Hades immediately pulled away from him. "No Spot, no!" She scrambled to her
feet.
Spot stood up also. "What? Why not?!"
"I love Mush.I love him, I need him! Not you!" She croaked, fresh tears welling in up in her tired eyes.
"Hades, I just-"
"No! You don't even know what love is! You don't know how it feels to love somebody so much, to need them so badly, to give them your heart, your soul, and your life.and then have them taken away and buried underground to rot away and to be forgotten! Just like all the memories!" Hades began to break down into violent sobs.
"Hades, you need to move on.you NEED to forget." Spot began.
"NO! I WON'T forget him!" Hades screamed and ran from the docks; away from Spot, away from the water and her reflection. Tears blocked her vision. It was dark.and cold. As she ran, all the shadows were combined into one. "He's forgotten Mush.they all have, I bet! Well I won't.I won't ever!" She shouted inside her head. "They WANT me to forget.they don't want me to remember him.but I will. I ALWAYS will." She climbed the fire escape up to the roof of the lodging house. She sat on the edge of the roof, hugging her knees to her chest. She gazed at the full moon, sitting gracefully against the black, star-filled sky.
"In the blowing of the cool night wind, in the falling of the crisp white snow, in the beauty of the autumn, in the re-birth of the gentle spring.I remember him." The words she whispered rolled off her tongue like poetry, gently diminishing into the starlit night, and the thick silence consuming her tired body.
"Spot doesn't love me. Nobody loves me. Spot DOES NOT love me.He doesn't even know what love is." She said inaudibly. And it was partly true. Spot cared about her immensely - but he didn't love her. Not like he thought he did, anyway. He had mistaken his sympathy for her as love.as many do. "Nobody loves me. Nobody understands.Why did you leave me Mush? Why did you leave me here to wither away into nothing! That's what I've become. A nothing. A nobody! Is that what you wanted?!" Her body began to tremble with sobs. "GOD! I need you, Mush! I miss you.ITS NOT FAIR!" She yelled, and her voice echoed off the walls. "It's not fair!" She said more quietly, burying her face in her knees and letting her tears fall freely.
"It's not fair!" She thought. "Not fair to me, not fair to you, not fair to our child!" Thoughts raced through her head. "They baby will be miserable with a mother like me.I'll have no patience.no tolerance.no strength without you. YOU were my strength! You were my world! And my whole world has died.And nobody understands, or even cares."
"Let the baby be your strength. Let the baby be your world." The thought sprang into her mind, though she was certain it wasn't hers.
"The baby? . The baby! Yes, my baby!" She looked down at her stomach and wiped her eyes. "My baby.Mush's baby." She whispered.
Yes. The baby would be her strength, and her world. In all her agony she had nearly forgotten that her baby was a part of Mush.the ONLY part of Mush that she had left. And at that moment, Hades vowed to love her baby, and be the best mother she could. Just like Mush would have wanted her to do. A new hope leapt from Hades' heart.Though the pain from Mush's death was nowhere near gone.
And in her new hope, Hades once again didn't hear the whispers of warning that were still whipping through the night wind.
Spot stood up also. "What? Why not?!"
"I love Mush.I love him, I need him! Not you!" She croaked, fresh tears welling in up in her tired eyes.
"Hades, I just-"
"No! You don't even know what love is! You don't know how it feels to love somebody so much, to need them so badly, to give them your heart, your soul, and your life.and then have them taken away and buried underground to rot away and to be forgotten! Just like all the memories!" Hades began to break down into violent sobs.
"Hades, you need to move on.you NEED to forget." Spot began.
"NO! I WON'T forget him!" Hades screamed and ran from the docks; away from Spot, away from the water and her reflection. Tears blocked her vision. It was dark.and cold. As she ran, all the shadows were combined into one. "He's forgotten Mush.they all have, I bet! Well I won't.I won't ever!" She shouted inside her head. "They WANT me to forget.they don't want me to remember him.but I will. I ALWAYS will." She climbed the fire escape up to the roof of the lodging house. She sat on the edge of the roof, hugging her knees to her chest. She gazed at the full moon, sitting gracefully against the black, star-filled sky.
"In the blowing of the cool night wind, in the falling of the crisp white snow, in the beauty of the autumn, in the re-birth of the gentle spring.I remember him." The words she whispered rolled off her tongue like poetry, gently diminishing into the starlit night, and the thick silence consuming her tired body.
"Spot doesn't love me. Nobody loves me. Spot DOES NOT love me.He doesn't even know what love is." She said inaudibly. And it was partly true. Spot cared about her immensely - but he didn't love her. Not like he thought he did, anyway. He had mistaken his sympathy for her as love.as many do. "Nobody loves me. Nobody understands.Why did you leave me Mush? Why did you leave me here to wither away into nothing! That's what I've become. A nothing. A nobody! Is that what you wanted?!" Her body began to tremble with sobs. "GOD! I need you, Mush! I miss you.ITS NOT FAIR!" She yelled, and her voice echoed off the walls. "It's not fair!" She said more quietly, burying her face in her knees and letting her tears fall freely.
"It's not fair!" She thought. "Not fair to me, not fair to you, not fair to our child!" Thoughts raced through her head. "They baby will be miserable with a mother like me.I'll have no patience.no tolerance.no strength without you. YOU were my strength! You were my world! And my whole world has died.And nobody understands, or even cares."
"Let the baby be your strength. Let the baby be your world." The thought sprang into her mind, though she was certain it wasn't hers.
"The baby? . The baby! Yes, my baby!" She looked down at her stomach and wiped her eyes. "My baby.Mush's baby." She whispered.
Yes. The baby would be her strength, and her world. In all her agony she had nearly forgotten that her baby was a part of Mush.the ONLY part of Mush that she had left. And at that moment, Hades vowed to love her baby, and be the best mother she could. Just like Mush would have wanted her to do. A new hope leapt from Hades' heart.Though the pain from Mush's death was nowhere near gone.
And in her new hope, Hades once again didn't hear the whispers of warning that were still whipping through the night wind.