It was early the next morning as I made my way out to the carriage that would take my sister and I home. After my encounter with Lord Lawliet the previous night, we had collected ourselves and of course our clothing, and headed back down to the party. I found I couldn't pay attention the rest of the night however, all I could think about was him. Every few minutes I would catch myself staring at someone and blushing as I re-called each kiss and caress. They would then stare blankly, twitch their lips up into a scowl, and spin around to converse with their party. How rude of them. Though I truly could have cared less.

As my fingers rest delicately against the wood of the carriage door, I find myself gazing back at the Mansion longingly. I would miss Lawliet dearly, only the Heavens knew when I would see him again.

Releasing a soft sigh, I turn to step up onto the lift and make my way in, only to feel two familiar arms wind around my waist and hold me up. "Light, My love..." "Lawliet..." His name falls from my lips in a short breath of relief as I'm spun around to meet his gaze. I almost feel my body physically beginning to melt as we lock lips in a passionate kiss, neither of us willing to pull away. Was he worried about when we would see one another as well?

Eventually we're forced to break the kiss, hearing my sister impatiently clearing her throat from her spot in the Carriage, arms folded in a cross manner. It seemed she certainly didn't like how friendly we had become with one another over night. "Nii-Chan, we need to head back home now, hurry up!"

Hearing the irritation in her voice becoming clearer, I peck Lord Lawliet's cheek politely and turn to hop up onto the carriage footing once more, smiling fondly at him one last time. "Goodbye...Please take care of yourself until we meet again."

He offers me a meek smile in return, gazing at me as a dog does upon seeing his master depart.
Though in this case, I suppose it would be I that was the dog. Or perhaps instead, it was as if though two dogs were being torn away from one another after only knowing the comfort that the other brought.

I find myself pondering this instead of stepping inside. Luckily, my oh-so-wonderful sister is more than happy to grab me by the jacket pocket and yank me inside, slamming the door shut impolitely and urging our driver to take off as she swats at his shoulder with her handkerchief. She certainly did appear to be in quite the foul mood. I could tell by the way her lips had set and those normally cheerful eyes had become narrowed and vicious, as if warning all to heed the message they brought along.

I only study her a second longer, tilting my head out of the open window to look back at Lord Lawliet in those last, scarce moments. I find that he's staring after the carriage as if deep in thought, though it was too late for me to call out and ask why now, the driver had taken off in such a rush that the Mansion seemed miles away with each long bound the horses took.

Suddenly I hear my sister's increasingly irritating voice burst through the silence. "You had fun last night, didn't you." As I sit there, scanning through the list of words in my head that I can formulate into a sentence to reply to her with, I realize, there's nothing at all I can say that will please here in any shape or form. The only answer I give her in that moment, is nothing. The best answer I could possibly give after all. She soon realizes I won't be replying to her, folds her arms tightly, and whips her head around to watch the scenery drift by. It is exactly how I wished for us to remain the rest of the ride home.

After what seemed like an eternity, we finally arrived back home. My sister was quick to fling open the carriage door and storm inside, where as I casually took my time getting out and heading for the front door. She was greeted by my smiling Mother whom she hardly gave a passing glance, but I on the other hand smiled at in return and told her I would be upstairs washing before dinner.

I made my way up the staircase hurriedly, thoughts of everything that had transpired between Lawliet and myself rushing through my head at a dizzying pace. I could feel my heart beginning to beat rapidly against my ribcage as I entered my room and quietly let the door close behind me. Or at least I thought it had closed, only to find that when I leaned backwards I shut it and fell against it at the same time. So typical of me. But I didn't think twice about it as I clasped my hands together and placed them over my heart. Perhaps I could finally admit it to myself, I was in love. I was in love and I could practically shout it at the top of my lungs to random strangers. Though, that probably wouldn't be wise.

As I began to let my eyes slip closed in some sort of peaceful state, I heard a voice whisper from the darkness. "Hey...took you long enough to get home.." My heart stopped as I realized who it was, breathing out delicately. "Beyond?"

From the darkened part of the corner of my room came two blood red eyes, eyes that seemed to be raw with worry. I felt a frown appear on my face at the sight, then pushed myself away from the door to walk towards him as the rest of him appeared. "Did I worry you? You didn't have to wait for me, I thought you knew I was headed for Lord Lawliet's mansion."

He shrugs his shoulders as if to say 'Well I did, but I didn't', then reaches out to place his hands on my shoulders, giving a squeeze as he gazes as deeply as possible into my eyes. "Light...there's...something I have to say...I just can't keep it to myself anymore."

He leans in as if he's going to kiss me, and I visibly cringe and withdraw, though he doesn't, he just begins to speak once more, eyes flashing a slight bit of hurt and something else I cannot make out.

"I just...I don't even know where to start..I can't tell you that I love you, because that would make me a liar on top of everything else I am. But hell...I know there's more between us, and I know I can give you happiness since I'm too damn poor to give you anything else. What I'm saying is...I want you to think over your feelings for him, and your feelings for me. I want this to work somehow. Because...because I care about you."

I feel my breath shorten as I listen to him, gazing at him in a wide eyed manner as I'm left in complete shock over his words. For a moment, neither of us say anything and all that can be heard is the sound of one of the tree limbs scraping against my window as the wind blows and howls in agony. I couldn't agree with the wind more. He squeezes my shoulders again as if to hurry me along with any sort of answer, but my lips part and nothing comes out but air.

"Light, say something." He says with great urgency in his voice, and all at once, I'm able to reply. "I'm engaged..." Is all I can think to say, the only thing I can possibly tell him.

His wrists go limp and his hands suddenly fall from my shoulders, I can feel him gazing at me emptily, but I've already turned my head away since I can't bear to look him in the eyes. "Engaged..."He echoes and the room goes deathly silent. "Forgive me.." I say in a shaky voice, trying to gather myself as I do.

We stay that way, like statues, me facing away and staring down the wall, and he staring at me.

After a while I start to think we'll never move again, that time will freeze us this way forever. But soon enough he reminds me how wrong I am, forcefully sweeping me off of my feet to hold me in his arms and cradle me against his chest, lips crushing against mine as I at first try desperately to fight him off. "Beyond!" Comes my muffled cry, though it only eggs him on. He kisses once more in a less pushy manner, I feel my body calming down but my heart only beats faster. Throbbing and aching painfully, hurting me all the more. Eventually it seems I start to kiss back, doing it because I will never be able to do it again. I will never...ever...know what this could have been like. Know what Beyond and I could have been like. Know what our life could have been like. But...I'm in love with another..and know that minor feelings cannot meddle in that..

My lips move as his do in the most tender of ways, and as they part, I hear a gasp of horror and the door to my room slam shut. Instantly I tear myself away, only to realize with terror that my sister Sayu had been there the whole time. "Sayu!" I cry out. But it's too late, I can hear her little feet hitting the staircase as they run. Running, to tell our parents. To ruin my life and reputation. How could she?

Finally I got this chapter finished! I hope it was worth waiting all this time for, and that you're all looking forward to the next chapter!
I promise you, it'll be filled with surprises~!