This is just a short update that I need to write down because it wont leave me alone at night.

It was some kind of an extra. I'll start with the plot next time.

Sorry for the late update guys. ^_^

Hope you like the chessyness.

Smother Me

"Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?"

I sat down a huge rock surrounded by fine white sand and sighed.

The sun is burning. But it's not hot.

El Hueco Mundo is a really strange place.

"You okay Ich?"

I blinked then turned my gaze towards Grimmjow that's now approaching me from a nearby cave.

I turned my eyes away. There's no reason for me to lie to him anymore.

He knew me too well now.

Grimmjow sat beside me, trying to sit much nearer and squeezing himself beside me. I can't help but sigh. He's always like this when he's trying to catch my attention. He always act very childish. At least during our second life as a human. It's a bit weird for him to act this way even though he already gained his memories as a hollow back though.

I sighed again.

"Fuck Grimm stop that. You're annoying."

I frowned as I move away a bit from him to make him stop squeezing himself towards me.

I heard him chuckled.

"Co'z you're too stiff! Loosen up a bit will ya'?"

I closed my eyes and sighed.

"How can I? After hearing what Urahara said, I've been itching to go back there."

"Then what? You wanna be Juha's pawn that much Ichi? Well, it's not like I'm going to allow it, but I'm pretty sure that I'll die in the process there. Do you want me to die that much huh?"

I looked at him scowling. Who said that I'm going to let him be killed? He just returned my gaze with a very blank expression.

But he has a point.

I looked down and directed my anger towards the rock that is now sitting in front of me. My reatsu flared and hardened, then I manipulated it to form a spike and impaled the rock, crushing it in the process.

One of the guards from the Zero division taught me how to use my overly sized and uncontrollable reatsu and transform it into a shield like film, covering my whole body. I can now change its mass, or even shield someone else other than my own body. Very useful, but still not that effective when it comes to those Quincy's powerful arrows. Damn those fucking arrows.

Another thing is that when it breaks, I'll feel very weak, like all of my strength was taken away from me.

I was just lucky that Grimmjow saved me when that happened last time. If he's not there, who knows what happened to me now?

Grimmjow whistled.

"Is that always that powerful Ichi? The last time I remembered you using that, Juha's guard broke it to pieces with just one arrow."

I raised my eyebrow as I looked back towards him.

"What do you mean?"

I saw him roll his eyes. Fuck that. Why does he looked so sexy everytime he does that?

"Don't tell me that you don't feel it. You're reatsu is so much powerful now dummy."

I scoffed to hide that strange twitch inside my stomach.

"It's just the surge baka. My reatsu has been suppressed for 18 years. It's only natural that it's now trying to get out of my body all at once."

He frowned.

Damn. He got too much effect on me. Every expression that he makes drives a little bit of my insides crazy.

He stood up and stretched.

"Then why don't you try and control it again? You're able to control it while you're still human. Why not try to do it again?"

I just chuckled then looked back towards the rock that's now in pieces.

"If you'll be able to suppress it again, you'll be able to control the amount of reatsu that you'll use as a shield and a form of attack. Like suppressing the water from a hose, it'll be much powerful Ich."

He turned towards me, grinning. He's getting so talkative these days.

I smirked. That's just easy for him to say.

I was not able to control and hide my reatsu ever since I became a shinigami. It's close to impossible now.

Then I was smacked.

Grimmmjow's fist landed on my head like a meteorite.

Shit, I think my skull just cracked. I lifted my face and faced him with all the anger that I could gather and stood up.

"What the hell-"

His arms flung around me and hugged me tightly leaving my mouth gaping.

His surprise attack made my head shut down. I closed my mouth and stared towards the horizon of El Hueco Mundo. All the while feeling his hug grew tighter, and his fingers caress my back here and there.

All of the questions, anger, uneasiness, guilt and sadness was shoved back inside the "think about this later" closet of my mind.

Grimmjow's touch, is like morphine.

I sighed and buried my face on his shoulder. It's easy, because he's still taller that me. I don't know why this man has this kind of effect on me. Is this the effect of our 18 years as a human together? Did we become closer because of that? But I doubt that this is just closeness. This is something more. And that was proven during that night.

I think I just blushed.

No. I was human back then. I'm back to myself now. There's just no way that I will allow that to happen again! I..- shit.

He kissed my neck and sighed. I can feel his breath on my skin, and it gave me goosebumps.

Then as if kissing my neck was not enough, he licked that same part of my neck.

Shit, it feels like I'm being electrocuted. I tried to move my neck away as I suppressed a moan from my throat. But he pulled me even closer. Then he grind his groin towards mine.

Oh. My. God. He's hard.

I felt my cheeks burned.

"G-Grimm-jow.."

I inhaled sharply and closed my eyes as I fisted the sleeves of his jacket.

"I-Ich.. fuck.."

He sighed as he grind cruelly towards me, his arms pushing my head towards his shoulder, and inhaling my hair.

"S-shit.. I.. wanna fuck you right n-now.."

I gasped. Damn, how can I say no with that kind of sexy voice?

He bucked his hips towards me, and a moan left my mouth, followed by his grunt.

Shit, reason is now quickly leaving my head.

Aibou.. Careful.. Weird Hat is jus' inside that cave..

My head snapped up from realization. I looked around to make sure that we're alone. But the funny part is that Grimmjow also did the same thing. Like we're both thinking about the same thing. Can Shiro also talk to him?

We allowed a small space between us as we checked the surrounding, but our bodies are still so much near to each other.

Then our surprised eyes met. I think we both swallowed our throat as lust returned in our eyes. We're still both hard.

He made the first move and crossed that small gap between our faces. He kissed me. It was nothing like the deep open-mouthed kiss that we shared in his room. It was a fast chaste one. Like a reminder. I think my blush grew redder.

Then he let go of me, took a few steps back and turned around.

We stayed like that for a few minutes. Not talking and both looking at opposite direction.

What was that again?

I heard him sighed loudly, as if he was so frustrated. Why is he frustrated anyway?

Oh. Right. He wanna fuck me.

I gulped.

He walked towards the boulder that we're sitting on a while ago and sat back down. Then he called my attention and motioned for me to sat down beside him. I sighed then sat down, quickly averting my gaze towards the farthest thing that I could see in this perpetual sand world.

"Do you hate it?"

I frowned and looked back at him, surprised.

"S-Sorry?"

"I said do you hate it. You said you're not gay. So do you hate doing this thing with me?"

What the hell? What is this guys saying all of a sudden? I felt like I'm feeling this shit just by myself. I feel betrayed.

I stood up and faced him, trying to keep myself calm by clenching my fist tightly.

"What the fuck are you trying to say?"

"Ich-"

"Answer me you Prick!"

He gulped then looked down on my feet.

"I don't know. I was just.. I was just.. Oh fuck.."

He sighed and looked back towards me. I allowed my eyebrows to furrow.

"I was just afraid that you'll end up pushing me away.."

I think my eyes just rolled.

Hah. Grimmjow. Afraid. Am I dreaming?

But then Shiro showed me a different interpretation of what Grimmjow just said.

Aibou.. Don' return Grimmjow's stubborness with your own stubborness. You'll not achieve anything, and you'll end up fighting again. Do you like that?

Grimmjow was afraid that I'm going to push him away.

Fuck, Shiro is getting a bit nosy these days. I heard him chuckled inside my head.

You jus' wait Aibou. I could do a lot of things now.

I shut him up. Right now, I don't have time to deal with him. One childish Grimmjow is enough already.

I focused back towards Grimmjow and sighed.

"Think asshole. Did I pushed you away?"

He scoffed. Do I look like I'm lying to him?

"Eventually, you will."

He answered pouting.

Oh God. I'm not sure if I'm going to laugh because of that pout, or if I'm going to punch him because he's acting like a child again. Please guide me.

I sighed and crouched in front of him. I don't know why I'm doing this, but someone has to act like an adult in this relationship.

Wait. Am I now accepting that I'm in a relationship with him now?

Of course. We're attracted to each other. We have that "You leave me breathless" effect to each other, we did those intimate things to each other, so I guess we really are in a relationship now.

Oh fuck.

"Grimmjow, try to think of it. All of those things that we did, did I ever said no to you? Did I pushed you away? Are you that dense? Or you just want to see me frustrated that much?"

Then his face was filled with that familiar grin.

Oh shit. He's playing with me. Fuck him.

I stood up, but he pulled me towards him and made me sat on his lap, then hugged me.

I sighed again as he chuckled. This man, is so cruel.

"I love you Ichigo Kurosaki. Keep that in mind."

"And I hate you fucking much Grimmjow Jaegerjaques."

He chuckled.

"There's a very fine line between love and hate, I could live with that, and turn it into passion some time later."

"I'll fry that pride of yours and shove it to your face some time later."

He laughed again, then his hug grew tighter. I knew that his serious now as he became silent.

"Seriously Ichi.. I love you.."

I smiled and pushed myself to him, allowing him to hug me more.

"I love you too. Grimm."

つづ

Haha.. That was way too chessy...

I'm sorry guys.. But I can't just picture them doing XXX things together as of now..

And there's just not enough time..

I will try to look more further into the future and see what I can do next time..

Thank you for reading!