Confessions by Betty Bokor
Sam/Daniel. Daniel and Vala are overheard as they talk about something very private.
Spoilers: All seasons, including 10.
Disclaimer: The Stargate original characters belong to MGM/Showtime, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Film Corp. This was written strictly for the purpose of entertainment. No attempt at copyright infringement has been made.

Confessions

Chapter 10

He went into the shower still in shock. Why had she done something like that? They had a deal. She had promised to let it go. He had made his best effort. He had not shown any of his feelings for her. Why did she have to say that and stir everything up again? He had to talk to her. He had to remind her of their pact; he had to make sure she understood how hard she was making it for him to keep his part of the deal.

He got out of the shower and got dressed as fast as he could. Maybe she was still on the base. Probably on her way up or even in the parking lot. He would find her and have a good talk with her.

He was at the exit in a few minutes, but the guard there informed him that Sam had already left. He felt defeated. Now he would have to wait until the next day to talk to her… or he could go see her right now. No, that was not a good idea. Not in her house. If she wanted to kiss him, maybe she wanted- No, no, no. He was not going there. What if she was joking? No, not that either. She would never joke about something she knew was so important to him. In any case, he had to talk to her soon and clear it up.

He walked to his car and sat inside for a while trying to decide what to do. Finally, he put the key in the ignition and drove towards Sam's house.

Sam took a moment before opening the door. She did not want him to realize she had been sitting close to the door, anxiously waiting for him to come.

"Hey," she said as she let him in. Her smile was too broad not to reveal how happy she was that he had done as she expected, so she tried controlling herself better. "Come in, come in. Would you like a cup of coffee or something else, maybe?" She asked nervously.

"No, this will take just a minute," he said seriously.

She tried not smiling and agreed with a nod of her head.

"It's about that thing you said-" he stopped, unable to bring it up.

"About the kiss? Oh, that… Yeah, well, it just came out, you know… One of those things… You're thinking something and then, bam! You said it. Maybe I shouldn't have, right?"

She was talking fast and Daniel felt that, though the words seemed somehow apologetic, the whole mood was not. She seemed to be enjoying the situation. "This is serious, Sam. These past days have been very hard for me and now you come up with something like this and it makes it harder."

"Well, if faking you're not in love with me ishard, stop faking," she replied with a smirk.

"Sam… Why are you doing this? We had an agreement."

"That was your decision. What if I don't want to let it go?"

"It was the most reasonable solution. I understand that Jack can't give you what you need, but that doesn't mean that I'd do any better. I'd already be at a disadvantage. I'm not the one you're in love with, Sam."

"I thought I explained that to you," Sam said with frustration in her voice.

"Okay, I get the part about the deep feelings for… the three of us, I can understand that, but it's not the same."

"No, you're right, it's not. You don't see me trying to kiss Teal'c, do you?"

"But Jack-"

"But Jack nothing!" she said impatiently and started walking towards the kitchen. "I'm going to get some tea for myself. Feel free to follow," she added, fairly irritated.

"Sam, I'm just trying to do the best-"

"No, you're not!" She said turning to face him. "How can it be the best to forget about all this? Weren't you there in that den of yours with me? Didn't you feel the same way I was feeling? You can't tell me to deprive ourselves of that is the best."

"So, all you want is sex?"

She closed her eyes as she raised her hands and then she closed her fists tightly. "I feel like hitting you and that's very different from what I was feeling today." She turned and went straight into the kitchen.