The next few chapters and Epilogues (there will be three) are all very short so going forward I'll update this week Monday - Friday, next week Monday - Thursday and lastly the three Epilogues will post Monday the 22nd - Wednesday 24th.
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Chapter Ten
~Emotional Whiplash~
IPOV
My emotions kept going from hurt to anger then back to hurt again. I was having emotional whiplash. How could he have said those things to me? How could he just walk out on me again? For someone who was forty years old, he'd acted like he was twelve.
When I had no more tears left to shed. I decided to pull myself together and go for a run. I always felt better after a run. I changed my clothes, put on my sneakers, grabbed my mp3 player and walked outside. I took a deep breath, and then started to run.
Usually, the music and the feeling of pushing my body was all I felt when I ran. Today, my mind was in overdrive as I relived every moment with him, every word, every smile, and every intimate moment. The memories almost brought me to my knees; I stopped and tried to catch my breath. Realizing it was no use, I turned around and ran back home, trying to figure out exactly why I had let my guard down and let him into my heart. I was not that girl. I wouldn't crumble because of a man. Right?
The rest of the night was spent submersed in my pain. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw him. The knowledge that I may never see him again crushed me. What if he showed up again? What would I do? Would I forgive him? Could I ever trust him not to run again?
I finally fell into my bed, both mentally and physically exhausted. I hoped and prayed that I would wake up tomorrow and find out that today had just been a horrible nightmare.