I dropped my coffee cup.
"Oh" is all she says she comes and sits on the opposite side of me.
"Is she really mine?" I ask he hoping and praying that she says no but hell who am I kidding I think she is mine.
"Yes" come on, Lisa give me more I need to know everything about this little girl.
"What's her name?"
"Joslynn" Joslyn my daughter, I can't seem to get that through my head.
"Tell me everything Lisa don't hide anything from me I need the truth and I need it now." I am starting to get irritated with all this, not so much with her but with myself and also at the fact that I want her to stop giving me tidbits I want the whole story.
Clare's POV
As I cross the street I finally let the tears fall from my eyes and roll down my cheeks, I can't believe this is happening. Eli and I have this thing that before either one of us goes out of sight from the other we turn and wink, it's sort of our thing to say I love you and I will be back, but as I turn the corner I keep facing forward I know he is looking out the window and I know it hurts him that I don't turn but I can't do it not yet at least.
"Clare" I freeze as soon as I see her just a few feet away from me.
"What the hell do you want Bianca?" I am definitely not in the mood for her attitude. She takes a few steps to be closer to me and looks at me up and down.
"What's wrong, boo?" she asks mockingly as she places a hand on my shoulder I shrug her hand of me.
"Just leave me alone Bianca." I start walking away from her but she grabs my hand and turns me around to face her I have no strength in me to protest, I just look at her I can feel the joy she feels to see me suffering this way.
"Does it hurt Clare, does it eat you inside to know that Eli has a daughter with another woman that before and after you he had a relationship with someone else." What the hell is Bianca trying to do to me, kick me while I'm already down, of course it hurts I feel like I'm being swallowed whole like there is nowhere out of this hell hole, like my heart was ripped out of my chest and kicked around until it stopped beating.
"You know what I miss more of my relationship with Eli? The way he was in bed he really is good don't you think?" He slept with her too? No he couldn't have he said he didn't I asked him point blank about Bianca and he said no.
"He didn't sleep with you" I say pulling strength from god knows where to sound convinced of what I'm saying.
"You are joking right, come one Clare you knew me in high school obviously I slept with him, did he tell you we didn't?" Bianca had a huge smile on her face I knew that somehow all of this was her doing she wanted to see me broken and at this moment she was getting her wish I couldn't get the tears to stop.
"I have to go" I whispered I started to cross the street and I could hear her laughing, she was laughing at how naïve I was for believing Eli, if he lied about this what else did he lie to me about.
"I told you, you were going to suffer Clare I warned you and this is just the beginning" Bianca shouts across the street.
What more can she do? She already broke the trust Eli and I had, I already feel like I'm slowly dying inside. God I can't believe this, why is this happening why did he lie?
I continue walking having no real destination I just know I have to be with people that care about me that can listen to my problem and be there for me. I arrive at Jenna and KC's house they live closer to the Dot than my other friends. I ring the doorbell and KC answers, as soon as he looks at me his mouth drops.
"Clare what happened?" he puts his arm around me and pulls me in the house he leads the way to the sofa and he sits me down.
"Let me get you some water and I will call Jenna." I stay on the sofa and kind of look around the living room my eyes stop at a picture of everyone at our wedding I let out a small chuckle that day seems like a lifetime ago now.
"Clare-bear are you ok?" I feel Jenna's hands on my shoulder. KC comes around the other way and hands me a cup of water "Jenna I'm going to take Jasmine to the park so you girls can talk." Jasmine comes out of her room and runs towards me to give me a big hug.
"Everything will be ok Aunt Clare" she says, kids can be so optimistic I remember when I used to be like that, and then you get out to the real world and find out how much it really sucks.
Inside the Dot Eli's POV
"On that last night we spent together I already knew I was pregnant I had gone to the doctor the day before and he confirmed it. That is why that night I asked you about taking that next step, but as soon as you said that you wanted to cool things down and that you needed to get over Clare completely I knew you would not want the baby and I was not going to terminate the pregnancy." She says with slight sadness in her tone.
"I would have never asked you to terminate it Lisa did you not know me at all" I interrupt her I can't believe that she would even for a second think that I would want that.
"Ok let's say you didn't ask me that, would you have married me?" she stares deep into my eyes her hazel eyes searching for an answer in my green ones but I couldn't answer her because even though I would try to do what was right I know that marrying her was not right for the both of us. My heart would forever be Clare's and that wouldn't be fair for her or for Joslynn, as she got older she would see that her parents did not love each other.
"Your silence says it all Eli, you always belonged to someone else and I didn't want to mess up your life, you had everything going for you." Lisa reaches across the table and tries to take my hand but I pull it away.
"Just because I wouldn't marry you Lisa it doesn't mean you could hide the fact that I have a daughter and then come back years later and drop the bomb on me that is not how it works, I deserved to know what was going on since the minute you even considered that you could be pregnant with My baby" I emphasized the word my because I wanted to let her know that it wasn't just her life it was mine too.
"Oh yeah your baby, you made it pretty clear that you didn't want me Eli." Lisa rolls her eyes and crosses her arms.
"Lisa, me not wanting to have a romantic relationship with you has nothing to do with the fact that I would have taken care of Joslynn." I try to sound as calm as possible but I know I'm not doing a good job at it my hands start to shake and I can feel my breathing start to pick up.
"Look I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but I was scared and like I said before I didn't want to ruin your life." Tears start to roll down her cheeks but she wipes them away quickly and straightens up.
"You should have told me Lisa, but let's forget about that for the moment and tell me more about her. Does she know I'm her father?" I want to know everything about this little girl. If she really is mine I want to be involved in her life every step of the way.
Just as Lisa starts to talk my phone starts buzzing I look at the screen and see that it's KC which catches me by surprise because even though we are in the same group of friends we are not the closest and we certainly do not call each other out of the blue. I excuse myself to answer the call.
"Hey Eli" KC says as soon as I answer he sounds a little worried which begins to scare me.
"Hey KC what's going on?" I don't have time for small talk I want to get to the point of his call.
"Is everything ok with you and Clare? I just left her at my house with Jenna and the girl looks devastated I know it's not my place but I'm worried about her." He sounds worried for Clare, and I'm relieved to know that she is with Jenna and not out on the streets.
"No everything is not all right, but I hope it can be very soon just call Jenna and tell her not to leave Clare alone. You will find out soon enough what's going on, thanks for calling KC talk to you later." I hang up the phone.
Jenna's House Clare's POV
"Do you want me to call Alli and Fi?" Jenna asks me picking up her cell phone I just nod at her.
"Fi, hey hold on I need to do a conference call with Alli. Ok Fi, Alli you there good, guys Clare is here and she doesn't look good I haven't really talked to her but she looks like she is about to break down." There is silence for a minute then "hold on I'll ask her, Clare is Eli ok?" Jenna asks me putting the phone down.
"Yes" I answer and then continue to look down at my hands.
"She said he is maybe you should tell Adam to call to make sure. Ok I will see you in ten bye guys." She hangs up the phone and sits next to me she gently gets my head and places it on her shoulder then starts rubbing small circles on my back.
"It's going to be ok Clare I promise everything will be fine." She says in a soothing voice. I continue to cry on her shoulder and every now and then there is the occasional sob.
After a few minutes there was a knock on the door Jenna gets up to answer it and Alli and Fiona came rushing in.
"Clare honey, tell us what happened." Alli says kneeling down in front of me.
Having my closest friend all here for me made me feel safer, loved and strong. Strength is going to be something I need to get through this ordeal.
"He has a daughter" I manage to spit out.
The three girls share a confused look and Fi finally asks "Who has a daughter Clare?"
I look up at them take a deep breath and stand up all three girls sit on the sofa and look up at me.
"Eli has a daughter with some girl named Lisa from New York." All three girls have their mouths opened and their eyes really wide.
"Are you fucking serious?" Alli jumps up in front of me. No Alli I just felt like crying my eyes out and pretend that my husband has a kid with some girl.
"Yes"
"Well how old is the kid?" Jenna asks.
"She is two or three I'm not really sure I didn't stay to be properly introduced." I said with slight sarcasm in my tone.
"Well tell us what happened how did you find out Eli has a daughter?" Fiona says as she pats down a spot between her and Alli on the sofa.
I tell them everything that happened today, when we were at the dot, the way that Lisa told him it was his daughter, the way Eli reacted, what I had said to him before leaving and the whole confrontation with Bianca.
"Clare first off you don't know if that is really Eli's daughter maybe she thinks that it's his but it really isn't." Fiona tries to reason with me.
"I can handle him having a daughter guys, I mean I know that when I left him he was not going to turn into a monk but I can't handle the fact that he lied to me. When we were on our honeymoon I asked him if he had slept with Bianca and he said no that Julia and I were the only girls he had ever been with and obviously if he has a daughter that was a lie and then Bianca tells me that they did sleep together, why would he lie about that." I really don't know how or what to think and feel, out of nowhere everything inside of me goes numb and that is worse than the pain I was feeling.
"I don't know Clare but it all sounds really weird I mean Bianca just happened to be there after you found out Eli had a daughter and then saying all that stuff to you I really think that she has something to do in all of this." Alli says while she hugs me, maybe Alli has a point maybe Bianca planned all this. The only thing is the way Eli reacted obviously there is a possibility that the little girl is his.
Inside the Dot Eli's POV
"She does know about you I have a picture of you that I show her but you do look different maybe that's why she didn't recognize you today, she loves to draw she has a box full of her drawings but she doesn't like to show them to me I think it's because in most of them it's just you and her." My heart breaks when she says this, I don't ever want to imagine what it feels like to grow up without a father.
"I have to talk to Clare about everything that happened today, but as soon as I do I want to take Joslynn to my house so we can get to know each other you are welcome to come if you want to but I would really like to spend time with her alone, here is my number and my address I will call you tomorrow to set it up." I hand her a paper with my information and she calls me right away so I can have her number.
After we exchange our goodbyes I walk out of the Dot to Clare's car and drive to Jenna's house. I have to talk to Clare now there is no waiting around I have to fix it.
Again thank you to MsDorEBom for all your reviews and for the name Joslynn. Hope everyone liked the chapter, tomorrows chapter is all about EClare! Please don't forget to review.