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"Walk to the balcony and peek discreetly down on the street through the curtains…"
I walked to the curtains of the living room's balcony, and I made a little space so that my eye could peek.
The street lights allowed me to see the exterior very clearly. Nobody was in the streets… Except for…
My eyes became horrified along with my face.
"She's been following you every step since this morning!"
What was this… atonement ?!
I stood still looking horrified at the woman below…
She was wearing a black jacket, blue pants and black high heels. The lat characteristic I saw of her was that she had black hair just like me.
I turned away from the window scared.
"How long has she been after me again, Ryuk?" I asked like I had just received disturbing news.
"I only noticed her this morning…"
I walked back and forward in the middle of the living room. I took my hands onto my head messing my hair. When I was thinking desperately it was how I usually acted.
"Okay…" I said as the cold air made return to earth "So apparently I have a stalker, the thing is does she whose name I don't know saw me doing something suspicious?"
I sat on the sofa still talking to Ryuk, but my voice tone made the impression that I was talking to myself.
"But she can't see you, she never saw me with the notebook and even if she did she wouldn't find it pretty relevant, she would think it was some notebook from school… Unless in some circumstances she would end up touching it, which she didn't…"
But then a theory formulated in my head.
"Could it be that… L already made a list of suspects?" I thought hardly "No, no, there are tons of people in Kantou! It would take him months to get confidential information on all of the people here! Perhaps it would take him his life…"
But then I had an idea that I wished I wouldn't have… again.
"What if I… if I have to kill again just to survive?"
I seemed terrified with the idea while Ryuk seemed excited with all the action going on in my head.
I didn't forget how I killed Lind L Taylor when I thought he was L, just because he provoked me. I didn't like killing people who "didn't deserve it". I just wanted to keep doing good things to people and keep myself alive.
I feared I would have to make a choice, but that wasn't the thing in question on that moment.
"Hey Seira-chan!" said Ryuk breaking my thoughts all of a sudden "I don't know if I might help you or make more questions in your head… But have I ever told you the difference between Shinigami and humans?"
"So I see you still have stuff to tell me!" I said happy to see that he would tell me more secrets "Spill everything out then!"
"Well, for starters, while Shinigami who use the Death Note, use it to increase their lifespan, the opposite is the case of humans…"
"Hold the phone!" I said waving vigorously for him to slow down "First off… A lifespan is my life probability… Correct?"
"Right ya are!"
"So what you mean is… you Shinigami, kill human people to keep yourselves alive, but in a human's case there are no changes at all!"
"Correct!"
"Oh well, I didn't want to be eternal anyways…" I said disguising my disappointment
"But you can become more powerful with the second detail I will be telling you!"
"You mean there is a way of increasing a human's lifespan?" I asked curious
"Well, it's not about increasing it but of decreasing it…"
"Sounds uninteresting… But start rambling!"
"You know there is an agreement that the human with a Death Note can do with a Shinigami who owns it… It's about giving the eyes of the Shinigami to the human!"
"Giving the eyes?! Tell me the pros of it"
"Our eyes…" he said closing up on me so I could watch his eyes carefully "are different from a human's eyes… Through our eyes… we can see the name and lifespan of a human floating above their heads…"
I was… really amazed.
It would be useful to have those eyes… Well more interesting than useful though
"So that's how you knew my name before I even introduced myself to you when we met…" I remembered
"Swift memory ya have! Now do you want to know the conditions of that agreement?"
"Fill me in!" I said looking excitedly at him
"If you sacrifice half of your lifespan, I will gladly give the eyes to you!"
Now it would be hard.
"And… since you won't be telling me my lifespan even if I tried to guess, I guess I will never know how much of my life I will throw away" I said thinking deeply
"I have a big mouth, but I won't be telling you anything… So do we have a deal, Seira-chan?"
I thought about it for moments.
If I did the agreement I would be able to eliminate anyone who would want to frame me. But If I had few lifetime left, which I wasn't sure, since life always gives so many turns, I would die a lot faster.
My head became to hurt…
"Ryuk, can you… give me some time?"
"Sure, but remember: Whatever the choice you make, your time is getting shorter anyways…"
"I am aware of that, thank you very…"
All of a sudden my cell phone began to ring.
I picked it up and went to my room. I turned on the light, laid on my bed and answer it.
"Moshi-Moshi! Minamoto dese!" I answered
"Seira-chan, sorry for calling this late…"
The voice on the other side made my stomach flip a little.
"Light-kun…" I said not disguising my surprise "How weird of you to call at this hour…"
"I thought about your conversation early today…"
"About what exactly, you know we talk too much when we're together…"
"About that psychologist that wants to examine you…"
Huh? He was acting suspiciously over her now?
"But I thought you said she didn't want to lock me on a madhouse…"
"I still don't think that… But later today I saw something strange about her…"
Suddenly my interest in that conversation grew even more.
"When?"
"Well, my dad has been kind of busy lately… Mom asked Sayu and me to take him some change clothes and some of our remaining dinner to the headquarters, so we did… But then when we were allowed up the stairs we heard a conversation just before we entered to meet with our father"
"A conversation? Wait! Are you telling me that the psychologist was at the headquarters?"
"I saw her there! And I think she's connected to the police…"
I felt my breath freezing.
"To the… police?" I asked in fear
"Before we entered we heard her commenting that she was doing everything she could to find a suspect for 'the case'"
"'The case'?! What case?"
I heard Light take a deep breath on the other side of the line
"Sayu entered due to her impatience… I gave my father the stuff my mother told us to give him, but as I exited I noticed she kept glaring suspiciously at us…"
I felt insecure.
"Maybe she had the hots for you, who knows!" I said disguising my fear
"I just keep wondering if you have been doing something… bad"
I laughed, but the nervous tone wasn't easily disguised.
"I'm naughty, I know, but I don't think I've been committing crimes. At least very big crimes…"
"Nah, you're nothing compared to the famous 'Kira'…" mocked Light
I couldn't help but to laugh deep inside of me. I wasn't nothing compared to Kira, but ironically I WAS Kira.
"Maybe she's just a psychologist, but at the same time she's one of those psychologists who analyze criminals, you know…"
"But I'm not a criminal, so why do I have to put up with her?"
"Perhaps you're a suspect!" said Light but not seriously
"Stop that, now I'm weirded out!" I said nervous
"Calm down, you have nothing to fear… that is, if you didn't do anything wrong!"
"Oh, quit that! But what If I'm a suspect for nothing, like it happens to so many people?"
"Don't worry, now seriously! If you're innocent nothing will happen! Now changing the subject, I can see you're bothered!"
"Arigatou…" I said relieved
"Soooooo, changing the subject… What are you doing right now?"
I decided to play naughty with him.
"Oh, I've just finished taking a bath, and I'm just chilling here…"
"Hmmmm, so I guess you're going to tell me next that you're with only a towel on your body…"
"Hummmm" I said imitating his tone "You're awfully perverted lately Mister Yagami-kun…"
"And you're thinking you can read my thoughts Miss Minamoto-chan…"
Nervous laughter followed.
"Okay why are we talking about this in the first place?"
"You started it! You changed the subject to this!"
"You're the one who began by saying I'm a pervert!"
"You're the one who began with naughty thoughts!"
"Do I have to change the subject again?"
I laughed.
"I'm a hard competition to you at times, huh, mister number-one nation-wide?"
"It seems I may meet my match…"
I wondered if he meant his rival or his…
I shook that thought away immediately.
I knew he would never look at me that way…
"I'm kind of tired now… Sorry, I wish I could talk to you more…"
"It's okay, I'm at school tomorrow, remember?"
"Né, Light-kun…" I said feeling all of a sudden a strange, yet pleasant sensation deep inside of me
"Nani, Seira-chan?"
"I… I want to thank you… for being the way you are to me… For treating me… in a way I never deserved…"
There was silence on the other side of the line.
Then I heard him breath softly on the other side.
"You deserve the way I treat you… I care for you like you're from my family. Please don't say you don't deserve what you have… You know I feel bothered when you say such things…"
"It's not that… Although it is kind of true that I don't deserve half of what I have… I think I have to feel thankful for what I have now… So… arigato… for being my friend despite everything…"
My voice seemed teary.
"You're… changed… I will always be your friend… Despite whatever happens… You're one of the few people I trust for real… So I guess I feel thankful for having you too…"
I felt my eyes getting wet.
"Hum-hum…" I said trying to contain my emotion
"Go to bed, I want you to sleep tight now… I want to see you happy again tomorrow…"
"You wish me so well Light-kun…"
"Oh, please cut it off" said Light seeming somehow embarrassed
"Okay, okay…" I laughed with some emotion still present in my voice "Nighty-night…"
"Sweet dreams…"
And I shut the phone although I didn't want to.
I fell asleep on bed without talking anymore about the spy to Ryuk.
I was walking on a dark… dark hallway…
Everywhere there were voices around me…
"Lord Kira…"
"… Our savior…"
"Praise the God of our New world…"
"… Or perish…"
"… like the sinner you are…"
I finally reached a door.
And I opened it.
I was now in the middle of a church. Several hooked people were kneeling in front of the altar. Some of them praying, others chanting in a low voice.
But I kept walking, following the red carpet.
"Praise The God of the new world…" I heard one of them whisper
I looked up to the altar. And standing high above as perfect as a statue and with everybody adoring him was…
"Light?!"
And I woke up before I could see anything else.
I felt weirded out.
Was it that I was seeing Light as a God?!
Or was the dream related… to everything that would happen… depending of my turns and choices.
Why was Light in my dream? Why was everything becoming so foggy to me?
Even after that, when I was in school with Light laughing cheerfully of our intense conversations, sometimes I looked at him with an inquiring gaze.
A kind of sadly inquiring gaze.
"Why do I feel you're going to somehow have an influence on my fate?"
"Minamoto Seira-san!"
I was at the building where the psychologist was. And guess what: It was my turn!
"I have to keep my mind closed. She can't see that I have secrets… Well big secrets at least…"
She greeted me kindly.
"So here we are again, Minamoto-san!"
"Yeah, I guess…"
"Oh, by the way, do you know I saw your friend Light Yagami yesterday?"
Oh, she brought that matter up.
But I decided to hide everything from her.
"You did?" I asked as if I was hearing something new to me "Where?"
"At the police station, he went to give his father some food and new clothes, since he's been so busy in the police department…"
"You're a cop?" I asked in a jokeful tone "I hope that doesn't mean I will get booked soon!"
"Hahahaha! No, I'm not exactly a cop, but I'm also specialized in criminal psychology… You know, I read criminal's minds trying to figure out what's behind their actions…"
"I get it!" I said in a hurried up voice
There was silence.
"But… Do you suspect of someone… I mean for them to be asking your services, means that you're dealing with some sort of criminal or something"
"That's…" she said in a harsh voice "Confidential information, I'm afraid…"
I looked suspiciously at her.
Basically the conversation that followed was her just trying to meet me a little better.
I didn't tell her much… Of my personal life at least.
"I think you made it so far…" said Ryuk flying behind me
"For now…" I whispered as I entered the bus to go home faster
I sat down in a seat near the window.
When the bus began to move I saw her again.
The woman who was looking from below my house last night.
She was in the bus next to a man that seemed to be her husband.
Both of them kept ignoring me, and I pretended to ignore them as well.
Some bus stops later I wasn't so ignored anymore.
"Put your hands up!" a scream was heard from nowhere
To my horror a guy with a gun was pointing it at the bus driver.
"Ohhhh, this should be interesting!" said Ryuk treating all of it as a comedy show
"Don't… don't kill me!" begged the bus driver in fear
The guy banged the gun in the bus driver's head and he fell off the driver seat with blood coming out of his cracked head.
Screams were heard all over the bus.
"Now listen here! If yall keep your mouths shut there is no need to spill anymore blood! Got it?!" he yelled at two girls of about my age looking completely frightened
All of a sudden he began to drive the bus through places I didn't know. Before I knew it we were out of town in the middle of nowhere.
We were somewhere in a field, but the bus didn't stop at no costs, while it followed through a very straight road.
And all of a sudden the unexpected happened.
The man standing next to the woman who was following me stood up quickly and headed to the bus jacker on the driving wheel. The two of them begun a violent fight in the middle of the bus.
"Yaksuko Irie!" said the man still fighting "I heard of you in the news! You're far too dangerous to be on the loose!"
And the criminal's name was finally known to me.
"Naomi! Drive the bus!"
The woman stood up and took control of the driving wheel.
All of a sudden the man was knocked down and the criminal stood up to hit the woman.
Instinctively I did something stupid: I stood up and slapped the back of his head with my bag.
He faced me and pushed me furiously onto the ground taking his hands on my neck.
"You meddling bitch!" he yelled squeezing my neck hard
I tried to bite one of his hands, but he was far stronger than me.
All of a sudden a gunshot was heard, and the criminal released me and fell on the ground screaming in pain.
"I'm sorry I had to spill blood!" said the man
The criminal stood in the ground still screaming in agony.
"You okay girl?" he raid giving me his hand allowing me to stand up
"Yeah… I guess…" I said massaging my neck as I stood up
"That was very stupid and at the same time very brave of you!" he said complimenting me
"Thanks… I think…"
"Go back to your seat! We'll take everything from here!"
"Are you two… cops?" I asked trying to seem by mere curiosity
"Something like that!" he said smiling at me "Now sit still and let us return you back to safety!"
As the bus drove, in a discreet move I picked up the Death Note from my bag and wrote the criminal's name in the notebook.
It was just to be safe… He was too dangerous to be alive.
If I would be made into a suspect later, was not what I thought. But I thought about the safety of the passengers first.
My concern was that which would be one of my biggest mistakes.
"Naomi!"
All of a sudden I saw that the criminal was up and had given Naomi the same blow he gave the bus driver.
He then shot the man and took control of the driver.
If he had the heart attack while he was at the driving wheel…
"Stop!" I yelled trying to take him off
He pushed me violently.
"If you touch me again you fucking bitch, I'll…"
But then the heart attack happened.
He grabbed his chest in pain and his other hand controlled the driving wheel irrationally.
And it was then when I stood up that I noticed we were heading onto a dangerous curve.
"OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"
My last scream of agony was the last conscious action that I had before the bus began to fall onto the dark forest, slowly like it was actually floating.