So this is a short chapter and I'm sorry! But I kind of wanted a chapter that's fixed on their conversation, and there you have it. Enjoy :D
Chapter 10
I hated myself. I hated myself that I allowed her to do this to me once again, to make me cry. And I hated her, for making me fall in love with her so hard. What's the deal with you Shay Mitchell? Why do you keep on doing this to me? But I fixed myself up, dried my tears, and headed back to work. It's going to be a long day.
Shay's POV.
Seeing Ashley was harder than I imagined it would be. She wasn't okay, at all, and I could see that. I was the reason behind it. If only I can make things right again, but I can't. I seriously had the nerve to ask her how she's been doing, God I'm so stupid! How are we supposed to be civil around each other when we can't even have a hello-how are you conversation? I didn't like the situation, and I may have blew it with being Ashley Benson's lover, but I wanted my best friend back, and I'm willing to do anything for that.
During shooting, I could tell the girls felt a tension between us because we're usually always laughing and joking around together. I would catch her staring at me every now and then, and she would do the same. Why do things have to be so damn complicated?
I wanted to talk to her, I needed to talk to her. But will she even listen? Well, never know until you try right? So after shooting, I followed her to her trailer to talk to her.
"Ash, wait up please." I said, calling her from behind
She simply turned around, not even bothering to reply.
"C-can we talk?" My voice barely coming out as a whisper
"What's there to talk about?" She started walking away again
"Ashley please don't do this?"
"Don't do what?"
"Walk away from me. Please, give me a chance to explain."
"Explain? Explain what? You had months to explain. I waited for months, for a visit, a phone call, for a simple fucking text! But nothing. And now you suddenly want to explain? No thanks."
I couldn't argue with that, she was 100% right.
"I know. I know Ashley, I messed up, big time. And I'm not asking you to forgive me, I'm just asking you to listen."
"Okay, go ahead, enlighten me." She stopped her tracks and crossed her arms
"I made a mistake. What I did to you was unfair and not only did I lose you as my lover but I lost you as my best friend. And I can't handle that Ash, I can't lose my best friend. I know I don't deserve to be in your life anymore, I don't even have the right words to explain what I did. But what I want for us Ashley is to start over."
"You want us to pretend like nothing ever happened?"
"I'm not saying that because that's not even possible. But I wanna start a new page with you Ash, as your best friend. I'm sorry for all the hurt and pain I caused you, I'm sorry for every single tear you shed because of me, but you have to know that I was shedding them too, even though it may not seem like it. I'm sorry Ash, I just want to be your friend again." Tears were easily pouring down my cheeks, and even though she may not want to show it I could tell she wanted to cry as well.
"I d-don't know. I don't know Shay, being around you already hurts."
"And I want to change that, I promise."
"O-okay. Friends." She gave me a weak smile
"You mean it?"
"Yeah I do. Besides, Benzo kind of missed her Buttah." Damn that girl can easily make me smile. So I leaned in and gave her the tightest hug ever.
"I missed you too. So much."