10) Secrets Revealed.

Eli's POV

I am walking behind throughout the pit, but then I hear the Erudite, Ryan talking about not listening to a girl, that males are the superior gender and that he would never listen to her, so he would get rid of her as quick as possible. That is when I see their perfect opportunity, I starting walking towards the front where they were. Tris stopped near the edge. Damn it Tris move away from the edge.

I thought, when Tris is explaining, "This is the chasm, this is a reminder to us all the difference between stupidity and bravery, a daredevil jump from here will cost you your life."

I see Ryan taking a step towards her, "How about you give a demonstration?" They he shoves her hard, luckily not far enough for me to grab her hand. I glance down to her to see her looking up to me with shock and gratefulness. I start to pull her up until I hear Ryan's voice, "Hey look another girl, let her go or you will die along with her."

I just stare at him with hard daring eyes, I just smirk, "No, I will not let you kill our innocent instructor just because you don't like women being in charge of you." That is when she feel Ryan's hand pushing me too, I was hoping he would do that, to show that women are the superior and stronger gender, there was no way I would let him prove that wrong. He didn't know I had my hand griping the railing the whole time. So when I didn't fall either he grew very annoyed.

"Just fall you bitches!" I hears him shouting, then I felt him stamping on my hand, breaking my fingers with each stamp. "Let go!"

I look down to see Tris's eyes full of panic and worry, even though she was growing heavy I would never let her go, "Hey, Tris…Tris look at me." When her eyes are finally on me I smile a little, "Hey, it ok Tris, ok? I won't let you go; I have got you. Don't look anywhere but me" I see her looking passed me to my hand, "hey, hey, don't look past me. Look at me." Her eyes are back on mine. "See, it makes it easier doesn't it? We are both in this together. If you fall I fall. You are never alone. Remember that." I see her nodding, then I feel vibration running through the bridge which was making it very hard to keep a hold of, eventually I hear Four asking Marlene to take someone to the infirmary.

I look up and I am faced with my brother. "Four…get Tris." I say, I finally realise how tired I am getting, my arms are growing extremely weak. I cannot carry us both. I see Four moving to take my hand. Why isn't he listening to me, Tris is more important I am just an initiate. "Get Tris! She is more important." I half shout at him, I use the remaining strength I have to pull Tris as high as I can towards the bridge, suddenly she is out of my grasp and my arm falls to my side causing my whole body to sway. My hand is about to give up and let me fall until I feel a hand on my wrist. I look up to see Zeke. I let him pull me up, I let him use his strength as I hardly have any left. I just sit on the bridge breathing heavy.

I don't even feel Zeke looking at my hand through my glove, until he talks. "Eli, we need to get you to the infirmary, ok?"

I snap my head to look at my hand to see if he took my glove off, I am so relieved that he hasn't, that he is just talking about my broken hand "No it'll fine."

Zeke is about to speak until I hear Tris's voice, she also seems breathless, "Thank you, Eli. That was very brave."

I smile and shrug a little, why was she thanking me? any other person would have right? Just like we were saved by dauntless members. "I am sure you would have done the same."

I hear Four ask Tris "What happened?" I don't need to hear or remember that again so looked back at Zeke.

"Eli, we need to reset you hand, come on I'll take you." His voice is soft and caring.

No, I cannot go to the infirmary, they will take my glove of they will see my burnt hand, they will see muscle and veins instead of skin, no I refuse to go.

"No Zeke, I will be fine." I comment again, after all I have had enough and I have never been to the hospital for it, I have got knows how many broken bones but I am fine, aren't I?

"Eli, your hand is broken, you have to get it fixed!" Zeke seems to be getting angry at me because he is shouting at me

"I know, I know it's broken, but I will not go to the infirmary!" I had enough of this, he was acting like I was stupid. I am not stupid I just won't let them see it! So I just run as fast as I can.

I hear footsteps behind me, damn it who is following me, I just want to be left alone, why won't anyone just leave me alone? I just kept running and running but they always seemed to follow me, I am slowly starting to give up on outrunning them. Then I did give up when I heard.

"Eli stop!" From both of my instructors, damn it, it had to be them that followed me, I have to listen to them, they are the people that either keeps me in this faction or tells me to fuck off. I just stand where I am, they told me to stop but they didn't tell me what else to do,

I see my brother…I mean Four, I see Four walking into my view. "Hey, you are probably just in shock, you probably have adrenaline pumping through your body that is stopping your hand from hurting, but soon it will hurt like mad." He speaks softly to, he spoke caringly, he is my brother, he will have to know everything; I guess this is the first way he could find out.

"You don't understand, I…I can't go to the infirmary. Please don't make me explain why, I just can't." I spoke, both in defeat and determination, I don't want them thinking I am weak, I am not weak.

"What if we fix it for you in our apartment?" Tris questions me also in a caring tone. She only cares because I saved her life. No other reason. No, I cannot think that, that is rude, I don't even know her.

Exactly you don't them and you are going to show them your hand? It's the first day and you're going to spill your life to him and her? The voice in my head demands which I answer to, He is my brother! Yes, but I will make it like it is for them, I know I can live with a broken hand. "If it makes you feel better." I decide to reply.

They both seemed confused, but they shrug, they move to lead the way, I follow them, I think about making a run for it, but I am tired, I may not look like it to them but by god I am exhausted, Tris is heavier than she looks. We seem to walk forever. God they live forever away. I think until they finally stop at a door.

I look at them, I don't know where it came from but I yawn, which seems to catch Fours attention, since Tris is opening the door and he is just leaning against the door looking at me, "Tired, mmm?"

I just shrug, "Long day, that just seems to get longer by the feel of it." Is all I say, Tris walks inside the apartment, Four signals me to go first. Well no turning back now.

I walk inside to the apartment, I look around, it only has the furniture that was necessary but that's all one needs right? How you expect us to know? You haven't had it for 3 years remember? I just shake my head a little.

"What's wrong?" Four asks noticing my head shaking. I just shrug, that when he asks the next question, "So why won't you go to the infirmary? Is it a fear?"

I tilt my head at the question, I dilemma the question, well no I don't have a fear of hospitals but I do have a fear of people thinking me a weak when they see my wounds. I decide on my answer, "Yes and no."

"Nothing is ever easy with you, is it?" Tris asks, with her arms folded, it wasn't in a snappy or rude way, but it feels that way.

"No, it isn't easy, but since you are so curious, no I am not afraid of the infirmary, I just don't need people to know my business. I don't want people looking at me differently." I sigh deeply, silently cursing myself. Why? Why would you say all of that? I think to myself which I seem to get a reply from the voice, because you want your brother to know what he made happen. I shake my head again, looking up to see Four looking at me through eyes that seems to be trying to read me.

"Why would anyone look at you differently?" He questions.

Really? He of all people should know why they probably would, I just fold my arms, staring at him, "What you want me to admit, to confess or something? So you can go spread around how weak I am? How I ran away from my own pain? When no one has no idea, what it is like?" I ended up bursting out, yelling, tears were stinging my eyes. What? I haven't cried in years, why now? Why in front of him?

"Whatever is said in this room stays in this room, you have our word." He replied calmly, though he seemed surprised against my outburst.

I sighed deeply putting my head in my good hand, I gulp hard, I walk up to Four holding my hands out, "Take them off." I order him, his eyes harden by how I order him, but he slides both off at the same time though he was more careful of my left broken hand.

They both gasp at what they saw, I look away towards the door, I couldn't face either of them, nor could I face my hand anymore. My good hand turned into a fist as I am angry at myself for crying right now.

Tris stood stunned, Four moves to make me look at him, "Hey, its ok, you aren't weak, you having this and being able to hold yourself and someone from falling, that doesn't make you weak, it makes you even stronger than the rest of us."

I just nod, he smiles a little, he points to the sofa, "You might want to sit down for this. I don't want you to fall down."

I couldn't help but smile a little, "It ok, I know the pain." I curse myself again. Might as well tell them the whole bloody thing.

"What happened?" Four asked me, I froze, he wants to know, I can't tell him, not here, not now, I not in front of Tris.

Luckily Tris hissed, "Four!" at his rudeness.

Four smiles nervously, "Sorry, Eli. Just wanted you to know we are here to talk to, we aren't just harsh instructors that we will seem like tomorrow and whenever you are with the other initiates." He talks away, I know he is trying to distract me from him fixing my hand, but I can feel him clicking my fingers back into place.

He expected me to scream, I think Tris did too, because they just stared at me. I act stupid, "What? is my hand all fixed? Damn Tob-Four you're good at talk distracting." I am mentally hitting myself right now, why would I do that? He has changed his name for a reason, to get away from the past.

Now he was staring at me, he has a lot of emotions behind those eyes, relief, joy and most of all questions "Umm, I…I should probably leave." I stutter making my way to the door but his hand slams against the door as I start to open it, the door slams shut.

"You're her aren't you?" He questions hardly, I look over at Tris to see her completely confused.

I couldn't lie to him anymore, "You'll have to elaborate Four."

Four's hand goes into a fist next to the door, "He done this too you didn't he? The one you save me from? Marcus; he done it, didn't he?" he is nearly shouting, like it is all my fault.

To answer his question, I just spoke the words I told him all those years ago "You are not alone, never forget that."

His face relaxed, he pulls me into a hug, "I was so scared that I would have gotten you killed, I didn't even know you existed I am so sorry, I was so confused when I heard your voice, and he talked about a basement. You were so brave. Did you get this from when you protected me?" he gently touches my face scar.

Well, he didn't need me to tell him anything, I am surprised he remembered anything, why would he? "Yeah, but it ok, not your fault."

Four lets me go I feel his eyes run up and down me, "What are you to me? why were you in my basement?"

Tris was extremely quiet during this, probably completely confused, praying that I am not an ex-girlfriend or something.

I look down at my hands, I am so nervous that he is going to reject me just like our father did, "I'm…I'm your sister Tob-Four."

I find the nerve to look up to see him smiling a little, "You're my sister? Your only 3 years younger than me?"

"Ahh…no." I answer, it was his turn to be completely confused. "I am 15. There is a 4-year difference between us."

"Then how are you here? How did you get to choose a year early?" He questioned. I look at him, he seems so confused about the whole concept.

I couldn't help but smirk at his confusion, "I umm, well there was no records at all of me ever being born, I tried plan A and it failed so plan B wait to make records, I had to get away soon, he…" I stop to look at Tris, not knowing if I can trust her.

Four follows my gaze, "You can trust her Eli, she knows everything, plus she is my fiancée, she is practically family."

I look at Four and nods, I trust his judgment, "When you left…please don't hate yourself…I don't hate you, I am proud you left, I am so happy that you left, I would have hated it if you stayed because of me... he took all my furniture out of my apartment, he turned the water off down there, he fed me only once a week. He…he kept me tied up, he would come home from work, beat me till he went for food, after food he would be drunk and he beat me some more."

I feel Four freeze next to me, "Eli I am so sorry, I should have never left, I am so sorry. I understand if you hate me." he paused a moment, "What was your punishment for saving me?"

I look up at him shocked, his eyes were full of rage and anger already, I just shake my head, "It doesn't matter, that is in the past." I take his hand gently, "Please, don't, you are already eating yourself up, I don't want you to. I don't want you hurting because of me."

Four's eyes grew softer, his eyes are watering, "But you were hurt because of me, it must have been bad; which is why you are not telling me, please tell me, let me deal with it my own way. Please Eli. Just tell me, what your punishment was." His voice is a plea, it is the voice that kills me, like it is pained. Which is probably is after hearing all of this.

I gulp hard and sigh deeply knowing it would affect him more if he doesn't know what happened, "Promise me you will not do anything stupid or reckless."

Four looks at me, his mouth was working as if thinking what he should answer, "Fine, I promise I won't do anything stupid or reckless, just tell me."

"He stabbed me… twice…he was going to kill me. If Andrew Prior didn't show up I would be dead." I answer, I just hug him hoping it would be a little bit comforting.

There were two choices at once talking to me then; "Show me." and "My father?"

I look at Tris first, "If your father is Andrew Prior, then yes he saved my life that day without even knowing it." Then I turned to Four and shook my head, "I…I can't I don't feel comfortable, I'm sorry. I have already shared so much; I wasn't even supposed to tell anyone not even you. I wasn't going to, then that stupid Ryan came and ruined it all for me."

"You…you weren't going to tell me?" Four looks hurt, and pained. I mentally hit myself again, I am so not good with words, I need more social time to get used to this talking and when to lie and when not to. How to speak kinder.

"I don't know, I didn't plan that far, I didn't exactly think I would find you the first day of initiation." I explained truthfully. My stomach rumbling seems to save me.

Four frowns deeply, "When was the last time you ate?" he asked with his voice full of worry and concern.

"Sunday." I automatically spoke, "Sunday was the day I got fed." It feel good to get it all of my chest, knowing I could talk to them.

"What? It's Saturday! Come on, let's go get you some food." Four says then heads towards the door then stops, "Your hand will need to have a hand support." He walks to a draw pulling out a hand support, he slid it on my hand and tightened it. He has my glove in his other hand, I slide my hand in the glove. I look at my right hand, luckily the support meant it was covered from the eyes.

He opened the door for me and Tris, I start walking ahead until I realise I have clue where I am going. "Ahh." Four and Tris laugh at me before walking ahead to the hall, they open the door for me, there was a loud cheer as Four and Tris stand aside and everyone sees me.

I look at Four full of confusion, he just shrugs and whispers, "Probably because you're a hero…again." I look down, I don't really like the attention. I walk to sit down at an empty table that didn't really stay empty for long. Zeke was at my side, with Marlene, then Uriah arrived, soon the table that was once empty was fully by all of Zeke's friends, even Four and Tris sat with me.

"Eli what you done was so awesome! Everyone knows what happened, Ryan is out already, everyone is keeping an eye on you to be best ever initiate. I mean saving our great Tris on your first day, holding on for…I don't know let's work it out…Marlene how long did it take you to find Four and myself?"

Marlene thought for a moment, "Around 7 minutes. how would I know you would still be near the net?"

Zeke chuckles at Marlene's frustration, "Fair enough, it took us around 4 minutes to get to the chasm, plus 2 minutes for Four to deal with Ryan, then another minute to pull Tris up, then a minute for you. So add all of that up and you held on for 15 minutes. Plus, you were carrying more than just your weight, which is pretty impressive. How are you so strong?" Zeke questions, it was obvious he wanted to know my secret. Though it really was no secret.

I lie obviously I am not going to tell them all that when your beaten all your life you learn to endure pain. That is all that those 15 minutes were, I just shrug, "Adrenaline rush maybe? It stopped me from feeling the pain, that or when I was talking to Tris it calmed me down, or I forgot about it when talking to her."

Four helps me out by shrugging, "Could have been, it has been known to gain incredible strength when adrenaline is pumping."

Then I hear a voice that isn't one of Zeke's friends, in fact it is a leader, "Eli, looks like I am going to have to keep an eye on you. you seem to be our top initiate already and the training hasn't even begun. You are for sure one of the best stiff's we have ever head."

His eyes move to Tris, "How humiliating, being saved by a transfer initiate from Abnegation."

"Not really." I answer him, my arms folded across my chest, stubbornly.

"How not, stiff?" Eric question, I don't understand that nickname but it doesn't bother me I was called 'girl' all my life so why would stiff affect me?

"It doesn't matter who saved her, it could have been anyone, I just happened to be the closest to her." I feel someone kicking me under the table probably telling me to stop but carry on, "You know you probably shouldn't judge a person just by the clothing they wear. I am probably stronger than you are." I get a much harder kick from under the table. I know who it is now. Four.

Eric laughs, "You think you are stronger than me?"

Four seems to answer for me, "Excuse her Eric, the adrenaline is probably still pumping in her veins."

"No that seemed to be a challenge." Eric replied folding his arms. "I challenge you to a strength match."

Four looks at me warningly, but I couldn't turn down now, he would think I am weak and that I fear him which I do not. "What is the match?"

"Who can stay dangled from the chasm the longest?" Eric speaks confidently.

I smirk and nod, I can do pull up for hours, what is a few merely minutes dangling from the chasm? "Fine, when?"

Everyone is looking at me stunned. Even Eric is shocked; I am pretty sure I can see sweat on his head right now. He tries to cover it up by sounding confident, or trying to I can see right through it. "tomorrow before training."

Eric turns to look at Four, "What time is training?"

Four looks at Eric and shrugs looking bored, "8:30 after breakfast." He is glaring at Eric for being stupid and challenging an initiate.

"Great, you can skip breakfast, see you at the chasm at 8." Eric smile evilly though I can see the fear in his eyes. This is his reputation on the line not mine, I have already shown people what I can do. If I win then I will show them that we seem to have a weak leader; that needs lessons on how to judge people because he doesn't seem to have a clue what he is doing.

I just shrug, looking unnerved, I am pretty sure I am looking bored too, I am not too sure though "Meet you there." Eric walks off, his hands are clenching open and shut that means his hands are sweating, I am proven correct when he wipes his hands on his trousers.

I turn my attention to see that everyone is still staring at me as if everything thinks that I am stupid. "What?" I question, not liking everyone's looks. They are so judging as if I didn't just show them what I could just do.

Four though is furious, "What do you think you are doing? Are you trying to get in trouble or something?" I know why he is angry, he just finds out he has a sister and he now has to watch her dangle herself of the chasm for a stupid strength test. I couldn't help but feel hurt though, he should know that I am strong by what he has been though that pain gives strength.

I frown deeply, hating that everyone is underestimating me, underestimating my strength, my abilities, I have trained for over a year for this.

I glare at Four before I know it I am yelling at him and the others, "He is underestimating me, he doesn't know my strength, hell none of you do. So stop looking at me like I am weak! For God sake, none of you even know me so why are you so quick to judge? What is it because I was from Abnegation? Then remember this, I am not there anymore, I am here, this is my home now. If I want to accept a challenge, then I fucking will. I am the only one that knows my own strength!" I push my plate to the centre of the table, I only had a few bites but that is all I need to survive.

I stand up and walk out the food hall, to find the initiates in the pit. I walk towards them to see what they are doing and get to know them a little bit better.