A/N: I'm sooooooo sorry about the delay. Sadly, that is how its going to be for a while. School begins Monday, I'm stage managing a show, and I just got a new job.
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Chapter 10: No Regrets
Ginny sighed as she glanced up at Snape sitting at the head table next to some horrid looking woman in a god-awful pink dress. Harry was seated next to her, his hand laying on the table as he ate, almost as though her were willing her to hold it. Ron and Hermione were across from the pair, smiling and laughing as they caught up with Neville and Seamus, the latter of which refused to speak to Harry.
Ever since the night in his rooms just a week earlier, Ginny had found it nearly impossible to keep her mind off of Severus. The man had, sadly, taken his leave the following day so that he could move back into the school and make preparations for the new school year.
Though she would never admit it, Ginny longed to feel his hands upon her again. She dreamt of it every night. As hard as she tried to push her feelings away, they just persisted more and more.
"Do you lack brains completely?" Snape barked at a second year in the hallway who had run right into him upon turning the corner.
"I-I'm s-sorry, Professor..."
"Stuttering problems too? Perhaps you're just a complete waste of space!" he growled.
The small boy looked down so the intimidating professor could not see the tears rolling down his face.
"Perhaps you should leave him alone...Professor," a voice spoke from the shadows.
Snape growled, recognizing the voice. "10 points from Hufflepuff," he said to the boy. "Get out of my sight."
The boy scattered quickly.
Severus looked around. "Come out, Ginerva," his voice was dangerous.
"Was that really necessary?" Ginny asked, as she stepped from the shadows.
"How dare you speak to me like that...especially in front of a student..."
Ginny flinched, slightly, fear entering her chest.
"Relax...although, you do deserve detention for talking to your professor like that."
Ginny bit her lip and nodded, knowing he was right.
"Why are you so near the dungeons anyway?" he asked, smirking.
"Honestly?" she asked.
He nodded.
"Well...I've been thinking about...the other night," she said, her face going red.
Severus smirked. "I see..." he said as he began walking towards the dungeons. "What, precisely, were you thinking of?"
Ginny followed him slowly down the hall. "You know..."
"I do not..." he countered.
Ginny rolled her eyes. "In your room..."
"I might recall something. What about it?" he asked.
Ginny sighed. "You're a pain in the arse...you know that, right?" He said nothing so she continued. "Well...I want to...uh-again..."
"I'm your professor," Severus began. "It's inappropriate."
Ginny scowled as he used her own words against her. "I don't care!"
"Why the sudden change of heart?"
Ginny shrugged. "I've found myself becoming...quite attracted to you..." she admitted
"I don't want you to mistake what happened for something it is not."
The girl shook her head. "I'm not stupid. I know you only want sex out of...well, whatever this is."
"Go on..." he said, though he inwardly flinched at her harsh words. Was he really so callous?
"I just...well, most of the girls my age have mentioned that they've...already shagged someone...I just...well, I suppose I'm behind..."
"You want to use me?" he mocked as though she had hurt his heart.
She rolled her eyes as he led her into his office, closing the door behind them. "No...I just...I figured...I want to...lose it...my V-card"
Severus faltered. "Excuse me? You're what?"
Ginny flushed. "My virginity..."
"V-card? How eloquently put. Does everyone refer to it as such?"
Ginny nodded. "Pretty much," she said.
Severus nodded, mumbling something about dunderheads.
"Well, I figured...I might as well lose it to someone I find...quite attractive."
"What of Potter?" Severus asked.
"H-he's like my...brother...I could never see him as anything else."
Snape scoffed. "I've never seen siblings attached at the mouth as you and Mr. Potter were in the garden."
Ginny frowned. "I do like him, but...I don't know...I just...I want it-need it, to be you."
Severus nodded slowly, pondering her words. How easy it would have been for him to take her in that moment. "Aren't you acting a bit rash?" he asked. "Since when have you wanted to do something just because everyone else is doing it?"
"I-I don't know...the girls are always talking about how amazing it is," she began. "And...well, I know how amazing you made me feel..."
Severus stared at her. "I frighten you," he stated.
"Not always," she said, knowing there was no use lying to him.
"But I do frighten you...do I not?"
Ginny nodded.
"Then why would you ever want to...shag, as you put it...me?"
"I don't know," she said, honestly. "I just know how I feel..."
Severus closed the distance between them, watching Ginny's eyes go wide as she attempted to back away. "Does fear turn you on?" he asked, his hand sneaking under her skirt. Sure enough, her panties were soaked. "You little masochist."
Ginny looked down, ashamed.
"Ah, ah," Snape lifted her chin, scolding her for the action. "Do not feel ashamed." He kissed her lightly. "Everyone has their quirks."
Ginny smiled shyly as he took her hand and led her through his office and into his private rooms. She looked around. They were, surprisingly, quite homey. His common room area was well furnished with large couches and many bookshelves. Ginny immediately headed for a door she assumed was his room.
Severus watched her. She was terrified; that much was obvious. He just couldn't figure out why she was so insistent on sleeping with him. Slowly, he followed her to his room, shocked to find her sitting on the edge of his bed, unbuttoning her white school shirt.
He moved forward quickly, stilling her hands as he kissed her soundly, his tongue sneaking into her mouth to battle with hers. He pushed her back she so she was laying against the pillows and kissed her again.
It had been several moments before Ginny pulled away from the kiss, gasping for air. She bit her lip, begging to unbutton her shirt again. Snape stopped her once more. "I'm not going to fuck you..."
Ginny frowned. "Why not? That's what you've wanted all this time, isn't it?"
Severus shrugged. "I suppose."
"Then do it..."
"You don't, truly, want this, Ginerva."
"I do," she said, breathless.
"But not now..."
"Why are you so resistant?"
"I do not want you to regret it," he said, sincerely.
Ginny nodded slowly, tears building in her eyes. "I wont," she lied.
"You will..."
"I want this...with you."
"But not yet," he added.
Ginny bit her lip and shook her head, admitting the truth both to him and herself. "Not yet," she repeated, tears slipping from her eyes.
Severus kissed her and wiped her tears away. "Don't fret. I'm sure we can find something to do..." he teased.
A/N: I have NO idea where I'm heading with this to be honest. Please give ideas if you have them. Hopefully, I'll get another chapter up while I'm sitting at home being blown away by Irene. Heading to our barn early in the morning to prep the horses and goats then home to bunker down. Everyone on the East Coast, stay safe. It's gonna be a doozie.
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