Chapter Ten: Mad Some, Scared Alot, Sad More

Justin's POV

I got off the school bus and slowly made my way down my road. The bus stop was five houses down from my house. I couldn't help but look over my shoulder and walk fast. I was always paranoid after...it happened. I walked into the house and saw dad making dinner, I wasn't very hungry today. Bobby Mainer had taken my appetite.

FlashBack

I took my English book from my locker and headed for seventh period. I was almost there when Bobby Mainer grabbed me my sweaters hood and yanked me back.

"Well, well, well, look what the cat drug in." He laughed as his friend Lewis Granger joined him.

"So how's your brother? Oh yeah, he ran off with his boyfriend." Bobby laughed.

Do you know how it feels to be hit in the stomach repeatedly? Well, that felt worse. His words I mean.

"He did not! Shut your mouth!" I yelled, outraged at him for being so mean. Jeremy had been kidnapped, it wasn't a joke.

"Or what? You'll get mad and run off with him too?" Lewis said, joining in.

"He didn't run off dammit! He got kidnapped!" I yelled. I knew they already knew that, but I said it again. No one was in this hallway, so I knew I wouldn't get away with walking off from them.

"That's just the official story. We've all heard what really happened. How you and your brother had sex with him."

I couldn't help it. I was so pissed, I mean mad at him that I pulled my fist back and shoved it straight into his nose. Blood shot out and he jumped back in surprise. I waited for him to strike back, but he didn't. He turned and walked away, but he did make another rude and mean comment as he left.

"At least I don't screw men you faggot!" He called.

I would have been madder and hit him again, if I wouldn't have seen Kylie Evans walking towards me.

"Are you okay?" She asked.

I was fine until she came, but now, I was nervous as heck.

"Peachy." I said sarcastically.

"Don't pay attention to him. He's a jerk."

"I know." I said.

"Well, bye."

"Bye." I told her.

I watched her as she disappeared around the corner of the hallway.

End Of FlashBack

I felt tears pierce my eyes as I remembered his words.

"At least I don't screw men you faggot."

Was I gay. Was it my fault that Nick had... hurt me in the park all this time ago? Kid's can be mean, but this was just vicious. If Jeremy was here, they wouldn't do it. He was the stronger one in the family. He took after Zack. I took after Dad, and we all know he's not very strong. But then again, if he was here, none of this would have even happened. And I'd be happy, instead of utterly depressed.

I wished kids didn't know what had happened to me. Life would be much easier.

"Dinner's ready!" Dad called from the kitchen.

I wasn't very hungry, but Dad's food was always good, so I knew I'd eat. I walked into the kitchen and join him at the table.

"So how was school today?" He asked me taking a drink of water.

"The same. I got made fun of and called a faggo-"

"I'm sick of these kids treating you like this! I'm calling the school tomorrow."

"No dad!" I said quickly. "You'll only make it worse."

"But Jusitn, they are-"

"You'll only make it worse!" I yelled at him again, I got up from the table and ran into my bedroom. I knew I was crying alot because as soon as my face hit the pillow, I felt the wet fabric stick to my face.

Dad had followed me of course.

"Jus, I'm sorry. Are you okay?" He asked me. I knew he was standing in the door, probably with his arms crossed.

"No." I cried. "How can I be alright when Jeremy's out there getting... God knows what done to him? How do I sleep knowing he may never make it home? How do I go outside without thinking I might be next? How do I go to school when everyone is calling me names and making fun of me?" I paused before I spoke again. "How do I continue breathing when there's no breath left in me."

Silence. I was hurting so deeply right now. I missed Jeremy. I wanted him back no matter the cost. I wished Nick would have taken me. Jeremy was great, everything I wasn't and now, he was out there getting hurt because of this pervert. I felt Dad lay down behind me.He put his arm around me as if to hug me. I felt his breath on my neck.

"I can't take your pain away or your fear, but I can love you. And I do Justin. I love you. I'm doing everything to get your brother back. And your Mom's finally helping for once. I can't answer your questions, because if I did, I'd be lying. I don't know how we make it through this, but I do know we will. We have to."

"Dad?" I asked, my tears calming.

"Yeah?"

I turned around. His face was stained from tears to.

"Where do you think he is right now?"

"I don't know son. But wherever he is, I hope he's warm and safe."

That was exactly what Jeremy wasn't. He was cold and right smack dab in harm's way.

A/N- I hope you liked it. I never really paid much to attention to Justin's character before, as you all know, so I didn't really know what to have him be like, so I aimed for Cody. I hope you liked it. I was going to put the next Chapter in Zack's POV, but I'm not now. The next chapter will be Normal POV. Then Zack's POV, and eventually, I'll have a Megan's POV chapter somewhere. It doesn't seem like ten chapters already. Wow. Thanks for reviewing guys. Your all great!