A/N: I'm extremely sorry for taking so long to update my stories. I have writer's block plus what has been going on in my life. I can't say I'm back or when I'll update again. But I promise I will finish. If you read I'm just me nothing special. As soon as my best friend finish proofreading it will be up sometime Tuesday or Wednesday

Ashley Pov

I had been laying in bed, staring at baby blue ceiling for a few hours. Something that Ethan had asked me weirded me out. He had the balls to think I would go thru his porn collection and stole a private DVD. That is just gross on so many levels but the thing that got me thinking he was so angry that some DVD magically vanished. The look in his eyes were ice cold. I don't have time to worry about what he does on his own time.

I have far more too important things to worry about. I just found out that I got Colorectal Cancer. From what I know, it usually happens in older people and I am definitely too young to have it.

Hell what am I talking about? Ashton is way too young to have cancer but yet he is probably ten times mentally stronger than me. Something about him seems so familiar but I am not really certain that I was thinking straight. You know what I meant. He has Spencer's ocean blue eyes. That doesn't mean anything. Does it? Why do I even torture myself. Oh maybe because the kid asked me to sing the one song that I haven't sung live since my life went to hell.

It had been four years, about fourteen hundred days since I buried my baby sister and haven't visited since. It was my fucked up fault. I shouldn't went to the bar nor danced with a Los Loca's gang member nor leading her to the bathroom. Unfortunately, Aiden and Kyla showed up before we had done anything.

I'm grateful for them stopping it but Carmen wasn't happy. Her gang waited for us to get on the road. Aiden was driving with Kyla in the passenger's seat. I was in the back. Kyla was furious how I nearly cheat on Spencer. I noticed we were surrounded by black hummers and told Kyla to shut up. Then I saw it. Before I could scream, ten bullets were shot by the woman I nearly cheat with. I saw blood sprayed out my best friend's head before Kyla's body wasn't moving. Somehow I managed to jumped onto Aiden's lifeless body and kicked his foot off of the gas and pulled over. Still today I don't know how I wasn't shot. It should of be me instead of my baby sister and best friend.

I heard someone knocking on my door. I hoped whoever it is, got the point and get lost. No such luck because I heard my door open and shut. Great whoever it was got a key.

?: Ash, are you here?

ASH: NO I AM NOT.

I heard her footsteps coming closer.

?: Right! Care to explain why I got a contract from the doucebag on my desk?

Shit I forgot to call Madison and explain.

ASH: I needed to.

She stepped in my bedroom. Once she saw I had been crying, she jumped on my bed and hug me łightly.

MD: What happened Chica?

ASH: Stage 3 Colorectal cancer happened.

MD: What? How? You are young.

I laughed bitterly.

ASH: I'm not that young apparently.

MD: Get a second opinion. Who knows Dr. Carlin might be lying.

I pulled away.

ASH: No. She wouldn't be lying about something as serious like this!

Madison took awhile to digest the news.

MD: How bad is it?

That is a loaded question.

ASH: Pretty bad Mads. I need to think about a will.

Tears were running down her face.

MD: Oh hell no! You are not going to die Davies!

ASH: Mads, if you can't do my will I'll find a lawyer that will. I have CANCER that kills. I am practically dead now.

Madison gotten out of my bed.

MD: I CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT YOU JUST SAID THAT TO ME!

ASH: I'm sorry. That came out wrong. Mads, you know I wouldn't even think about getting another lawyer that could handle this sort of thing if you and I were just a lawyer and client but we're not. We were enemies then frienemies then somehow best friends. I don't want you watch me to die.

MD: Then go find something to live FOR! Because this is fucking rich. You rather die. Before you deny it, think real hard about past four years.

ASH: You don't understand.

MD: Oh I do understand, you ran away every time things get tough. And the one time Spencer didn't come after you or have someone come after you doesn't seem weird to you. I bet that you don't know the real reason why Spencer's a nurse or why she even broke up with you.

ASH: GO TO HELL.

MD: Kyla is gonna haunt my ass for this but fuck it. When you decided to almost fuck a hoe because you were pissed off at Spence because she got accepted in the best nursing school. What you don't know is why.

ASH:SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT!

MD: Yes I fucking do! Spence is a nurse because of you.

I got out of the bed and got into Madison's face.

ASH: YOU BETTER SHUT UP!

MD: Where did Spencer get the money for the ring around your fucking neck?

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

ASH: Kyla said she loaned Spencer the money.

Madison must of found it really funny because she's fucking laughing.

MD: Ash, why would you even believe that Spencer would use any Davies' money for an engagement ring for you? Specially when she refuse to use any your money.

My eyes flew open.

ASH: I don't know Mads. I just assumed because Kyla said she loaned the money to Spencer.

I have a feeling my sis had lied. I can't believe I didn't give it any more thought.

MD: When you guys began to fight?

ASH: Few days after she proposed, she told me she was looking into nursing. I was so frustrated because I knew she wanted to do something in film.

MD: Have you ever asked why? Or just blow up?

I look back to those times.

ASH: It doesn't matter anymore.

MD: Chica, we both know it does.

ASH: Why are you bringing this up?

MD: Because YOU haven't moved on. Look if your sister was here she would tell you, make Spencer to explain then either move the fuck on or kiss the hell outta her.

ASH: Well thanks to me, my sister is dead and Spencer has moved on. So it does not matter.

MD: You know what happened to Kyla and Aiden isn't your fault and nobody blames you.

ASH: Right!

Madison lets out a resign sigh. She knows when it's time to change the subject.

MD: Explain why Patrick Prick's office faxed me a contract about ten interviews for your evil queen's so called news company.

ASH: Long story short. While I was receiving my diagnosis, Spencer came busting in ready to give Paula hell.

Madison's eyes nearly popped out.

ASH: God she is still as beautiful from the first time I saved her from you and your minions. Anyway her fiancee didn't like what she saw between us and you can figure out the rest.

MD: Wow. Can I redo the contract and send it back? You forgot something.

I looked at her confused.

MD: By that look, you don't know what I am talking about. Everything in the contract seems to be legit but one tiny detail is missing.

ASH: What is it?

Madison pulled out two contracts. Set them side by side.

MD: Well Ms. Davies as you can see there are two contracts. One from Mrs. Woods' lawyer and one which I took the liberty to drawn it up. There was a loop hole left wide open. In this contract, Mrs. Woods has the right to choose whoever the interviewer can be plus all the profits go to her. Something didn't sit right with me so I drew up a contract with addition of you must agree on whom the interviewer would be and forty-five percent goes to a charity of your choice.

I quickly looked over the contract and gave Madison a small smile.

ASH: I totally forgot about it. I'm glad you caught it or Christine would pick someone who I hate.

MD: Well it is my job to catch. Speaking of job, I'm taking another client on. So try to stay out of trouble.

ASH: But I thought you are not taking more clients until you have decided where you want to stay.

Madison became uncomfortable.

MD: Well I need to venture out from being Ashley Davies' lawyer.