Lost But Not Forgotten
Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans or the song "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" by Relient K.
Chapter 10: Who I Am
The alarm went off waking me from my dream. I again found myself on the floor.
"She's sleeping on the couch next time." I mumbled to myself.
I arose from the floor and gently shook Rachel.
Wait why am I gently shaking her?
I then pushed her off the bed sending her to the floor.
"Ow! Kori you bitch! Why did you do that?"
I smiled.
"Well you've kicked me off my bed for the past two nights, so I thought I would kick you off."
"Oops sorry about that."
We both burst into a fit of giggles. We then changed into our uniforms.
"Are these things even legal to where?" Rachel asked as we looked at ourselves in the mirror.
"It should be illegal." We both giggled again. I pulled my hair into a high ponytail and Rachel kept hers down.
"Morning Kimi." Kimi was munching on a piece of toast.
"Why are you so happy?"
"I can't be happy?"
Kimi just shrugged her shoulders and grabbed her keys and was off to work.
"I'll be late tonight."
"Kay."
She left me and the half awake Rachel in the kitchen.
"Hey Rachel."
"What?"
"Want a cherry?" I said through a smirk. She blushed and playfully hit my arm.
"I'm fine thank you." I giggled and poured us some cereal which we ate in silence. We then took off for school.
"School….." I hissed though my teeth.
Rachel looked over at me.
"Jeez Kori I know you don't like school and I'm right there with you, but do you really hate it that much?"
"It's not so much the school….."
We made it to the yard and I spotted him.
"…….It's more of the people that go here."
Rachel raised an eyebrow and looked over to what I was looking at.
"Who Richard?"
"Richard." I hissed again.
"You seriously need to let it go."
I stopped.
"Are you taking his side?"
I placed my hands on my hips.
"No, I'm just saying."
"Whatever."
We walked over to where Karen, Victor, Gar, Xavier, and must I mention his name? Fine and Richard too.
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
"Hey ladies."
"Hi Victor."
"Please call me Vic."
"Okay Vic."
He smiled and wrapped his arm around Karen's waist pulling her closer to him.
"Hi Kori."
"Hello Xavier."
I smiled and he stood next to me. Richard remained silent looking pleased about something. I wanted to ask him what he was so pleased about when the bell rang. We all made our way to our classes. As we walked I could see Rachel studying Richard closely.
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
"Why are you studying him?" I whispered.
"Uh…no reason."
I shrugged it off and walked into science. Mr. Sears must hate me because he made me work with Kitten. She kept going on and on about pointless things.
"And so Tara was dating this one guy who cheated on her for her best friends which was like totally wrong, but then they got back together and I was like…….."
I tried to block her out and concentrate on the lab, but she was like a fly buzzing in my ear.
"Kori are you like listening to me?"
"Uh…..of course Kitten."
"What did I say?"
Damn it! What did she say?
"Uh how Tara's ex-best friend is a bitch?"
She smiled.
"That's right!"
Phew! That was close.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I stole a glance at Richard and something about him looked so familiar, but what? The bell rung and I literally ran out of science. French was boring, but I found out that Jinx had French with me so we sat in the back and talked because we had a sub. The rest of the classes passed by like a blur, until the bell for lunch rang.
"Yes! Finally lunch!" I met my group of people at the table. Rae, Gar, Jinx, Wally, Xavier, Karen, Vic, and Richard.
"Hey Kori."
I sat between Xavier and Rachel, across from Richard who still had that look of pleasure on his face, but it was also mixed with a troubled expression. I wanted to be able to read his eyes, but Rachel started asking me questions before I could meet his eyes fully. After answering her questions I remained silent listening to other conversations.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
"So are you guys ready for the Masquerade Ball coming up?" Karen asked excitedly.
That got everyone's attention. Ears perked and eyes widened. I looked at Richard again who was looking directly at me. I wanted to look away, but his eyes held so much. Pleasure, confusion, troubled, love, and a secret was dwelling deep with in his ocean blue eyes. He quickly looked away and I looked up at Karen.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
"Alright people we only have a couple of weeks and I need help setting it up. Rachel can you and Jinx find a location?"
They nodded in response.
"Great, Xavier I need you to cover music."
"No problem."
"Richard can you and Wally cover invitations?"
"Yes."
"Kori can you and Gar do decorations?"
I glanced at Gar and he gave me a thumbs up.
"Defiantly."
Karen smiled, proud of herself for organizing us.
"Awesome."
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
It was time to go back to class so Gar, Rachel and I made our way to computer class. We couldn't talk at all because we all had to work on our projects, so that class was boring. Next was free period, which as I told you before they lock us all in the library for an hour. I met up with Jinx who was searching through the books for something.
"So why do they call this free period if they lock us in here?"
"Well have you looked at what they call uniforms here?"
We both giggled.
"Yeah I guess your right."
"Hey Kori can I talk to you?"
My blood went cold. I didn't have to turn to know who it was.
"Uh…."
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
I looked at Jinx for help, but she just nodded that I go. I sighed and turned to look at Richard.
"Sure." He smiled half heartedly and I followed him to an empty area.
"You wanted to talk to me."
"Kori I know why you hate me and please it wasn't my fault."
Tears filled my eyes and I started to walk away when he grabbed my arm gently.
"Please just here what I have to say."
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I can handle this.
"Okay."
He smiled again.
"Well I was really…oh how can I put this heart broken at the time."
"Why?"
I could see it was difficult for him to explain this, but then again all guys have this problem. (No offense to any guys!)
"Well my parents died."
"OMG Richard I'm so sorry, I didn't know!"
"No it's okay I shouldn't have said what I said to you. I didn't mean it at all."
I looked at him waiting for him to say he was playing a joke on me, but I could see the truth in his eyes.
"My parents died too, so it's just me and my sister."
"Sorry."
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I smiled.
"It's okay you get use to it."
"Kori I know I said I hated you when we were little, but why did you carry a grudge so long?"
"Well in third grade you made my life a living hell."
He frowned.
"I did?"
"Yeah you would always pick on me and play pranks on me and so would everyone else."
"Kori I don't know what to say, I didn't know….I would never….I'm sorry."
For once before that day I didn't feel hate towards him, I felt understanding. I understood how he felt about his parents.
"So can we be friends then?"
He stuck out his hand.
"Friends."
I shook his hand.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...
"Kori I need to tell you something."
"What."
"Well I'm Ni……."
"Kori!"
We both turned to see Rachel standing there.
"I need to talk to you."
I looked at Richard.
"What were you about to say?"
"Uh nothing."
"Okay see you seventh then?"
"Yeah."
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Rachel grabbed my arm and lead me down a row of books.
"What is it Rae?"
"Kori I think I know who Night Wing is."
My heart nearly jumped out of my chest.
"WHO?!"
The librarian shushed me and we ran down another row.
"Who?! I said more quietly.
"Night Wing is……"
Who I am hates who I've been.
DUN DUN DUN! Hehehe I'm so mean leaving you with a cliffy like that. Damn Rachel interrupting Richard from telling Kori that he was Night Wing, but looks like Rachel already figured that out. Sorry I took so long to update I was grounded from the computer, but here I am now!
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