What do you do when you know something's bad for you
And you still can't let go?

Chapter 7: Love Is In The Air

I woke up to being in Tommy's arms. I missed this feeling so much. Being with Tommy is a dream come true. Ever since we went our separate ways I felt incomplete and that no one could fill that hole. I tried my hardest to get over him but there just wasn't another Tommy. I lay there just staring at Tommy. I wanted us to last and I wanted nothing to come in between us. Tommy started to stir awake.

I looked down at my prince and smiled. I got up ad decided to get myself ready for the day. As I was brushing my teeth Tommy came in. he kissed my neck and then started to brush his teeth. When he was done I brought his lips to mine. The kiss deepened as my want for him took over.

I pushed him into the shower and turned on the water. The water was cold at first but I didn't care. The water started to warm up. I had just noticed that we still had on our clothes so I started to strip off his wet clothes as he did the same to me. Once we were fully naked my hands started to roam his naked body. He turned us around so that my back was on the tiled wall.

He couldn't take the teasing and I wasn't in the mood either. Without notice he thrust into me. My back arched with pleasure and gave him access to my breasts. He took one into my mouth, as he sucked and nipped at one of them he continued to thrust in me. All the pleasure was overwhelming. I came screaming Tommy's name at the top of my lunges. He continued to go trying to find his release. He did a couple of thrusts later. Once we came down from our high we actually took our shower.

I was naive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping

As we finished our shower Tommy told me that he wanted us to spend the day together. I was going to treasure this day because I knew once I got back home we were not going to have this freedom that we have right now. We got dressed and went to have some breakfast together.

We went to this nice diner not far from where Tommy was staying. After breakfast Tommy took me to my house so I could change clothes and so he could get everything set up. He told me he would be back in about an hour or so. I kissed him bye then went into my house to get changed. After I was changed I decided to talk to Steven while I was waiting for Tommy.

"So how was spending the night with Tommy?" I found Steven outside sitting by the pool.

"It was wonderful. I felt like I was finally back where I belonged" I smiled at the thought of me waking up next to Tommy.

"Do you guys have anything planned for today?" he was nosy but I was happy to tell him.

"Yea he wants to spend the whole day together but I don't know what we are doing" I didn't need to know as long as I got to be with Tommy.

"I am happy for you Jude. You deserve to be happy and being with Tommy makes you happy" I walked to him and sat next to him.

"But what about you, I mean I dragged you into this mess and now you are all alone" I felt bad for him. He was only trying to help me out.

"Jude don't worry about it. I knew we weren't going to be an official couple and I was ok with that. I was happy to help and now that my job is done I am going to go and look for my special someone or at least someone to hang with. Just promise me we will still be friends" I had a feeling he liked me more than he let on but I let it go.

"I promise" I gave him a hug. We sat and talked about nothing. The door bell rang so I sprang up and ran to the door. Tommy was standing there.

Got caught in your web
And I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed
And devoured completely

He took me by the hand and led me to his car. Once we were both in he took off towards our destination. When he stopped the car I noticed that we are at a park that was also having a nice live band playing. We got out the car and Tommy went to the trunk to grab something. When he came back to me he was holding a picnic basket and a blanket. I smiled at him as he took my hand. He found a spot under a tree and close enough so we could hear the music.

"This is beautiful Tommy" he started to take out the food as I sat on the blanket looking at all the families that were there.

"Well I knew you would like this since its simple and not extravagant" he knew me so well. We ate the food he packed as we listened to the music. We talked about anything and everything we could think of. When we were done Tommy packed everything up then pulled me to his chest. We sat there just enjoying the scenery. A couple of kids near by were playing soccer so I got the idea to get up and go play with them. I took off my shoes and ran to play with the little kids. Tommy watched me and smiled that beautiful smile I loved. I waved for him to join us so he got up and played with us. The kids were laughing and it made me think about what I would do if I had a kid.

We waved bye to the kids as their parents called them so they could get ready to eat. Tommy took my hands and started to dance to the slow music that was being played. I loved being in his arms I could stay like this forever. Today was a great day. The sun was starting to set so we sat back on the blanket and watched it go down. Once it was down Tommy told me he had one more thing he wanted us to do so we grabbed all our stuff and went back to the car. He made sure everything was packed up before we drove to our next destination.

We were entering the downtown area which was always so beautifully lit at night. He parked the car and then we started to walk around admiring the scenery. We came up to one of those carriage rides and he paid the guy to take us around downtown. I had always wanted to take a carriage ride so I was excited. We got in and the horse took off. I laid my head on Tommy's shoulder as we toured downtown. The lights were beautiful this whole day was just well words just couldn't explain it.

And it hurts my soul
Cause I can't let go
All these walls are caving in
I can't stop my suffering
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cause I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from

We came to the end of our journey. We thanked the guy before we headed back to his car. The ride to my house was passed in a comfortable silence. I ended up falling into a peaceful sleep. I could feel the car slowing to a stop but I was to far gone to wake up. I heard my door open and arms being wrapped under my knees and myself being picked up. Tommy was carrying me to my bed.

I awoke the next morning to the smell of pancakes, bacon, and eggs. I got up went into the bathroom brushed my teeth then made my way downstairs. I saw Tommy in there cooking. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He turned to kiss me on the lips. After he pulled away he shooed me out the kitchen so he could finish breakfast. I laughed at his enthusiasm. I knew we were going back today and it sucked. I wasn't ready to go back home but I had to go.

We ate breakfast then I went to get ready and pack my stuff. Tommy left to go pack up his stuff. I hated that it was time to go home but we had to get back to reality. I packed my stuff as slowly as possible hoping time would just stop and allow me to enjoy the last couple of days. I was happy that Tommy and I were back together but I wondered how long it would last. Tommy came back and we each hopped into our cars and we were off.

I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away

After many many hours we finally made it back home. We decided to just go to my house and we would discuss everything tomorrow. I was exhausted and I knew Tommy was too. We left our bags in the car and just went to my room so we could crash on my bed. Neither of us bothered to change we just slept in our clothes.

We awoke the next morning to a lot of people talking downstairs. I got up and pulled Tommy down the stairs with me. When I got down there I say my dad's security and they all had a sad expression on their faces when they say me standing there. I was confused as to why they were all here in my house. I walked up to Darius to see what was going on.

"Darius why is everyone here and not with my father?" they should be protecting my father.

"Jude something terrible has happened" I could feel my legs about to give out. Every time someone said that to me it was never good.

"What happened Darius?" I was afraid of what he was going to tell me.

"Your dad is dead. He was murdered last night" my legs did give out as I fell to the ground. Tommy was there in an instant wrapping his arms around me but I pushed him away. I stood up I had to stay strong I couldn't show weakness. I knew that the family business was mine and I had to step up and run it but first I had a funeral to plan.

I should have known
I was used for amusement
Couldn't see through the smoke
It was all an illusion

"Was his body recovered?" I didn't have time to mourn I had business to take care of.

"Yes it is being transported here" ok so once the body is here we will have a funeral for him.

"Ok I want you to let everyone know what happened and I want you to contact the lawyers so we can get the will read and over with" yes all business Jude.

"I will do" I watched Darius leave to do as I said. The men stayed behind to protect me. I looked at Tommy and could see the sadness and confusion in his eyes.

"Jude what are you doing?" he took a tentative step towards me.

"What does it look like I am doing Tommy? I am about to plan a funeral for my dad and I am taking my place as head of this family know" my dad always called it a family I never knew why and I will never know.

"Jude you have to stop and let it sink in" I just brushed his words away. I turned to look at Mike the guy in charge of security.

"I want you to find out who killed my father and when you do I want you to get rid of them immediately. Do you understand?" he nodded his head before he left to go do what I told him to do. I was going to avenge my father if it was the last thing I did.

I knew once I came home things were not going to be simple. No I come home to find out that my dad was murdered. The lawyer came over an hour after I sent Darius to get him. We were sitting at the business table discussing certain aspects of the business.

"Well Jude as you already know your father left you everything and some things to Darius but you own mostly everything" I had to make sure my father redid his will since his split from my mother. He sometimes was slow at getting stuff done. I am glad this wasn't one of those times.

"Thank you" I left him to tell Darius what my father left him. I was pretty much going to let Darius run most things but I would still be in the loop.

Now I've been licking my wounds (licking my wounds)
but then venom seeps deeper (deeper, deeper)
We both can't seduce
Darling you hold me prisoner (prisoner)

Tommy was worried about me because I just kept going and going. My father's body finally arrived so I had the funeral scheduled for today. It had arrived a few days ago so I sent word out to all my fathers' friends and anyone else I could think of. Tommy tried to get me to stop but I just couldn't I had to keep going.

As I entered the church I felt so overwhelmed. I hadn't really been sleeping and the pressure was getting to me. I took my seat at the front. I must have zoned out because the next thing I know they are carrying his casket out and Tommy is pulling me to a standing position. Tommy had to help me walk because I was just unfocused.

We went back to my house where everyone gathered to pay their respects. I talked to everyone and accepted their sorry. things were going good until the evil bitch and her offspring showed up. I walked straight up to them not in the mood to take their shit. I wanted to throw them out on their asses but I kept my composure.

"What the hell are you doing here?" she had a vindictive smile on her face.

"Well since your father is dead I get his half of the business and this house" I laughed a laugh that I didn't even notice.

"Ha that's what you think but see my dad revised his will and he left me everything so I think you and your whore of a daughter need to get the fuck out of my house before I throw you out" she looked pissed but I didn't give a damn. She stalked away but Sadie was still standing there with her eyes on Tommy. I wanted to punch her lights out.

"Tommy I haven't seen you in a while. I think its time for you to come home" ugh I wanted to barf. Tommy walked over to us.

"I have been busy Sadie," yea busy with me.

"Well let's go Tommy you are not supposed to be here with that slut" if Kwest didn't come over when he came over I would have hit her in her fucking jaw.

"Sadie she just lost her father and besides Jude and I are back together. I don't love you I don't even like you shit I can't fucking stand the sight of you. I was only with you because you claim you are pregnant with my child. I think you need to leave now" Kwest was still holding me back as I listened to Tommy. I wanted to jump on him but Kwest still had a hold of me.

"This isn't over you little bitch and I am glad our worthless father is dead. Now all my mom has to do is get rid of your ass" I nearly lunged at her but Kwest and Tommy held me back from attacking me. Sadie smirked before she left my house.

I'm about to break
I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your lure
and I'm feeling for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need

Once Sadie was safely away from my reach Tommy and Kwest let go of me. I stalked past everyone and went to my room. Once I was in there I started to throw things. My blood was pumping. I was beyond pissed. Tommy carefully entered my room as I threw a glare his way. If he wouldn't have helped Kwest hold me back I would have ripped Barbie to pieces.

I was about to throw something at him but he grabbed my wrist and pushed me against the wall. He lips crashed on me in a fierce intense kiss. I tore off his clothes as he tore off mine. We were both naked. He thrust into me hard and with each thrust was harder as we continued on. I could feel all my walls and masks breaking down on me.

As we both climaxed Tommy pulled away from me as I fell down to the floor. All the pain I was trying to hide and keep hidden came in full force. Tears were coming down and they were not going to stop. Tommy slid down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I moved so my face was buried in his chest. I ended up crying myself to sleep.

I woke up and got ready for the day that was ahead of me. I figured I was going to wake up to a trashy house but when I walked down the stairs I saw that it was cleaned. I saw Tommy sitting on the couch watching TV. I sat next to him and cuddled closely to him.

"Thank you" he turned the TV off and looked at me confused so I decided to elaborate "for last night. I needed that a lot" he kissed me lightly on the lips.

"Jude I know you are use to keeping things bottled up inside but you cant keep doing that to yourself its not good for you and I am here for you whenever you need to talk to someone" I smiled at him and was about to kiss him when my front door was flung open.

I can make it
This torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn

I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from

There in my doorway stood an unstable Sadie. I didn't even have time to register what was going on. The only thing I saw was a gun then I heard a shot then everything went black. In the far distance I could hear my name but the darkness was calling my name.

Tommy's POV

I watched Jude fall to the ground. Blood was just pouring out. I hurried and called 911. I turned to look at Sadie who had a sadistic smile on her face. I wanted to jump up and kill her but I had to help Jude. Sadie left before the paramedics arrived. They put Jude on the stretcher and took her to the hospital. On the ride there I kept telling Jude to hang on and not to leave me. I just got her back I couldn't lose her already.

They took her to the ER as I sat in the waiting room. Darius, my sister, and Kwest all came down there to keep me company and to make sure Jude survived. She had to survive I mean I can't lose her not now. We were destined to have a long life together. We are supposed to get married and have kids. Please dear god let Jude survive this.

I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away