As usual, this Kurt chapter is short. I mean, what can we expect? Karofsky has short-circuited his brain.
I don't own Glee. Just lots of love for, and dirty ideas about Dave.
Chapter 10 – KURT POV
I had been waiting for a weekend at Blaine's. I knew the invitation was coming soon and I had been planning. I had written down all of my outfits for the weekend, from what I would wear on the ride there, to what I would change into for the evening, to the pajamas I would wear to bed. I had created the list of ingredients I would need for the meals I would cook. I had planned a menu for the entire weekend.
So much for best laid plans.
I never thought he would attack me at school.
For some reason, I thought I was safe at school. How could I have thought that? He had kidnapped me from my own home. Why did I think school was safe? I knew better than anyone that predators outnumber teachers in high school. Of course I wasn't safe at school.
But, I still hadn't expected it. At least, now I knew. I understood that I really belonged to him. Just like he had said. He owned me. He had proven that Friday morning. He could take me whenever and wherever he wanted. My home, school. No place was safe.
And now, I was going to endanger Blaine. I'm such a selfish bitch. Going to Blaine's house meant the monster might show up there. After all, I didn't know when he would need me to...satisfy his hunger. If he wanted me and found out I was there, he would come looking for me and Blaine would try to stop him and he would kill Blaine.
But, wait?
Maybe Blaine was right. I could protect him from the monster. If I stayed quiet and kept feeding him, maybe he would leave Blaine alone. He always promised he would leave Blaine alone if I just did what he wanted. So, if he came looking for me this weekend, it would be okay. I would just let him take me. I would feed him until he was satisfied. After all, what choice did I have? He owned me. Besides, Blaine was alone this weekend. He would be safer if I were with him, just in case the monster's jealousy got the best of him and he decided to attack.
So, yes Blaine, I will go home with you. I'll protect you. I'll keep you safe and while I'm protecting you, I'll get to be with you. To see your beautiful face. To feel you near me. To feel you touch me. I'm so glad you still want to touch me. You won't want to be near me, much less touch me if you ever find out what the monster has done to me. It's like he said, "who wants sloppy seconds?" And that's what I am now. His stench is all over me. My mouth tastes like him. I'm worthless, used and dirty. And, I belong to him. He owns me and I am trapped. But, you don't know that and, as long as you don't know that, you will still want me. And, I want you to want me Blaine. Oh, do I want you to want me. I will make sure you never, ever find out what the monster has done to me and made me to do him because, if you find out, you will leave me. You won't love me anymore and I'll have no one else but the monster to love me and his love...hurts.
Dave has really done a number on Kurt. Hang in there Kurt because in the next chapter, Blaine learns the truth...