Neither of them had mentioned the kiss, they had been sitting in the car for two hours and neither of them had said anything to each other aside from the bare necessities for the case. Adam was trying to figure out what he could say, but he had nothing. She couldn't stand the silence anymore.

"Why didn't you come after me?... That night in the locker room when I gave the ring back… You said nothing… You let me walk out" Kim asked her forehead bunching up.

He brought the binoculars back up to his eyes "We are not having this conversation now, we are working"

She was sick of the stonewalling, he kissed her, he didn't get to just try and shove everything back into the confines of the box they'd locked it all in, it was out and Kim was going to get answers.

"We were also working when you decided to kiss me, didn't seem to stop you" Kim snapped back and Adam ignored her.

"I was right wasn't I? You didn't want to get married?" Kim asked quietly, she didn't want the answer, but she knew she needed to hear him say it.

"What the fuck gave you that impression Kim? Because I was the one who brought you the ring remember?" Adam spat out at her.

"And then you acted like your feet were made of fucking stone Adam"

"Oh really? You're the one who pushed the wedding back… twice!" Adam spat out at her shoving two fingers up.

"Oh you were really torn up about that too" Kim scoffed.

"What the hell does that mean?" Adam asked with venom.

"You acted like it was no big deal and you couldn't have agreed quicker."

"So you wanted me to disagree with you? You were asking to push the wedding back, to 'make sure we get everything right' so that I would say no?... That makes no fucking sense Kim"

Kim stared at Adam, when he said it, it sounded completely barbaric. It sounded like she was a lunatic.

"The next time you brought it up, I ignored pushing it any further and told you, you were the best thing in my life… Wait, was that some kind of fucking test?" Adam seethed further.

"What about the apartments? You didn't even want to move in together" Kim asked clinging to something that would mean she hadn't over reacted so dramatically.

"I don't like moving. You were always with me anyway, how many times did I ask you to just move in with me until we found a place, you kept going on about needing a place of our own."

Kim stared at him blankly again. He had reasonable answers for everything.

"You cancelled the dinner with my Mom, your Dad couldn't make it. But that didn't mean you couldn't have come"

"That. That I will cop too… Hardly warrants giving the ring back though" Adam spat out, looking back through the binoculars. "I hope you're taking photos of this" Kim quickly picked up the camera and took photos of the people leaving, once they were gone she put down the camera and took a deep breath and decided to just rip off the band-aid. If she was ever going to get over Adam, she needed to know she tried everything, she needed to tell him everything.

"I'm sorry about that day in court... I… When you showed up at the zoo, I was a mess… I couldn't have told anyone what I needed to help me through it, but you showed up and you just knew… you knew exactly what I needed to hear, you knew how to make me laugh, how to ease my fears… I should have told you, I thought about telling you, but the selfish part of me… it won out, I knew you would hate me after I told you… I wanted to put that off as long as possible… I needed you…" Kim eyes trained at the house, anything to not have to look at Adam.

"Did you love him?"

"Sean?" Kim asked shocked, Adam nodded but not before he screwed his face up at her using his first name. "No. Not at all, he was… there… we only slept together once, I know that doesn't make any difference, but it was once, the night before the shooting… You told him he could have me, do you have any idea how much that hurt?"

"Don't talk to me about how much things hurt Kim… You seemed like you were together after?"

"No… Well I guess we kind of were, I don't know, we weren't together that way though… At all… I couldn't really break things off with a guy who just got shot… We were… undefined" Kim said using romans words. "I was still in love with you Adam, I never stopped loving you, I've tried... I didn't give you back the ring because I didn't love you enough.. I gave them back because it was hurting me, the way you would shut me out, it seemed like you didn't want to get married… Roman, he… he just didn't help matters"

Adam felt anger building inside of him "Did something happen while we were still together?" He asked through gritted teeth.

"God no… I didn't mean like that."

"What do you mean then?" Adam relaxed slightly but he was still on edge about what Roman had to do with their break up.

"He just… amplified my own insecurities about you I guess"

"I think I deserve more of an explanation than that"

"Just little things… when Jay was taken when we first got engaged, he tried to turn that into a reason why we shouldn't be together… tried to say you'd have to be crazy to be in a relationship with someone on the force"

"It started that long ago, and you didn't tell me?" Adam felt the anger rising again, why wouldn't she tell him? Why did she let him get between them.

"I didn't realize… I didn't realize at all until after he'd left… and he said sorry… and then… when I tried to talk to you, you told me to forget we ever happened" Kim could feel the hot lump rising in her throat and she knew she was about to lose it.

Adam was reeling, all he could hear in his head over and over again was Kim saying she never stopped loving him, that she'd tried and she couldn't.

The radio beeped and then Jay's voice came through the radio "We got movement, everyone get over here now"

"Shit" Adam cursed slamming the car into drive. "We need to talk about this… This conversation is far from over Kim"

Kim nodded and focused on navigating Adam to the house Jay and Erin were at.

Adam watched her out the corner of his eye, she was doing paperwork. They hadn't had a chance to talk yet, they came back in the car together back to the district but they had a perp in the back seat, so talking then wasn't really an option.

Kim stood up and walked into the hallway, Adam followed hoping she was going into the locker room but she walked into the viewing room.

"What are you doing in here?"

"I could feel you staring at me… I knew you'd follow me and I figured this was probably the most private place in the district" she said looking at her hands. Adam went to say something and Kim stepped forward and kissed him.

"Let me talk first" she said when she pulled away. "I love you and I want to be with you, but you have to decide if you can forgive me and if it's me you want to be with or if you want to be with her… I don't want you to answer me right now… I want you to think about it… If you decide you want to give this a go, I'm here. I'll never leave again" she kissed him again. "We are freaking awesome together" she grinned using his words on him "But I have a feeling we totally suck apart" She turned and walked out leaving Adam standing there reeling for the third time in one day.

Kim walked into her apartment, her whole body ached and she was so tired. Adam had left the district straight after their conversation; she wasn't encouraged by that at all. At least she thought maybe moving on would be easier if she knew she'd tried everything, if she knew she'd come clean and fought for him.

She stepped into the shower and let the water cascade over her head trying to wash away some of the stress.

There was a loud knock at the door, she stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her hurrying to the door. She looked through the peephole and took a deep breath.

"Oh god" she said to herself under her breath she opened the door.

Adam took in her appearance, she had water falling from her hair and all he could now think about was that she naked underneath the towel. Her shampoo and body wash invaded his senses and he couldn't control himself he moved forward and grabbed her moving inside the apartment and shutting the door with his foot as he claimed her lips again, he groaned into her mouth as she opened it instantly for him and let him kiss her exactly how he has wanted to every day since she left him. He took his jacket off without moving his lips from hers, and pulled the towel away from her body and started kissing up her neck.

"Adam… we have to stop… I can't do this… I can't do this if it's just sex" Kim said praying that he wasn't just here for that because she wasn't sure she could actually find the control to make him stop.

"I love you… I broke things off with her… That's where I went… I want you, I want us" Adam said seriously staring into her eyes before crashing his lips back into hers with urgency. "I need you now though; can we talk properly… after?" Kim nodded and started undressing Adam while pushing him into her bedroom.

I almost didn't make that last part in this chapter, but I figured, 10 chapters to get them back together was enough LOL.