Changing Directions Chapter 10: So 2O00 and Late, a glee fanfic

I was currently in my dressing room about to go on set for the show. My first shot was going to be in a swimsuit. I was playing a freshman it made think back to when I was a freshman.

2008

I was about to start my first day of high school. I wasn't sure what to where, or when I wanted people to know. My mom still didn't even know. I was currently in my room, dancing and singing along with the radio while I began to get dressed. My hair was a solid brown.

Boys call you sexy and you don't care what they say
See every time you turn around they screaming your name

Now I've got a confession when I was young I wanted attention
And I promised myself that I'd do anything, anything at all for them to notice me

But I aint complaining
We all wanna be famous
So go ahead and say what you wanna say
You don't know what it's like to be nameless
Want them to know what your name is
Cause see when I was younger I would say

When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies
When I grow up I wanna see the world drive nice cars I wanna have groupies
When I grow up be on TV people know me be on magazines
When I grow up fresh and clean number one chick when I step out on the scene

Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it
You just might get it, you just might get it
Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it
You just might get it, you just might get it

I see them staring at me, ooh I'm a trendsetter
Yes this is true cause what I do, no one can do it better
You can talk about me cause I'm a hot topic
I see you watching me watching me and I know you want it, oh

"Are you ready to go, Faith?" Mom asked me as she opened my door. I was wearing a pink tank top and a long black skirt because I wasn't sure who I wanted to be just yet. I knew that things would change as soon as I told people. I was not sure if I was ready for that yet.

"Yeah, I am." I replied as I headed downstairs. I grabbed a bagel before we went to her car. She drove me to McKinley High.

"I'll be here after school to pick you up." She replied before I walked inside the school the first thing that I did was crash into someone. That wasn't a good way to start my high school career.

"I'm sorry." I apologized to her. I looked her over and saw that she was this beautiful blonde. I was a bit mesmerized to be honest. "I'm Faith."

"Lucy." She answered. "No wait Quinn…definitely Quinn."

"Is it Lucy or Quinn?" I asked her in confusion.

"It's Quinn." She answered with a smile. "So are you a freshman too?"

"Yeah, I like your dress." I told her. It was a blue sundress.

"Thank you." She replied. "So I was gonna try out for cheerleading after school. Do you want to come with me?"

"I don't I would look good in a cheerleading uniform." I replied. "But I would like to be friends with you."

"I'd like that." She replied before walked off. It was then that I saw Puck. He was my best friend since childhood.

"Got yourself a new lady?" He questioned. He was also the only one who knew that I was gay.

"A new friend." I corrected. "I see you made the football team."

"I'm going to be QB one in no time." He told me.

"I think you've been watching too much Friday Night Lights." I told him.

"So are you sure that you don't like guys, because you could be my Julie Taylor?" He asked.

"Yes, I'm sure." I responded. "I'm not quite sure how I'm going to come out."

"Well you should see if you can find some other gay kid and ask them how they did." Puck suggested.

It was a few months later that Quinn and I were in the locker room together with no one else. She was taking off her clothes and I couldn't help but take a look at her.

"You're staring." She told me.

"Sorry." I apologized as I looked away.

"Are you a dyke?" She asked me.

"I don't like when people call it that." I responded. "I hope you don't hate me or anything. I still want to be friends with you."

"I don't want to be friends." Quinn replied before she kissed me. "Well I don't want to define it right now. Let's just figure out what this is."

Hurry up and wait, so close but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste, but you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance , in your face the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated getting all kind of impatient
Waiting we live and we learn

To take one step at a time, there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why, one step at a time

When you can't wait any longer but there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger, the only way we get there
Is one step at a time

Take one step at a time, there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why, one step at a time

"You have a really beautiful voice." I told her. "How long should we take to figure this out?"

"As long as it takes." She replied. "I don't want to tell about it until we know and I still might not want to tell anyone after that. My family is a bunch of conservative Christians and they probably won't take well to it. I think maybe we should go on a date tonight, maybe at the movie theater or something."

"Okay." I agreed. I would be happy to have a girlfriend, even if I had to keep her a secret. "Can we see Twilight? I'm really interested in seeing if it's any good."

"Well I have to make sure that my parents don't find the ticket, because they freaked out when I wanted to see Harry Potter." She explained.

"Wow you're parents sound like they suck." I commented. "I probably shouldn't have said it like that."

"No, it's okay." She told me. "I'll admit that they're very strict, but it's what they believe and I do love them."

After we were done, I went home. My mom's new boyfriend Darren was there with his guitar.

"Hey kid." He greeted me. "Do you want to sing something with me? I learned to play a new song."

"Sure, I guess." I replied as he began to play. I knew this song. I knew that Mom always liked it when we sang together but it showed that we got along.

Looking back at the beginning of this and how life was
Just you and me and love and all of her friends, living life like an ocean
But now the curtain's only pulling me, it's getting harder to breathe
It won't be too long till I'll be going under can you save me from this

Cause it's not my time, I'm not going
There's a fear in me and it's not showing
This could be the end of me and everything I know
But it's not my time, I'm not going
There's a will in me and now I know that
This could be the end of me and everything I know
Ooh but I won't go, I won't go

There might be more than you believe
There might be more than you believe
And there might be more than you can see

But it's not my time, I'm not going
There's a fear in me and it's not showing

This could be the end of me and everything I know
But it's not my time, I'm not going
There's a will in me and now it's gonna show
This could be the end of me and everything I know

There might be more than you believe
There might be more than you believe
And there might be more than you can see

But I won't go, I know I won't go down
Yeah

A few months later, Quinn and I were still going out in secret. It was March now and I decided that I knew what I wanted and I needed to talk to her about it.

"So I want to come out and I would really appreciate it if you did too." I told her.

"You can, but I can't." She replied. "This has been fun, but I can't be like this. I don't want to be like this. Come out if you want to but I need can't let people know about me or any of this. I'm sorry."

I sighed. I wasn't going to bring her out with me because I did like her. I guess I would be doing this by myself. The first thing that I did was go to the hair salon.

"I want to get some streaks in my hair." I explained.

"What color do you want?" The stylist asked me.

"Blonde." I told her. "I don't really want highlights. I want streaks. I want it to look like I might be a natural blonde."

"This might be expensive." She told me. I didn't care about the price. I knew what I wanted.

After I was done, I went home and saw my mom.

"What did you do to your hair?" She asked me in shock. "Did you do this for a boy? Faith you shouldn't have to change yourself to get guys to like you."

"I didn't do it for a guy, Mom." I responded. I decided that I should just let it out. "Mom, I don't like guys. I like girls. I'm gay."

"Oh." She responded like she didn't know how to react. Well I guess that was better than a bad reaction. She then grabbed me and wrapped me in a hug. "Is it for a girl then?"

"No, it's for me." I explained. "I'm starting to figure out who I am and this is part of it."

The next day, I decided to highjack the intercom system. I was going to do this in style.

"Okay, so I know that not a lot of you know me." I stated. "My name is Faith Hudson and I am interrupting your announcements to declare that I am gay. I like girls, so deal with it."

Things didn't go smoothly at first, one of the football players decided to try to cross me and I wailed on him. It seems like I was the one that got in trouble for someone else's bigotry. Coach Tanaka had a solution for me, though. Apparently I wouldn't be suspended if I spent some time with one of his players. I was given an address to go to after school. I knocked on the door.

"Hello, I'm looking for Sean Fretthold." I told the woman.

Towards the end of the year, I finally found Quinn after not having seen her in two weeks.

"So are you just not going to talk to me anymore now that I am out?" I asked her.

"I told you that I don't want to come out." She explained. "We can't be a couple, Faith."

"You make me so angry sometimes." I told her before I started to sing.

I probably shouldn't say this but at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it, it's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain, and nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear my dear

The 7 things I hate about you, the 7 things I hate about you oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure, you love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make cry I don't know which side to buy
Your friends are jerks, when you act like them you know it hurts, I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do: you make me love you

And compared to all the great things that would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levis, when we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry, but I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined and everything's alright I wanna be with one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do: you make me love you

"You love me?" Quinn asked. "I love you too, but I'm so scared of people finding out. I just can't let anyone know about this. I want to be with you. I'd really like if you did too."

"Okay, we'll continue to sneak around until you're ready for this." I agreed. "So what's your favorite song?"

"I'm pretty sure that it's 'One Step at a Time'." She answered. "What's yours?"

"It's called 'I Will Be'." I told her.

"The Leona Lewis song?" She questioned.

"No, she ruined that song. It's the original by Avril." I told her. "It's not available for download in this country unfortunately."

Present

After I was done filming for the day, I went to go and meet Quinn in the hotel room. It was a good thing that sent a jet for me, because Avvie probably wouldn't have gone well on a commercial flight. She cried a lot.

"So did you have fun?" Quinn asked me as she looked at our sleeping daughter.

"Yeah." I replied. "I was thinking about freshman year earlier."

"That was a completely different time." Quinn stated. "So I heard this new song today and I got the words so I can sing it with you."

I'm feeling distracted and likewise attracted
To all the things that you let me know, all the things I can't let go
You're waiting for friction, this empty addiction
That's forcing me to intervene let's break out of this scene

I know I am not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let go
I can watch the world pass by just as long it's you and I
You and I

We watch the world go by, but if it's you and I then we will never die no we can never
We watch the world go by but if it's you and I then we will never die

I know I am not alone
I am the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let go
I can watch the world pass by just as long it's you and I
You and I

So I hope you enjoyed this look back. The songs in this chapter are "When I Grow Up" by The Pussycat Dolls, "One Step At A Time" by Jordin Sparks, "It's Not My Time" by 3 Doors Down, "7 Things" by Miley, and "You and I" by Secondhand Serenade and Cady Groves. Please don't forget to review.