The characters are very OCC in this chapter, but it will all get better, promise. Enjoy!

"You tell them." He whispered in my ear. I nodded, looking at Esme. I want her reaction first. If she doesn't look to happy, I know this will be a bad idea.

"We're going to try for another baby." I smiled. The room fell silent as I waited for their reactions.

New baby?

The room was deathly silent as I stared at Esme. Her reaction will mean the most and I need to see it first. Her eyes stared back at me, a look of shock on her face. I was about to tell Edward that this was a bad idea when Esme smiled. This time I was shocked. She smiled?

"That's amazing," she beamed, coming over and hugging me, being careful of baby Connor sleeping in my arms.

"It is?" I found myself asking after she pulled away and hugged her son.

"Of course it is, silly. Another baby! How exciting." Esme suddenly reminded me of Alice because of the way she said that.

Everyone nodded in agreement, all but my big brother figure. He was standing in the corner, arms folded and glaring at Edward. Taking Connor with me, I went over to Emmett. He removed his eyes from Edward and followed my movements. I didn't say anything, just stood next to him. I soon felt his arm wrap around me, pulling me closer.

"Are you happy for me, Em?" I asked. He sighed, blowing out a long breath.

"I don't know Bells. Why so sudden?" He looked down at me and I looked at Connor, avoiding his gaze.

"Edward wasn't there for Emily's pregnancy. He deserves to be a father, the whole way." I tried to explain. I do want another baby, but I agree with Emmett. This is too sudden. Emily is only two and I am still new to my job. If I take maternity leave, I may lose it.

What if Emily doesn't think we love her anymore because we will have a new baby in the house? She may get jealous and hate the new baby. What if Emily wants to be an only child? What if she will resent me for having another baby when she is older?

Emmett noticed the worry on my face and squeezed my shoulder. I smiled before passing Connor to him. I left the room, leaving behind the excited talking and going up to my room. I fell onto the bed and rolled onto my back, staring at the ceiling.

I can't help but think that I'm not ready for another baby. Emily is a handful without a new addition on top of that. I know I need to do this, because I didn't let Edward be apart of my pregnancy with Emily. I always have and always will be ashamed of myself for doing that.

But if I was to have told Edward, he would have told the rest of the Cullen's and I would have been harassed all the time, just like Rosalie was. She would always moan to me about how Alice would ring, or how Esme would fuss over her, or how Carlisle would talk medical to her all the time.

"Mama!" Emily yelled from downstairs. Hearing her voice brought a smile to my face. My angel is all I need, but Edward wants more. If I was to say no, I would feel terrible. If I say yes, I can't help but feel like it is too soon after Emily. My body isn't as flexible as it was before – I won't be able to bounce back.

"Mama, Where you?" Emily yelled. I chuckled and got off the bed. Going downstairs, I saw my little girl sitting by the gate at the bottom of the stairs. I opened it and scooped her up into my arms. She giggled as I swung her around and threw her in the air. I caught her and cradled her to my chest. She squirmed, trying to get down but I tickled her which made her laugh some more.

"Hey baby," I cooed. She smiled her toothy grin at me, making my heart swell. I carried her into the kitchen where everyone still was talking. Edward looked up and beamed at me as I entered. The way he looked at me was like he had just won a prize. Like I was what he had just won. I smiled back, trying to look convincing for his sake.

He patted Emmett – who he had just been talking to – on the back and came over. He placed a gentle kiss on my lips and another one on my forehead.

"I love you," he whispered. I nodded.

"Love you too," I replied. He took Emily and placed her on the floor, following her as she walked into the living room. Everyone else followed, leaving me and Esme alone in the kitchen. She fluttered about, doing anything that she saw needed doing and humming to herself. It was a very motherly thing to do, but it suited Esme perfectly. She is the epitome of a housewife and mother but that's what makes her, her.

I helped her tidy the kitchen, eventually moving into the rest of the house. She sped through it all and offered me a kissed cheek when we had finished. I joined everyone else in the living room after the house was clean. Rosalie was asleep, her head resting against Emmett's shoulder with baby Kelly in her arms. Jasper and Alice were both cooing over Connor while Edward sat on the love seat, Emily playing with his bronze locks.

I took the empty seat in the corner of the room, watching the scene play out. Nobody has noticed me yet – thank heavens – so I just sat silently. Alice looked up after a minute and caught my eyes. She smiled before looking back to Jasper and kissing him gently.

"We're all growing up," she declared after they pulled away from each other. Rose opened one eye and glared at Alice for waking her up.

"No shi..." She trailed off, eyeing Emily on Edwards lap. "Duh," she corrected, rolling her eyes. A giggle escaped my lips, making everyone look my way.

"Oh, hi Bells," Emmett said. I smiled back. Edward called my name and I looked over at him. He patted the empty space next to him, indicating that he wanted me to sit there. I inwardly sighed and walked over, plonking down on the comfortable love seat. He wrapped an arm around me, pulling me closer.

"My girls," he breathed, hugging both Emily and I tightly. I smiled and breathed in his scent. I would never get tired of it.

"Mama not girl," Emily informed him, rolling her tiny emerald eyes.

"What is she then?" He asks, fighting back a grin.

"Wem-man," She nods, as if telling us the reason for life. I raise my eyebrow at her.

"Is that so?" I ask. She nods once, a confidant look on her face. I smiled and grabbed her, pulling her onto my lap. I tickled her sides while Edward tickled her feet. Soon she had tears running down her flushed face, filling the room with her adorable laughter.

We stop tickling her and she pouts before climbing off my lap and running into the kitchen. I raise an eyebrow at her retreating form as she runs but I don't say anything, knowing Esme is in the kitchen.

"We should head off," Emmett tells us, breaking the silence. Rosalie grunts in acknowledgement before snuggling into him more. I smiled at the sight. They are just so perfect for each other. Emmett takes Kelly from Rose's arms, placing her into the carry car-seat. Alice does Connor as Emmett picked Rose up, carrying her to the car.

He comes back in and picks up Conner while I follow along with Kelly. He straps both of them into the back of the car and turns to me, pulling me into his arms. I sniff quietly and hug him back.

"If you don't want to do it, tell him. This is a big decision; don't hate yourself for making it," he breaths into my hair. Hearing this makes my eyes fill with tears. You know something is important when Emmett acts smart. He kisses my forehead before pulling away and getting into the car. I wave as he pulls out of the driveway and drives down the road.

I stayed outside for a while after that, thinking and wiping away the falling tears. Emmett is right. This is a big – no, huge decision. I will have to live with the consequences for the rest of my life.

The next day.

I rolled over and stared at the Greek God lying in bed next to me. His tousled bronze hair was messed up from sleeping. His eyes shielded by his eye lids and his mouth slightly open. One arm is trapped underneath me and the other is laid across his toned stomach.

I smiled to myself as I traced the planes of his stomach with the tip of my index finger. He shivered and batted my hand away. I giggled and moved it out the way so he didn't hit it. When he put his hand back down I carried on with my tracing. I soon got to his pecks, tracing the indents from the muscles.

I looked up at his beautiful face to find him staring down at me. I blushed at being caught but didn't remove my hand from his chest – over his heart. I could feel it beating as I laid my palm flat on his warm skin. The pounding was like a drum, vibrating against my soft palm.

"Morning," he mumbled, rolling over and pulling me to him. I gladly went, letting him wrap me in his embrace.

"Good morning," I sang back.

"Definitely," he smirked and rolled me onto my back. He hovered over me, placing kisses all over my neck. I moaned and tossed my head back, exposing my neck to him. He bit down hard, making me whimper before he came up and found my lips with his. I knew the bite would leave a mark, but I couldn't find it in myself to care at this moment in time.

"So, I was thinking," he started, resting his forehead against mine. I nodded, silently telling him to continue. "We could start the baby making as soon as possible," I frowned.

"How soon?" I found myself asking. He smirked, and I bit my lips at how sexy he really is.

"Now," he growled, capturing my lips with his. He kissed me with passion that I didn't return. He noticed and pulled back, looking me in the eyes. "What?" He asked. I sighed and climbed out from under him, then walked over to my dresser. I pulled out some clean clothes and pulled them on silently. "Bella?" He asked again.

I heard his movements as he came over, holding me from behind. He kissed along my neck, making me smile slightly. I truly do love my husband.

"Please tell me what's wrong," he begged. I groaned.

"I don't want another baby." I hid my face in my hands, not wanting to see his hurt look. He pulled my hands away, coming to stand in front of me.

"But you told me you did." He didn't sound angry or hurt, just confused. I groaned again.

"Because I didn't want to hurt you." I admitted. I let my eyes meet his emerald green orbs. They were filled with an emotion I had never seen in his eyes before. Anger. I took a step back from him but he followed me, grabbing my wrist to keep me in place. I whimpered as he squeezed.

"You lied to me," he growled. I was about to defend myself when he cut me off. "You lied," he yelled, grabbing the lamp from my dresser and throwing it at the wall. It hit with a bang and fell to the floor, smashing into a million tiny pieces. "You said you didn't want to hurt me, well guess what? You have!" He screamed in my face. I felt the tears in my eyes fall at his words.

I could hear crying from down the hall and I knew who it was instantly. Emily. I pulled my hand out of Edward grip and moved to the door. Before I got too far away, he gripped my arm. I stopped walking and turned, glaring at him.

"Let me go," I said in a calm voice. He didn't, tightening his grip to prove his point. "I said let me go!" I yelled, struggling against him. "My baby needs me." I spat. He let go of me like I had burned him. I fell to the floor, landing with a thud against the hard wooden flooring. I got to my feet again and left, not looking back at Edward.

Emily was stood in her cot, red faced and tears everywhere. When she saw me she sniffed and held her arms up, wanting a cuddle. I picked her up and held her to me, my back to the door.

"Mama!" She wailed, grabbing fists full of my hair and crying into it. I tried to soothe her and it worked eventually. When she stopped crying, she was silent, sniffing against my shoulder every now and again.

"Happy birthday angel," I whispered in her ear. She pulled back and smiled really big at me. I turned towards the door and gasped. Edward stood there, glaring at me. His arms crossed tightly over his chest as I walked towards the door, towards him.

"Excuse me," I asked quietly. He didn't move. I sighed and asked again. When he didn't move I barged past him, holding Emily to me tightly. He followed me and grabbed my arm, turning me to face him.

"Give her to me," he said. I shook my head, knowing he wasn't in any state to hold a baby right now. "I said now!" He yelled. I heard a door open from down the hall and pulled Emily closer.

"Go see nana," I whispered, putting her on the floor. She ran to Esme while I stayed, looking at Edward. He was glaring daggers at me. I knew I should have kept quiet. I had to ruin this for him.

"I'm sorry," I said quietly, my voice a whisper.

"It's not enough," he spat. I nodded and walked past him into our bedroom. Of course, he followed shutting the door behind him.

"Can we please save this till tomorrow? It's Emily's birthday." He shook his head 'no'.

"I want you to leave," he told me, looking at the floor. More tears sprang to my eyes.

"Where am I going to go?" I asked in disbelief. He shrugged. I know I can't stay – this is his mother's house. If I go to her I know she will take his side. After all he is her son. I grabbed my purse and Emily's changing bag.

"Emily can stay, until you find somewhere to live," he mumbled. My chest started to ache, a pain running through my heart. I nodded and put her bag down, silently leaving the room. I went downstairs and into the kitchen. Esme sat next to the island, feeding Emily her breakfast. I kissed Emily's head and silently put her present next to Esme.

I didn't say goodbye, knowing it would be too hard even if I would only be gone for a few hours. I know Edward will get over this and call me, begging me to come back. He always does when we argue.

I left the house, tears streaming down my cheeks. I have nowhere to go and no-one to talk to. The Cullen mansion has always been my home. Since my parents died and I sold their house, that has been my home.

Suddenly an idea came to me and I walked down the street. I came to the house I was looking for and knocked. I only had to wait for a few seconds before the door opened. I wiped my eyes before looking up.

"Bella?" The person asked. I nodded.

"Can I come in?" I asked, my voice thick with unshed tears. They nodded and moved out the way, allowing me to enter.

So, where do you think she is? The person to guess right will be mentioned in my next chapter : )What do you think of angry-ward? Sorry about the wait, but this is a very long chapter.

Thanks for reading.

Twi-girl09

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