A NEW EXPERIENCE, P10

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters

Warning: Contains Allusions to Femslash

A/N: All Human, Alternative Universe, Seriously? Not one review when over 100 hits on the last chapter??? Come on guys! Please, Please don't hate me for this chapter, I really felt it needed to be done.

JPOV

"Jasper, what's going on with you lately?" she demanded one day as we were relaxing on the couch. I feigned ignorance. "Jasper?" she questioned, pulling my head around so she could look me in the eyes. I refused to meet her gaze though; I was not even sure what she'd see if I did. "Jasper, you've barely spoken to me these last few days, you pull away from our kisses, you won't have sex with me, and I want to know the reason." I knew my silence was frustrating her but I was scared of what I would say if I spoke, I cared deeply for Alice and didn't want to hurt her.

She sighed "Jasper, look at me." she commanded. Minutes passed and she continued to stare at me, waiting for me to meet her gaze, I finally looked up "now tell me what's causing this." she said gently.

The words began spilling unwillingly from my mouth "Am I not enough for you Alice?" I asked quietly.

I could see she was taken aback "Jasper, you are everything I ever wanted and everything I'd ever needed in a guy."

"Is it the sex?"

"What? No, our sex life is normally amazing."

"Normally?"

"Well for some reason every time I've tried to initiate something with you since your birthday you refuse."

"Jasper, for heavens sake would you just tell me what's really wrong?" she cried out in aggravation

Without thinking I muttered "You and Rose."

"Me and Rose??"

"Why do you need Rosalie?" I asked "If I'm everything you need why do you still need her?"

"Where is this coming from, I thought we were past this?" she asked quietly, ignoring my question and sinking onto the couch next to me.

I made up my mind to be honest with her "I what you to leave Rosalie, move out if you have to."

"No." she answered without hesitation. I felt my temper rise

"So you won't even consider it?"

"Jasper, you knew from the start that my relationship with Rose was a non-negotiable point." she said firmly

"Is it the sex?" I repeated my earlier question "I saw how she pleasues you…I could do that if you prefer, I just thought you liked what I did."

I nervously glanced at her and watched as her anger built "How could you, after two years together, possibly think my relationship with Rose is only about sex?" she demanded and I could see I had deeply offended her.

I sighed, I knew it was deeper than that – that was the problem "I know its more than that." I admitted

"Then why even say it?"

"Because I've convinced myself for so long that it was only about the sex between the two of you, that she could do something for you I couldn't because she was a girl but everything she did for you I could've done if you had asked."

"Jasper, you're not making any sense, of course she gives me things you can't, both sexually and otherwise, but that doesn't change anything between us."

"Alice, when I saw you with her the other day I realised a part of you, one I didn't realise you had, belonged to her and I couldn't stand it – I want all of you and I will never get all of you whilst you're still in a relationship with her." I explained, baring my soul

"Jasper, that part of me will always belong to her whether we're together or not, just as a part of me will always belong to you. I'm sorry but I'm not willing to give Rose up."

I could feel the rejection in her words and knew she would never leave Rose for me, that no matter how much she cared for me she cared for Rose more. I knew it from the moment I had seen them together like that the other night, their connection was so much more I was surprised I had never picked up on it. With that discovery I had realized something else, it was not their relationship that was based on sex but ours. She had Rose to take care of her physical and emotional needs and I could no longer see why she would need me. I felt as though I was an intrusion on their relationship.

I couldn't go on like this, sharing Alice with the blond beauty. I made a decision "Then I guess its over." I said quietly

"What?" the disbelief was strong in her voice, I couldn't look at her, hating myself for causing her pain.

"Alice I'm done sharing you and we both know you will never leave her for me."

"So that's the end?"

"That's the end." I said quietly as I quickly made my way out the door before I broke down, I knew this was for the best but it still hurt like hell. What was worse is she had given me an out over two years ago and I had said no – I would be the mature guy who could handle sharing her, I had thought but now I realised how impossible that was.

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APOV

I sat on the sofa not fully comprehending what had just happened. I couldn't understand why now, after two years Jasper suddenly had a problem with my relationship with Rose. Maybe him watching me and Rose had not been the best idea but I still couldn't see why not, I mean he knew we did it so that wasn't anything new and he was definitely turned on by it so where was the problem coming in?

I was broken out of my revere by the sound of the door opening. I immediately put on a smile, I did not feel like talking about it yet. Bella and Rose entered, returning from a lecture. "Hey." I called

My attempt at nonchalance was apparently in vain though because Rose as by my side in a flash "What happened?" she asked quietly, Bella lingered by the counter watching us, clearly not sure if she should be there or not. I turned back to Rose and took a deep breath before admitting "Jazz and I broke up."

They both had matching looks of confusion. "Why?" asked Rose.

I just looked at her. As the realisation hit her she sat a little straighter before murmuring "Us."

I nodded mutely

"but, I thought…" she trailed off

"So did I."

I could see she was about to say more but I cut her off "Rose, I really don't want to talk about it now."

She seemed as though she was going to argue before thinking better of it and squeezed my arm reassuringly before getting up and going into her room for which I was grateful.

I was left with Bella and rose to go to my own room. I was by the door when she said quietly "Alice, I know I'm not Rose, but if you ever need to talk…"

I turned and smiled sadly at her "Thanks but right now I just need some time." She nodded in acceptance and I retreated to the privacy of my room.

I'm feeling really generous and decided to give you another chapter – that's three in two days!!! So in return could you please review? I really want to know what you guys think, did I make the right choice with Jazz? I personally love Alice and Jasper in general and most of my stories are about them but I couldn't see a way for it to work out with them when Alice was already so close to Rosalie so I wondered if he would also feel he had no place in her life. I'm debating whether or not to make this a permanent thing or to bring him back and I really want to know your opinions so Review, Review, Review!!!!