~ Kitten's ~ Angel ~
sequel to 'kitten'
by
Alexia Goddess
Chapter Ten
Did you ever wonder...
"Have you ever wondered why you weren't erased along with DragonRage
Epion and Sirus's body?" Kitten asked of the young woman sitting next
to her on the edge of the railing of the balcony.
Angel looked up at the midnight sky and sighed as she thought.
"Sort of," Came her answer. "Only once, really."
"Did you come up with an answer?"
"Sort of," Angel tipped her head to once side and looked down at her
feet, dangling over the railing high above the rose gardens.
"I think it's because...well, I think it's because I'm still needed.
Time is wierd like that. It's like it has a mind of it's own; it does
what it needs to survive."
"Sounds almost human," Kitten mussed. Angel nodded.
"But that kinda scares me..." Angel said. Kitten smiled grimly.
"Me too," She sighed. "Me too. I just hope that if Time DOES have a
mind of it's own, it wasn't modeled after a human's; humans make too
many mistakes."
"I don't think Time can make a mistake," Angel said. "Too much depends
on it. But then again, if me still being here is part of what depends
on Time not making a mistake, it frightens me to think of why I'm still
needed here in this timeframe."
"I think I know why..." Kitten smiled softly. Angel gave her an
inquisitive look.
"What is it?" Angel asked. Kitten looked at the young woman that was
supposed to be her future daughter.
"I think you're here because *we* need you." Kitten told her. "You're
a part of something Angel. We all are. Even the people that will no
longer exist because of the time change, they were part of something.
And in a way, they *did* exist. They were just born and killed in a
different way than most of us. They served a purpose, they had feelings, and hopes and dreams. Sirus didn't, because he was dead, and
neither did your Gundam."
"So your saying I'm still here because I'm alive?" Angel asked.
"Because there are people here who...love me?"
"That's exactly what I'm saying." Kitten smiled, then shrugged. "Who
knows?" She said. "Maybe all my reasoning is just a bunch of nonesense,
but then again, people used to consider the notion of the earth being
round nonesense, too."
Angel shook her head. "I've gotten too used to thinking like a teenager
again these past few months," She said, reaching over and placing her
hand on Kitten's swollen belly. "All this philosophical speaking is
giving me a headache."
Kitten laughed. "I know what you mean," She said, placing her hand over
Angel's on her abdomen.
"Where do we stand?" Angel suddenly asked.
"Huh?" Kitten blinked. Angel took her hand away and looked up at the
bright, full moon, the moon that only a few months before had shrouded
the entire planet in darkness.
"What sort of relationship do we have? I mean, I know you can't and
never will truly think of me as a daughter, especially not with your
real daughter coming, and I don't expect or want you to try. You're a
different person than the mother I knew and grew up with. And this
baby will never be me, even if we do share the same DNA code. Don't
get me wrong, I would never change things back to the way they were,
but all the same I need to know what you consider me."
"What do I consider you?" Kitten repeated. Angel nodded.
"I know you love me and care about me, but how far does that love go?
Am I a niece, a cousin, a sister, what?" Angel looked at Kitten. "Who
am I to you?"
Kitten looked up at the moon, thinking. What did Angel mean to her?
She was right about one thing; they would never share a *true* mother
daughter relationship. They were more like...like sisters. Big sister
and little sister. And yet Angel still held too much respect for Kitten
to call it a sibling relationship. Was it more...? Yes, that sounded
right...
"Angel, you're like...like a niece who's close enough to my age to be
my sister." Kitten said after a moment. "I'd call us a niece and aunt
who are close enough to be called siblings, and yet different enough
to stay seperate."
Angel seemed to appreciate Kitten's honesty, and nodded.
"That sounds right," The girl said. Silence enveloped them once more,
daughter-and-mother-would-have-beens, staring up at the moon.
"I'm sorry," Angel said after a moment, fingering her 'Angel' bracelet.
"What ever for?" Kitten asked, genuinely confused. Angel's lips
quirked. Despite being older, Kitten would forever stay young and
naive.
"For...for betraying you like I did." Angel's voice was soft.
"Oh," Was all Kitten said. She paused for a moment, then, "Apology
accepted," She said. Angel blinked in surprise. She had been dreading
the 'oh, no, it wasn't your fault, it was completely understandable,
blah blah blah.' But now she smiled. She knew what she had done was
unacceptable, unexcusable, and just plain wrong, and even though at
the time she had been willing to comit one of the greatest crimes their
was, murder and suicide, all in one blow, she had believed it nessecary.
She didn't want pardon or to be excused or people to assure that she
had done the right thing. No, all she wanted was forgiveness, and now,
as Kitten took her hand and gave it a squeeze, and the former
Shinimejenya smiled at her, Angel realized she had that, and so much
more.
"Can I ask you something?" Kitten asked after another bout of
comfortable silence.
"Anything," Angel said with a smile, which Kitten mirroed.
"Are you happy here?"
"What?" Angel blinked in surprise.
"Are you happy here, with us?" Kitten repeated. Angel looked down at
the fountain below and blinked, thinking. After a moment, she nodded.
"Yeah," She said. "Yeah, I am. It's funny...I haven't been happy, truly,
really happy in such a long while... But yes, I am happy here."
"You'll get bored soon," Kitten told her.
"Huh?" Kitten laughed at Angel's expression.
"I recognize that at least in you from my own self," Kitten told her,
smiling. "You've been a war commander for the past seven years olf your
life. Plus it's in your nature to keep going, to explore, to insist on
being useful. I was -and still am- the same way. Oh, you'll enjoy the
peace for now, but after a while you'll start getting itchy feet again."
"I never thought about but, yeah, I guess I will," Angel sighed. "What
do you suggest?"
"What makes you thikn I have a suggestion?" Kitten's face was blankly
innocent and Angel rolled her eyes and gave her would-be-mother a look.
Kitten laughed and shook her head.
"You truly are of my own flesh and blood," She said. "Very well. The
reason I ask is that Miss Noin -you remember her from my wedding photos?-
informed Relena, who mentioned it to me, that they're recruiting
Preventor cadets this summer. Zion and Zephra are signing up. I know you
probably won't want or need to for at least another year, but I thought
I might mention it to you. You could try one of their training camps and
see how you like it."
"I'll consider it," Angel nodded, her expression thoughtful. "It sounds
like something I'd like. Not now, of course." She grinned. "You're right;
for now I am just enjoying the peace."
"Let's hope it lasts," Kitten sighed.
"Oh, don't talk like that," Angel told her. "You've got a baby coming!
Be positive!"
Kitten laughed.
"Yeah," She said. "I guess I should be. Just these pessimistic mood
swings, I guess." She yawned. "Axis is probably waiting up for me."
Kitten said. "I should get to bed."
"So should I," Angel grinned. "I promised Sirus I'd take him to the lake
today."
"You two are so cute together," Kitten told her as Angel turned, putting
her legs on the inside of the railing and jumping down to the safety
of the balcony. She put her hands on Kitten's shoulders to help her
down.
"I just want to make sure he grows up happy...I don't want him to deal
with what my Sirus grew up through." Angel said, her voice and demeanor
sad and depressed. Kitten slid off the rail with Angel's assistance,
wincing as her back gave a twinge of pain. She put a hand on Angel's
shoulder.
"Hey," She told her. "Sirus would have ceased to exist either way. This
way, he died for a cause, *and* you got to see him one last time."
"I know..." Angel said. She opened her mouth to say something with
further depressing results, when Kitten laid a finger over her lips.
"Don't," The older woman said. "I've been down that road, and believe
me it leads nowhere except pain, suffering, hurt, and further suffering
to those who love you.'
"Sorry," Angel said, looking sheepish and suppressing the sadness in her
eyes for Kitten's sake. "It's just..."
"Hard, I know," Kitten told her, hugging her around the shoulders and
steering her inside. "But such is life, and life *does* go on."
"I know..." Angel smiled slightly . "I'm so glad I have you and Axis...
*Uncle* Axis, and the guys. I don't know what I'd do without them..."
"Me neither, Angel," Kitten told her, glancing at a photo on a table as
they passed through Angel's living room of the suit Relena had given her.
Kitten smiled at the photo of her, on Duo's back, piggy back style,
arms lifted in truimph with a baseball cap on her head, and one of those
blow up fingers in her hand. A baseball staduim was behind them, and
Heero, Wufei, Quatre, and Trowa on her left and right, all showing their
own subtle, unique signs that they, too, had been enjoying themselves.
Kitten's smile widened as she looked away from the photo, remembering
that day fondly.
"Me neither," Kitten repeated. "Me neither."
To Be Continued....
I hope this cleared up some stuff that needed clearing! All that's left
is the Epilogue! *tears* Don't worry! I promise to make it good! Ja ne,
all!!!!!
Smile More, Dream Always,
Alexia Goddess
*STANDARD DISCLAIMERS APPLY*
sequel to 'kitten'
by
Alexia Goddess
Chapter Ten
Did you ever wonder...
"Have you ever wondered why you weren't erased along with DragonRage
Epion and Sirus's body?" Kitten asked of the young woman sitting next
to her on the edge of the railing of the balcony.
Angel looked up at the midnight sky and sighed as she thought.
"Sort of," Came her answer. "Only once, really."
"Did you come up with an answer?"
"Sort of," Angel tipped her head to once side and looked down at her
feet, dangling over the railing high above the rose gardens.
"I think it's because...well, I think it's because I'm still needed.
Time is wierd like that. It's like it has a mind of it's own; it does
what it needs to survive."
"Sounds almost human," Kitten mussed. Angel nodded.
"But that kinda scares me..." Angel said. Kitten smiled grimly.
"Me too," She sighed. "Me too. I just hope that if Time DOES have a
mind of it's own, it wasn't modeled after a human's; humans make too
many mistakes."
"I don't think Time can make a mistake," Angel said. "Too much depends
on it. But then again, if me still being here is part of what depends
on Time not making a mistake, it frightens me to think of why I'm still
needed here in this timeframe."
"I think I know why..." Kitten smiled softly. Angel gave her an
inquisitive look.
"What is it?" Angel asked. Kitten looked at the young woman that was
supposed to be her future daughter.
"I think you're here because *we* need you." Kitten told her. "You're
a part of something Angel. We all are. Even the people that will no
longer exist because of the time change, they were part of something.
And in a way, they *did* exist. They were just born and killed in a
different way than most of us. They served a purpose, they had feelings, and hopes and dreams. Sirus didn't, because he was dead, and
neither did your Gundam."
"So your saying I'm still here because I'm alive?" Angel asked.
"Because there are people here who...love me?"
"That's exactly what I'm saying." Kitten smiled, then shrugged. "Who
knows?" She said. "Maybe all my reasoning is just a bunch of nonesense,
but then again, people used to consider the notion of the earth being
round nonesense, too."
Angel shook her head. "I've gotten too used to thinking like a teenager
again these past few months," She said, reaching over and placing her
hand on Kitten's swollen belly. "All this philosophical speaking is
giving me a headache."
Kitten laughed. "I know what you mean," She said, placing her hand over
Angel's on her abdomen.
"Where do we stand?" Angel suddenly asked.
"Huh?" Kitten blinked. Angel took her hand away and looked up at the
bright, full moon, the moon that only a few months before had shrouded
the entire planet in darkness.
"What sort of relationship do we have? I mean, I know you can't and
never will truly think of me as a daughter, especially not with your
real daughter coming, and I don't expect or want you to try. You're a
different person than the mother I knew and grew up with. And this
baby will never be me, even if we do share the same DNA code. Don't
get me wrong, I would never change things back to the way they were,
but all the same I need to know what you consider me."
"What do I consider you?" Kitten repeated. Angel nodded.
"I know you love me and care about me, but how far does that love go?
Am I a niece, a cousin, a sister, what?" Angel looked at Kitten. "Who
am I to you?"
Kitten looked up at the moon, thinking. What did Angel mean to her?
She was right about one thing; they would never share a *true* mother
daughter relationship. They were more like...like sisters. Big sister
and little sister. And yet Angel still held too much respect for Kitten
to call it a sibling relationship. Was it more...? Yes, that sounded
right...
"Angel, you're like...like a niece who's close enough to my age to be
my sister." Kitten said after a moment. "I'd call us a niece and aunt
who are close enough to be called siblings, and yet different enough
to stay seperate."
Angel seemed to appreciate Kitten's honesty, and nodded.
"That sounds right," The girl said. Silence enveloped them once more,
daughter-and-mother-would-have-beens, staring up at the moon.
"I'm sorry," Angel said after a moment, fingering her 'Angel' bracelet.
"What ever for?" Kitten asked, genuinely confused. Angel's lips
quirked. Despite being older, Kitten would forever stay young and
naive.
"For...for betraying you like I did." Angel's voice was soft.
"Oh," Was all Kitten said. She paused for a moment, then, "Apology
accepted," She said. Angel blinked in surprise. She had been dreading
the 'oh, no, it wasn't your fault, it was completely understandable,
blah blah blah.' But now she smiled. She knew what she had done was
unacceptable, unexcusable, and just plain wrong, and even though at
the time she had been willing to comit one of the greatest crimes their
was, murder and suicide, all in one blow, she had believed it nessecary.
She didn't want pardon or to be excused or people to assure that she
had done the right thing. No, all she wanted was forgiveness, and now,
as Kitten took her hand and gave it a squeeze, and the former
Shinimejenya smiled at her, Angel realized she had that, and so much
more.
"Can I ask you something?" Kitten asked after another bout of
comfortable silence.
"Anything," Angel said with a smile, which Kitten mirroed.
"Are you happy here?"
"What?" Angel blinked in surprise.
"Are you happy here, with us?" Kitten repeated. Angel looked down at
the fountain below and blinked, thinking. After a moment, she nodded.
"Yeah," She said. "Yeah, I am. It's funny...I haven't been happy, truly,
really happy in such a long while... But yes, I am happy here."
"You'll get bored soon," Kitten told her.
"Huh?" Kitten laughed at Angel's expression.
"I recognize that at least in you from my own self," Kitten told her,
smiling. "You've been a war commander for the past seven years olf your
life. Plus it's in your nature to keep going, to explore, to insist on
being useful. I was -and still am- the same way. Oh, you'll enjoy the
peace for now, but after a while you'll start getting itchy feet again."
"I never thought about but, yeah, I guess I will," Angel sighed. "What
do you suggest?"
"What makes you thikn I have a suggestion?" Kitten's face was blankly
innocent and Angel rolled her eyes and gave her would-be-mother a look.
Kitten laughed and shook her head.
"You truly are of my own flesh and blood," She said. "Very well. The
reason I ask is that Miss Noin -you remember her from my wedding photos?-
informed Relena, who mentioned it to me, that they're recruiting
Preventor cadets this summer. Zion and Zephra are signing up. I know you
probably won't want or need to for at least another year, but I thought
I might mention it to you. You could try one of their training camps and
see how you like it."
"I'll consider it," Angel nodded, her expression thoughtful. "It sounds
like something I'd like. Not now, of course." She grinned. "You're right;
for now I am just enjoying the peace."
"Let's hope it lasts," Kitten sighed.
"Oh, don't talk like that," Angel told her. "You've got a baby coming!
Be positive!"
Kitten laughed.
"Yeah," She said. "I guess I should be. Just these pessimistic mood
swings, I guess." She yawned. "Axis is probably waiting up for me."
Kitten said. "I should get to bed."
"So should I," Angel grinned. "I promised Sirus I'd take him to the lake
today."
"You two are so cute together," Kitten told her as Angel turned, putting
her legs on the inside of the railing and jumping down to the safety
of the balcony. She put her hands on Kitten's shoulders to help her
down.
"I just want to make sure he grows up happy...I don't want him to deal
with what my Sirus grew up through." Angel said, her voice and demeanor
sad and depressed. Kitten slid off the rail with Angel's assistance,
wincing as her back gave a twinge of pain. She put a hand on Angel's
shoulder.
"Hey," She told her. "Sirus would have ceased to exist either way. This
way, he died for a cause, *and* you got to see him one last time."
"I know..." Angel said. She opened her mouth to say something with
further depressing results, when Kitten laid a finger over her lips.
"Don't," The older woman said. "I've been down that road, and believe
me it leads nowhere except pain, suffering, hurt, and further suffering
to those who love you.'
"Sorry," Angel said, looking sheepish and suppressing the sadness in her
eyes for Kitten's sake. "It's just..."
"Hard, I know," Kitten told her, hugging her around the shoulders and
steering her inside. "But such is life, and life *does* go on."
"I know..." Angel smiled slightly . "I'm so glad I have you and Axis...
*Uncle* Axis, and the guys. I don't know what I'd do without them..."
"Me neither, Angel," Kitten told her, glancing at a photo on a table as
they passed through Angel's living room of the suit Relena had given her.
Kitten smiled at the photo of her, on Duo's back, piggy back style,
arms lifted in truimph with a baseball cap on her head, and one of those
blow up fingers in her hand. A baseball staduim was behind them, and
Heero, Wufei, Quatre, and Trowa on her left and right, all showing their
own subtle, unique signs that they, too, had been enjoying themselves.
Kitten's smile widened as she looked away from the photo, remembering
that day fondly.
"Me neither," Kitten repeated. "Me neither."
To Be Continued....
I hope this cleared up some stuff that needed clearing! All that's left
is the Epilogue! *tears* Don't worry! I promise to make it good! Ja ne,
all!!!!!
Smile More, Dream Always,
Alexia Goddess
*STANDARD DISCLAIMERS APPLY*